1. AT THE BACK OF BEYOND

Your rigid eyes stare into gloom
I’m pouring out my grief to you
Should I escape?

Nothing but silence where I stand
Just a slight light at the end to pretend
I could escape

White walls coming closer and closer
Absorb my words without response

I am your guide out of the dark
At the back of beyond
I hear your cries although they’re gone, they are gone

Strain to scream my heart to you
From my lips no sound escapes
Just light from the moon... a twilit cry...

Trying to pick the better side
Stay in darkness, chase the light
Am I wrong, or am I right?

Painful sun is touching your face
A single ray may recall you to life!

I am your guide out of the dark
At the back of beyond
I hear your cries although they’re gone
Through the night, out of the dawn
I am by your side, but you are still alone

I am your guide out of the dark
At the back of beyond
I hear your cries although they’re gone
Through the night, out of the dawn
At the back of beyond
I am by your side, but you are still alone


2. THE SECRET

I seek the earth, these timeless tranquil waves
That have since turned to dust, an endless phase
I carry with me a heavy heart of stone
That belongs deep inside the place for which I mourn

Beyond love, beyond lust, beyond art
This constant yearning beats inside
More than my own craving heart

This muse of passion stealing my restless soul
Senses intoxicated take its toll...
Heaven meets Earth with dusk’s dark kiss
Taste my love within this chalice
It torments the inner artist

Devoted reverence for the most beautiful dream
Becomes reality out of the faintest gleam
Worlds come closer with the touch of your fire
Winding into towers of wordless choirs

Beyond love, beyond lust, beyond art
This constant yearning beats inside
More than my own craving heart

This muse of passion stealing my restless soul
Senses intoxicated take its toll...
Heaven meets Earth with dusk’s dark kiss
Taste my love within this chalice
It torments the inner artist

Beyond love, far above!
Beyond art, you’re the blood of my heart!

Heaven meets Earth with dusk’s dark kiss
Taste my love within this chalice
It torments the inner artist

It torments the inner artist


3. PASSING DEAD END

Trying to tell you what I can't explain,
It's a place, an emotion, a lie.
The loss in your eyes slowly drives me insane,
So upon you I have to rely.

I show you truth as it's meant to be,
Falling to the bottomless, winding sea.

Nothing's as bright as the light
At the end of reality,
Passing dead end.
Feel the absorption of light,
Unlocked with the darkest key,
Still I don't know,
What lies beyond my dream.

I've never seen anything shine so bright,
Never been to that place before.
There is no time and no space left inside,
What I fear is what I do adore.

Now I am what I failed to see
Flying through the bottomless white and see.

Nothing's as bright as the light
At the end of reality,
Passing dead end.
Feel the absorption of light,
Unlocked with the darkest key,
Still I don't know...

Nothing's as bright as the light
At the end of reality,
Passing dead end.
Feel the absorption of light,
Unlocked with the darkest key,
Still I don't know...


4. THE POEM

I’m sitting here in an empty room
I’m writing a poem now to you
It’s time to think about what we had
And when the sun is going down
All my feelings come around
I’m so sorry, ‘cause you’re dead
If I could tell you all the pain I feel
And all the sorrow grows tonight

Why did you leave me here alone?
Why did you leave me on my own?
Was it time we just had borrowed?
Was it our destiny or just my final fantasy?
And I’m left behind in sorrow, and pain...

Smoke and gloom are in the air
And your shades are everywhere
Now I’ve learned the world called dying
I’ll put a rope around my neck
And at last I’m looking back
To give up life is my defense

Do you know another way?
Please come back and tell me how to stay

And... why did you leave me here alone?
Why did you leave me on my own?
Was it time we just had borrowed?
Was it our destiny or just my final fantasy?
And I’m left behind in sorrow, and pain...

These final cries I write for you
All my pain cries out for you
These final tears are shed for you
All my pain cries out for you

And... why did you leave me here alone?
Why did you leave me on my own?
Was it time we just had borrowed?
Was it our destiny or just my final fantasy?
And I’m left behind in sorrow, and pain...

Why did you leave me here alone?
Why did you leave me on my own?
Was it time we just had borrowed?
Was it our destiny or just my final fantasy?
And I’m left behind in sorrow...


5. NOTHING LEFT

Words in my head infest my mind
Things you said, but not defined

Every moment on the run
Up a second, down next one
Your far away reality
Dry your tears, don’t blame it on me

Inside me there’s nothing left for you
Don’t say it’s raining
When there’s no cloud in the sky
Don’t you see sun reflecting in my eyes?

No more pain, no disguise
Drive away the serpents in my paradise

Never care of what you rake
Always praying for your sake
See just what you want to see
Dry your tears, don’t blame it on me

Inside me there’s nothing left for you
Don’t say it’s raining
When there’s no cloud in the sky
Don’t you see in my eyes?
Don’t say it’s raining
When there’s no cloud in the sky
Don’t you see sun reflecting in my eyes?
When you’re away
To end the torment, which you caused
Life dawns in me
Life dawns in me
Don’t waste your tears, don’t follow me

Every moment on the run
Up a second, down next one
Your far away reality
Dry your tears...

Don’t say it’s raining
When there’s no cloud in the sky
Don’t you see in my eyes?
Don’t say it’s raining
When there’s no cloud in the sky
Don’t you see sun reflecting in my eyes?


6. MY DARKSIDE HOME

Blinded by the tears I shed
While pricking my soul with needles from out your eyes
Can’t imagine it’s too late,
I could have seen it coming, now I realize

It’s not what it should be
Drowning in my memories
I’m drowning...
I’m living in my darkside

My darkside home
Light is painting shadows where I used to go, where I used to go
My darkside home
Paper boats on water carrying all my hope, carrying all my hope

What is it you want, what is it you need?
Your steps through my door won’t tell me indeed
Out in the porch I see the path you take is fading in front of me

It’s not what it should be
Blurred edges all around me
I’m drowning...
I’m living in my darkside

My darkside home
Light is painting shadows where I used to go, where I used to go
My darkside home
Paper boats on water carrying all my hope, carrying all my hope

It’s not what it should be
Drowning in my memories
It’s not what it should be
Drowning in my memories

My darkside home
Light is painting shadows where I used to go, where I used to go
My darkside home
Paper boats on water carrying all my hope, carrying all my hope

My... dark... side... home!


7. WING-SHAPED HEART

Glimmer in the night relight the emptiness
Too bright to hide my inner mess

I take what I deserve
I have nothing more to lose
This is my rebirth I search for you

My heart is pulsating like it never was before
I breathe in so deeply
Arouse the wick in me

Leave my crowded chest, soar up into the air
Never come to rest until you find the one who cares
Wing-shaped heart, awake wherever you may sleep
Hidden in my dreams, lose my tongue and let me scream

Roar out my lungs and my soul
I’m back to life and I... will never fall again
I keep my head up high

I take what I deserve
I have nothing more to lose
This is my rebirth I search for you

My heart is pulsating like it never was before.
I breathe in so deeply
Arouse the wick in me

Leave my crowded chest, soar up into the air
Never come to rest until you find the one who cares
Wing-shaped heart, awake wherever you may sleep
Hidden in my dreams, lose my tongue and let me scream
Break the silence of my being

Out of my chest into the air
No time to rest, I am aware
Of what to do and how to take
An endless ride without a break

Leave my crowded chest, soar up into the air
Never come to rest until you find the one who cares
Leave my crowded chest, soar up into the air
Never come to rest until you find the one who cares
Wing-shaped heart, awake wherever you may sleep
Hidden in my dreams, lose my tongue and let me scream
Break the silence of my being


8. RETURN TO YOU

I know not the words to make you stay,
Yet they are engraved on your face.
This secret language, I cannot speak,
Only whisper on the breeze.

My breath, these tears, my cries, all curled up inside.
Haunting apparitions that are hidden to the dark light of day.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

Cruel means took you far away from here,
Yet your ghost has inspired me.

I shall walk in shadows under the sun,
Awaiting your faithful call.

My breath, these tears, my cries, all caught up inside.
Celestial apparitions that are shaded in the dark light of day.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

What once was lost is now found deep inside of your soul
Cry out for me and I will return to you.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

I return to you...


9. THROUGH MY EYES

Don’t confine what is mine, do you hear me?
Never break what I take or you’ll feel me
I’ll come for you tonight when your eyes are shut
The last ride on the wings of your dreams
I’ll clip them on your flight
And you’ll drown in blackness not able to fight

Feeble screams faint with fear
Evil beings – time to sear

Look through my eyes, what do you see?
(Look through my eyes, what do you see?)
A heart that dies, a soul is free
(A heart that dies, a soul is free)
That’s the answer to my plea
(That’s the answer to my plea)
You’ll pay for what you’ve done to me...

Don’t burn what I built, flames awash in smoke
My feelings once enchained by your embrace
Never mess what I cleaned
You’re always poisoning my mind
My memories unrevealed

Feeble screams faint with fear
Evil beings – time to sear

Look through my eyes, what do you see?
(Look through my eyes, what do you see?)
A heart that dies, a soul is free
(A heart that dies, a soul is free)
That’s the answer to my plea
(That’s the answer to my plea)
You’ll pay for what you’ve done to me...

Ties lie broken since I died for you
Ties lie broken now die for me too

Forgotten
Forsaken
Awoken
Dissipated, raging mind

I can’t ease the first for freedom from this answer
My world is full of disbelief and pain

Feeble screams faint with fear
Evil beings – time to sear

Look through my eyes, what do you see?
(Look through my eyes, what do you see?)
A heart that dies, a soul is free
(A heart that dies, a soul is free)
That’s the answer to my plea
(That’s the answer to my plea)
You’ll pay for what you’ve done to me...
(You’ll pay for what you’ve done to me! Yeah!)


10. FLOW THIS DESERT

I got used to the void inside me
Abused by life I’ll fight the emotions used
To tear me down, and lose my ground,
I call for something, someone else,
Something somehow burst my spell.
Crests of waves shall carry me
Far beyond my mind to see

Not yet to fail
Try to prevail...

Flow this desert
Everything grows underneath my feet
Wash away the dust that lies beneath

Can’t remember when or why I left
The desert wipes away my steps
On those dreary, dusty paths – my trial
I’m freezing in the night, expecting morning light
To sear again while waiting for
The shiver washes me away
And now I’m drifting astray
But my way is my destination

Not yet to fail
Try to prevail...

Flow this desert
Everything grows underneath my feet
Wash away the dust that lies beneath

Under full sail to the light
Straight horizon, out of sight
Wash ashore, what I will leave behind
Things I buried in my mind

Drifting astray, but my way is my destination
Illuminate, horizons gate, my path turns red


11. SEVEN SEAS

I try to reach you through this fog of ancient fear
And I’ll return to you one day again, my dear

I made this journey over seven seas for you
And now I found the place
And now, I’ve found the truth

This is the last step to my illumination now
So long just waiting, searching, hoping and finding the way how
On the water in this realm I see your face
A revelation’s done, right moment, right place

Once in a lifetime your dream is your destiny’s way (your dream is your destiny’s way)
And here on the water, this water forever you’ll stay...

Dark waters now await my branded soul
So much done to reach this deep dark hole...

The execution of all gains in my life before
Is now, is then, and will be finally forevermore
No more waiting, searching, hoping, and finding how
As I’ve been told, I will reach your kingdom now

Once in a lifetime your dream is your destiny’s way (your dream is your destiny’s way)
And here on the water, this water forever you’ll stay...

Now I invite you to come to my kingdom with me (to my kingdom with me)
No foretelling futures, through the eyes of the world you will see...