1. MY WORLD

[Verse 1]

I'm not coming back
I'm not gonna react
I'm not doing shit for you
I'm not sitting around
While you're tearing it down around us
I'm not living a lie
While you swim in denial
Cause your already dead and gone
You'll leave me out on the curb
Just like everyone
Else before you

[Chorus]

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need
Always ends up leaving me alone
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world

[Verse 2]

I don't care what you think
I'm not seeing a shrink
I'm not doing this again
I'm not another
Student or a mother
to take your shit out on
So lets see what you got
lets see what you're not
And whatever else you pretend
you've defended my intentions
Long enough

[Bridge]

So here I am again
In the middle of the end
The choice I wish I'd made
I always make too late.


2. PITIFUL

Made the toast
Burned the eggs
Never got the hang of them
Just another other day
Caught the bus
forgot the change
looks like i'll be late again
hopefully they won't complain
My life's so pitiful
Gimme one good reason why I shouldn't end it all
If there's a reason then I haven't found it yet
And I tried every drug I find
Except maybe heroin and cyanide
But there's a reason
I just can't afford them yet
Oh, it's another overdose.
Went to work
Saw you there
But you never seem to care
For a single thing I say
I set my clock and went to sleep
This anxiety I keep
Through another fucking day
Looks like that's all today,
I'm Dying
My life's so pitiful,
Pitiful, pitiful, pitiful, pitiful


3. CANCER

[Verse 1]

Tell me all your plans and I'll laugh back in your face
Preach me your religion if you're dumb enough to pray
I tried to make a change, to get a better way, to make a little more money
I tried to get away to see if I could stay and look what I became honey

[Chorus]

What is it I'm after
Searching for disaster
Watching my whole life flash in front of my eyes
We've been given answers
Still we're walking cancers
Dressed up as a life

[Verse 2]

Get all your news from a corporate company
Trade in your opinion for a gallon of gasoline GO!
I tried to get away to see if could stay
and look what I became honey

[Bridge]

This life
Is a waste of life
this life is a fucking lie!


4. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR

[Verse 1]

I walk the line of the disappointed
I celebrate when I'm in pain
My heart and mind can be disjointed
I built a bed in this hole I've made
I recognize that I am damaged
I sympathize that you are too
I wanna breathe without feeling so self-conscious
But it's hard when the world is staring at you

[Chorus]

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw you arms up you're so damn sick of it
What are you working for?
What are you searching for?
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dying
You'll only be thinking of
What are you paying for?
What are you praying for?
Love

[Verse 2]

You join the line of the getting richer
You keep your pace but it's moving slow
You are defined by all that You have hoarded
But you're surprised it doesn't fill up the hole

[Chorus2]

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw you arms up you're so damn sick of it
What are you coping for?
What are you hoping for?
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dying
You'll only be thinking of
What are you paying for?
What are you praying for?
Love

[Bridge]

I'll never be what I see in the TV screen
I'll just keep on dreaming of what I'm never gonna be
I can't think of a better way to waste my time than try.

[Chorus3]

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw you arms up you're so damn sick of it
What are you hurting for?
What are you searching for?
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dying
You'll only be thinking of
What are you paying for?
What are you praying for?
Love, love, love, love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dying
You'll only be thinking of
What are you working for?
What are you looking for?


5. DELIVERANCE

Waiting for another line
Cause you throw them at me all the time
Gotta get away from all her lies
And I gotta get away from mine

[Chorus]

Tell me where to go
When fate wont deliver
Cause I can't forgive her
When I let her know
This pain I've been living
Will her next collision
Be Me
Bringing situations down
her temper's always on the rise
I'm living what I've seen before
Well, I wont take this anymore
It's time to hold this to the line

[Chorus]

[Bridge]:

Cause her mental prison
Is not my decision
So I'm cutting my losses this time
I ‘m no longer living through her tunnel vision
Tell me where to go
When fate wont deliver
Cause I can't forgive her
When I let her know
This pain I've been living
Will her next collision
Be Me
Gotta get away from,
Gotta get away
Gotta get away this time


6. ALL THE SAME

[Verse 1]

I don't care where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
to fix the twist in you
you've shown me eventually what you'll do.
I don't mind
I don't care
As long as you're here

[Chorus]

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

[Verse 2]

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
For certain
But I have the skill yea I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
How ever long you stay is all that I am
I don't mind I don't care,
As long as you're here.

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes it's all the same
In my life the compromise
I'll close my eyes
It's all the same.


7. TOO MANY WORDS

I've tried to balance these
Lives that we are living
You always feel justified
But you never feel forgiving
I woke up one morning to find myself wrapped in the things I swore I'd never touch
And here I am again
Tryin' to save what's left of you and I
So why aren't you satisfied?

[Chorus]

I reached out
Fell short
Now You're hurt
Too many words
Breaking the silence
I felt it, bled it, screamed it
It only gets worse
And it kills me what's in me's too angry for us to survive
I used too many words tonight

[Verse 2]

I tried to get it right,
But I was just wasting my time
Cause you never compromised,
When it came to our lives
We struggle and fall apart
We build it back to stutter start
The endless accusations
I can't believe we made it this far

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Waking alone tomorrow has got to be better than this.

[Chorus]

Too many words (repeat)


8. HOWARD'S TALE

[Verse 1]

Age 5, Just a little boy shy
Is he ready for the big surprise?
He'll be playing lego in a dream
when the shadows come to life.
Age 9, And he should've been fine
with a secret he's sure to keep
Two times had to tell a little lie
for the sake of him and me
Now its over
I need closure

[Chorus]

Hey! Look what you did to me
When you were taking me home, getting me stoned, leave me alone.
I waited for mum to comfort me
But when I opened my mouth
"Don't say nothing, SHH"

[Verse 2]

Age 12 and it isn't going well, now it's 3 years to the day
Confused, but unlike you this feeling won't go away
16 and the woman down the street has invited him to come inside.
The first time it didn't feel right, it'll be the last time he tries.

[Chorus]

Hey! Look what you did to me
When you were taking me home, getting me stoned, leave me alone.
I waited for mum to comfort me
But when I opened my mouth
Don't say, "Nothing's wrong"
I won't say nothing's wrong
I won't say, I won't say, I won't say, I won't say,
I won't say, I won't say

Verse 3

17, all he's ever seen is living in between the lies.
Its kind of funny how a mind can keep living in denial
18 is a very strange scene, he's still playing with the past
Expelled, maybe someone could've helped if someone had known to ask.

[Chorus]

Hey! Look what you did to me
When you were taking me home, getting me stoned, leave me alone.
I waited for mum to comfort me
But when I opened my mouth
"don't say nothing, SHH"

Verse 4

19 and he's innocently parked right beside a school
He stares at a boy sitting there and the boy stares at him too
He walks over
He needs closure


9. ASSHOLE FATHER

I waited for you yesterday
I waited and missed the last train
I waited to say
That I'd fallen in love with your way
I waited for you yesterday
Eventually walked home in the rain
I waited to see if you felt the same for me
But you don't and you won't
Go against your asshole father
Going broke quitting dope for your folks
Why did I even bother?
Why did I?
I waited for minds to change
Pointed their fingers of blame
It's not my fault you're ashamed
Of how you feel
But you don't and you won't
Go against your asshole father
Going broke quitting dope for your folks
Why did I even bother?
Why did I?
Cause you don't just admit it
Cause you wont just admit it
Just admit it
Just admit it
I called you a whore
And Broke down your door
But you don't even hate me
And how can I heal
When you wont even feel
Why won't you hate me?
But you don't and you won't
Go against your asshole father
Going broke, quitting dope for your folks
Why did I even bother?
Why did I?
But you don't Cause you're nothing but broke
And you're daddies little daughter
Aren't ya?
Going broke, quitting dope for your folks
Why did I even bother?
Why did I?


10. ISSUES

I wanna wake up
I ‘ve been walking in my sleep to long wake up
I'm so sick of dreaming
I wanna slow down
I wanna be part of what is happening around me
Without breathing
Without feeling
Without screaming
So I'm leaving

[Chorus]

I'm consciously unconscious
Why am I filled with hate
I like to blame my parents
I'm sure you'd do the same
Swallow the hurt
Spit out the jerk that's not afraid

[Verse 2]

I turn the page
To a chapter that they thought was just a phase
But it consumed me
Your'e right I am a failure and when my life turns to shit it won't have anything to do with the fact that's all you ever taught me how to do so you can relax!
Without feeling
Without breathing
Now I'm Leaving

[Chorus]

I'm consciously unconscious
Why am I filled with hate
I like to blame my parents


11. ANYWHERE BUT HERE

[Verse 1]

I held onto you for as long as I could but today
You fell away
Now all I hold are the memories we barely made
I stood on the edge of your [Bridge] until I felt the rain
Push me away
My confusion left me as fast as the vertigo came

[Verse 2]

What I believed to be true it was only a dream
That lived in me
I just projected it over your beautiful screen
I self-medicated my way through this mess that we made
So I could stay,
There was nothing but
I waited, I waited

[Chorus]

This was my mistake
Broken are plans we made
So I will be traveling anyplace
Cause anywhere's better than here
Here we rest in piece
Rubble beneath my feet
I shouldn't have followed you anywhere
Now anywhere's better than here

[Verse 3]

Where is this space I can move,
Where can I rest my head
There's nothing left for me here
Its hard to leave behind
The one thing that made me feel alive
So I slide from paranoid to paralyzed
I'm sure you'd do the same
Swallow the hurt
Spit out the jerk that's not afraid
Turn the page

[Bridge]

I've been hiding, drowning,
I've been yawning, starving
I've been feeling nothing


12. THE BOTTOM

[Verse 1]

If you wanna sink to the bottom with me
Come get gotten, reeling and rotten beneath.
One two three and down you go
You'll be smiling before you know
If you wanna sink to the bottom, with me.

[Chorus]

We're all rotten
Buried and forgotten living it up under ground
So take a ride
HEY HEY HEY HEY
You really can't be looking so surprised
If you can't beat them, Might as well eat ‘em
No-ones getting out alive
Give it a try
Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
It really is a wicked way to die

[Verse 2]

Listen my friend to sound of a sweet melody
Doesn't it seem to resound like an old memory.
Screaming and crying we'll have none of that
You had your chance now just sit and relax
Don't you wanna sink to the bottom with me?

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

You'll get used to it in a while
Look at the way each of us smile
You were living a fantasy
This is exactly what you need

[Verse 3]

If you wanna sink to the bottom with me
You're getting real gotten, writhing and rotting beneath
1,2,3 and there you go
Feel that smile just start to grow
If you wanna sink to the bottom
It really is a wicked way, It really is a wicked way,
It really is a wicked way to die
Coda
They're all just so pathetic
Its all psychosomatic
The more they think the more we know
So welcome home