1. MEDIUM BLACK

It shines through my glorious past
The miserable life I've been leading

Trophies of capitalism
Mark my ground

As I march through my
Medium black existence

Feasting on my own utopia
Starving my soul to death
Willingly playing my role
In this soul shattering void
I call my life

Slowly fading from all
Consciousness of who I am
Or what I was
Becoming a numb puppet,
A property of a rule
A model I must fit into
And give up myself


2. LIFELESS

Searching for a life in the wreckage
Of our extinction
For it is a travesty calling our
Existence a life

Looking through our past mistakes with sorrow
And regret
Hiding behind our cultural and personal
Greed and longings

It burns up
Will be laid to rest
It rots
Hell will be up here
It's drowning
Life will be for none
It's bleeding
Lifeless

Left we'll be standing
Like Giger's creations
Alive but soulless

Searching
For our fathers
In the ashes of our creation

No solution
For our problems
There is no easy way out

Lifeless
We are living
Lifeless we are dying


3. BLIND

Fantasizing
Advertising
Sympathizing
Fanaticize

Blind to the world
Standing in front of you
Spitting in your face

True to your beliefs
Blind to the hypocrisy
Playing your part in it all

Feeling better
Proud believer
Healthy karma
Deranged

Dereliction
Where's the need
For real pressure
Deadly need


4. SHATTERED

You woke the light in me
With your constant smile and your sympathy
You brought me back from hell
From were I thought I might forever dwell

I had surrendered
I had given up
There was no point fighting
When the war was lost

There you stood over my broken bones
My shattered soul made of stones
You pulled together my miserable life
Gave me hope from which I thrive

I had surrendered
I had given up
There was no point fighting
When the war was lost

You loved me like your infant son
In the gamble of life I had finally won
You are my life, I need you so
Hold me close, don't ever let go

I'm falling

Instantaneously swept of my feet
Cast to the ground
A making to the crowd
Opened the gates of pain

I suffer
My simplicity
Only brought me
More agony

My soul
Is shattered
Like before
Now I die


5. THE HOLE

In this world of anxiety
I sit in my calmness
Watching the world
Passing by, slowly

Having sat on the edge
Leaned over, fallen
Straight to the bottom
My conscience is dead

I am awake
In this world of fear
God is dying
There is no faith
Chaos is the master
While you struggle for something
To fill the hole
Left in your chest

I feel no urge for searching

Chaos I found my god
Buried deep in my head
I am my god
And there is only one


6. MYTHS

You made me suffer
With your false intentions
Full of lies and deceptions
Keeping me blind
Blind by false beliefs
Feeding me with myths of wisdom

Spinning me a bed of lies

Telling me stories
The facts of life
Educating with your best intentions
For your utopia

Mistold truths
Parts left unsaid
Blanks filled in
With Selfish deeds

Infecting my soul
Scoping my mind

Paths of fiction
Made roads of life

All my life, been living a lie
My beliefs, hollow words
My bliss, not my own
My fear, not my own

My dreams, made of lies
My hopes, built on empty space
My life, a wreck
My world, has fallen apart

It will never be the same


7. FATAL

A life has gone
That to one rule
All things must obey
Never undone

The fate of all life
Destined to end the same
No matter what kind
No matter what size

The one thing
We can say for sure
Despite all we think we know
All must end

It fades
Withers away
Disappears
And is gone forever

Memories of forgotten things
Have no value
What once was
Can never be the same

It doesn't matter
How fast you run
Or were you hide
Life is fatal


8. WAR WITHOUT ENEMY

Fighting
Thoughts in my head
Defeated by my own mind
Struggling for sanity
In my insane world

A war within
My darkened mind
A war without enemy
My struggling self

Feeling
The darkness
Sliding in
Blindfolding me
Imprisoning
Impossible to be
Unable to feel

Binding me
keeping me still
Unable to move
Trapped in my shell

Dark is my sight
Nocturnal behavior
Isolated
Isolating

A war within
My darkened mind
A war without enemy
Just my struggling self

Fear of denial
Visions of the fall

Cringing, back into my shell
My thoughts embrace me
Crush me, darkness clouds my eyes
My fate, is sealed. I close my eyes
Still I see black. I see black

Light, doesn't change the dawn of darkness
Has past me, an endless nothing. I float
Numb, following my dark thoughts
Feeling life fade, feeling life fade