1. CYCLONE

Amen

Give me signs, give me light,
I need something to thrive
Or I will shatter to pieces
I need spark, I need aim,
There is so much I crave
But somehow it won’t reach me
There’s this turmoil inside me why I can’t see clearly,
It passes on to anyone who’s near me

Give me signs, give me light,
I need something to thrive
Or I will shatter to pieces

I won’t rewind –
Back to the cyclone of grief and fright
Restore inside –
A shell on the sand that’s left behind
Shimmering in holographic hues
The pearl of my core endured much abuse
I won’t rewind –
To when I was the storm that I couldn’t fight
When I was the storm that I couldn’t fight

In the eye of the gale
I can ease my concerns
This silence is cleansing
Only seconds to go
’Til the squall breaks the calm
And my peace will be ending

I won’t rewind –
Back to the cyclone of grief and fright
Restore inside –
A shell on the sand that’s left behind
Shimmering in holographic hues
The pearl of my core endured much abuse
I won’t rewind –
To when I was the storm that I couldn’t fight

I was the storm that I couldn’t fight
When I was the storm that I couldn’t fight
No reasons to stay
My existence is a disease
Damn,
I can barely move after all this violence
That vandalized me
Part of this rotten human species
Depression is spreading just like black mold in the damp
Decayed,
Barely there, just a shell, filled with so
Many meaningless mantras
That I’ve preached to myself
Erase – the arch enemy inside me
Reveal – how I could hurt myself so blindly
Amen

I won’t rewind –
Back to the cyclone of grief and fright
Restore inside –
A shell on the sand that’s left behind
Shimmering in holographic hues
The pearl of my core endured much abuse
I won’t rewind –
To when I was the storm that I couldn’t fight

When I was the storm that I couldn’t fight
When I was the storm that I couldn’t fight