1. NOTHING LEFT TO HATE

I never needed help
I needed someone to watch me fall.

How many times did I build myself out of nothing just to tear it all down again?
How many promises did I stitch into my own skin just to rip them out when no one stayed?
Every mirror I broke, every door I slammed, every fist I threw at the air

I was screaming for someone to make it stop
But I knew it had to be me
And it never was.

I saw the cracks form.
I watched the floor give out.
I was the first to leave myself behind.

NOTHING LEFT TO PATCH!
NOTHING LEFT TO HATE BUT ME!

I filled every empty space with noise, with blood
And every time I said “I’m fine” it felt more like a loaded gun than a lifeline.
I ran my hands through the ashes of what I could’ve been,

Crushed every second chance like it owed me something.
I was supposed to be better
But I can't stay human long enough to heal.

I carry every version of myself that failed,
I drag them behind me like a fucking chain.

Crumble where I stand, bury me in the walls I built.
I was the storm.
I was the silence after.

I was everything I said I’d never be.
I was everything I said I’d never be.

And I can’t even tell.
I can’t even tell the difference anymore.