1. A SONG FOR THE OPTIMISTS

Blow the last candle out
Let the wax harden
I wish I could stop crying
I wish that someone still loved me
(Blow the last candle out)
(Let the wax harden)
(I wish I could stop crying)
(I wish that someone still loved me)

Just breathe and focus
How can I when the air is so cold and empty
That my lungs froze right in my chest?
I'll be honest
The silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture
And the smiles are so difficult to fake
I'll be honest
The silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture
And the smiles are becoming so difficult for me to fake

What do I have to do
Or who do I have to kill
To get what I want... What I need?

What do I have to do
Or who do I have to kill
To get what I want... What I need?

Happiness is an emotion
I was born to this world without
Nothing pleases me
I can never be satiated
Through this toil I will breed my own distress
And destroy my best hopes;
Fuck up the only things (that I love)

(I watched my dreams die)
I watched my aspirations crash into the ground
On the backs of the angels that I've slain
But I meant so well;
I tried so hard;
Gave every bit of my soul;
To what end?
To what end?

Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away
Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away
Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away


2. DILATED

Yesterday I forgot to breathe
For like the 6th time this week
Maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky
That changed my mind
And brought me back
Seems like every day
It's kill or be killed

(With all this anger, we cannot progress)
With all this anger
There is no time to inhale and progress
And catch the smell of something
That you once knew
'Cause everyday it's bear the load
Or break, when will it be too much?

Have you ever stopped
Raised your face up to the sun and screamed
Let it out exhale the pain
That strangulates your soul
When will I be free?
When will I be free?
When will I be free?

My lungs take in the fragrance of remorse
What is the cost, am I living
If you let your lungs fill up with pain
Then you will drown
Then you will drown in your own regret
I am drowning in my own regret

My arms feel so numb
My heart palpitates missing a beat
The blood freezing in my veins
The taste of rust in my mouth
So today I just threw it all away
I just threw it all away

Though the light burns my eyes
I will not be blind
If you blink you could miss so much
Please don't ever close your eyes


3. AIN'T LOVE GRAND

It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling
In the back of your head
It's even harder to speak when everything you say
Just comes out wrong

Gutted like a pig, all you want is the world to bleed
Someone somewhere stole your desire
The pain akin to, being punched in the throat
And stabbed in the chest

You would rather bleed than be without her
Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears
Replaced with lackluster memories you cry
Your screams play in your empty room

It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling
In the back of your head
It's even harder to speak when everything you say
Just comes out wrong

Your bed swallows you whole
As the days bleed together, torment on the lips
Of a loved one, and if you try hard enough
You can almost taste her, feel her pass and
Scream, oh God why me

You would rather bleed than be without her
Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears
Replaced with lackluster memories you cry
Your screams play in your empty room

It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling
In the back of your head
It's even harder to speak when everything you say
Just comes out wrong


4. LIVING EACH DAY LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY DEAD

Raise up the ghosts of the dead
I won't die like them
Push past the point of raw emotion
I will breathe
Exist with a broken spirit
I will die complete
Ignore what the angels say
Enjoy that special place where the demons speak to me

I won't pick out the lining of my coffin yet
Unless I am sure that color satin is me
Better yet go with crushed velvet
That way I'll be damn sure to enjoy eternity
My daily life writes the eulogy
Engraved on tombstone diaries
Laid to rest with the passing of time
Seems to me that even love can die

And the rituals, that fade away
And the roses that cease to be laid
And to me it clearly appears that
We're already one foot in
A very shallow grave

I will love with passion
You live like you're dead
I will love with passion
You live like you're dead
I will love with passion

As each day dies, are we living on to the next
Or passing on in the twilight
As each day dies, are we living on to the next
Or passing on in the twilight
As each day dies, are we living on to the next
Or passing on in the twilight


5. DEANNE THE ARSONIST

Go!

Coward, the next time
You want to fuck me over
Stab me in the front
Can I still see my future in your eyes
Or can I picture myself
Stone dead in your embrace
And your cruel crimson smile
Kills me quietly

No one could have their moments
Free from your withering touch...
Fuck off like you're the only one
Who has ever cried or been broken by love
Spare me your pity party
Drunk off your own misfortunes
Wallowing in your blissful
Melancholy

Can you taste my blood?
You knew that this would kill me
But you carried on and on
With your selfish shit
Everyone cared about you
Why couldn't you, instead your greed
Compelled you
To steal other silver linings

Burnt down my world
You killed my hope
Spread out the ash and walked away
How could you just
Close off your eyes
Turn tail and run
You are the greatest coward

Come on!

Damn right I am still pissed...
Next time I see you we will see
Who has the upper hand
Kiss my fist
Taste the floor
Tired of your games
Fuck off goodbye


6. SOMEONE'S STANDING ON MY CHEST

Starving, searching this barren wasteland
Trying to grasp being this alone
Pleading for a breath of fresh air, someone's standing on my chest
Dying I'm asphyxiating myself
(I kill myself)

Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words
Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone
Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words
The lights are on and I wish I was home

Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words
Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone
Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words
The lights are on and I wish I was home

My lips are screaming pretty nothings
My ears are bleeding for want of words
(Fuck words I need actions)
Hope has left me fucking shattered
Someone's standing on my chest
Alone would be a pleasant change from here

Go!
How do you gauge loneliness?
How do you gauge loneliness?
How do you gauge loneliness?
Have you ever felt so alone?

It feels like the light will never reach me here
I am choking back my longing for shed tears
So strangulated by my lonesome fears
Please don't worry too much
It only hurts when I breathe

This only hurts every time I breathe (When I breathe)
It only hurts when I breathe


7. AT LEAST I KNOW I'M A SINNER

Lift up a stone and you will find him
Cherish the beauty in the world around us
Not in buildings or crosses made by man
Judge me, fuck you, stop playing god
Your forked tongue prophecies
Carelessly caressing the wounds of the weak
People like you should be crucified
Then maybe, just maybe, you would have an idea
Of what you are talking about

My only solace is that one day
Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns
My only solace is that one day
Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns

Raise your heads, unclasp your hands
Your weakness makes me tremble
True strength comes from within
And we were given this life to live
Not exist under standards
Set by some bullshit rule book

What prayers of yours, were ever answered, by degrading others
Spare me your biblical back peddling nonsense
For the people that you've hurt, and the being you dishonor
Your fall from grace will finally justify my means
Judge me and now you are me and what's worse
You are now a traitor to your god
Tell me Judas, how does it feel to be looked down upon
Sinners like you should be strung up from the highest tree

My only solace is that one day
Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns
My only solace is that one day
Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns

Raise your heads, unclasp your hands
Your weakness makes me tremble
True strength comes from within
And we were given this life to live
Not exist under standards
Set by some bullshit rule book

You judged me and now you are me, stop playing god
You judged me and now you are me, stop playing god


8. TULIPS ARE BETTER

Crystal clear I see the rose is frail
The thorns hide easily in its beauty
As I go to grasp it in my hand
My heart is torn beating from my chest

Let me be captivated
By your beauty
Then let me fall from your grace
Unto my broken knees
Close my eyes so tightly
The tears are welling up
You aren't worth the waste
Of the salt or the water

Watch the sun play in your hair
And I couldn't really care
Care any less about you
Watch the sun play in your hair
I couldn't really care
Care any less about you

Fuck all your false beauty
It was transparent just like your smile - liar
Your thorns caress my flesh
Crimson drops on a snowy field - liar
I have watched you retrogress
I seen what you've become - liar
Please take your eyes off of me
It's funny how fast blue eyes fade to gray - liar

Let me be captivated by your beauty
And then let me fall from your grace
Unto my broken knees
Close my eyes so tightly
The tears are welling up
You aren't worth the waste
Of the salt or the fucking water

And you are deceit

Just wither away real beauty is forever... in you
Just wither away real beauty is forever... in you
Just wither away real beauty is forever... in you
Just wither away real beauty is forever... in you


9. A VAMPIRE'S LAMENT

I am the walking dead heartbreaker, my apologies
I'm happy you'll never understand, what it's like to be
Trapped under six feet of, solid glass
I can see out, but no one gets in

Screaming at this prison, I've locked myself into
I'm sorry that I'm still breathing, and that I'll kill again
But the loneliness is too much, for me to handle
But the taste for fresh blood, pushes me on

I told myself the constant pain would ease the tension burning inside
But the nights were cold and the days dragged to weeks
I will die, here alone, I will die

The fear of romance
The pain of living
The joy of sorrow
The strength of not forgiving

The fear of romance
The pain of living
The joy of sorrow
The strength of not forgiving

God help me, I'm so tired
But in my dreams the wolves eat out my soul
God help me, I'm so frightened
But in my dreams wolves tear out my heart

I used to be golden, a saint in a time of sorrow
But then the turning came, and I kissed the sun goodbye
Don't you get it, it's always darker in my eyes
The screams of my brothers egging me on


10. LIP GLOSS AND BLACK

If I gave you pretty enough words
Could you paint a picture of us that works?
An emphasis on function rather than design
Aren't you tired? Cause I will carry you on a broken back
And blown out knees
I have been where you are for a while

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream all the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night, every evening that I die

I am exhumed; just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed; just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed; just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed; just a little less human

After all these images of pain have cut right through you
I will kiss every scar, and weep you are not alone
Then I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat, it sets us apart

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream all the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night, every evening that I die

Live! Love! Burn! Die!
Live! Love! Burn! Die!
Live! Love! Burn! Die!
Live! Love! Burn! Die!