1. KNIFE EDGE

Love and hate live in the same place
I don't know where we are
Is it lonely with or without you?
You're cold in my embrace

When we were young you changed my life,
I still remember those precious moments,
tasting magic in the air
Your eyes excited, arms invited
We were free to live a fairy tale, a breathing fantasy

Now we're living on a knife edge
Lying next to me but sleeping worlds apart

Love and hate live in the same place
I don't know where we are
Is it lonely with or without you?
You're cold in my embrace
Right and wrong, the feelings strong
What are we doing?
So I hesitate as the bond won't break
The light still shines on you

We fought them all and stood so tall,
I still remember they tested every shred of truth within our hearts
But time provides a dividing line and a web of doubt
Those painful words you said still ringing in my head

Love and hate live in the same place
What are we doing?


2. WITH INTENT

Watching, waiting just a minute more and you'll arrive
Staring intensely as the seconds drag, it's almost here
Step into the fire
Pursuit of my desire

Taking, tasting, consuming every part
I will control you, own you, forget about her
You are mine completely, believe me
If this is how it has to be I'll find you, confine you
Never underestimate my love

Remember, I can be what you want me to, I'm all you need
Resistance is useless now I won't give in, surrender
Got you under my skin
A new life will now begin


3. CRITICAL MASS I (BURDENED)

Life's too short, you can't let it get away now

You have one close guarded secret
Consuming your world without treatment
This is why shadows prevail, wounds are wide open
Exposed without light so no one can see them

If you only knew
You wouldn't give your sympathy
your care, your concern
Don't look so close, don't push too hard
Love will turn to hate, life's eternal death

Life's too long to be burdened with your constant pain
Life's too short, you can't let it get away now

You cannot tell, it still hurts
How can I help when I don't know
So I keep trying to build the jigsaw but failing
You have retained the pieces revealing

Life lives on, it won't wait until you realise
If you don't let go then your problems will just multiply
Face your fears, it's the only way you can move on


4. TOXICATE

I don't trust myself around you
I must resist, this is something new
Like a magnet, you take hold
You creep right into my soul and won't let go
I'm breathless with anticipation
As you move closer standing still

Oh no, I fight to restrain
Driven insane

My appetite is craving the danger that you invite
You fascinate, the power of passion manipulates
Takes control, chemical madness that starts to grow
Toxicate, imbalanced by lust as I gravitate

You distract me with your stare
Intense, immense, it speaks loud and clear
My heart races and I fear
That what I'm showing is unmistakable
You have attached within a moment
Your eyes secure me in your world


5. ORDER OF YOUR FAITH

The final call did not meet your expectations
Look at me or don't you want the association

I never thought that jealousy would have a part to play
Living in sweet harmony, the shadows kept at bay
Forgetting all your contradictions and order of your faith
I just appreciated all the precious time you gave

The final call did not meet your expectations
Look at me or don't you want the association
Behind the mask, you believed that I was vulnerable
Now we're yesterday when today was only just beginning

Why did you try to make me choose, a pointless exercise
Only one decision when the thorn was on my side
You disturbed the balance when the throne was in your sight
A distance of your making and an ending without bite

Give me hope and give me guidance
I don't have the strength to find them
Sitting on the fence has been exhausting
Analyse and compromise
You must know how hard I've tried
Now there's nothing I can do


6. IT'S NOT ENOUGH

Lost feelings, where do I go to find them?
I've been searching
So desperate they're holding me to ransom
They could name their price
I know that time is of the essence,
I hear its rhythm
And it waits for no man
As you're losing patience but I'm trying
If that means anything

You can have my all but it's not enough
You can't take what I can't give,
Not a lover's love

The absence made my heart grow fonder
And I found them
Those familiar feelings that had gone away
Have returned home
But there are always consequences,
It's not that simple
I don't want them anymore
As you have lost what I have found now
You don't need me

You can have my all
It will be enough
You can take as I can give you a lover's love


7. BEFORE IT BEGAN

As I closed the door and took my first steps
The tears were rolling and I knew there was no way back
I drove the longest time to see you, now I'm here
Though you don't answer my calls, I know you are near

Don't take your time to think it over
Give me some credit there's no explanation
The kiss that gave me all the answers
Caught in the act there's nothing that you can say

As the weight of penance descends on me
The scene's repeating in the slowest of motions
Your voice is echoing inside my mind, feeling numb
I'm trapped in hell on my own, no I can't escape

Pictures paint a thousand words
in a land of make believe
But actions speak much louder
if you give them chance to breathe
This is my reason and why we could not be
my not so happy ending

So I guess I'll never know for certain
But my head just could not follow my heart
In the real world


8, THE SCRIPT

Two sides to every story
Judge me as you find me
Words are blinding
They don't realise
I've seen the script
Where the vital parts are missed
Dignity is silent
I won't fight against their verbal violence
So I take your hate and your despise
Though I know it's based on lies

I knew how this would end
The writing on the wall
And then the final straw
Their ears were tightly closed
I could not verbalise
Though my lips moved
They chose to ignore

It's hard for me to trust
Betrayed too many times
This comes as no surprise
I'll stand behind my wall
My comforter, my shawl
Keeping distance
From all that they know


9. CONSTANT TOMORROWS

I need to see you for the last time
I want to hold you though you're not mine
Unexplained reasons, distance and time
Unresolved feelings I have to hide

I know that it's over but when will I realise
This magic between us is my heart telling lies

I guess I'm searching for peace of mind
The answers I seek I will not find
Constant tomorrows never arrive
Words remain unspoken, leave me paralysed

I know that it's over but when will I realise
This magic between us is my heart telling lies
I sense that you're reaching
and I return to this place
So helplessly falling,
can't make the same mistake

Never-ending goodbye


10. BEHIND CLOSED DOORS

No don't look back and don't question why
Don't waste your time you've realised
That's not the way that love's supposed to be
It's not your fault, keep moving on

She's uncontrollable, overemotional
He missed the usual warning signs
So agrees to take the blame
She's in a thunderstorm and he must suffer too
It's heading one way at fever pitch
Another side he knew but never touched
Take the lifeline

The empty excuses, endless apologies
The sober comedown that he won't hear
He's long gone when she finally comes home
Winter's over

Time won't erase all your feelings
But you can't live with a love unrequited


11. AFFLICTION

This is the new affliction that's spreading fast
A changing disposition that drives me mad
Blame me, blame them, blaming anyone else
If you want to blame then start with yourself
Is this progress?

Shame on you
This game can only go so far
If you give you need to learn how to take
Ticking time bomb

This is the new solution for saving face
A selfish tactic that you cut and paste
Find your conscience, put it back where it belongs
Hold your hands up and admit you were wrong
Is it worth it?

I'm perplexed, I don't understand
Slowly wearing our morals down