1. KISS OF DEATH

“(I don’t believe in heaven
I believe in pain
I believe in fear
I believe in death)

Lost a bet with God
Now I’ve got to deal with the devil
I need a new fix that will keep from his tricks

Something’s in my brain, driving me insane
A thirst for blood, my vision is stained
I open my eyes, don’t see what I believe
I beg the reaper, please come for me

But he told me I’d be left behind
Just how long can I stay trapped in my mind ?
Every night I fall asleep hoping
I’ll forget to breathe through the night

I just wait for the day I die
To be rid of this disease called life

Cursed by the demons
Damned by the angels
I’ll beg God for your kiss of death

Filth foamed from my mouth
Waiting for death to begin
Now rid me of this sickness
Free me from the fate of sin

When your lips won’t whisper out the words that I’ve been
dying to hear
I’ll put my fingers to your mouth and wait for the silence I
can’t bear
I’d rather
"Talk to the fist cause the jaw is broken”

I close my eyes, see what I believe
My insides burning, I finally breathe
Send me to the bottom of the sea
Where none of your love can sink me"


2. PENANCE

“I thought I’d fight harder than I did
God would call me the victor, I’d be in his favor
But the sun disappeared, my soul started fading
Through all this love, I only kept hating

I shout your name 3 times
Curse it every other night
Every morning, I fall in hate again
Darkness surrounds me
My demons overtake me
To get into heaven, I’d sell my own soul

I wait to fade

Nail by nail
I’ll dissect this world
Nail by nail
I’ll dig my own hole

I wait to fade

(What do you want ?
Penance, to cleanse your soul)

When did peace ever plan to find me ?
All I found was a God to forsake me
If we could shed blood for our own sins
Would there be need for repentance ?

I just like to watch myself suffer
No sleep, no pills will bring me comfort
So I’ll take the nails and push them into my skull
Look at my scars, I’ve paid my dues in full

I’m fading out
I fade out”


3. FACE THE COLD

“Face it

I’ve been burning on this world far too long
Now God’s trying to bring me home
I was always taught to fight fire with fire
The ash keeps piling up higher and higher

I could spend my days trapped in the snow
Freeze forever until the frost takes over
The fire’s always at my feet
And just to see the red
I’ll cut my throat to become alive

Free yourself from reality
Free yourself from all truth

"Hypocrite, watch your back”
I am watching mine
And stretching my neck to the sky
I will bite my tongue until I break my teeth
To show the world I am truly weak

I guess it’s time to fight the flames
Until I face the cold

And when the Sun comes I’ll cover my eyes
I’ll only see red
I’ll only see red"


4. THE DEEP

“Life has expired, the light has gone out
Where do I go when I can’t find my way out?
I pull my throat down, scream till the lungs collapse
Swallow my sins as a way to relapse

I’ve grown too fond of the sin I dwell in
Fading into the moments when I lose myself

Black earth has become my grave
I’ve lost all hope in being saved
But I still scream till the lungs collapse
Spit out sin as a way to relapse

But with every curse I rain down on this earth I despise
I’m spitting in the face of Christ

Can I kill myself and still find heaven ?
Suicide could be the salvation I seek
Maybe God’s the only company I need
So just bury me, the worms will feed

The breathing deep
The rope tighter
The breathing heavy
The beat slower

I tie the noose at the gates of hell
Hang myself up so no one will tell
This will be my last sin and God damn it

Has God damned me ?”


5. VEXED

“(There ain’t nothing left but fire and brimstone
Can’t you hear ? Can’t you hear ?
It’s the Lord’s day of judgment
Four trumpet blasts
The seals have been opened
And the horsemen dispatched
Three more blasts
And He closes the book
On this wicked
Wicked
World)”


6. WILL TO DIE

“I’ve found solitude in my thoughts of suicide
Feeling life in not being alive
Where’s God if he’s not here holding me back from the edge ?
I stare up from the barrel
I’m at the bottom and I’m never coming back

Mother mercy, take me away
As I decay, there’s nothing left to save
I’ll find peace beneath the ground
Hear my screams and know I’m safe and sound

I will burn where I belong

I stare up from the barrel
I’m at the bottom and I’m never coming back
You can’t pull me up from this abyss
I’m endless as the darkness comes over me

"I long for death
My bitter soul to return to dust
May the stars of my morning be dark
May it look for light but have none
May I not live past the dawning of my birth”

My will to live is dead"


7. I LOST GOD TODAY

“I can’t seem to find anything inside of me
Erase every memory that I believe
Burn out my eyes as I watch the world now blind
I can’t look passed all the dirt buried away in my mind

In my mind, in my mind, in my mind
Tortured

Is there no salvation in my redemption
Only freedom in my damnation ?
Just give me reason to breathe
‘Cause all I do is find new ways to bleed

There is no escape from what I’ve done
I’ll never shine bright under an open sun

So, what’s left to keep me sane ?
I’ll just put a bullet in my brain
I want to forget the pain
I won’t feel anything

I’ve reached my breaking point
I got lost in the light
There was nothing to guide my path
So I found my way in darkness

God has left me for dead
My mind’s under constant attack
Bury the cross in my back

Nothing’s left to keep me sane
I’m putting this bullet in my brain
I will forget the pain
I don’t feel anything

I can’t seem to find anything inside of me
Iron faith in nothing
I can’t seem to find anything inside of me
Iron faith in no one”