1. TWO YEARS

It's been two years since I spilled out my heart
On a blank page
Some seem to think that it's art
But I'm just trying to fight my demons
Always learning from my mistakes
I'm still trying to make a difference
Forever looking for my place
Forgive me


2. SOUTHBOUND

Define me as a failure
Only the shadow of a man
I will suffer the judgement passed by those
Who simply do not understand
Who I am, the way I think
The pain that sets in underneath
And when I try to be myself it seems like
The insecurity gets the worst of me
Gets the worst of me

The distance, it makes me sick
But there's a new way that I'm coping with conviction
And I don't expect you to understand it
I can't leave these words unsaid
Cause it's a product of the battle that's in my head
And I can't pretend that it never haunts me

The world will never be enough for me
I'll tell you from the top, it's only skin deep
I don't know what I believe
But it's not the way it's supposed to be
Over these past few years I admit that things have changed
Dreams became reality but the pleasure became pain
I've loved, I've lost, you wouldn't know what it cost
After every sacrifice that I have made
I'll take this to the grave

You can be who you want to be
But your nightmares live in the same dream
Go be who you want to be

The distance, it makes me sick
But there's a new way that I'm coping with conviction
And I don't expect you to understand it
I can't leave these words unsaid
Cause it's a product of the battle that's in my head
And I can't pretend that it never haunts me

I don't expect you to understand it
And I can't pretend that it never haunts me


3. DON'T LET ME FADE AWAY

We all hide behind a mask
A product of our own self destructive past
We all ache for something deeper than the surface
Searching for anything to break the name "worthless"

If only we could see the damage we cause ourselves
It often seems our best intentions pave the road to hell
We do it to ourselves
It's got me overwhelmed

I've never fallen this far
It's never been this dark

Take me back to better days
Before I was a slave to the choices that I have made
There's gotta be a better way, this can't stay
Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away

Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away
I just can't make another day
Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away
I've been torn down to nothing

We all want to be set free
Enslaved to emotions or someone we're ripping at the seams
Can't seem to stop the bleeding too blind to see
The cycle repeats

Feels like I'm made to fail
You pick the coffin and I'll drive the nail

You pick the coffin and I'll drive the nail

Take me back to better days
Before I was a slave to the choices that I have made
There's gotta be a better way, this can't stay
Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away

Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away
I just can't make another day
Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away
I've been torn down to nothing

We all hide behind a mask
We all want to be set free

We all hide behind a mask
We all want to be set free

If you can hear this, if you can feel this
Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away
If you can hear this, if you can feel this
Don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away

Give me a sign
Tell me everything will be alright
Give me a sign
These idle hands adept for a crime


4. STITCH

Leave me in the dark with a hole for a heart
As low as I can get, burn the bridge, rip the stitch out
Pick it up

I can't pretend like it's all part of the plan
I can't hide it, blindsided, I can't fight it, it's more than I can stand
Broken. But I guess you knew that it would be this way
Loose ends. Tie the knot and wait for your chance to run away (run away)

I could never make you stay, you'll run away (run away)
I'll always be your greatest mistake, so run away (run away)
Just another game that you played, you'll run away (run away)
Three years in the making
But I guess we weren't worth saving

We weren't worth saving

Leave me in the dark with a hole for a heart
As low as I can get, burn the bridge, rip the stitch out
Guess I'll play dead. It's all in my head
To you I don't exist. Call it bliss. Rip the stitch out
What?

Bitter to the core
Always want more
Take what you can get
But I'll bet that is never enough
Is it?
Pull the knife out of my back
Let it all fade to black
Made it so clear
I think we're done here

Bitter to the core
Always want more
Take what you can get
But I'll bet that is never enough
Is it?
Pull the knife out of my back
Let it all fade to black
Made it so clear
I think we're done here

Leave me in the dark with a hole for a heart
As low as I can get, burn the bridge, rip the stitch out
Guess I'll play dead. It's all in my head
To you I don't exist. Call it bliss. Rip the stitch out

Leave me in the dark with a hole for a heart
As low as I can get, burn the bridge, rip the stitch out
Guess I'll play dead. It's all in my head
To you I don't exist. Call it bliss. Rip the stitch out

You were the light I could never see in myself
I would've stood by you until the gates of hell


5. WITNESS

I buried the judgment
I covered my tracks
Soon to be forgotten
There's a new life ahead

It was my hope that was fading
I was caught in a trap
It's the burden of failure
I carried on my back

Let's get this straight
A lot has changed in the last year
Thought I had everything together
But watched it all disappear
I put my faith in the wrong things
When I woke up, it was gone, I gave up on me

Didn't even recognize myself
Self worth is not found in someone else
Chase what you want, never give up
Salt the wound, all ties are cut

Now I see
I was broken to be made a better me
Had to learn to let it go and let it be
Sometimes we're too blind to see

The hardest lessons that we learn
Are the ones where knowledge must be earned
It's what makes us human
It's what gets us through it

Weighed down by the pressures of saving face
This is a dark world, I'll be your witness

Witness

Now I see
I was broken to be made a better me
Had to learn to let it go and let it be
Sometimes we're too blind to see

Learn to let it go and let it be
Learn to let it go and let it be
Learn to let it go and let it be
Learn to let it go


6. DEADWEIGHT

Deadweight
Get up, get up

Mirror mirror on the wall
The man I see is at fault
When did I become everything that I hate?
Internally bound, I'll self-destruct
Bleed out until I think I've had enough
But it never is
I swear it never is

It's like I'm out of my mind
Relapse, repeat, never the last time
I can't take much more
I've never been this low before
Never been this low before

Deadweight (all you do is)
Break me (leave me feeling)
Empty (how I long to be set free)
You're my own misery
(x2)

Go
To be honest
I've grown to love the pain
So what's it worth when you can't sleep, can't think
You'll do whatever it takes to feel just the little things

Trapped inside my head
I'm hanging by your thread

Deadweight (all you do is)
Break me (leave me feeling)
Empty (how I long to be set free)
You're my own misery
(x2)

You and I are running out of time
We can't coexist
You took what was mine
So you see, it's you or it's me
Now I'm seeing red, yeah
Why don't you just drop dead?
Why don't you just drop dead?

(All you are is)
Deadweight (all you do is)
Break me (leave me feeling)
Empty (how I long to be set free)
You're my own misery
(x2)

No longer part of me
No longer part of me


7. GRAVITY

I'm losing hope, I'm out of touch
Too late to say "I've had enough"
It's like every breath could be my last
My demons won't stay in the past

All alone
On my own

Pull me close I feel the water reach around my neck
Don't let go just show me that there's better days ahead
Make me see how I'm only half the person I should be
Pull me close set me free from this gravity

I can't run forward and keep looking back
Hindsight has left me where I'm at
I tried to run but I couldn't see
That you were right beside me

All alone
On my own

Pull me close I feel the water reach around my neck
Don't let go just show me that there's better days ahead
Make me see how I'm only half the person I should be
Pull me close set me free from this gravity

There is a light in the tunnel but it's distant
On my own and I don't think that I can fix this
Set me free from this gravity

Pull me close I feel the water reach around my neck
Don't let go just show me that there's better days ahead
Make me see how I'm only half the person I should be
Pull me close set me free from this gravity
Pull me close set me free from this gravity


8. NEVER ENOUGH

I refuse to think your abandonment
Has become the common place
You needed to be set free
You needed to be rid of me
Running around in circles
I am just trying to place the blame
I thought we said forever
I thought you felt the same

Stuck in a frame, you remain my conscience
We were broken
Before we bent

I can feel it now you're there but you're not
I'm picking up what we've lost
Lay me in the ground
Just throw it away
There's nothing more you can say

I'd like to think that the love that we had
Was different than the rest
Cause I never felt that way
I never would have second guessed
But things are different now
Being selfless let me down
Never again will I let you in

I'm not as strong as you think
I'm tired, I'm weak
Like an anchor tied to my feet
You left me to sink
You left me to sink

Stuck in a frame, you remain my conscience
We were broken
Before we bent

I can feel it now you're there but you're not
I'm picking up what we've lost
Lay me in the ground
Just throw it away
There's nothing more you can say
I can feel it now (no turning back this time, I'll leave it all behind)
Lay me in the ground (I can feel it now)

I did everything I could to rise above
I gave you all I had
But it was never enough
It was never enough
Set free


9. INDESTRUCTIBLE

To all the ones who have helped me along the way
I owe a debt I could never repay

Carried on the shoulders of strangers
No room for doubt, lead by faith, never failure
You paved the way but to my dismay
The great unknown could be an early grave

On a long road with the end in our sights
Tragedy takes it away like a thief in the night
I pray it's not over
Won't remain broken, I'm looking for closure
I'm scared, didn't think it'd come with a cost
That people would change, that lives could be lost
I'm having nightmares where fate leaves us for dead
Never imagined a price on our heads

I woke up screaming
I felt my heart sink in
I miss the days when I felt indestructible, indestructible
We're veering over lines that shake me every time
I miss the days when I felt indestructible, indestructible

It wasn't supposed to be like this
I lived in a world where darkness didn't exist
Mortality is a beautiful thing
Embrace it, don't waste it
You're the one who pulls the strings

Heavy win, heavy loss
I'm moving forward (moving forward)
No matter what the cost

I woke up screaming
I felt my heart sink in
I miss the days when I felt indestructible, indestructible
We're veering over lines that shake me every time
I miss the days when I felt indestructible, indestructible

Indestructible, indestructible
I still carry you with me

I woke up screaming
I felt my heart sink in
I miss the days when I felt indestructible, indestructible
So write this on my stone if I don't make it home
I tried my best but I'm not indestructible, indestructible

Even through the darkest nights
All hope is not lost
All hope is not lost


10. DISDAIN

Oh what a mess we've made
To Hell with the love
Just keep breeding the hate
It doesn't matter what is true what is right or just
Never sleep, never think, no, we'll never trust
Outrage, fed up with the system
Outbreak, everybody is a victim
Enslaved and we think we're free

But all I see is violence
But I can't just sit and watch in silence
I think it's time that we take back what we lost
No matter the cost
We're branded by disdain
There's nothing to gain

Go!

I'm not the one to be all political
But it's a problem when everyone's hypocritical
You can't lead if you can't admit you're wrong
Our innocence is gone
I can't read the headlines
Another murder in the streets, he was only 9
God are you listening?

Cause all I see is violence
But I can't just sit and watch in silence
I think it's time that we take back what we lost
No matter the cost
We're branded by disdain
There's nothing to gain

Think for yourself and nobody else
We can't trust the lies we're fed
Or we're all as good as dead
All as good as dead
Dead


11. MY GRAVE IS MINE TO DIG

I run away from everything that's good for me
When every voice that you hear is the same one
All you can think to do is run
Make no mistake I'm everything I say I hate
Hypocritical, lost individual, no longer worth your faith

I know I can be better than this
Masquerading has never done me justice
I am what I am
A boy not yet the man that I want to be
Despite what I have led you to believe
I'm nothing as I seem
No ground beneath my feet

I can't seem to get away from me
This person in the mirror's not the same one that I wanna be
Is there more than what I see?
Sometimes it's hard to let go
When I don't know what lies in front of me

Get away from me!

Death to self is much easier said than done
Death to self is much easier said than done

Pain is what has set me free
I had to go through Hell to find what's best in me

Still think I can be better than this
Despite the weight that is my conscience
Life was never fair but I am never broke beyond repair
Still searching for any place that I can call my home
And even though I'm lost
I know I'm not alone

I can't seem to get away from me
This person in the mirror's not the same one that I wanna be
Is there more than what I see?
Sometimes it's hard to let go
When I don't know what lies in front of me

If I could change myself I would
But I don't know where to begin
My grave is mine to dig
My grave is mine to dig

If I could change myself I would
But I don't know where to begin


12. JOHNNY CASH

Let me tell you the saddest story
Love lost left broken and empty
Put my heart in the hands of another
Set a fire to the past and watched me burn

Somehow I guess it's better this way
Looking back was it all just a mistake?
Thought I could live in the arms of another
But I guess I wasn't enough for her

I wanna feel the love you can't live without
The one that Johnny Cash wrote all his songs about
But I gave it all away for no return
Guess it's just another lesson that I'll never learn

I've been putting myself through your Hell
Holding on to things that don't even matter now
You found your place in the arms of another
But now I see it's just the way the Earth will turn

I wanna feel the love you can't live without
The one that Johnny Cash wrote all his songs about
But I gave it all away for no return
Guess it's just another lesson that I'll never learn

Can't seem to fill the void that lives in my chest
Thought I was what you need but I'm just second best
I'll never give it all away again I swear
Don't even look for a heart you'll find there's nothing there

(I can't take it back)
All the years that we spent together have come to an end
(Regret is all I had)
Not sure I would if I could do it all over again
(I can't take it back)
The memories, the pictures, I love you's will wither
(Regret is all I had)
But this is the last song I'll write about you

Forget my name
Forget my face
It was all just empty space
Deadweight
No longer part of me