1. PRELUDE TO HATE

(Instrumental)


2. UNDER THE KNIFE

It's an unusual thing
This morning I am breathing.
One of these days I wanna die
No darkening hopes to try

I wanna be my only friend
Going to the dead end
Who will take my life back?
I never wanted to lend!

Leave me alone, don't comfort me,
I got to save my tears for tomorrow.
Leave me alone, don't comfort me,
Standing still under the knife…

Under the knife,
There is no life,
We are living
Under the knife

Walking thru' the sun of night
Not stepping a shadow of dark light.
Feeling cold and restless in pain,
Causing me be my only bane

I wanna be my only friend
Going to the dead end
Who will take my life back?
I never wanted to lend!

Leave me alone, don't comfort me,
I got to save my tears for tomorrow.
Leave me alone, don't comfort me,
Standing still under the knife…

Under the knife,
There is no life,
We are living
Under the knife

My red pen smiles at me
Asking me to draw heavenly…
If no heaven there's no life.
Heaven's bleeding under the knife.

Leave me alone, don't comfort me,
I got to save my tears for tomorrow.
Leave me alone, don't comfort me,
Standing still under the knife…

Under the knife,
There is no life,
We are living
Under the knife.


3. WORLD OF LIES

Another world comes rumbling down right before my eyes
Another piece of reality vanished by surprise

The more I try to comprehend that all is fake,
So why pretend
The more I seem to realize I'm living in a world of lies

World of lies

Another friend was lost today right before my eyes
Another blow to hit my pride stabbed me in disguise

The more I try to giving in the deeper
The shit that I'm swimming in
The more I hear them criticize I'm living in a world of lies

World of lies

Can't take it, can't take it
Can't seem to understand it

The more I try to comprehend that all is fake,
So why pretend
The more I seem to realize I'm living in a world of lies

World of lies.


4. LOOKING FOR SERENITY

Did I not tell you to shut your God damn mouth?
Don't you avoid letting me see your eyes!
We are the creatures of the world, can't afford to love.
Life in vain, souls on ice,
I can still feel your silent vows.
Day by day, turning gray, I don't know what's left to say…

Hurt me to save me (hurt me)
Hurt me and save me (save me)
Hurt me to save me (hurt me)
You are wasting me…!

Give me your anger, being angry is great
Alone in pain, going slightly insane…

We are on the brink of no self-distinction,
Coma in a state of mystified confusion
The more my brain twists, the more I seethe
Knowledge is the enemy of faith
Blank faces I see everyday everywhere
Are they dying same time everyday?
Where is my stolen serenity? Ridiculous tragedy…!

Hurt me to save me (hurt me)
Hurt me and save me (save me)
Hurt me to save me (hurt me)
You are losing me…!

Give me your anger, being angry is great
Alone in pain, going slightly insane…

Hurt me…Save me…Hurt me…Save me…
Hurt me…Save me…Hurt me…Save me…

Hurt me to save me now, we can't afford to love.
Hurt me to save me, I want my serenity back.

You're killing me…!

Give me your anger, being angry is great
Alone in pain, going slightly insane…


5. GET DOWN

(Instrumental)


6. BEYOND REDEMPTION

Profane man ruled by profane desires
Stalks his prey under cover of darkness,
Stranding me on a dreaded highway…
There is more to fear, a far greater danger!

Descending mercilessly upon this stage,
Harboring a deadly virus of murderous rage,
Don't make me fight to my dying breath…
There is more to fear, a far greater danger!

Waking up beyond depression,
Struggling beyond suicidal,
Life beyond dissatisfaction,
A future beyond redemption

I ain't gonna lose my future
I ain't gonna lose my future
I ain't gonna lose my future
I ain't gonna leave my life behind
Beyond redemption, beyond redemption!

Love is tested, manifested, breaking my heart
Images of a life in vain that I trust
Got the taste, learnt my lesson, so what!
There is more to fear, a far greater danger!

Finding myself in a pitched battle,
In the middle of what appears to be a rumble.
Shadow me but you can't protect me,
There is more to fear, a far greater danger!

Waking up beyond depression,
Struggling beyond suicidal,
Life beyond dissatisfaction,
A future beyond redemption

I ain't gonna lose my future
I ain't gonna lose my future
I ain't gonna lose my future
I ain't gonna leave my life behind
Beyond redemption, beyond redemption!
Beyond redemption, beyond redemption!


7. MANDALA

A mystical place inside your mind
Thoughts are real and words are blind
Senses enlightened while fading away
Erasing the anger to end the dismay

It doesn't matter what you wanna do
It all comes back to you.
So just reflect on what you wanna do
Way before…

In the circle of life, embrace yourself
In the circle of life, where you find yourself

Envision the things you always wished for
Lost in time imagination soars
Beyond reality you're found
Escaping the world where evil's abound

Mandala, mandala, mandala, mandala…

In the circle of life, embrace yourself
In the circle of life, where you find yourself
In the circle of life, embrace yourself
In the circle of life, where you find yourself

It doesn't matter what you wanna do
It all comes back to you.
So just reflect on what you wanna do
Way before…

In the circle of life, embrace yourself
In the circle of life, where you find yourself
In the circle of life, embrace yourself
In the circle of life, where you find yourself

Mandala, mandala, mandala, mandala…


8. REDRUM

When I close my eyes
I dream my own demise.
Evil hands on me
Dreams I don't wanna see…

Just a hitchhiker,
From one world to other
But no world is mine
Where I'm not fine!

I'm afraid of sleeping,
Afraid of sleeping,
Afraid of sleeping,
In a red room!

Reflection of your murder
Look and see thru' the mirror.
Why are you trying to be vivacious?
You're already lifeless.

When I close my eyes
I dream my own demise.
Evil hands on me
Dreams I don't wanna see…

Just a hitchhiker,
From one world to other
But no world is mine
Where I'm not fine!

I'm afraid of sleeping,
Afraid of sleeping,
Afraid of sleeping,
In a red room!

Reflection of your murder
Look and see thru' the mirror.
Why are you trying to be vivacious?
You're already lifeless.

I'm scared of my red room,
Can't sleep in my red room,
I'm scared of my red room,
But I care about my red room.
I'm scared of my red room,
Can't sleep in my red room,
I'm scared of my red room,
I care about my red room…!

I'm afraid of sleeping,
Afraid of sleeping,
Afraid of sleeping,
In a red room!

Reflection of your murder
Look and see thru' the mirror.
Why are you trying to be vivacious?
You're already lifeless.


9. MY DISTURBED GIRLFRIEND

It is a shitty, crappy day
As if like on thorns I lay
When you have nothing to say,
I have no more to slay.

Frustrated and depressed,
As living with the same threat
Even if she smells a rat,
Still blind as a bat…

Everybody, everybody, everybody, disturb gently…

Can you hear it, can you hear her voice?
Can you feel it, can you feel inside?
Can you help her, can you help my girl?
You are killing my disturbed girlfriend!

My disturbed girlfriend…!

It is a shitty, crappy day
As if like on thorns I lay
When you have no more to say,
I have no one to slay.

Out of money, out of luck,
No matter how much they suck.
Disrespect and rudeness,
Something she never deserves.

Everybody, everybody, everybody, disturb gently…

Disconnected from life,
Nothing to watch like a knife
Whatever it may take,
I want my girl back.

Can you hear it, can you hear her voice?
Can you feel it, can you feel inside?
Can you help her, can you help my girl?
You are killing my disturbed girlfriend!

My disturbed girlfriend…!


10. DELETED SCENES

Revisiting a past crime
Transformed me in my prime,
Haunted by the childhood,
Locked up in the darkest mood

Boxes with no properties
Coffins of dead memories,
Juggling keys in my head,
Cannot open a way ahead

Get closer and closer
Uncover what I suffer
Wounds inside I feel
Don't ever seem to heal.

Don't know where I belong,
Don't know why it takes so long.
Being away from myself,
Tired of being someone else…

Revisiting a past crime
Transformed me in my prime,
Haunted by the childhood,
Locked up in the darkest mood

Bring them to fucking justice
Sorrow what they should practice
Sentenced to life in sadness
Sorrow where they will practice!

Get closer and closer
Uncover what I suffer
Wounds inside I feel
Don't ever seem to heal.

Don't know where I belong,
Don't know why it takes so long.
Being away from myself,
Tired of being someone else…

Swallowed by some deep waters
Even if I cried, nobody'd ask why.
Go up to sky, never give a break,
Smell some flowers, before they wilt...

As being wasted in some deep ends,
Even if I cried out, noone'd hear me out.
Go up to sky, never give a break,
Pick the flowers, before it's too late...

These are the days I chose,
Deleted scenes of my life.
These are the days I lost,
Deleted scenes of my life.
These are the days I lost and cried,
Deleted scenes of my life (why can't you see?)
These are the days I died,
Deleted scenes of my life.