1. DISPOSSESSED IN RAPTURE (FIRST WOUND)

You were there
You put it inside me
Hate filled the annals of my mind
Filled my body
Fire decayed, I was losing time

Abyssal, transfixed
Undoing, what if…
Pleasure so fast, so precipitous
This absence of my life in your myth

Tell me a story you feel
(Gaping aura)
Gaping aura, so surreal

You, my void, innards of bliss
(Into obsession)
Into obsession, lost, adrift

Churn in your center
Feel me arrive
(Don’t lose faith)
That this fist is alive

Even in absolute death
In mystical fires
Where nothing is left

Time of this void
When love, hate, knowledge
Burn your inside
Burn and recoil

I am your body
Flesh of your flesh
Eternity, timelessness of grief

Churning center, feel me arrive
(Don’t lose faith)
That this fist is alive

Tell me a story you feel
(Gaping aura)
Gaping aura, so ethereal

Eros ablaze
Mourn no more mourning
Together again
We hold us within
You churn in the maelstrom of these guts
In wounds of a body, nadir of lust
In dreams of eschatology

I ate your tongue and your hands
Organs that hold and keep us from falling
This is my impossible call
To reach you in spite of it all
Suffering Eros ablaze
Absence in absence, the only way

Through nothing, forever, no time
You destroyed my wretched life
The fire of this union in death
Seeding an earth where nothing is left

Through nothing, forever, no time
In mystical sin, together we die
Separate forever, our infinite death
Now is the time
Exhale… dispossessed


2. I ON THE KNIFE (SECOND WOUND)

Look, touch it with your finger
Square hole, hell
Feels good
Cut your palm, then slice it

Blood running down your arms
Running down your neck
Sit down, hurts
Take the knife, slice your thighs next

Blood pooling abyss
Rushing out like emptiness
Eviscerating passages
(There is no time)
In the fire of exigence
(There is no time)

Leap, you fall on the hole
You, trying to die
Leapt, searing pain before
Epistemic suicide

This wound is your life
Knowing, cutting, sever your head
Now you sit on the knife
Burning pleasure, unknowing death

Mocked by the abyss
Emptiness as terrorist
Eviscerating passages
(There is no time)
In the fire of exigence
(There is no time)

Leap, you fall on the hole
You, trying to die
Leapt, searing pain before
Epistemic suicide

This wound is your life
Knowing, cutting, sever your head
Now you sit on the knife
Burning pleasure, unknowing death

You were trying to die
To kill the pain before
You knew there was pain
Existence without being

Father as a knife
Mother as a tomb
You will always be
Wound of eternity

You were trying to die on the cross
To kill the pain before the pain got worse
Fear of sacrifice, the knowledge of pain
Fissured, known, the fist of truth will yawn
Orgy, cross, light, crepuscular loss


3. ABSCESS INSIDE US

First bliss stripped
She lost interest
Couldn’t explain why
Three years in
One year after he collapsed
Vanished off the wagon

The ghost she left behind
Decayed and grew
Repelled us apart

One year passed
Perpetual abandoning
Dying and splitting

Unbearable stench
A putrescent giant laughing
An abscess inside us
The crowd grew wild
Dysfunction rewarded

He came in like a beast
Charmed me frightened
But ego showed him the door

In disgust, I hurt him badly
I’ve never heard such pain
Ego returns but everything’s changed
Blaming all but herself

The Beast returns,
But this time shows himself the door
While a wagon’s passenger
Hangs like a threat
As ego strokes herself
Survivor keeps playing
Through the scars
I gave him

And Like a shadow she hovers like family
Distant and demanding
Sadistic crowd keeps growing
Malicious adoration
In my confusion and complex grief
I have a long way to go
Before I set myself free


4. ORIFICIAL PURGE

Facing the vermin that I am
Terror coursing through me
Shuddering, I stand
To become this animal divine
Sodomite, demiurge, this hell is mine

Into this subjection
Into this dark night

Rending celestial pleasure
May this body unbind

From its human pretensions
From its attachments to time

Like water in water
An elemental drift
Everything erected
Everything impotent

Arms puncturing the sac of animality
Pushing, erect, human fatality
Sucking, breath of the future unknown
Breath of the unknowable one

Orificial passage
An elemental drift
Everything erected
Everything impotent

Ribs spread in the breach
Flayed in prostration to animality
Dehiscence, the life of chance
Living from dying, in the threshold, the passage

Through holes below
And from hemorrhaging skies
Exigent fire descending from on high
Sodomitic pleasure, life undone


5. REVERIES IN AUTOPHAGIA

Offal offering
A sexual union
Of I and me
In fervor I sup
On liver and spleen
Lost myself in me

Merging tongue with lung
Epiphany
My own saliva
Decomposing what is left of me
A self sufficient ecosystem
In bloody reverie

Whittling down my flesh
To the most vile of excretions
Dining on my psychesoma
I serve up another limb
A small slice leftover
Defecated desire
Digested grief
Absorbed shame

One fine feast
A consumption fit
For some dead king
Who rotted inside
A slurry of
Sadistic disease
Eroticized glut
Fed upon the collective misery and pain of serfs


6. HIS SAPPHIC LONGING

Little phallus, age 4
Grows up and learns well
From the killer he calls Dad
Gazes up into his eyes
Sees the ruined phantasy

His sapphic longings
Trapped inside a rape tomb
His hard exterior thrusts
Leaves a graveyard of wounds
To heart, hymen and sphincter

His sapphic longings trapped inside
An ecclesiastic tomb

Say a rosary
(For our father)
Kiss his feet
Lick his finger
He tells you
You’re a real ride

Is it his or yours? (confused by)
It isn’t yours to know (the impulse)
Reach beneath the cloth (slip inside me)
Nobody will save you (from this rapture)
His sapphic longings gagged and bound
Inside the phallic tomb his father gave unto him