1. NOT MY LOVE 2

You tried to make amends.
And i destroyed your friends.
If only we could speak again...
Oh no, we've come back to the start with our urgency to love.
Dipping toes, knowing well it'll scar.
Still we plunge right into love.
You tried to make amends.
And i destroyed your friends.
If only we could speak again,
I'd show the world that all of war
Can be traced back to a miscommunication and fear.
I promise you i'll always try to see your side
Before the full manifestation of fear.
It's over. Just go back to your lake,
Lay out in the sun, and be.
You're closer. There's a life you can take.
You don't have to run. Just be.


2. STATUES

What have you done to justify the demand of our deference?
Only time will spoil your inflated statue of yourself.
You've been underwhelmed.
Only for a second there, i had you fooled.
You were under my thumb. I've been growing patient dear.
I'll wait for you, my love, where you can't run.
You take so much pride in knowing that you've misled someone else.
You can't hide your smile when you've fulfilled the great deception.
They've been overwhelmed.
Only for a second there, i had you fooled.
You were under my thumb. I've been growing patient dear.
I'll wait for you, my love, where you can't run from me.
I will smother your needs.
Forget the fiction of what you thought we could never be.
I'll follow you if you won't follow me.


3. HOME

You were faster than me.
You were better than me.
I was too careful and weak.
It had to be you.
And i pushed myself beyond the resolve
Just so i could try to make you relive it.
But you were faster than me.
You were better than me.
I was too careful and weak.
It had to be you.
Take me home.
In my dream you said that you loved me.
I am your perfect.
Of course i'm a child.
Only we have the capacity
To stand in single file and blindly follow you.
Of course i'm a child.
Only we have the capacity
To stand in single file, regardless of the truth.
Take me home.
In my dream you said that you loved me.
I am your perfect.


4. SUNSHINE

Stay, always separated.
Now, from the ones you love.
Show no display of weakness.
Now, save the ones you love.
Doctor, can you help me find my feet?
It seems i've gnawed them off in my sleep.
Notice when the sun shines on your skin.
Fall in love.
Find somebody to blame for all your lust.
We're exactly the same.
Stay, always separated.
Now, from the ones you love.
Show no display of weakness.
Now, save the ones you love.
It's too late.
Bury your pain and pick up speed.
Run now, you can rest eventually.
Notice when the sun shines on your skin.
Fall in love.
Find somebody to blame for all your lust.
We're exactly the same.
Stay, always separated.
Now, from the ones you love.
Show no display of weakness.
Now, save the ones you love.
I'm not quite sure what i look like anymore.
If there's so much riding on my shoulders,
Then why must i concede to you?
If there's so much riding on my shoulders,
Then why do you all want me to lose?


5. DREAMHOUSE

This house is made of paper, built on the quickest sand.
No pictures hang from its walls,
Because i'd rather run than stand.
But you don't know the truth yet.
You'll find it all out when i'm gone, i guess.
I want to tear you away, live in a new skin.
Because i'm tired of being covered in this film of fiction.
I haven't believed a single damn word i've said.
I've learned to tear the truth to shreds.
Let's face the facts
We've been avoiding in our tender dream house.
Fuck it, take it all down.
Watch it sink and smile wide, for we have vanquished unreality.
We'll be better off when it's buried underground.
I want to tear you away, live in a new skin.
Because i'm tired of being covered in this film of fiction.
I haven't believed a single damn word i've said.
I've learned to tear the truth to shreds.
Oh, lover...


6. SALAMANDERS AND WORMS

It terrifies me
You can cause an echo a thousand times louder than i.
You see what you see.
I actually have dreams about all the ways you could die.

I plead. Your foundation crumbles at your feet,
But you still somehow manage to keep
Armies of worms underneath to squish on a killing spree.
Other's lives are cheap. Other's lives are cheap.

You would call the blue sky red with no shame.
You're god damn insane.

We're better than you in every way that counts.
And we still have our souls.
We plan what we do, with two feet on the ground.
And we're still in control.

I plead. Your foundation crumbles at your feet,
But you still somehow manage to keep
Armies of worms underneath to squish on a killing spree.
Other's lives are cheap. Other's lives are cheap.

You would call the blue sky red with no shame.
You're god damn insane.

Feeling the words echo off the walls,
They find much more meaning in their decay,
Although they were meant to mean nothing at all
When clumsily sputtered from my drunken face.

You would call the blue sky red with no shame.
You're god damn insane.


7. CHEMICAL FIRES

Under such disappointing times, we distract ourselves.
Showing off our petty chemical fires. They glow so wrong.
So you follow your dreams, or at least the dreams you've settled for.
But if you followed your dreams...

I want the answer. I want the cure for dying alone.
I thought that i was meant to be a hero.
Now they'll all see how much i've grown.

Sing loud and scream and yell and raise your fists and cause an avalanche.
If you squeeze him hard enough, god might show the way.
Or if you'd just grow up,
You'd see that there's little in this world worth screaming for.
So fall in love, and lie down.
So you follow your dreams, or at least the dreams you've settled for.
But if you followed your dreams...

I want the answer. I want the cure for dying alone.
I thought that i was meant to be a hero.
Now they'll all see how much i've grown.

I want the answer. I want the cure for dying alone.
I thought that i was meant to be a hero.
Now they'll all see how much i've grown.

(under such disappointing times, we distract ourselves.
Showing off our petty chemical fires.
Under such disappointing times, we distract ourselves.
Showing off our petty chemical fires.)

I want the answer. I want the cure for dying alone.
I thought that i was meant to be a hero.
Now they'll all see how much i've grown.

I want the answer. I want the cure for dying alone.
I thought that i was meant to be a hero.
Now they'll all see how much i've grown.


8. ECHOES

I'm not like you i can't pretend.
My body won't let me get away with it. I'm not your friend.
You've been trying to make your pieces fit for so long.
But you can't even sing your own fucking song.
Keep your fragile fingernails so clean, as you lick your moldy hands.
Suck the life from everything that breathes. And you never had a chance.
Focus, you're dying to slow. Just play your role.
Keep your fragile fingernails so clean, as you lick your moldy hands.
Suck the life from everything that breathes. And you never had a chance.
I'll keep breathing, just as though your stench doesn't exist.
As though your lips i'd never kissed, wounds i'd never licked.
I would have died swinging my fists.


9. A FAINT ILLUSION

I know you know.
Despite your reservations,
Out of everything in this world, i choose you.
It goes to show, despite our conversations,
Back when you were just a little girl,
We had no clue just what we were getting ourselves into.
We were merely trying something new.

Dissolve myself in you,
'Cause i'm not gonna not gonna give you up.
No i'm not gonna not gonna give you up
Cancel myself to feel you,
'Cause i'm not gonna not gonna give you up.
No i´m not gonna not gonna give you up.

I know you know.
Despite the implications that we were out of character.
I always knew just what we were getting ourselves into.
We were merely trying something new.

Dissolve myself in you,
'Cause i'm not gonna not gonna give you up.
No i'm not gonna not gonna give you up
Cancel myself to feel you,
'Cause i'm not gonna not gonna give you up.
No i'm not gonna not gonna give you up.

When we used to lay ourselves out on the front lawn
Of their ivory towers,
We would show our bodies to the world.
Then we would go home and work on a castle of our own.

You were impatient, i was a fall back.
A dirty mistake, you never called back.
You were salvation,
I never told you i always had a notion
You were impatient, i was a fall back.
A dirty mistake, you never called back.
You were salvation,
I never told you i always had a notion

You were impatient, i was a fall back.
A dirty mistake, you never called back.
You were salvation,
I never told you i always had a notion
I would fall in love with you.
You were a call girl, i was your gentleman
A faint illusion of your simple plan.
I was salvation.
You never told me you always had the notion that you knew
What we could be.


I know you know.
Despite your reservations
Out of everything in this world,
I choose you.


10. ONLY HUMAN

You've seen too much. You don't have to fight anymore.
My guard is down and my insides are spilling from from my stomach.
And you grab a straw to slurp it up off the ground and love it.
I need to eat your wisdom and become secure again.
I need to regain and ascertain.
I see i am only human, there's so much i can retain.
I need to prove i am not insane.
Sleep.
You've cried too much. You don't have to fight it anymore.
Sleep.
You've tried enough.
My guard is down and my insides are spilling from my stomach.
And you grab a straw to slurp it up off the ground and love it.
I need to eat your wisdom and become secure again.
I need to regain and ascertain.
I see i am only human, there's so much i can retain.
I need to prove i am not insane.
Rest my child. Life goes on. I won't let you hold me now,
All you'll do is slow me down.
All you'll do is put me down.
Make me feel more human.