1. THE INTRANSIGENCE OF THE SOUL

Constant struggle of the mind and the heart
Constant suspense of the body and the mind
Persistency in the thought - restlessly moving on
Intransigence of the soul…

Put my heart and mind to rest
So be it that I won’t destroy myself
Put it all to an end
So that I can finally sleep

So that I can finally sleep, for that it will be the cure
So that I can eventually stop to agonize myself

And so I just clear my head
So that the heart is bound to follow
And so I just clear my thoughts
And hope for everything to go back to normal

Just further proof of how pathetic I am
Just further proof of that I’ll never be good enough

Constant struggle of the mind and heart
Constant suspense - of the body and mind
Persistency in the thought - restlessly moving on
Intransigence of the soul…

My life, my heart - for am I just a vessel?
Did I ever understood anything at all?

Then what is my hand for?
And what is my heart for?
And why am I here? Why am I here?

And is it ok for me to be here?


2. A HEART OF ETERNAL WINTER (AND THE LONGING FOR YOUR WARMTH)

Forever walking through the valleys of midgard
Seeing the faces of the fortunate ones
Pretending I would feel the same
Until your face eventually puts me out...

All I asked for was one last battle, one last try
But you denied me the right to stay and fight
And so I had to wander of in the night, all on my own
And deep in the woods of my mind frost conquered my soul

Now there is an eternal winter in my heart
Unable to feel and unable to love
But no ice will ever freeze the memories that we once shared
And no fire's strong enough to thaw of the glacier that was once my heart

Nothing but your warmths will ever reach to me again
This suit of armor I built myself is strong and hard to bear
Only you would be able to strip it off of me
But the look in your eyes does only make it bind
I found myself in Jötunheim not knowing who to fight
Afraid that I might become what I once despised
Hate and anger fulfill my mind, the Ifing I will cross
To raid on Asgard, the realm of gods, for there is nothing that I have not yet lost

Immortality - but I'm unable to feel
Limbs are freezing off - but I'm unable to die

For this eternal winter is my curse
Unable to feel and unable love
Forever walking through the valleys of midgard
Seeing the faces of the fortunate ones
Pretending I would feel the same
Until your face eventually puts me out of my misery
One way or the other it will end just like it started
One way or the other it will end with you...


3. IF THIS IS THE BEST WE CAN GET THEN I AM DISAPPOINTED

Evolution has brought us so far
And still - look where we are
Creating life and taking life
All in the same conceited breath
We are appointing ourselves to gods
Whereas declaring him for dead
If this is the best we can be
Then please let it end with me
Evolution has brought us so far…

And by the thawing winds of the morning sun,
I pray that our existence will be washed away by dawn

Let the tide rise above
Under a sea of our own greed
Oh but I still can’t see
How this evolution has brought us so far
Creating life and taking life
But denying the results and continue to thrive
I am raising myself to god (but god is dead)
Cause this is the best I can be (and still I'm disappointed)
We have reached our goal (but we will never be satisifed)
Our purposed has been served (and still we continue to thrive)
But still I can’t believe that this is the existence that shall be
We are not the existence that shall be (I can't believe)

If this is the best we can be
Then please let it end with me

I am disappointed in us, I am disappointed in me
If we’re not here for a reason, what is the existence that shall be?
Is this really the best that we can be?
Then please have mercy and let it end with me