1. DIAGRAM FOR SELF DESTRUCTION

(Instrumental)


2. DARK DAYS

Risen from darkness, stand up and be counted
So righteous
Down on your knees, become nothing to me
Sweet catharsis
I remember the day
Never felt so betrayed
Don’t try to pretend that was my parade
You chose to attack, scorpion on my back
I’ve considered you dead and buried for years

For all the passage of time, the dark days
The crushing weight of my mind, my lost ways
The hate I’ve leaned to refine, my dark ways
Live out the rest of your life in dark days
Oh no…

I was bred to trust no one
And you’re no exception, you’ve failed me
Spare me
A lifetime you’ve had to be there and you blew it
You can never amend what’s been broken and bled
Took so many years of treading in quicksand
With all the distance and time
It opened my eyes
And that’s something you’ll never, ever take back

For all the passage of time, the dark days
The crushing weight of my mind, my lost ways
The hate I’ve leaned to refine, my dark ways
Live out the rest of your life in dark days
Oh no…

For all the passage of time, the dark days
The crushing weight of my mind, my lost ways
The hate I’ve leaned to refine, my dark ways
Live out the rest of your life in dark days
Oh no…


3. WASTED APOLOGIES

Lights out for the children of damnation, crawling on all Fours
Flat line for the deranged and complacent, so you know what’s in store
No prayer is strong enough to slow down the heartache Heading for you
Nothing less than a total mental breakdown is heading for You
It’s heading for you

I will be coming, and I’m faster than you know
You won’t see me coming until you’re lying face down In your Wasted apologies
Until the lights go out
Until the monkeys off your back
You may see it coming but there’s nothing you can do
Cause your head has been paralyzed

White lines on the mirror of the psyche dripping down your Throat
Paralyzed by head monsters, your creation
Nothing left but hope
No prayer is strong enough to slow down the heartache Heading for you
Nothing less than a total mental breakdown is heading for You
It’s heading for you

I will be coming, and I’m faster than you know
You won’t see me coming until you’re lying face down In your Wasted apologies
Until the lights go out
Until the monkeys off your back
You may see it coming but there’s nothing you can do
Cause your head has been paralyzed

When you’re standing at the edge of the world holding your Life in your hands
There’s nothing you can do but jump off the edge of the Cliff
And see if you bounce back like a man
Or fall to your death like so many before you have done
If you wanna play the game, then play it
But be warned... not many make the finish line alive
And that’s a fact... Jack

When all our vices fade away
Leave us standing naked and gray
Lost in silence for so long
Fear is a prison
And your time has come
It’s a war of attrition...
A war of attrition...

I will be coming, and I’m faster than you know
You won’t see me coming until you’re lying face down In your Wasted apologies
Until the lights go out
Until the monkeys off your back
You may see it coming but there’s nothing you can do
Cause your head has been paralyzed


4. INTO THE VOID

Is this the end you’ve waited for?
Doesn’t it bring you down?
Is this what you wanted for us all along?
We pay the price for all the lies
As if they’re going to become real
Maybe another time, another place
With somebody else...

When there’s nothing left but noise
We’re closer to the edge
The tide will drag us down
Into the void

Fear the respect you struggle for
Someone to hear your voice
The silence can be deafening when it’s your only company
The greatest vice, just roll the dice
Heaven and Hell are just a breath apart
Praying for someone to care
To read your mind
But nobody can...

When there’s nothing left but noise
We’re closer to the edge
The tide will drag us down
Into the void

When there’s nothing left to say
Then there’s nothing thrown away
And the rest is left to fade to black
In the void

When there’s nothing left but noise
We’re closer to the edge
The tide will drag us down
Into the void

When there’s nothing left to say
Then there’s nothing thrown away
And the rest is left to fade to black
In the void


5. DUST AND BONES

If there’s nothing inside, tell me what are we made of?
When you live with the fear of falling flat smack on your Face
All the voices inside are screaming fits for redemption
And you’re inventing new ways to commit slow motion suicide
You can’t pretend this all away

Massive blow to the heart is like a crack of thunder
It’s just another day lost, like that smile wiped from your Face

You’ve got to scratch that itch until it feels like you're Living
While you're chasing the ghost of what once was and will Never be
As you’re tying the rope, the world just keeps on spinning
You’re just piss in the wind while your life just passes you By

Massive blow to the heart is like a crack of thunder
It’s just another day lost, like that smile wiped from your Face
And the second it hits, oh you will know you’re dying
You can bury your head in the sand until you’re dust and Bones

Massive blow to the heart is like a crack of thunder
It’s just another day lost, like that smile wiped from your Face
And the second it hits, oh you will know you’re dying
You can bury your head in the sand until you’re dust and Bones

And that’ll make it all right


6. BIPOLARITY

She blames us all for her problems
As the world keeps turning
Deep inside, this bitter darkness
That the light won’t penetrate
She can’t see through the clouds that shroud her
Make believe is so much better than life
Everyone is out to get her
Everyone is out to get away from her insanity

She’s in a race to find somebody
Someone to love her no matter what she’s done
But there’s one thing she never realized
It’s come and gone in the blink of an eye
While she forces her needs down our throats
Relationships just twist and bleed
Until there’s nothing left to salvage
Where will she turn when it comes crashing down
On her broken head

We are judged by the way we live our lives
And we know what will save us
Time after time
Some will say that Jesus saves, but this I know
If you can’t help yourself, you’re as good as dead…
You’re as good as dead to me


7. REDEFINED

I know you’re hurt, I’ve felt the pain
Reached out to you one thousand ways
I’m fighting my own emptiness now
But I can’t stop reaching
I’m just scared as hell you’ll fall if I don’t

If I took the time to do things right
With you it’s never just black and white
Maybe it’s not what you want to hear
But I can’t stop feeling
I’m just scared as hell you’ll fall…

Today’s the day I stop living the lie
I’ve found the way to redefine
Redefine who I am

Something told me you wanted me to stay
But it was all just so badly broken
Maybe in time all these scars will fade
But I can’t stop breathing
I’m just scared as hell I’ll fall…

Today’s the day I stop living the lie
I’ve found the way to redefine
Redefine who I am

As much as I loved you
As hard as I tried
The contempt that you’re feeling may be justified
This pushing and pulling
Your emotional war
I’m no worse for the damage
But maybe you’re better off alone


8. 13 STEPS

Millions of lost souls praying for freedom
For a price they’ll set you free
If the cost is admitting I’m hopeless
I’ll take my chances
You pray
So take your faith, I never got it
I’ll be born again when I’m dead

Your god can never save you from the ringing in your ears
Draining everyone one around you
Until there are none

Force fed the lies and bullshit of generations wasted
Found swinging at the end of a short rope
Or are we already gone?
Religion... never worth a fuck
Nothing redeeming
Not relevant in any way

Your god can never save you from the ringing in your ears
Draining everyone one around you
Until there are none

What the fuck is wrong with you people?
You want me to turn my life over to what?
Have you lost your minds?
I got myself here
And I’m not about to turn control over to a fucking fairy Tale

Your god can never save you from the ringing in your ears
Draining everyone one around you
Until there are none

Your god can never save you from the ringing in your ears
Draining everyone one around you
Until there are none


9. BROKEN

Trying to get back to saner places
Sometimes the road won’t always be there
Forgotten memories of a life lost somewhere
Tell me something… could you understand it?
Just take the demons that feed on my impulse
They only go away for so long

There’s someone in my head
And I’m right back where I started
Some things, they never change
I’m broken again

I’ve spent a lifetime running from monsters
But in hindsight, it’s so easy to see
So far gone
So long as I’m breathing
Shocking reality, the monster is me

There’s someone in my head
And I’m right back where I started
Some things, they never change
I’m broken again

The voices inside tell me what to believe
To lead a normal life... it’s all I’ve ever wanted
To bankrupt the soul, leading parallel lives
Did you ever believe in our happy ever after?
Did you ever believe in our happy ever after?
Did you ever believe in our happy ever after?

There’s someone in my head
And I’m right back where I started
Some things, they never change
I’m broken again


10. DRIFT

You run your mouth far too much
Just short of a problem
Stepping over the line was always really your style
The bullshit exits from your mouth faster than you can Throttle it
Is it too much to ask for you to just hang yourself from the Nearest tree
Or bludgeon yourself to death with your favorite whiskey Bottle

(Oh no, it’s just another day in paradise)

Tear my eyes out on the pretense of innocence
I’ll rip your heart out, nobody rides for free

I won’t make the same mistakes
The same mistakes that left us to drift

You pushed me over the edge
And that’s where I lost my feelings
There’s nothing sacred to you
And that’s a fact I can’t swallow
You can whine all you want
But you’re so shallow and broken
Misery is a friend I hope you take with you to the grave

(Oh no, it’s just another day in paradise)

Tear my eyes out on the pretense of innocence
I’ll rip your heart out, nobody rides for free

I won’t make the same mistakes
The same mistakes that left us to drift

I won’t make the same mistakes
The same mistakes that left us…

I won’t make the same mistakes
The same mistakes that left us to drift

You’ve gotta wonder where we are
When all there’s left to do is drift
What is real with so much fiction?
When all there’s left to do is drift


11. SLOW BURN

Slow burn
It takes a little time to see something’s wrong
With the weight of our words
It’s on my face
No way to end the pain
And it’s killing me

Time takes its time
Pay for every wrong
I’ve paid so many ways that there’s nothing left to take
Time ending time
Take this life
And leave it all behind


12. STAINED INSIDE

What you see outside ain’t real
You’re just a puppet
Pull your strings, make you feel
I burrow deep inside your brain
And once I’m in there’s just a single endgame

Can anybody see me here?
Just let it go...
Can anybody take the way I feel
And tear it from my head?

I am the answer to your prayers
I’m your tears
I am the harbinger of death
I am fear
I’ll show you love until you feel so secure
I’m death’s reflection that you see in the mirror

Can anybody see me here?
Just let it go...
Can anybody take the way I feel
And tear it from my head?

You’re stained inside
You’re stained inside

Can anybody see me here?
Just let it go...
Can anybody take the way I feel
And tear it from my head?


13. OFF THE EDGE OF THE WORLD

So that’s the way it is
No more, no less, such a spoiled child
The weakest parts just left to fall apart
Now the cancer’s spreading...

Time left nowhere to hide
Just tear apart my all, my being
But as long as I’m still standing I swear to god I’ll pay it Forward

Don’t let me fade away
I’ve fallen off the edge of the world
Don’t let me close my eyes
Cause I might never wake again

You’ll get just what you seek
It’s how you bleed, not who you bleed for
There is no god
No plan
Nobody to blame
Just yourself
Time has a way with things
The heights you’ve attained can come crashing down
You know they say you’ll find your place
But do you ever really know?

Don’t let me fade away
I’ve fallen off the edge of the world
Don’t let me close my eyes
Cause I might never wake again

What I miss most are your beautiful eyes
They kept me alive through my darkest days
You may never let go of what’s lost deep inside
But you’ll be the last beat of my heart
As everything fades to gray…