1. CHEMICAL

I let you tell me how it goes and when it's all gonna end
I put you first in the world but you hate me again
I'm stuck with the thoughts that remind me of
All the things that you couldn't just seem to love

I almost had you in my hands
Some things never go as planned
Took as much as I could stand
Some things never change

Show me what I gotta do to let go
All I really know is that it's chemical
Turn the lights off, let the door close
If it's meant to be then it's chemical
Chemical, chemical, chemical
All I really know is that it's chemical

I let you tear me all apart and watched you put it all back
And like a dose too heavy all my blood's going black
But you push and you pull 'til it's deadly
I bet you'd love to know that I'm shaking

Closer than it's ever been
Farther than it's ever felt
You won't ever understand
Some things never change

Show me what I gotta do to let go
All I really know is that it's chemical
Turn the lights off, let the door close
If it's meant to be then it's chemical
Chemical, chemical, chemical
All I really know is that it's chemical

It's killing me to know that I almost had you
It's killing me to know you're still in my veins

It's killing me to know that I almost let go
To see the wind pushing you

Show me what I gotta do to let go
All I really know is that it's chemical
Turn the lights off, let the door close
If it's meant to be then it's (chemical)

Show me what I gotta do to let go
All I really know is that it's chemical
Turn the lights off, let the door close
If it's meant to be then it's chemical
Chemical, chemical, chemical
All I really know is that it's chemical


2. DISASSOCIATE

Watch me go and, watch me go and
Sever everything here that I feel close to
I don't know why
I don't know why I feel the disassociation
From you I'm forsaken, crowded room I hate this
I don't feel surrounded, poison dead without it

Now I've gotta take a breath
Tell myself there's love to give
Now I've gotta take a breath
Lack of shadow's caving in
It's caving in, caving in
My lack of shadow is caving in

It's been about a season since I haven't needed you
It's been about a decade since I felt complete
Can you tell that I'm suffocating
The pain inside me, it's activating
Activating

Now I've gotta take a breath
Tell myself there's love to give
Now I've gotta take a breath
Lack of shadow's caving in
It's caving in, caving in
My lack of shadow is caving in

I can feel it caving in on me so close
Do you even feel me here
Can you tell that it's activating
Do you even feel me here

Can you feel my
Can you feel my
Can you feel my Disassociation

Do you even feel me here


3. FAKE SMILE

Show your teeth, show your teeth
They can all look but they won't see
You're the only one who knows where to find me

Even when I feel the night going slow, you find a way to get your words to me
And I just try to block it all out cause let it go's all that you say to me
So can you say something stronger now, say what I need?
Could you say that you're sorry now, in the tongue that you keep speaking

But you could find a halo
And it wouldn't change a thing
What the hell do you know?
Let it go is all that you say to me

Show your teeth, show your teeth
They can all look but they won't see
You're the only one who knows where to find me
So just find me alone instead
Count all the days I spend
Breaking the bones I bend
The feeling is real but the smile, the smile is fake

Now your empathy seems reserved for someone else
And though it hurts to say, I miss the way you made me see myself
But I've watched your gaze decay away into an empty stare
And even though you understand me still, it doesn't mean you care

And you could find a halo
And it wouldn't change a thing
What the hell do you know?
Let it go is all that you say to me

Show your teeth, show your teeth
They can all look but they won't see
You're the only one who knows where to find me
So just find me alone instead
Count all the days I spend
Breaking the bones I bend
The feeling is real but the smile, the smile is fake

The smile is faker, the future is bleaker, I'm running out of things to hold onto
Your face in the moment is all that I see and, I hate the way I feel when I'm with you
Cause the world keeps spinning and you keep singing that I should just cover up
And I'm sick of it

Show your teeth, show your teeth
They can all look but they won't see
You're the only one who knows where to find me
So just find me alone instead
Count all the days I spend
Breaking the bones I bend
The feeling is real but the smile, the smile is fake

Find me alone instead
Count all the days I spend
Breaking the bones I bend


4. ALONE (OUT OF MY HEAD)

You sat in the doorway and I couldn't see straight, I rubbed my eyes to see you
I told you to run, you took a look at the sun, looked me right in the face and I knew
I think you really meant it then, I feel like there was weight up on the words you said
But I don't think you mean it now, I hear your voice all the time and it's a different sound

I can't do this alone, cut me to the bone, gotta get you outta my head
I can't do this alone, cut me to the bone, gotta get you outta my
Gotta get you outta my head, my head
My head, my head
(Gotta get you outta my head)

I gotta get you outta my system, you played the victim
But we did everything so wrong together, everything so wrong
And I just want you to know that, I can't even function, I can't even focus in
I just want you to know that I can't even listen, your words are crippling

Gotta get you outta my head, my head
My head, my head
(Gotta get you outta my head)

Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, I gotta get you outta my...

Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head

I can't do this alone
I can't do this alone

I can't do this alone, cut me to the bone, gotta get you outta my
Gotta get you outta my head, my head
My head, my head
(Gotta get you outta my head)

Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, can't get you outta my head
Get you outta my, I gotta get you outta my...


5. THE EDGE OF YOUR BED

So why'd you follow? Even if it meant
We would only be sleeping when we're dead
Took a road that we couldn't return from
And I found sorrow at the edge of your bed

She can't be lonely as she says she is
And I can't do anything to change how it is
I'll probably take down all the pictures, if to you it's all the same
So why'd you have to run, why'd you have to go and keep calling out my name
Calling out my name

So why'd you follow? Even if it meant
We would only be sleeping when we're dead
Took a road that we couldn't return from
And I found sorrow at the edge of your bed
Follow even if it meant
We would only be sleeping when we're dead
Took a road that we couldn't return from
And I found sorrow at the edge of your bed

I found sorrow here
I found sorrow here
I found sorrow here
I found sorrow at the edge of your bed

Is it now a bad habit?
Where I can only feel peace when the wave hits
And I've become what I thought was wrong
I love the feeling when it feels too strong

Is it now a bad habit?
Where I can only feel peace when the wave hits
And I've become what I thought was wrong
I love the feeling when it feels too strong

Is it now a bad habit?
Where I can only feel peace when the wave hits
I've become what I thought was wrong
I love the feeling when it feels too strong

So why'd you follow? Even if it meant
We would only be sleeping when we're dead
Took a road that we couldn't return from
And I found sorrow at the edge of your bed
Follow even if it meant
We would only be sleeping when we're dead
Took a road that we couldn't return from
And I found sorrow at the edge of your bed


6. VANISH

No hope, no sign
Fading I feel it by the hour
You changed your mind
No time to get a little louder like

Lately there's been a lot to run away from
It's taking time now to bury all the pain from you
And I just can't see
How to get home from the way that you took me through
I've been caught in a spiral
Counting the people I'm losing in my world
I never thought I'd be just a tack on the wall
I never thought we'd go from a run to a crawl

No hope, no sign
You changed your mind
No hope, no sign

So why'd you have to go and just vanish away from me?
Now I see you in my sleep
I feel shadows and figures, and I hear the whispers
But now I see you in my sleep

I feel shadows and figures
And I swear I hear the whispers
But what's it gonna take for you
What's it gonna take just to get a little closer now
Just to get a little closer now

No hope, no sign
Fading I feel it by the hour
You changed your mind

So why'd you have to go and just vanish away from me?
Now I see you in my sleep
I feel shadows and figures, and I hear the whispers
But now I see you in my sleep

Vanish away from me
Vanish away from me


7. 171 XO

You won't come home, but it's true
I hope you know that I can see
The way that you keep running back to me
Why do you keep running back to me?
So what the hell did you even see in me?
Why don't you just

Sleep up, sleep up
You can call me in the morning when you're feeling all blue like
Leave us, leave us
In the past took our love and you put it in the noose
So why should I forgive you?
You're the reason I choose
Feelings, feelings
Feelings over everybody else I knew

Now you won't come home, and you won't get close
And you pay me no mind now, until you're feeling all cold
And now you got a lot to lose
With the same old people in the same old room
And now you got a lot to prove
Baby I know you're a safe bet to lose

Sleep up, sleep up
You can call me in the morning when you're feeling all blue like
Leave us, leave us
In the past took our love and you put it in the noose
So why should I forgive you?
You're the reason I choose
Feelings, feelings
Feelings over everybody else I knew
Feelings over everybody else I knew

And you won't get close now
Cause you wanna feel the distance
And you're feeling all cold now
But you won't come home

Sleep up, sleep up
You can call me in the morning when you're feeling all blue like
Leave us, leave us
In the past took our love and you put it in the noose
So why should I forgive you?
You're the reason I choose
Feelings, feelings
Feelings over everybody else I knew


8. LEARN TO LOSE AND IT ALL GETS EASIER

You used to sleep away
All the time in the world and now you just won't stay
She can say my name
As many times as she needs to
If you need me then I'll see you
We learn to lose and we let go
And I know it's, I know it's
I know it's just overwhelming

But the more that I look, the less that I see
The more that you go, the less that I breathe
The more that I lose, the more that I need
And it's overwhelming
The more that I look, the less that I see
The more that you go, the less that I breathe
The more that I lose, the more that I need
And it's overwhelming

The more that I look, the less that I see
The more that you go, the less that I breathe
The more that I lose, the more that I need
And it's overwhelming
The more that I look, the less that I see
The more that you go, the less that I breathe
The more that I lose, the more that I need
And it's overwhelming


9. LOST BETWEEN

I remember
Everything a little bit brighter than this
And I remember
The feeling of your touch on my wrist
December comes and I go crazy
Everything stops I feel like you hate me
I remember everything caving
I remember everything caving

And I can still feel the pressure weighing down on my chest oh no
It's not getting any better, no it's not oh

So would you tell me I'm wrong
Can't stop thinking that I'm not worth saving
Here on my own
Why do I still feel so lost between
Who I am and who you wanted me to be?

Tell me I'm wrong now, tell me you're gone now
Sing me a song that we used to sing
Follow along now, follow along now
I hate the way you feel so differently
And it's been so long
No love for a place you showed me
The scent of the ocean stained my skin
Time moves on but the wound heals slowly

So would you tell me I'm wrong
Can't stop thinking that I'm not worth saving
Here on my own
Why do I still feel so lost between
Who I am and who you wanted me to be?

I've gotta know, does your heart still scream my name
I've gotta know, did the cold freeze up your mind and wash me away
Wash me away
Time moves on but the wound heals slowly

And I can still feel the pressure
Weighing down on my chest oh no
It's not getting any better
No it's not oh

So would you tell me I'm wrong
Can't stop thinking that I'm not worth saving
Here on my own
Why do I still feel so lost between
Who I am and who you wanted me to be?

I remember
Everything a little bit brighter than this
And I remember
The feeling of your touch on my wrist


10. THE OTHER SIDE OF THINGS

I look up the street and I see your house now
I see the sun but the cold begins
I can't bear to feel it anymore
I had to go and leave, follow pain within

Everything went and changed the day you left
Now I sit awake dying here instead

I see your mother, your sister, your father
I hope they understand you
I see your mother, your sister, your father
And my heart breaks to that view

Cause now you know, now you know
Everything to feel on the other side of things
Now you know, now you know
Everything it took to break inside of me

Now I know, now I know
I hope you don't, I hope you don't
Hate me for following a path of substance
And self abuse so I can keep on running
So I can go and chase a darker truth
So I appreciate all of the brighter views
So I can feel the things that went and ruined you
So I can realize what it takes to choose

I can't even hear your voice inside my head
Can't even think of all the funny shit you said

Now you're sleeping
Now you're dreaming
Now you let go
Now you echo

I see your mother, your sister, your father
I hope they understand you
I see your mother, your sister, your father
And my heart breaks to that view

Cause now you know, now you know
Everything to feel on the other side of things
Now you know, now you know
Everything it took to break inside of me

Now you know, now you know
Everything to feel on the other side of things
Now you know, now you know
Now I'm losing you


11. GONE IN YOUR WAKE

Maybe I felt a little too much for you cause I came crashing down
Maybe I broke, maybe I should go to you, but you won't see me
Maybe I was just a stepping stone for you to walk across
Maybe I was meant, maybe I was meant to lose you all along

But I just never got a chance to show
You the man that I've become today
And I just hope you took the time to know
I was lost for years, I'm gone in your wake
I'm gone, I'm gone in your wake

I'm sorry I tried to let you close up the void you saw in me
But I don't think I'll ever re-find the love we shared. You ruined me
Maybe I was just a stepping stone for you to walk across
Maybe I was meant, maybe I was meant to lose you all along

But I just never got a chance to show
You the man that I've become today
And I just hope you took the time to know
I was lost for years, I'm gone in your wake