1. OLD YOUTH

Bright lights
And freight trains
Are rolling
Fast paced
Into the future
Or back in time
Way ahead
Or way behind
But you still creep along all alone
The longest fall has yet to come
You’re obsessing
With a story
That's been haunting you
For so long
You always wanted to tear down the world
To have something to rebuild
You always wanted to find
The darkest places to hide
And I wondered why ?
You always knew that this day would come
Ready for it all along
I didn’t know what to say
Words and thoughts all astray
I was not able to take the pain away
A regret
That’s been sitting there for years
The guilt
That’s been manifesting fears
Bad teeth
Dead roots
A tooth pulled
A youth ruined
If I could
I would choose
To be the one
That could be of use


2. THRIVE AND WITHER

No blooming flowers in these fields
No truth in this trees falling leaves
And in the darkness we create
From dearest lovers broken friends
We just disappear
'Cause we disagree
We just disappear
When fear is crawling in
We try to hold our tongues
Pretend that nothings wrong
And praise the comfort zone
Until the comfort’s gone
We bounce from left to right
We grow louder all the time
Caught in a cage of desperate tries
A gap then space then emptied eyes
The temple which your body seems
Is just a ruin golden debris
Your hollowness flooded to the rim
Drown all your fears deep within
You levitate you love you live
You feel you fall you break you quit
As soon as the world spins again
Gravitation hits your head and then
You seem to fall out of line
Second thoughts second tries
Enough is enough and you crawl back outside
When the shell get’s to tight
Nowhere to run
And no place to hide
Enough is enough and you crawl back outside
When this shell get’s to tight
It’s just a feeling inside
You couldn’t feel at all
It’s just a feeling inside
You may have fought too long
It’s just a feeling inside
It’s just a feeling you hide
You levitate you love you live
You feel you fall you break you quit
Just take this brick
And build a house
And when the rising sun
Brings the morning warmth
The mask on your face
Will melt away with it
The rising sun
And the morning warmth
Will melt away the mask
You were used to all these years


3. ANGST

It took me quite some time
To accept
That a consequence of living
Is dying
But I just can't accept
That a consequence of loving
Is trying
Because all decisions we make
Along the way
Have no purpose at all then why
Bother and try at all ?
And it turned out
As a matter of fact
That 9to5 killed the illusion of life we had
As a child
So life passes by
And death passes through
While cuffed to our daily routines
We do whats left to do
I have already spent
Too much time
And too much breath
I have already tried
To run away
As fast as I can
Another breath
A breakdown
Get up
Start all over again


4. FLOOD DREAMS

When rough seas
Flood your sleep
And you fear
To drown in dreams
I will try hard and give my best
To wake you up
With a punch to your chest
When your sleep
Is as cold as the sea
And you’re afraid
That your breath will freeze
I’ll be your spark
A spark so strong
I will ignite all oceans at once
I am the spark
In the night
That ignites
A fire so strong
It'll light up all oceans at once
Then a warmth will come your way
And takes from you the pain
And a breeze will fill your sails
'Til this ship hits land again
You’ll be safe
You’ll be ok
And on your arrival day
A storm will clear the bay
Every wish you’ve ever made
Comes true in every single way


5. GLASS

It didn’t seem to be the time
To invoke fears with made-up lies
And I couldn’t distinguish the feelings
Or even all those facts far from opinions
I’ve built a house
Made out of glass
To have a glimpse at this worlds end
To be able to reach out and help
Well everyone else except myself
I’ve built a house
With thinnest walls
Buried myself in a building so small
Now everybody should be able to hear
The choir of bones the hymn of my fears
And I can hear them sing
And I can hear them hum
Break the glass throw the stone !
But I have nowhere to go !


6. IF YOU BUILD IT...

(Instrumental)


7. ...THEY WILL COME

I should take this nap and rest
My bones to this sound
And to release the pressure from my ribs
I am cracking my chest open
So I have proof for the masses
That my hearts tinge is black
And I just can’t define
The sound of my voice
And this choral frown
Is my sign of defeat


8. FATHOMED

I slept through the storm
But sailed the sea and lived
And the salt on my skin reminded me
Of what this place has to give
I swam through the tides
And dived for unknown wrecks
And I've cut my veins wide open
For a world I don’t understand
I inhaled the streams
To let my last breath go
And I drifted through the currents
Just to go with the flow
I drowned all my thoughts
Just to see how it feels
Sweetest suffocation that never
Resembled with all my needs
So I drank from the ocean
'Til there was nothing left
Revealed all your treasures
Stole what’s worth and sold the theft
Running over the same old plans
While waiting for the world to blink
Then break
And cut
All goals apart
I missed the mark
To fix all things
I broke apart
I never fixed it


9. SMOKE AND MIRRORS

I rode the path to forgiveness
On a horse rotten to the bones
And in the shallowest moonlight
I lost track of all my goals
But I remembered
Not to forget
All the patterns look the same
And our paths will meet again
And life knows how to scare me
When easy things turn heavy
But death can't scare me
Death can take me
Yeah can you hear me
Vome and get me
I can't sing about revelation
And I can't give absolution to a sinners soul
I won’t write about salvation
When all I ever wanted was to let go
Yet I am not even close
A constant worried mind
And where our paths should've crossed
I always vanished on time
I am not here to help
Nor am I here to free you
I am the bridge that connects
Said life all needs and your worst virtues
There’s no point in satisfaction
When you’ve never learned
How it feels to be satisfied
And I've been told that life's a ride
Then fucking ride it 'til you die


10. TWENTYONE

A pine-tree a west-wind
You curl up the plot is twisting
A headache a heartburn
All because you couldn’t sleep in
Well nothing’s changed
And everything stays the same
And everyone is talking
When no one’s got something to say
You wrote it down
But you burned the notes
The story no one should ever read
A cracked spine a scarred face
Just a metaphor you have misplaced
A spring creek a mine field
The footsteps you’re retracing
But they mislead
And now you’re on your own
In a maze that
No one ever solved
When it felt to be alive
You stopped the moment that revived
All the memories you had
And your regrets
When it felt so right
But so wrong at the same time
Blindfolded
All alone
In a maze
No one will solve


11. LINED SKIN, ROTTEN HULL

Even if the ocean
Gets taken by low tide
Soon time and the current
Will bring those shorelines back to life
No one to blame
But the moon one says
So if I get the chance one day
And gain access to the forces of the planets
That are affecting these oceans
To move restless
I swear I will control them
Just the way that they won't do you
No harm ever again
And then I will keep you close until the end
Life's a sinking ship
A drowning island
A bright burning rig
In the middle of a rough and hopeless sea
We try to bring it to anchor
But do fail at failsafe tasks
A shipwreck rotten to the hull that
Will never sail us back
And like a sinking stone
You’re drowning all alone
And life is a breaking wave
A restless sea
A ruthless force