1. AT THE BARRICADES

So it's a fact now
What should have been flooded the best years of my life down the drain
So I'm on the bed, I hate the heart for pumping
Things will never be the same

Wish I was dead and no one cared
Wish I was dead and that I cared

Off to fight despair
Truthfully I really should have been aware, I clench my fist
So I bite down hard, I won't go out like this
Yes you'll find me there
At the barricades

I'll see you at the barricades
Meet you there at the barricades

So I'm at the front, I hate my heart for pumping
Things will always be the same
It always ends like this, always has and always will
You're all the same

Wish I was dead and no one cared
Wish I was dead and that I cared
Wish you were dead and no one cared
Wish you were dead and that I cared

I'll see you at the barricades
Meet you there at the barricades


2. CRASH COURSE

Racing rain-drenched roads of dimness
The incesant light-pulse
Invades your privacy
Heading nowhere special

An indecisive gaze at nothing
As your mind's drawn blank
And outside features start to fade

Sad to see you end this way
Chasing your self-hatred

Streetlights flashing by in thousands
The city traffic's round the bend
Seems your number has come up
It's closing stages now
Look, here comes the end

As the pulses intensify
A shimmer on the pallor of your face
You see the crash and press down hard
Somehow to ease the impact

You know you should have hit the brakes
What a fucking waste
The way the world just smashed right into your face
So many things you should have done
The spans you could have run
I'm sad to see you end this way

Sad to see you end this way
Facing your self-hatred


3. THANKS TO YOU

I feel tired of all my expectations
Constantly getting ruined by her
Of all I ever wanted from life
Being guarded by some bloody unbreakable wall

Seems I'll never get there
Seems I'll never break through
Thanks to you...

Suck me dry!
I give myself, my soul, my will
I give it all to you
Don't you dare let go
I give my life, my whole
I give it all to you!

Seems I'll never get there
Seems I'll never break through
Thanks to you…

I feel cheated on
My enthusiasm ever certain aims I've set
On the fundamental will to create
Seems I'm always held back
By her distant ways
Seems she's pulling the lease
Every time I'm in need of a chase...

Suck me dry!
I give myself, my soul, my will
I give it all to you
Don't you dare let go
I give my life, my whole
I give it all to you!

I need her to break me
I like when she hates me
I know there's a comfort in fading
Vaguely declining
The pulse rising high
As she tightens the grip
The drought left behind
As she empties it all…


4. SECOND AND LAST BUT NOT ALWAYS

Hanging by the thinnest of threads
Trying to secure a decent grip
Before you smash the line
Clearly it's a futile act
Truth be told, that's how I felt the whole time

Waiting for the verdict to fall
You're not fit to stay here

I knew it all along
Visibly I cannot help it
You were meant to assure me
So I did not stray
I felt it all along
Obviously I cannot help it
You were meant to assure me
Can you recall?

Realize with bitter hindsight
You were meant to applaud me, reassure me
Instead you smashed the line

I knew it all along
Visibly I cannot help it
You were meant to assure me
So I did not stray
I felt it all along
Obviously I cannot help it
You were meant to assure me
My precious, my precious


5. REVELLING MASSES

The spread of tension mounting to the point
It feels you're to explode
Pressure rising, muscles cramp
Then comes the blast of expectations
You've got nowhere left to hide
You've got nowhere left to hide

You're struggling desperately to overcome the strain
Lashing out at everyone, in vain
The closing hit that match the marking of your first
Delivered into chaos, you're alive

You've got front row goddamn seats to gloat at misery
The lack of empathy shines through
I know you hear me
Although unable to relate
I know you hear me

Live and breathe... from reveling masses
Learn to feed on reveling masses

The end is approaching
Seeping in to lay its veil-like calm upon you
To soothe and ease an erratic mind
The reveling starts to fade…


6. LEAVE-TAKINGS

Hear now, my pretty
You're not around too frequently
So please note I miss you
But certain things are still untold

This I will bestow
Apart from what you know
Christ, I'm sorry love
I'm a sinner

Sought for by pity
Hence every corner shelter
Hunted shamelessly
I think I'm giving in

Truth be told, I'm feelin
g old
I have no strength
I'm a quitter!

Leave-takings...

Trust me, my pretty
When I say I'm truly sorry
And notice I'll miss you
But I am truthful to my name

Honest with my shame
I really need the blame
Yes, I'm truthful to my name
I'm a sinner!

Too weary to press on
What was is forever gone
Embittered by the trend
What's broke you cannot mend…


7. THE COST

Slaughter by the minute, profit by the day
Everyone is in it, media accentuates
Self is just a word now, meaningless to all
Narcissistic models show you how to fall

Think no more!
Think no more!

So, this... this is what you wanted to withhold?
In truth, that is all you ever seem to do

Exceeding, surpassing, mere growing
Mere rising, they're killing perception
We're victims of craze
The thinner the better
The weightless, beget her!
The world breaking way
It's all in your head

This is not an act
I hope you realize the pain it causes
It's a goddamn fact
The amount of load put on our backs

Murder by the minute, earnings by the day
Everyone is in it, media accentuates
We are just a market
Watch us how we crawl
Down on bloodied knees now
How they bought us all

Think no more!
Think no more!

So, this... this is what you wanted to withhold?
In truth, that is all you ever seem to do


8. DEADENED

I know that it is dark, love
I know that it's hard to push ahead
You might seem faint now
But I know you'll shine with full force one day

It's not as if I've killed you
It's not as if you've died
I might have fed you cancer
but nothing you can't hide!

I wish for progress
I wish for growth
For you to prosper and show some backbone
Wish you a circlet
Wish you a throne
For you to strengthen
Stand on your own

I know I brought the plague, love
I know that I chose side
I'd make amends but it would cost
Too much merely for the ride

Poor excuse, although a fact
You knew from the start it was all an act
I haven't always lacked concern
A simple choice to have it burned...

But a door that leads to nowhere
A gun without a cause
A letter lacking address
Or like anger without pause...

I find you distancing yourself
I find you mean
A cutting sharp infection
So hopelessly unclean!

She stares with dead eyes
Quietened, insane
Her cancer's clear though
Time and time again

I need some help here
She's lost control
A raving black disease inside her soul
Her tongue is spiteful but means no ill
It's this wretched cancer that slowly kills…


9. ONE WARNING

I will not stop for anything
I will not drop this for anyone
You'll have to learn to appreciate the fact
That you're the one I hate
The one I hate!

One warning, that's all you get
One single notice, care to bet?

Reach for my gun, soon to realize
No matter what you'll be lying
I wake at nights crying out for you
Ear-splitting mindless point of views
Point of views...

One warning, that's all you get
One single notice, care to bet?

I wonder why, I wish you'd say
I know you won't to my dismay
I cannot live like this
And I really don't appreciate what you sense...

One warning, that's all you get
One single notice, care to bet?


10. SETTLE SOON

The black, closing around you...
The lack, to tuck you in...
Tears to bid you goodnight
Fears to wake you just to find...

The hurt, it's still there
A short moment there
You thought it was gone
The promise never to forget
The secret pledge of all-time suffering

This fever will break at some point
The dark mist, settle soon
Perhaps but one thing's certain
I'll be there, try to guide you through...

I'll be your light, you second sight
Please let me guide you right
I'd make amends and I'd recompense for all
If only I knew how
I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me show the way back
I'll be your friend and I'll try to mend
Whichever piece is broken

I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me guide you right
I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me show the way back
I'll be your friend and I'll try to mend
Whichever piece is broken

This fever will break at some point
The dark mist, settle soon
Perhaps but one thing's certain
I'll be there, try to guide you through...

Only if you want me to
And only if you need me to...
Just say the word, say the word
Just say the word!