1. RIGGED

What do I say
They told me that I'm too much to handle
I've gotten way too fucking carried away
And damn it's a shame
These fuckers had the best and they blew it
I'm running circles around the pussies they've made
I don't even care if I'm late
And I will never make the mistake
Of letting some crooked mother fucker steal the life from every one of my veins
How many times do I have to fight
To prove something that's already standing here in plain sight?

Maybe if you ever looked
You'd see more than everything they want you to see
And maybe if it's not enough
Someone else will take the crown if ever I leave

They never question when I say a thing
They know it's coming so they move aside and take their place
It's always different when it's face to face
Don't fucking question what you've never seen or had to chase
Look alive, look alive you're barren
There's not a fight, no insight worth giving
What makes you feel? And do you feel this at all?

With no words to say, dismembered every frame
Locked out and now the close minded make their claims
Do you see me now?
Are my conclusions profound?

Start new every day until you make it perfect in every way

What's left in me? Guess we'll see
Didn't see this coming
What's left in me, left in me?
What's left in me? Guess we'll see
Didn't see this coming
What's left in me, left in me?

What's left in me? Guess we'll see
Didn't see this coming
What's left in me, left in me?


2. NOT JUST BREATHING

I was never clear before, I lost myself and you were weak
Sorry but I must inform the others on intentions that you seek
How do I choose a side?
I'm just trying, I'm just fighting to say

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing

She only cares about the way she looks
Can't think for herself she's just a frame
A body dwelling on this earth
A user of the desperate and the vain
Maybe there's someone out there
Who's good with speaking to a blank stare
I know I'm preaching to a lost cause but at least I know

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing

Stay away from me
Stay away from me

I'm not afraid to speak my mind and throw this life away
I've been enslaved, and years of wasting time made me this way
No it won't get better, we'll just drift apart
And when you do start trying I hope you're reminded

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing

Time will tell but I wait patiently
There's not a single string attached to you that I can't see
It's like the longer I wait the more you disintegrate
There's not a moment I don't hope for you but I can't wait

Time will tell but I wait patiently
There's not a single string attached to you that I can't see
It's like the longer I wait the more you disintegrate
There's not a moment I don't hope for you but I can't wait

Stay away from me
Stay away from me

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing


3. ONE LAST TIME

Waking up on the floor
With no one else in the room
I never felt like this before
I just hope I'm leaving soon

And if tomorrow I don't wake up
Just know I really tried
To make the best of your forgiveness

Tell me one last time
How I never tried

Was so close to breaking through last time
Thought that I'd be sheltered
By nothingness
By the lack of consciousness

But I lay here awake
Too afraid to dream
Cause if I might have to face myself
I'll buckle at my knees

Tell me one last time
How I never tried

I've seen the light
But never felt this close
Pushed my pain aside
Cause I could never give it to those

Cause I never see the point in sharing defeat
Displaying my debts to the world
I just live in repeat, vacant and desperate

Tell me one last time
How I never tried

And if tomorrow I don't wake up
Just know I really tried
To make the best of your forgiveness
And tell my brother he'll be fine


4. I ALWAYS WANTED TO LEAVE

I always wanted to leave
I'm just so sick of how
You just invested in me
So now I gotta find the best way out
(I always wanted to leave)

Too many days that I've wasted
Say that I'm abrasive, complacent
Got you moving back and you can't face it
Some days I wish that both my lungs would cave
Fall asleep and never wake so that my words could breathe
Spare me all your insecurities
I've got my own but I don't flaunt 'em so religiously
Why do I keep giving time away
Guess I just have to say

I always wanted to leave
I'm just so sick of how
You just invested in me
So now I gotta find my own way now
(I always wanted to leave)

I guess it's a shame
I'm so damn destructive
And you're so reluctant to mean what you say
The way you act so abused
The things you confuse
You know I always wanted to leave

"Hello...
You can sing, I'm here
And I love you more than anyone or anything
With all my heart."

I always wanted to leave
(I always wanted to leave)
I'm just so sick of how
You cut the deepest in me
Go find another wrist to leech from now
I always wanted to leave
Yeah, yeah
Oh, oh, oh yeah
Yeah, yeah
(I always wanted to leave)
Yeah
I always wanted to leave


5. FEEL NOTHING

Before I say another word
Just know that my intentions were pure
But you can't stand to be in silence
All you can hear is your own voice, fueling delusion in you
And I'm just...

So sick of backing down that I might just spill it all
And if I do you won't be coming back without a deep scar in your soul
Are you not sick of playing games
Sick of giving blame
Sick of fucking living like the world has never given you a life defining day?

And I can't relate
And I feel nothing for you
I feel nothing for you
And I feel
It's too late, too late
I've buried this and it's evident
You won't change, won't change
I feel nothing for...

My mind is torn, I hate it but I long to feel what I felt before
But you just keep moving towards me
What do I do what do I say
Can you kindly just refrain
What's here for me

Why hide the truth
That I feel nothing for you
I feel nothing for you
And I feel
It's too late, too late
I've buried this and it's evident
You won't change, won't change
I feel nothing for you

Broke away but you're starving for closure
Seem together but you know that I know ya
Know this is real, this is real

It's too late, too late
I've buried this and it's evident
You won't change, won't change
I feel
It's too late, too late
I've buried this and it's evident
You won't change, won't change
I feel nothing for you
I feel nothing for you
And I feel...


6. HAPPY

(Instrumental)


7. THE ONE YOU LOVED

Do you remember what I said
The night that I just spilled my soul?
I told you things about myself
Things that no one else should know
You see the thoughts behind my eyes
You try to ask but you don't pry
We feel the same but we don't speak
You cannot make up your mind
There's always some form of excuse
There's nothing left for me to prove
I try to hold on cause you know I hate to lose

What happened to the one I loved?
Was the change in me not strong enough?
Was it something else?
Cause I tried my best
What happened to the one I loved?
Was the sober me not good enough?
Is there someone new?
I can't get through to you

I can't get out of my head
Time with you is what I dread
When it's you and me, apparently
I don't seem to phase you, so I chase you
Just to be shot down I never break through

All these fucked up restless nights
Always haunt my sleepless mind
Only trying to survive
But you won't even look me in my eyes
Always some form of excuse
There's nothing left for me to prove
I tried to hold on but I know I need to lose

What happened to the one I loved?
Was the change in me not strong enough?
Was it something else?
Cause I tried my best
What happened to the one I loved?
Was the sober me not good enough?
Is there someone new?
I can't get through to you

I start to think out loud
And with every sound, she breaks
With a shattered soul
She was the black hole when I roamed space
When I roamed space

What happened to the one I loved?
Was the sober me not good enough?
Was it something else?
Cause I tried my best
What happened to the one I loved?
Was the sober me not strong enough?
Is it something else?
I can't get through to you

What happened to the one I loved?
Was the change in me not strong enough?
Was it something else?
Cause I tried my best
What happened to the one I loved?
Was the sober me not good enough?
Is there someone new?
I can't get through to you

What happened to the one I loved?
Was the change in me not strong enough?
Was it something else?
Cause I tried my best
What happened to the one I loved?
Was the sober me not good enough?
Is there someone new?
I can't get through to you

Is there someone new?
I can't get through to you


8. PAID IN FULL

You're losing me
Stuck inside a loop and though you always disagree
There's nothing I can do
So I just

Let go and let you suffocate
Cause you know, you know that you're too late
This I swear to you no matter what you do
I'm gone for good

(You've always known I never show where my heads at 'til it's gone)
You've always said you're just a thread, just sew me up and I'll say
Take my breath away, I'm okay
Good to know that you're still fading
I've bled myself for this
Paid in full, but now I'm cashing out

When it's face to face you just change
Hurts to see me yeah you hate it
You failed to see the strength in me
But now you're finding out

You see my face
Blank and empty, just waiting to leave this place
I should've known
To cut this off and just suffer as I grow

So let go, I know it's hard to take
And you know, you know what's on my plate
This I swear to you no matter what you do
I'm gone for good

Take my breath away, I'm okay
Good to know that you're still fading
I've bled myself for this
Paid in full, but now I'm cashing out

When it's face to face you just change
Hurts to see me yeah you hate it
You failed to see the strength in me
But now you're finding out

And if you hurt yourself to prove something else
Know I hardly remember your face
There's nothing left to prove
Feel like I barely knew this demon
I thought would stay in one place
But I'm gone

Take my breath away, I'm okay
Good to know that you're still fading
(You failed to see the strength in me, but now you're finding out)

When it's face to face you just change
Hurts to see me yeah you hate it
You failed to see the strength in me
But now you're finding out

The strength in me
But now you're finding out


9. THE SOUND

There was a time when I brought light to your eyes
Even the worst of days could not keep us apart
And you weren't afraid to spill those evil thoughts
Even the ones that made you question who you are

You feel it, eyes racing, my feet were buried in the ground
My chains break, I can't take the sounds
I don't feel like I still have anything to hold me here
My steps fade, she can't take the sound

The good days fade, the bad ones take
And break the spirits we once shared
Every touch feels empty now
You took my words and they cut deep
And keep replaying in your head
I'm moving mountains as you drown

You feel it, eyes racing, my feet were buried in the ground
My chains break, I can't take the sounds
I don't feel like I still have anything to hold me here
My steps fade, she can't take the sound

You feel it, eyes racing, my feet were buried in the ground
My chains break, I can't take the sounds, the sounds
I don't feel like I still have anything to hold me here
My steps fade, she can't take the sound


10. DISPOSABLE FIX

I could have fucked her for days
But thinking about it
Maybe I just thrive on the chase
And I'm in lust

And you never take time to look through
Everything I try, try to do for you

And you, you, you need to prove, prove, prove you're in it
And let go of every fear you had

Lay low, lay low
She knows, she knows
Blow white straight to my brain
Works best when she's complaining

And I said give me a break
I'm only human

Fucked with too many petty bitches, ain't got time for this shit
Those peasant pussies probably took it but you'll take what you get
I know, I know it's supposed to be give and take
It's just a show and I'm the one that takes the blame

Don't stop faking my conscience ain't afraid of you yet
And if your soul's still fading I'm done contemplating with it

You're not a victim of shit
I put myself on the back burner
Held myself back for you
I'm a disposable fix
I'm only stating the facts for you
Now I got nothing to lose
Watch me fly so high