1. I BRING THE WEATHER WITH ME

I bring the weather with me

It's time to lay my head down
I can hear the weeping song
There are sirens in the distance
As the church bells sound along
Mourning ushers in the rain
Clouds are heavy like their hearts
I sing to them their weeping song
Until their world is dark

We are all stars in the sky
We all shimmer then decay
So I wonder - did I burn out,
Make a mark or fade away?

Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I am the storm that never leaves
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I bring the, I bring the weather with me.

I'm the ship in the bottle
Rain pouring down on me
I sing songs for my funeral
That I will never see
You were my shining light
Oh, you were heaven sent
But now I'm not afraid of leaving
Not of God, and not of Death.

We are all stars in the sky
We all shimmer then decay
So I wonder - did I burn out,
Make a mark or fade away?

Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I am the storm that never leaves
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I bring the, I bring the weather with me.

Place the pennies on my eyes
I'll sleep with the stars tonight.
[x4]

Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I am the storm that never leaves
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
I bring the, I bring the weather with me.


2. THIS COULD BE HEARTBREAK

This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak

God help me, I've fallen away
The leaves are dancing on my grave
Strings are sounding low, we already know
That our world is ending slowly
As sad as it sounds
Will I miss them when I'm underground?
Yeah it's done, it's okay
I'm on my way to a better place

The walls are shaking, the Earth is breaking
Breaking apart what you gave me
This distance between us, it always defeats us
(It always defeats us, it always defeats us!)

Our hearts start to bleed as our eyes they become wells
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
Our tears become rivers swimming in our own private hell
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak

Yeah it's happened again
Wave goodbye to all my friends
Yeah I can't believe
How my past always comes back to haunt me
It always haunts me
It always haunts me
How could you blame me?
They just watch as my box is buried!

The walls are shaking, the Earth is breaking
Breaking apart what you gave me
This distance between us, it always defeats us
(It always defeats us, it always defeats us!)

Our hearts start to bleed as our eyes they become wells
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
Our tears become rivers swimming in our own private hell
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak

Our hearts start to bleed as our eyes they become wells
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
Our tears become rivers swimming in our own private hell
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak

(Lay me down)
All the hearts that are breaking (underground)
All the memories fading (lay me down)
All the drugs they are taking (underground)
All the drinks to erase me (lay me down)

All the hearts that are breaking (underground)
All the memories fading (lay me down)
All the drugs they are taking (underground)
All the drinks to erase me

This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak

Our hearts start to bleed as our eyes they become wells
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
Our tears become rivers swimming in our own private hell
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak

Our hearts start to bleed as our eyes they become wells
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak
Our tears become rivers swimming in our own private hell
This could be, I think this could be heartbreak


3. NIGHTMARE

Are you living in a nightmare,
One that eats away your soul?
Does it leave you feeling empty,
Does it leave you feeling cold?
So you’re living in a nightmare
Well I’m living in one too
But I’m trying to prevent the storm
From bearing down on you

There are rats on every corner
There are serpents in the street
You know hell is coming for you -
Now there’s demons at your feet

When it all comes crashing down
And you don’t know where to go
Yeah you think the world is ending?
That’s a feeling that I know

Don’t be so quick to shut me out
I know it’s hard to face the day
But we can make it out together
Feel your nightmare slip away

Are you living in a nightmare,
One that eats away your soul?
Does it leave you feeling empty,
Does it leave you feeling cold?
So you’re living in a nightmare
Well I’m living in one too
But I’m trying to prevent the storm
From bearing down on you

I swear the storms are building faster
Swear the walls are caving in
But every time we start to falter
I know we can look within

When it all comes crashing down
And you don’t know where to go
Yeah you think the world is ending?
But I swear you’re not alone

Don’t be so quick to shut me out
I know it’s hard to face the day
But we can make it out together
Feel your nightmares slip away

Are you living in a nightmare,
One that eats away your soul?
Does it leave you feeling empty,
Does it leave you feeling cold?
So you’re living in a nightmare
Well I’m living in one too
But I’m trying to prevent the storm
From bearing down on you

You know love still fills your lungs
We breathe the same air
Love still fills your lungs
You know love still fills your lungs
We breathe the same air
And you are far too fucking young
To let the weight of the world destroy you
So one more night, breathe for me
I know the deep blue’s stretched between us
But you are never too far from me

Are you living in a nightmare,
Does it leave you feeling empty,
Does it leave you feeling cold?
So you’re living in a nightmare
Well I’m living in one too
But I’m trying to prevent the storm
From bearing down on you

Are you living in a nightmare?
Are you living in a nightmare?


4. TEARING ME APART

Smoke in my lungs, liquor in my veins
Fear in my eyes, panic in the way
I don't think I'll make it out, make it through the day
Clench my teeth and close my eyes, just make this go away

Oh it's tearing me apart, all this pain inside
Liquor in my veins, panic on my mind
Tearing me apart, all this pain inside
Searching for the peace I will never find

Oh it's tearing me apart
Tearing me apart

I've got these chains around my feet
And they're dragging me to hell
The embers set my chest alight
A feeling I know all too well
I'm in the mouth of the wolf now,
I can hear the words they say
But I'm feeling oh so far
I feel so far away

Oh it's tearing me apart, all this pain inside
Liquor in my veins, panic on my mind
Tearing me apart, all this pain inside
Searching for the peace I will never find

The panic's stealing all my breath
Death is calling out my name
He knows I'm not afraid of dying
He knows to me it's all the same
But there is so much on the line
I have to find a better way
I have to find my own redemption
Fight the urge to drift away

I have to hold you in my heart
(I have to hold you in my heart)
So I can live another day
(Live another day)

Oh it's tearing me apart, all this pain inside
Liquor in my veins, panic on my mind
Tearing me apart, all this pain inside
Searching for the peace I will never find

Tearing me apart
Oh it's tearing me apart
Tearing me apart
Oh it's tearing me apart
Tearing me apart


5. O.M.G.I.M.Y.

Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Out my window, now the world is painted
Perfectly in blue
Time is moving slowly
And my heart searches only for you
In the reflections on the water
In the movement of the leaves
Under the stones by the river
In the shade beneath the trees

My heart will keep on searching
I heard your name sail on the breeze
I turned my head to catch your shadow
But there was nothing there for me

My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you
I've been searching out the window
In my world of pallid blue
And I keep checking my shadow
In an empty room
My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

The miles stretched between us
They're getting hard to bear
And more and more I find myself
Lost in melancholy stare

My heart will keep on searching
I heard your name sail on the breeze
I turned my head to catch your shadow
But there was nothing there for me

My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you
I've been searching out the window
In my world of pallid blue
And I keep checking my shadow
In an empty room
My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you

Do I surrender to the blue?
Because I'm drowning without you
Spend my time staring at the sun
Just waiting to come undone
The sound of static in my head
My heart is heavy, limbs are lead
Sick of living in a world so cold
I can, I will, I still stay gold

I know I'm doing the right thing
This is where I'm meant to be
{But} I've been gone far too long now
I just want you here with me

My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you
I've been searching out the window
In my world of pallid blue
And I keep checking my shadow
In an empty room
My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

(Message received on August 12th at 3:16am)
Hello, its me, again. I know I shouldn't have called but I really didn't know who else to turn to. Remember last time we talked? You said we were both fucked up, you said you understood because you were fucked up too. I just, I just wanted to speak to you before - well I think you know what I'm saying. If you're there please pick up, please. Just for a minute, please.
(Message deleted)


6. ALL FUCKED UP

When I wake up I'm thankful I slept through the night
'Cause that is the only time I feel alright
Keep my eyes closed so I sleep the sadness away
When I wake up I'm sure that it won't be the same

All the panic, depression, the hurt and regret
Lying to myself "I don't think of death"
All the ups, all the downs, all the petty concerns
My whole world's imploding, I can't find the words
'Cause the truth is... I'm fucked up

The truth is that I'm all fucked up like you
Yeah we're all fucked up it's true
And the truth is, they don't hear the words we say
Yeah they all just turn away

If I wake up tomorrow just know that I tried
To find a way out without saying goodbye

All the panic, depression, the hurt and regret
Lying to myself "I don't think of death"
All the ups, all the downs, all the petty concerns
My whole world's imploding, I can't find the words
'Cause the truth is... I'm fucked up

The truth is that I'm all fucked up like you
Yeah we're all fucked up it's true
And the truth is, they don't hear the words we say
Yeah they all just turn away

Will you save my life
Or just say goodbye?
Will you save my life
Or just say goodbye?
Will you save my life
Or just say goodbye?
Will you save my life
Or just say goodbye?
Will you save my life
Or just say goodbye?


7. FIGHT MY REGRET

I've been there, I've done that
I'll probably be back
My heart pounds, my chest hurts
It only gets worse
I've been there, I've done that
I'll try not to go back
Death calling, "just collapse"
But I won't, no fuck that

I try to fight it, depression I hide it
My tail between my legs searching for one last breath
I swear I can do this just need to pull through it
Fight my regret, I swear, I swear there's hope left

I've lost myself before
Told myself I want more
Then lost track of that score
These vices are my lords
I've lost myself before
There's got to be more

I've been there, I've done that
I'll probably be back
My heart pounds, my chest hurts
It only gets worse
I've been there, I've done that
I'll try not to go back
Death calling, "just collapse"
But I won't, no fuck that

Fight my regret
I swear, I swear there's hope left
Fight my regret
I swear, I swear there's hope left

More bad days and cold sweats
I feel sick from regret
Here's to love, here's to peace
Solid ground beneath me
I won't stop, won't fall back
I won't stop, no fuck that

I won't stop, won't fall back
I won't stop, no fuck that

I've lost myself before
Told myself that I want more
I've lost myself before
There's got to be more

I've been there, I've done that
I'll probably be back
My heart pounds, my chest hurts
It only gets worse
I've been there, I've done that
I'll try not to go back
Death calling, "just collapse"
But I won't, no fuck that

Fight my regret
I swear, I swear there's hope left
Fight my regret
I swear, I swear there's hope left


8. SOME FRIENDS

I am on my own
And in a crowd of people I feel disowned
Farewells are cold
And I drown in the rain that fills my soul

Talking to myself
Pushing everyone away
They can't see it in my eyes
But I need them to stay

Some friends will depart, some stay the same
Some will fuel the anger, some heal the pain
Some will help me up, some tear me down
But what goes around comes around

Yeah what goes around comes around
Yeah

I'm hard on myself I need you to know
If I bottle it up any more I'll explode
So you're sick of me too? Well my friend get in line
'Cause I'm sick of myself, yeah I'm sick of trying

Talking to myself
Is overcoming nothing
And the thought remains the same:
Is it all for nothing?

Some friends will depart, some stay the same
Some will fuel the anger, some heal the pain
Some will help me up, some tear me down
But what goes around comes around
Some friends will depart, some stay the same
Some will fuel the anger, some heal the pain
Some will help me up, some tear me down
But what goes around comes around

What goes around comes around

I always knew you'd turn your back on me
I always knew you'd turn your back on me

Talking to myself
Pushing everyone away
They can't see it in my eyes
Oh oh oh oh
Talking to myself
Is overcoming nothing
And the thought remains the same:
Is it all for nothing?

Some friends will depart, some stay the same
Some will fuel the anger, some heal the pain
Some will help me up, some tear me down
But what goes around comes around
Some friends will depart, some stay the same
Some will fuel the anger, some heal the pain
Some will help me up, some tear me down
But what goes around comes around


9. WISHBONE

My life is a broken mirror
Forever picking up the pieces
My will is broken
I'd give anything to defeat this

A pill to make me smile, a pill to help me sleep
A drink to calm the nerves that keep me feeling weak
I'm meant to be a man but I can't carry everything

On my own, counting on a wishbone
Oh I sink so low
Tell me, will I ever make it out of here
On my own, counting on a wishbone
Where did I go wrong?
And tell me, will I ever make it out of here
On my own
On my own, counting on a wishbone
On my own

My life is a broken record
Failure on repeat
My mind is a crippled horse
Running circles around me
My self worth has faded
And I have become jaded
I look at the world with tired eyes
Filled with hatred

A pill to make me smile, a pill to help sleep
A drink to calm the nerves that keep me feeling weak
I'm meant to be a man but I can't carry everything

On my own, counting on a wishbone
Oh I sink so low
Tell me, will I ever make it out of here
On my own, counting on a wishbone
Where did I go wrong?
And tell me, will I ever make it out of here
On my own

Should I just set myself on fire?
Burn
I won't make it out alive
I won't make it out alive
The world keeps on turning
My mind keeps on burning
Burn
I won't make it out alive

I'm meant to be a man but I can't carry everything

On my own, counting on a wishbone
Oh I sink so low
Tell me, will I ever make it out of here
On my own, counting on a wishbone
Where did I go wrong?
And tell me, will I ever make it out of here


10. NOTE TO SELF

Tell me if I go, come back another day
Will you forgive me then? Will you let me stay?
I'm testing your patience, I'm fueling your pain
But I swear that I'm different, I'm willing to change

Will you forgive yourself
When you know what I've done?
Will you stop and reflect
Or continue to run?

So I can cower and weep
I can crumble and die
Or send you back to your hell
And get on with my life

Show me some proof that your black heart even beats
Show me your dreams, show me your fears and let me hear your screams
Pull your head from the clouds, come back down to your feet
Show me your dreams, show me your fears, show me your black heart beats
Show me your black heart beats

I know I've made my mistakes, I know what you'll say
I need to pull it together and seize the day
So if I come back tomorrow I swear I can change
Will you know me then? Will you know my face?

Will you forgive yourself
When you know what I've done?
Will you stop and reflect
Or continue to run?

So I can cower and weep
I can crumble and die
Or send you back to your hell
And get on with my life

Show me some proof that your black heart even beats
Show me your dreams, show me your fears, and let me hear your screams
Pull your head from the clouds, come back down to your feet
Show me your dreams, show me your fears, show me your black heart beats

I am inside you and you're inside of me
I am your laughter, your pain
Your love, your misery
I've written the letters
I've ground down my teeth
Now it's time to let go
So say farewell to me

I am inside you and you're inside of me
I am your misery

Death to misery

Show me some proof that your black heart even beats
Show me your dreams, show me your fears and let me hear your screams
Pull your head from the clouds, come back down to your feet
Show me your dreams, show me your fears, show me your black heart beats

Show me your black heart beats
Show me your black heart beats
Pull your head from the clouds, come back down to your feet
Show me your dreams, show me your fears, show me your black heart beats


11. BLOOD IN MY MOUTH

Nothing around but I can feel it
It looms above me, and I still fear it
There's no one here yet I am screaming
Buried alive, wish I was dreaming

No love could fucking save me
No love could fucking save me

It's far away, not far enough
I've seen it all, I've seen too much
I can't forget that crushing feeling
That I'm forever giving up

(Give up!)

Can I keep myself from this need to find a reason
When I'll regret the answer and yet I keep on searching?

There's blood in my mouth and I can't see you, no
If you look back right now will you see me? Yeah
I'm sinking now, and there's that feeling
That crushing weight, that leaves me reeling
I'll see you there someday, maybe you'll see me

Nothing around but I can feel it
It looms above me, and I still fear it
There's no one here yet I am screaming
Buried alive, wish I was dreaming

No love could fucking save me
No love could fucking save me

There's fire on the bridge
The smoke is choking
The will to live is fading
My train is slowing down

There's blood in my mouth and I can't see you, no
If you look back right now will you see me? Yeah
I'm sinking now, and there's that feeling
That crushing weight, that leaves me reeling
I'll see you there someday, maybe you'll see me

The tracks they rattle like my teeth
I'll grind them down
My bones break in time
The seeds have been sown
The river has run dry
This is my final goodbye

Can I keep myself from this need to find a reason
When I'll regret the answer and yet I keep on searching?

There's blood in my mouth and I can't see you, no
If you look back right now will you see me? Yeah
I'm sinking now, and there's that feeling
That crushing weight, that leaves me reeling
I'll see you there someday, maybe you'll see me