1. REASON FOR FEAR

You are never here
When I need you
You're so far away
Why can't you see?
Why can't you tell?
You're putting me through hell

I thought you'd return
All that you'd taken
But here I lay burned
Alone and forsaken
Take all you want
Don't even think about anyone
Besides your precious self

You took advantage of my love for you
My need for you
You are the reason for my fear
You always wonder why I'm ignoring you
Destroying you
It's because you're never here


2. SOCIAL INSECURITY

I tried to understand your lies
To understand why I've failed
I tried to trust your failing mind
But it was to no avail

So forget your social norms
And forget your high society
Don't you dare conform
To social insecurity
You're trapped inside these walls
Your weaknesses you try to hide
You're trapped inside this all
What matters you can not decide

Because you cannot hide yourself
Force your ways on others lives
Condemn your friends to hell
Dab more makeup on your lies

Misanthropic petty ways
Destroy what's left of your numbered days
Sins that you
Cannot hide
Become your new
Way of life


3. SPANCILL HILL

Last night as I lay dreaming
Of pleasant days gone by
My mind been bent on rambling
To Ireland I did fly
I stepped on board a vision
And I followed with the wind
'Till last I came to anchor at
The cross near Spancill Hill

'Twas on the twenty third of June
The day before the fair
When Ireland's sons and daughters
And friends assembled there
The young, the old
The brave and the bold
Came there duties to fulfill
At the little church in Clooney
A mile from Spancill Hill

I went to see my neighbors
To see what they might say
The old one where all dead and gone
The young ones turning grey
I met with taylor Quigley
He's as bald as ever still
He used to make me britches
When I lived on Spancill Hill

I payed a flying visit
To my first and only love
She's as fair as any lily
And as gentle as a dove
She threw her arms around me
Crying "Johny I love you still"
She was Meg, the farmers daughter and
The pride of Spancill Hill

I dreamt I knelt and kissed her
As in the days of yarn
She said "Johny you're only joking, as many's a times before"
The rooster crew in the morning
Sure he crew both loud and shrill
I awoke in California
Many miles from Spancill Hill


4. FADE AWAY

I can never see
I can never sleep
All that I can feel
Is my numb heartbeat

You showed me the way
You pushed me away
You showed me the way
To wish I was dead

Do you wonder why I cried
When I told you all these lies?
Do you wonder why I die
When I look into your eyes?
Do you wonder why I try
When all you do is fight?
Do you wonder why I try
When all you do is lie?

I can't see
I can't breathe
And I can't tell
What you want me to be

All that's left
Here for me
Are remnants of
An eternity with you