1. TRIP AT THE BRAIN

I gotta gotta take a trip, gotta take a trip out of this place

I gotta gotta get away, get away from the human race
I don't know what I'll see, don't even know what I'll find
I don't know what to pack, never been to a trip at the mind

Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain
Do you know what I'm saying?
Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain
Well I'm going insane

I took a wrong turn and ended up at my heart
I t could barely even pump no blood it was so thrashed and
torn apart
Thank it for working overtime in pain and misery
Then I set back on the trail, headed for my destiny

Fly with me
Flying free

Tripping
You must be tripping
Trip, trip, tripping
Ya ya ya ya you're tripping

I cannot stop this trip, I forgot to pack the brakes
Crashed straight into a concrete wall of my mistakes
Ended up in a cemetary of a thousand wasted days
But that's alright with me, cause that's where most of my
memories lay

(Major tripping which you''l just have to listen to)


2. HEARING VOICES

I got home kind of late last night
My mind wasn't clear, but I could tell something wasn't right

So silent I could hear my heart pump
But then I heard a sound that made me jump

I tried to get real brave, tried to look around
I tried to find out where came that sound
The re I looked, the less I could see
But the voices keep calling, calling out to me

I hear voices-when I'm all alone
Hearing voices-but there's nobody home
Hear the voices-could it be they're calling out to me
Hearing voices-I look, why can't I see
I hear voices-can't stop those voices

It happened again-the very next day
I still couldn't understand what they were trying to say
Could only get the courage to open up one eye
Couldn't see nothing, but the voices they don't lie

I searched and searched but not a soul I found
Pretty damn sure no one was around
The more I looked the less I could see
Then I realized the voices were calling from me

Are they demons-or are they angels or am I crazy

Now the voices I start to understand
They have to do with the master plan
You think about what you'd do
Cause one day the voices will be calling out to you
The voices I hear now I know are true
They come not from one but they come from two
The real point is what I'm missing
From which voice will I listen

I hear voices
Hearing voices
Do you hear the voices?
Can't stop the voices


3. PLEDGE YOUR ALLEGIANCE

ST ST ST ST ST ST ST ST

I never said I don't like religion-I just don't like TV
You say I got a bad attitude-around you that comes naturally
You say I need more compassion-I can forgive, I just can't forget
You say control my temper-but when I feel like shit, I feel like shit

Cause I was born to be-ST
And I'll always be-ST
Don't get down on me-ST
Cause I'm down OG-ST
Not afraid to die-ST
Just you promise me-ST
Yo got to carry on-ST
You gotta carry on-ST

Why can't I ask any questions if what you say is true
Am I supposed to believe everything-or just everything said by you?
And how can you call me stupid-when you don't understand what I say
And how can you call me evil-have you spoken to God today-And what did He say?

As long as your heart beats-pledge your allegiance

You can call me ugly-but I still dress the way I choose
How you gonna judge me-you've never taken a walk in my shoes
Why don't you ever trust me when I'm smiling-is it a sin to have fun?
And why should I repent when there's nothin' wrong with anything that I've done

Pledge your allegiance
Suicidal Suicidal Suicidal


4. HOW WILL I LAUGH TOMORROW

Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down
I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall
It seems like no one cares at all
Always an emotion, but how can I explain
How can I explain
Kind of like the scent of a rose
With words I can't explain
The same with my pain
Caught up in emotion-Goes over my head
Goes over my head
Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death
Am I living or am I dead
The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change
Problems never solved, just rearranged
And when I think about all the times that I've had
So few good-So many bad
I search for personality and I look for things I can not see

Love and peace flash through my mind
Pain and hate are all I find
Find no hope in nothing new
Never had a dream come true
Lies and hate and agony
Thru my eyes that's all I see
If I'm gonna cry
Will you wipe away my tears?
If I'm gonna die
Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow
Last thing that I'll say
How will I laugh tommorow
If I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today


5. THE MIRACLE

I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know
just what the consequences are
I laughed out loudy, while I cried inside
But I didn't haave the strength to say enough of this ride
Like a fool-I believed in a miracle
I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure
But I found an answer-it seemed to be a perfect cure

Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot-like a fool
I believed in the miracle

Twisting and I'm turning-freezing then I'm burning
Laughing then I'm crying-am I living or am I dying
Swearing then I'm praying-don't even know what I'm saying
Happy then so sad-forgiving then so mad

Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in,
Do you still believe in miracles?

Pushing then pulling-who am I fooling
A friend then a foe-do I really even know?
Love and then hate
Peace then at war-but what am I fighting for
And you always try to
Keep me-oh so sleepy
So I can't realize-that it's all lies
And the more it takes hold of me-the less chance that I'll ever be free
And even though I don't believe-it's so hard to leave-a miracle-a miracle

Waiting-always hesitating-for that perfect day-that day was yesterday
And the more you're gonna wait-the more of a chance that it will be too late

How can you afford to wait, you just can't afford to wait
I shed a tear I won't deny it, but just one tear I already cried it
And now you'll see me cry no more, don't even know what I was crying for


6. SUICYCO MANIA

(Instrumental)


7. SURF AND SLAM

(Instrumental)


8. IF I DON'T WAKE UP

Why do I wake up in the morning-nothing's changed since the day of my birth
Why do I wake up in the morning-I make no difference on this earth

Strength has left-has to be-something has died inside of me

If I don't wake up in the morning-at my funeral would anyone care
If I don't wake up in the morning-would anyone even be there

You can put me down-you can put me out, you can try to ignore
But now you're gonna hear me when I shout WAKE UP

Why should I wake up in the morning-it be just another wasted day
Why should I wake up in the morning-don't do nothing right anyway

That was then-not anymore-now I go blasting out the door

I'm gonna wake up in the morning-I'll prove you wrong I will not fail
I'm gonna wake up in the morning-I'm gonna blaze a brand new trail

Might not be smart, but if I'm strong
I know for sure no one ever will prove me wrong


9. SORRY ?!

Seems like such a long time ago, but I don't know if I'm ever gonna let her go.
I remember the first time that I met her, I knew she was the one.
There couldn't be anybody better.
Well, I was lost when I looked in her eyes
Well those eyes, those eyes, they made me realize...
Sorry...I didn't know what was to be
Sorry...I could not see
Sorry...Lord how could this be
Sorry...It's raining down on me
Well, I know it sounds crazy to say.
But, in everything I do, I think about that day.
Last time I talked to her was on the telephone.
She said I know it's been a while, but I don't feel like being alone.
I slammed down the phone on the last thing I'd hear her say.
Now it's getting harder to live with it every day and I pray, I pray that you can hear me say
Sorry...I could not see
Sorry...It don't seem fair to me
Sorry...Lord, how could this be
Sorry...It's raining right down on me
Not a day goes by when I do not sit and wonder why this had to be.
It don't seem fair to me.
No no, it don't seem fair to me.
The more I wish and pray, the more it seems I waste away.
But it would mean oh so much if I could just reach out and our hands would touch and if I'd just go back again and do it all over it'd have a happy end.
I know exactly the way I would start.
I'd send her a letter straight from my heart.
It doesn't seem fair, why can't I forgive.
She was so strung out, she didn't even have a chance to live and it's oh so hard to forgive.
Sometimes people think I don't know what to say because I'm looking out in space, but inside I'm praying and I pray, I pray, I pray, pray, pray and then I think about the day she died.
About that night and in the morning.
I cry cry cry and I try, I try to understand
Sorry...I didn't know what was to be
Sorry...It don't seem fair to me
Sorry...Lord I'll always be
Sorry...She died but it's killing me
Wondering about that time when it'll be my day
And I wonder what I'll do and what she'll say and if I'll have the courage to stay
And I'll start by looking her straight in the eye and telling her that I'm Sorry


10. ONE TOO MANY TIMES

Never good at talking, so many things I couldn't say
But those thoughts never went away
And I'm sure you remember, said that all I wanted was sympathy,
Now add this to your memory

Too many times-I felt so sad and lonely
Too many times-I needed someone there
Too many times-I tried to tell you something
Too many times-It seemed like no one cared

And I don't like asking-and it's not easy to say...
I never learned how to pray
So if you have a moment it means so much to me oh can't you see...
If you'd just say a prayer for me

Too many times-I didn't even have a second
Too many times-you thought I was much too strong
Too many times-you said the feeling wouldn't last forever
Too many times-I proved you so damn wrong

Saw the changes-thought they'd go away-do you still remember that day
Can't really fault you-only have myself to blame...
But do you still feel the same

Do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya?
But I waited so long-for someone to take my hand, and say they understand

And I waited so long-for someone to show the way-to make a better day
and I waited so long-for someone to spare a kiss for the love I miss
And I waited so long-for you to looke me in the eye
And say it's worth another try
But yo keep me waiting-waiting-too many times

You keep me waiting, one too many, one too many, one too many times,
Too many times
One too many one too many one too many times too many times
Can't you see yo keep me waiting-one too many times


11. THE FEELING'S BACK

I wrote a letter just the other day to nobody in particular
But if anyone were to read a bit-they'd think I was a bit peculiar
But it matters not what they think of me, it's only what I know is real
And so all that's left that matters now-is that the feeling's back

The feeling's back and you just can't stop it
The feeling's back and you just can't stop it

I fought a thousand times-I never knew the meaning of the word fear
Till that one day when I stood alone-staring straight into the mirror
It's not a pretty sight-and even worse it's so hard to face
Until I realize I'm the only one that put me in this place

I'm gonna breathe I'm gonna live-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
I7m gonna shout I'm gonna scream-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
I'm gonna run I'm gonna fly-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
I'm gonna fight I'm gonna win-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
Nothing's gonna stop me, nothing's gonna stop me now...
Cause the feeling's back and you gotta love the feeling

I dug my hole too deep-I couldn't admit, I didn't know when to stop
But you can only dig your hole six feet until the dirt comes back on top
I've got a long way left to climb but I'll still look you straight in the eye
And I can honestly say I'll never quit-not even on the day I die

DISC 2 - CONTROLLED BY HATRED - FEEL LIKE SHIT... DEJA-VU

1. MASTER OF NO MERCY

Fuck it!
He's a carrier of death, a stork in reverse
He blesses you with sickness
Cause love is a curse
The arsening in your Koolaid, the bomb in your mail,
He disappears in motion
But leaves a bloody trail

Drop to your knees, humble you pray
But can't put off your judgment day

There's a knock at your door, who could it be?
You got a new friend that's gonna set you free
He's making a list, he's checking it twice
No amount of money's gonna stop this vice

No mercy, no mercy, no mercy. You want mercy?
No fuckin' mercy! Oh no
With the wink of an eye, a snap of the finger
Now the smell of death is all that lingers
A doctor of death with a PhD, a specialist in pure misery

See you fucked with him even though you knew
And now your worst nightmares all come true
You scream and shout you beg and plead
But he's got your soul and that's all that he needs

He's the master, master of no mercy, no mercy, no mercy


2. HOW WILL I LAUGH TOMORROW (VIDEO EDIT)

Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down
I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall
It seems like no one cares at all
Always an emotion, but how can I explain
How can I explain
Kind of like the scent of a rose
With words I can't explain
The same with my pain
Caught up in emotion-Goes over my head
Goes over my head
Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death
Am I living or am I dead
The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change
Problems never solved, just rearranged
And when I think about all the times that I've had
So few good-So many bad
I search for personality and I look for things I can not see

Love and peace flash through my mind
Pain and hate are all I find
Find no hope in nothing new
Never had a dream come true
Lies and hate and agony
Thru my eyes that's all I see
If I'm gonna cry
Will you wipe away my tears?
If I'm gonna die
Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow
Last thing that I'll say
How will I laugh tommorow
If I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today


3. JUST ANOTHER LOVE SONG

Well I just had to turn off the radio
But not before I heard thirteen songs about love in a row
Well I don't know what the next song's gonna be
But I know how the words are gonna go
They'll be singing "Oh baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby I
love you so"
So won't everybody sing along cause her comes just another
love song

I need you like I need a hole in my head
I need someone to steal my money and wish I were dead
I need someone to always put me down
And everywhere I go she wants to hang around

Do you really even think dreams come true
Do you really even think you'll find something wonderful and
new
Do you really even think someone's waiting for you
Do you really even thiink that love is near
Do you really even think it's me dear
Do you really even think I want to hear-but I still say
I won't fall in love today

I need a chick who's got expensive taste
Who's not afraid of whose money she wastes
You expect me to buy you a diamond ring!
Well I suspect I'll buy you not a thing!

Well I could tell you you're the only one I love
And how your eyes sparkle like the stars above
And that I carry a picture of you in my heart
And as long as we live we'll never be apart
And that you're the most important person in my life
But I can't handle a girlfriend, how am I gonna handle a wife

Love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate
love-hate love-hate
I love, love, love to hate you but I'd hate, hate, hate to
love you

I could promise all my love to you
But that would take me only a second or two
And if you're waiting to be my one and only
You're gonna find out what it's like to be awfully lonely
Your song was alright for awhile-But now your tune's gone out
of style

You want to cuddle and hug all night
But I'm going out with my friends tonight
And I don't need someone to act like my mother
I already have one-I don't need another

But she sure looks fine
After a bottle of wine
And she's out of sight
When my mind's not right
And I'll promise you anything dear

4. WAKING THE DEAD

Kept in the guard of Mother Nature's womb
Resting in the safety of their tomb
Sheltered by six feet of soil and rock
The spade is the key with which their gate we'll unlock
Why should they be resting so peacefully
When we're up above in pure misery
I don't care that they've already died
That's not enough to make me satisfied

So we wait till the stroke of the midnight hour
Then we'll unleas the darkest of power
Hell's gates will open a new judgment day
Now is the time that the dead will pay
Why should they be resting so peacefully
When we're up above in pure misery
I don't care that they've already died
That's not enough to make me satisfied
Waking the dead, waking the dead, waking the dead

All rise!
Hell's gates open the earth trembles and shakes
Now their pardons are over they pray for their mistakes
Mausoleums firebombed now rage in flames
When the dead come out their bodies we'll maim

Rob-Robbing their graves stealing their bones
Bang-Banging our heads to their screams and their moans
Fix-Fixing the wounds that even time cannot heal
Soon-Soon we will know how good it feels

This is not damnation or an act of God
Now the dead they rise ripping through the sod
Purgatory has to wait, but how can this be
The dead are free-the dead are free!

Waking the dead-you said that it wouldn't be
Waking the dead-You said that we wouldn't see
Waking the dead-Now the dead stand before our own eyes

Silence is blaring the earth opens wide
History repeats, reburied they die
Darkness descends through nature's pores
They return to their sleep on earth's basement floor
Now they rest not so peacefully
As they've had a taste of our misery
I didn't care that they'd already died
That wasn't enough to make me satisfied

Return back to their tombs now they lay
This is no game for the novice to play
Repeat not a word lest ye be forewarned
The punishment of Hell's darkness and scorn
Repeat not a word of the sermon said
A prayer for the dead, don't play with the dead
Don't try to comprehend what's going on
You can't understand, please don't understand

Waking the dead-And we'll be
Waking the dead-All rise now
Waking the dead-We're gonna wake the dead
Waking the dead

I said the words what have I done
I thought it cool, I thought it fun
The words I say they start to change
The syllables now rearranged
A language I can't comprehend
I shut my mouth it doesn't end
The bowels of nature open wide
I cannot move I cannot hide
I can't believe the things I see
The dead are free, the dead are free
I close my eyes and pray it's not real
Their presence close coldness I feel
What have I done Lord please forgive
Once they died, but now they live
I wake the dead, I ake the dead, I wake the dead, I wake the
dead!

Cleanse the lepers
Cast out the demons
Wake the dead!


5. CONTROLLED BY HATRED

I see the world it slips so far away
Looking back on yesterday
Leaves me nothing more to say

Terror reigns my world, Lord please tell me why
I'm on my knees, I start to cry
I live my life, that's another lie-Controlled by hatred

It feels good, I'm not proud to say
But I'll just put off my guilt, it can wait another fuckin'
day

I search you out and now you're right within my reach
And now you'll learn a lesson only I can teach
Now I'm chking it, now I'm checking out
Now I start to scream, it's what it's all about, shout it out

Can you swee what it's all about, shout it out
Now you know what I'm all about

So you can chalk up another soul that's lost
Calculate the social cost
You know not what's inside of me
Raging mad insanity

Scrambled brains I got a toasted mind
Look in my heart therein no goodness are you gonna find
I turned my back to all responsibility
I got no place for all your sensitivity
Now I'm checking out, now I'm checking in, now I star to pray

Just another fuckin' sin, why can't I ever win?
Seems like I never win, it's a sin after sin after sin
Why can't I ever win?

Who am I?
I feel no pain

I clsoe my ears and now I see so clear
I slip away just left all fear
Not a sound, but still I hear-Controlled by hatred

And now the world it slips so far away
Looking back on yesterday
Leave me nothing more to say-Controlled by hatred

I didn't think that I could ever try
Now tears of joy I start to cry
I free my soul and now I fly-Controlled by hatred

The hooterman goes
"What's your name?"-he goes
"What's your name?"-he goes
"What's your name?"-he goes
"You know my name, you know my name!"
What's your name?-my name is terror!
What's your name?-my name is pain!
What's your name?-and you're my reason
I'm controlled by hate, controlled, controlled by hate
My hate

It's gonna gotta gonna gotta gonna gotta get better
It's gonna gotta gonna gotta gonna gotta get better
I'ts gonna gotta gonna gotta gonna gotta get better
Now the world, my whole world's controlled by hatred
The world, my whole world's controlled by hatred

Who am I?
I feel no pain!
Could it be?
I've gone insane. Controlled by hatred!


6. CHOOSING MY OWN WAY OF LIFE

My life
People don't try to tell me how to live my life
Don't try to fill me up with false hopes and lies
Show me the truth they say they'll show the light
Don't try to tell me I'm wrong when I know I'm right
Cause I don't need it, I don't need it, all I need is
Choosin' my own way, choosin' my own way of life

I'm mad as hell and I ain't gonna take it
And if you think I am I think you're fuckin' mistaken
Lock me in, but you can't lock me out
You can cut off my tongue, but I'll still scream and shout

Choosin' my own way of life-what up?
Cause I'm choosin' my own way of life

I'd rather have a penny than a heart of gold
I'd rather die young than do as I'm told
I was never one to turn down a fight
I gotta sleep all day so I can rage rage rage all night

Hell I don't need it, I don't need it, all I need is
My destination is my own decision
Living fast is my only religion
Trust no one cause I'm no fuckin' fool
Learn on my own I don't need no school

Choosin' my own way of life-what up
Choosin' my own way of life-straight out
Choosin' my own way of life-ain't it my life
Choosin' my own way of life-and I don't need nobody else


7. FEEL LIKE SHIT. . . DEJA-VU

Don't you tell me that I'm dreaming 'cause I've been here
before
But that don't mean that I want to be from here anymore!

Cause I feel like shit-but who are you to say
I don't know I had to have a right to feel this way
I feel like shit-time after time
So don't be trying to tell me it's all in my mind
I feel like shit-but you don't really care
Except my God he used a four letter word in there

I feel like shit-what am I to you?
I feel like shit. Deja vu!
And when I feel like shit, I feel like shit!

I feel like shit-I'm sorry to say
Do you fuckin' think I like feeling this way
I feel like shit-what do you expect me to do
I feel like shit, deja vu!

This ain't my imagination
Lost all thoughts and concentration
Time goes on day after day
But still If feel the same fuckin' way!
Feel like shit, deja vu!

Always feeling out of place
Hiding behind a smiling face
There just ain't no pretty words
Can't you see it fuckin' hurts!

You know I feel like shit-deja vu
Feel like shit-deja vu
Feel like shit-deja vu
And when I feel like shit I feel like shit


8. IT'S NOT EASY

Easy easy, it's not easy
To say what I feel when nothing seems real
Not easy, it's not easy
To be someone's friend when the pain it never ends
Not easy, it's not easy
To keep up the fight when nothing turns out right

Easy I got to take it easy, I got to take it easy

Easy it's not easy to open your heart when love's torn it
apart
Easy it's not easy to hold your head high when you want to sit
and cry
Easy it's not easy to fall on your knees and say Lord help me
please
Easy I got to take it easy, Oh please, please, please easy

Easy easy it's not easy
Gotta gotta take it easy
It's not easy
It's never easy


9. HOW WILL I LAUGH TOMORROW (HEAVY EMOTION VERSION)

Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down
I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall
It seems like no one cares at all
Always an emotion, but how can I explain
How can I explain
Kind of like the scent of a rose
With words I can't explain
The same with my pain
Caught up in emotion-Goes over my head
Goes over my head
Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death
Am I living or am I dead
The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change
Problems never solved, just rearranged
And when I think about all the times that I've had
So few good-So many bad
I search for personality and I look for things I can not see

Love and peace flash through my mind
Pain and hate are all I find
Find no hope in nothing new
Never had a dream come true
Lies and hate and agony
Thru my eyes that's all I see
If I'm gonna cry
Will you wipe away my tears?
If I'm gonna die
Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow
Last thing that I'll say
How will I laugh tommorow
If I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today


DISC 3 - LIGHTS... CAMERA... REVOLUTION...

1. YOU CAN'T BRING ME DOWN

What the hell's going on around here ?
First off - let's take it from the start
Straight out - can't change what's in my heart
No one - can tear my beliefs apart, you can't bring me
You ain't - never seen no one like me
Prevail - regardless what the cost might be
Power - flows inside of me, you can't bring me
Never - fail as long as I try
Refuse - to be a part of your life
Even - if it means I die, you can't bring me

You can't bring me down !
Who the hell you calling crazy ?
You wouldn't know what crazy
Was if Charles Manson was eating
Fruit loops on your front porch

Time out - let's get something clear
I speak - more truth than you want to hear
Scapegoat - to cover up your face, you can't bring me
You ain't - never seen so mucht might
Fight for - what I know is right
What up - you got yourself a fight, you can't bring me
Stand up - we'll all sing along
Together - ain't nothing as strong
Won't quit - we ain't in the wrong, you can't bring me

You can't bring me down !

Bring me down - you can't bring me down !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down, no !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down !

Tell them what's up Rocky !
You can't bring me down !

Bring me down - you can't bring me down !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down, no !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down !


So why you trying to bring me
(You can't bring me down - no, no, no, no, no, no)
So why you trying to bring
Well you can't bring me down

Just cause you don't understand what's going on
Don't mean it don't make no sense
And just cause you don't like it,
Don't mean in ain't no good
And let me tell you something

Before you go taking a walk in my world
you better take a look at the real world
Cause this ain't no Mister Roger's Neighborhood
Can you say "feel like shit ?"
Yea maybe sometimes I do feel like shit
I ain't 'bout it, but I'd rather feel like shit than be full of shit !
And if I offended you, oh I'm sorry
But maybe you need to be offended
Bute here's my apology and one more thing... fuck you !
Cause you can't bring me down !

Bring me down - you can't bring me down !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down, no !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down !
Bring me down - you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down !

You can't bring me down !

Suicidal !!!


2. LOST AGAIN

Lost it! I'm caught in a rage
Like an animal locked in a cage
Now I look into the barrel of a gauge - doom!
Made me into a fool
Experimented on me like an animal
Turned me into a common criminal - criminal!
I lost it, but I gotta get with it
Motherfucker, now you're gonna get it
I ain't one that'll sit and forget it

I got into a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ends
And I don't know what I'm saying
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!
I lost again!

Took my dreams, ya left them there shattered
Took my hopes, ya dug in them and they splattered
Took my mind like it didn't even matter
Entered a world that I didn't belong
Thought I could take it but I stayed too long
Thought I could handle it, boy was I wrong!

Fighting a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ends
And I'm not into playing
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Lost it! Lost again!
Lost it! Lost again!
Lost it! Lost again!
I lost it!

I went to war with reality
That motherfucker he was waiting for me
I never thought that this could happen to me - damn!
Down so low that I can't no higher
When I was burning you put wood on the fire
You ain't nothing but a goddamn liar - liar!
Took all my strength now I tremble and drop
You got to be down to go over the top
Oh, god can't you make the laughter stop?

Died in a war I could never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I lost again
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Liar, killer! Lost again!
I lost!
Murder, killer! Hell I lost again!
No! No!
Cleanse me from your evil
You broke your promises!
What did I do to deserve this?

No one to save me from it!
Oh, lord plese have mercy
And now I've come to see it
Something's gone wrong with me
I guess I got lost in reality
Hell I lost again!
Sure ain't easy, hell I lost again!


3. ALONE

I scream at the sky, it's easier than crying
I'm shyish when I'm shouting out loud
I feel so alone in a room full of people
I'm loudist when I'm in a crowd
I'm alone, and nobody hears me
Can't nobody heal me, won't somebody help me
I'm alone, I just need
Someone to take my hand and pick me up when I'm feeling down
Someone to take my heart and give it a home
Someone to be with me and help me through the times when I'm
down and lonely
Someone to be with me when I'm alone
I'm alone, all alone
Alone is the way I live, it's not the way I want it but you know
You can't give in, alone is the way I feel, it's so hard to understand
Why I've got to be alone

If you look in my heart you'd see it
I'm trying to be something better
If you look in my heart you'd feel it
I've got to keep moving on
If you look in my heart you'd know it
I'm just trying to make my world better
If you look in my heart you'd see it
I got to do it alone

I've been down, I've been down
I've been down, down, down so low
I've been lost, so lost with no place left to go
I've had emotions, emotions that you better hope you never know
Sometimes it feels like I just can't take no more

If you look in my heart you'd see it
I'm trying to be something better
If you look in my heart you'd feel it
I've got to keep moving on
If you look in my heart you'd know it
I'm just trying to make my world better
If you look in my heart you'd see it
I got to do it alone

Seems like things just keep getting further out of hand
Why can't for once things just go as I plan
How dare you, how dare you tell me that you understand
Let me tell you straight out, there ain't nobody here that can
I'm all alone, I'm so alone, to be alone, just leave me alone

If you look in my heart you'll see it
If you look in my heart you'd feel it
If you look in my heart you'd know it
I'm not trying to make no one bitter
I'm just alone, leave me alone, alone alone, now leave me

I've lived in places that you wouldn't never ever want to be
Places where for a minute you couldn't ever stand to be
I've seen things, I've seen things you'd never want to see
SO what gives, what gives you the right to be the judge of me
I'm all alone, I'm so alone, to be alone, just leave me alone

A room full of people, can't nobody help me, I'm alone
I just need someone to take my hand and pick me up when I'm
Feeling down, when I'm down
Someone to take my heart and give it a home, when I'm down
Someone to be with me and help me through the times
I'm down and lonely, when I'm down
Someone to be with me when I'm alone
I'm alone, all alone
Alone is the way I live, it's not the way I want it but I
Know I can't give in
Alone is the way I feel, there ain't nothing quite as sad as
A person that's alone


4. LOVELY

Screwed up people everywhere, but I ain't got time to care
I feel lovely, la la la lovely
All kind of souls down to the curb, but me help, don't be
absurd
I feel lovely, la la la lovely
Cause it's a problem of society, if it don't affect me and I
feel lovely
As long as I feel lovely yea
Oh so lovely!
Ans I'm not guilty of your abuse, see it's all self-induced
and I feel lovely
Everything's so lovely
All your kind are like a pollution, look 'em up quick that's
The solution lovely
Wouldn't that be lovely?
So tipper babe don't you remember me?
Now I'm kinder, gentler and so happy
It's lovely!

La la la - as long as I feel lovely, yea
La la la - and I feel lovely, yea
La la la - and everything is la la la la la la la la lovely
La la la
La la la la la la lovely

Everything is so lovely
I think I'll throw a party
Won't you come along darling?
It's a surprise party for me
Simply because I feel lovely!
If everything's so lovely... then why don't I, why don't I,
Why don't I, why don't I feel lovely?
Lovely, la la la lovely, la la la lovely, la la la lovely


5. GIVE IT REVOLUTION

Throughout all time and history
The world's been mauled tyranny
Now we're refusing to take it
The worst evil the world has saw
Were crimes defended by the "law"
Deny our rights and we'll break it
You got to break the chains that hold you down
Crush the tyrants to the groud
Freedom cannot be legislated
We'll bow down to no other one
The Father and His Son
They can't deny what he's created
Most wars never should have been thought
But this is a war that must be fought
We'll take a wrong and we'll right it
The greatest weapon of the fascist
Is the tolerance of the pacifist
We've got to stand up and fight it
We'll give it

You got to give it revolution, give it revolution
We're gonna give it revolution, give it revolution
You got to give it revolution, give it revolution
We're gonna give it revolution

Well you can put a bullet in my head
But you can't kill a word I've said
You got the disease, I got the solution
No matter how much or more you try,
You can never ever make this martyr die
I give it revolution
Revolution!
You could put a bullet in my head
But you can't kill a word I've said
Give it revolution
No matter how or what you try
You can never ever make a martyr die
Give it revolution
Revolution


6. GET WHACKED

I'm tired of always doing as I'm told
Your shit is starting to grow really old
I'm sick of dealing with all your crap
You pushed me too hard now you'll watch me snap

Whack, whack - what's wrong with your head?
I can't believe a fuckin' word you've said
Whack, whack - what are you dead?
Permanently done, gone to bed
Whack, whack - out of your mind
I think you'll like it if you try it some time
Whack, whack - if you look you'll find
I'm whacked, I'm whacked, I'm whacked - get whacked
I'm whacked, you're whacked
Let's go it's whack time

Get whacked - gimme gimme gimme gimme gimme some whack time
Get whacked - all I need, I need, I need, I need is some whack time
Get whacked - get whacked

Ain't nobody gonna tell me what to do
I'm gonna save my best whack for you
Bbust out hard in a brand new way
Now every second is a psycho day

I'm whacked - and I don't care no more
I'm whacked - right down to the core
I'm whacked - like never before
I'm whacked, I'm whacked, I'm whacked, I'm whacked
Get whacked, won't you follow me
Get whacked, what fun it'll be
Get whacked, and do it naturally
Get whacked, get whacked, get whacked, get whacked
It's whack time!
Whack time - get whacked
Whack time - get whacked, get whacked, get whacked
Whack time
Get whacked, get whacked, get whacked
It's whack time!
Get whacked - I'm whacked, you're whacked, let's go it's whack time
Get whacked - gimmee, gimmee, gimmee, gimmee, gimmee some whack time
Get whacked - all I need, I need, I need, I need is some whack time
Get whacked - get whacked

You don't want none you got that right
When I get whacked it's not a pretty sight
One-quarter scottish, three-quarter insane
Ay, think I've gone a little flat in the brain
Whack, whack - what you got in your head
Another word, another lie that you've said

Whack, whack - your mind is dead
Permanently done, gone to bed
Whack, whack - what do you know?
This ain't no script, this ain't no picture show
Whack, whack - up away and go
Get whacked!
It's whack time - get whacked!

Won't you see me later you'll see me right now
If you think I'm crazy I'll show you just how
I know what's scaring you the most about me
This mo-fo be getting whacked naturally

Get whacked


7. SEND ME YOUR MONEY

Lights, camera, silence on the set
Tape rolling, 3-2-1-action
Welcome to the church of Suicidal
We'll have a service and wonderful recital
But before we go on, there's something I must mention
An important message I must bring to your attention
I was in meditation and prayer last night
I was awakened by a shining bright light
Over head, a glorious spirit
He gave me a message and you all need to hear it
"Send me your money", that's what he said
He said to "Send me your money"
Now if you can only send a dollar or two
There aint a hell of alot I can do for you
But, if you want to see heaven's door
Make a check out for five hundred or more
"Send me your money", do you here what I'm saying?
"Send me your money"

Now give me some bass, um yea that's how he likes it
Now give me some silence, for all you sinners
Now give me some bass, yea that was funky
Now take them on home Brother Clark, send me your ...money
Here comes another con hiding behind a collar
His only god is the almighty dollar
He aint no prophet, he aint no healer
He's just a two bit goddamn money stealer
Send me your money
Send it, you got to send it
Send me your money
You hear what I'm saying?
Send it, send it
Send me your money
Now how much you give is your own choice
But to me it's the difference between a prosche and a Rolls
Royce
I want you to make it hurt when you dig into your pocket
I want you to make it hurt!
We'll take cash, we'll take checks
We'll take credit cards, we'll take jewelry
We'll take your momma's dentures if they got gold in them
So whose gonna be the next king of the fakers
Whose gonna take the place of Jim and Tammy Faye Bakker?
See my momma, she didn't raise no fool
Cause you can't put a price on a miracle
Amen


8. EMOTION NO. 13

I wish so hard that I could be just like the
...one you want me to
But it doesn't seem to work though I'm trying.
I try so hard to do what's right, to be so good to make you proud, but it never seems to satisfy you.
It's just the person that you want it's not the person that
I am.
The conflict inside's horrifying.
I want so much for you to think of me as a person that deserves your respect & ttention.
I wonder if I'll ever do the things you want the way youwant
When I don't even know what I want yet.
It's not that I'm rebelling against the person you are
It's just that I don't know who I am.
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God, do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me. There's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13

Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying.
Emotion No. 13 easy cryin'
Don't ask me how I know, but I'm dying

Emotion No. 13 blows my mind away
Emotion No. 13, it blows me away

Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not...
Emotion No. 13, says I'm...
Don't ask me how I know, but I think I'm...
Don't ask me how I know, but I think I'm dying,...dying, dying, dying

All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me, there's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13

Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying
Emotion No. 13, feels like I'm dying


9. DISCO'S OUT, MURDER'S IN

Extra, extra, read all about it!
News flash, read all about it!
Here comes another scam and don't you doubt it
May make you laugh, but it aint funny
I can't believe the things they do for money
Another show that needs to get rated
Just gotta alittle bit more hatred
We interrupt this program to tell you
Disco's out, Murder's in
Kill it!

Goody, goody, another commotion
One more time, in slow motion
The mountain wont come to Mohammad
Let's keep our fingers crossed and maybe we'll bomb it
La da de da da de de da da
All kind of la de fuckin' das
Disco's out, Murder's in

If you wanna go far, we'll make you a star
Not looking for filler, just a serial killer!
It's got to be violent to make it a highlight
If we show it enough
Well, everyone will think it's alright

Disco's out, Murder's in
Kill it! Kill it!
Disco's out, Murder's in
Kill it!


10. GO'N BREAKDOWN

Quieres chigaso, conmigo, tu lo tienes
Por vida y por muerte holmes!
Breakdown a motherfuckin' breakdown
Breakdown ain't that a bitch!
If you like magic, here's a trick
Snap my finger, now I'm a lunatic
Ain't no threat straight out fact go head up you'll get jacked!
Went to school at u. of hell, favorite course was kill andtell
Gratuated head of class, majored in kickin' ass
Did hard time to get my master, wrote the book on personal disaster
I don't need to phd to be a doctor of fuckin' misery
Psycho's insane, they say I lost my brain, but I gave it away
If my mind's gone bad don't go off feeling sad cause I chose it that way
Cause it's a breakdown, I'm go'n breakdown, I'm gonna break
Ain't no you can do
Cause it's a breakdown, a motherfuckin' breakdown, gonna
Break you in fuckin' two
What you got, come and show me
Think I won't, you don't know me
Live or die, it's all the same, life or death, it's just a game
Make you an offer you can't refuse, pull out the gat, sorry you lose
Put a disclaimer on the crypt, sorry holmes, finger slipped
I broke a main now it's headed for my brain and my mind goes
Thumpty thump thump
Pinned shot eyes, don't come as no surprise it ain't no dance
The bump and the dump
Cause it's a breakdown, I'm go'n breakdown, I'm gonna break
Ain't no you can do
Cause it's a breakdown, a motherfuckin' breakdown, who said that
Nightmares don't come true?
Breakdown, breakdown, breakdown
Stick out your head I'll stick out my finger
Kick you in the balls now you're a soprano singer
Rush to my head, whacked and hyper
Now it's time to pay the piper, time to pay the piper
Thought you were smart, now you're lying in a cart, you ain't
Resting six feet below
Your reservation ain't got no hesitations you don't need to
Pack no bag where you go
Breakdown, I'm gonna breakdown, I'm gonna break ain't no you can do
Cause it's a breakdown, a motherfuckin' breakdown, I'm gonna
Break you in fuckin' two
Cruise the streets on a hustle, show 'em what's up, flex the muscle
Whacked-out mind on a roll, leaving behind a violent toll
Don't take no chemist to understand the equation ak47, a little persuasion
Your fear is like a compliment, now you're the production of my environment
Don't flap no lip, don't shoot that crap
Timebomb for brain don't know when I snap
Breakdown
My strategy I do a psycho attack, you know my set I'm a maniac
Breakdown
Do as they say when in rome, blast the sucka then get home
Breakdown
Concussion to the skull, jugular severed chalk it up another
187
Breakdown
Breakdown, breakdown, breakdown, breakdown
Jack be nimble, jack be quick
Fuck you jack, I be a lunatic


DISC 4 - THE ART OF REBELLION
1. CAN'T STOP

There's a place I try to go, so far from here
I close my eyes, I try to, to disappear
I look around in my own way
But what I see I never, never really know
I wander 'round until I feel it coming on and then it's
It's time to go
I don't want to be here, falling out of place
Confusion's the consensus, fighting for my space

Can't stop the running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me

I lived it, I live it, it's not easy to say
I felt it, I feel it, it's just another day
It scares me, why does it dare me
You know it aint a fair fight
Pain overtakes me, it tries to break me
You know that something aint right

Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Set my body free

They don't make no seatbelt for the mind.
So I can't fasten up for this ride. . .

Running away, can't stop the runaway emotions
Not right, can't fight
Can't stop the runaway emotions
Fighting, hiding, can't stop the runaway emotions
Hypnotized, paralyzed
Can't stop the runaway emotions

Can't stop the running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions

I hate it, I hate me, like my consistency
I've seen it, I see it, I'm talking literally
So much lying, too much denying
It's time to face the facts
You can't help me
These cards were dealt me
Play out the final act

Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
You got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Set my body free

Oh no, you really done it this time

Can't stop the runaway emotions
Can't stop the runaway emotions

There's a place I try to go, so far from here
I close my eyes but I can't, can't disappear


2. ACCEPT MY SACRIFICE

No destination set
I daze along till something finds me
Where I've been I'm not sure
I cannot see the tears, they blind me

You know that something ain't right
It's a sacrifice
Why must I pay this price
Accept my sacrifice

An emptiness so full
I cap it off with expectations
A sight not to behold
I cover all in explanations

It's a sacrifice
No no no no no
It's a sacrifice a sacrifice

Sailing off of course, directions lost
There is no exit
The captain's abandoned ship, now mutiny
How could I suspect this

It's a sacrifice, it's a sacrifice, accept my sacrifice
It's a sacrifice, it's a sacrifice, it's a sacrifice
Accept my sacrifice


3. NOBODY HEARS

I talk through my eyes, the words pouring down
Nobody hears
You ask me what's wrong, but what can I say
Nobody hears

I try to tell you, I try to show you
How else can I tell you, how else can I show you?

I'm screaming inside, why can't you hear?
Nobody hears
You're looking right through me like I'm not here
Nobody hears

When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets waqshed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears

So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears

You figured it, you shaped it to your perfection
Nobody hears
Subtracted my feelings from this equation
Nobody hears

Is it all in my mind
Then it would be easy to find

So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears

So if it's all, if it's all in my mind
Then wouldn't it, wouldn't it
Wouldn't it be so easy to find

So what do I have to do
To make you comfort me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears

So I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Well I'm sitting here crying inside myself
So I'm sittin here screaming to nobody else
Don't understand why nobody hears
And nobody hears, nobody hears, nobody hears


4. TAP INTO THE POWER

I've seen pain that'll drive a man further
Than any road could ever take you

Stare at the wall, it doesn't move, must think it's bad
But I'll prove who is harder
It makes no sense, at least to you
But who's to say, I refuse
Refuse to be a martyr

Welcome in the pain
It's a glorious hour
Say hello to the hate
Tap into the. . .

I come and go your eyes can't tell
'Cause all they see is that I'm
I'm still standing here
What's that you sense, it can't be good
You're scared to look, but I ask
What's worse than fear?

Welcome in the pain
It's a glorious hour
Say hello to the hate
Tap into the. . .
Don't be afraid, don't run away
Tap into the power
I want it all, I want it all
Tap into the power

What you were told, it's all a lie
Don't be afraid because
Now's the time to explore it
Drop all the fear, try to deny
But it won't work
No longer can you ignore it

Welcome in the pain>
It's a glorious hour
Say hello to the hate
Tap into the power!


5. MONOPOLY ON SORROW

There's a cold wind in the winter of my mind
A season that last through all changes in time
I try so hard sometimes
I wish there was a raincheck on tommorow
Not ready to deal with what I don't wanna find

Struggling on, just to hold on
I just wanna know, why is it me?

In a tear there is a message from the heart
Detached from the good, it's hope gone astray
I cry so hard sometimes
Too scared to think what will bring tommorow
Already much more than I can handle today

I can't breathe, suffocate as I'm buried by hate
And so sadly I learn, there's no justice to fate
I just wanna know why is it me?
Losing the race with thoughts out of place
I just wanna, know why is it me?

You aint got a monopoly on sorrow
You know plenty has made it my way
You aint got a monopoly on sorrow
There's plenty that feel just the same

There's a pain so insane that I fight but can't tame
And my mind battles on as my body lies lame

I can't feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
I can't feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
I can't feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
I can't feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
Hurts, hurts
And I know that I know I don't know that I know
It just would stay clear then I'd see and I'd go
I just wanna know why it's me
Aint got a monopoly on sorrow

You, you, you aint got no no, you aint got no no
You aint got no no, you aint got no no
There's no monopoly on sorrow
No monopoly on sorrow
No monopoly on sorrow
No monopoly on sorrow no no no

You ain't got no no no, you ain't got no no no
You ain't got no no no, you ain't got no no no
No monopoly on sorrow
Monopoly on sorrow
Monopoly on sorrow
No no no no no
You ain't got no, no no no no
You ain't got no, no no no no
You ain't got no, no no no no
You ain't got no monopoly on sorrow


6. WE CALL THIS MUTHA REVENGE

Is this the beginning or the end

This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge
This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge

Best not be talking to me, not with those words you said
I guess I'll have to accept your invitation
To toast you upside your head
Everything has got a start
And everything has got an end
And every action has a side effect
We call this mutha revenge

This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge
This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge

Don't know if I'll blast, maybe I'll just throw
Maybe I'll kick down something special
But believe me, you're gonna know
Should have thought before you got it started
'Cause everything has got an end
Ain't no sloppy fool that's innocent
We call this mutha revenge
Revenge, revenge
This is the beginning of the end

This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge
This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge

I've seen loc'sters come, I've seen loc'sters go
But the only real loc'sters
Are holding down six feet below
Everything has got a start
And everything has got an end
Every action has a side effect
We call this mutha revenge

This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge
This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge

You're putting up a front, we're gonna tear it down
Had enough of your sorry ass 'tude
I don't trip no stare me down
You should of thought before you got it started

'Cause we're the ones that make it end
Ain't no sloppy fool that's innocent
We call this mutha revenge

Revenge, revenge
Revenge, revenge


7. I WASN'T MEANT TO FEEL THIS / ASLEEP AT THE WHEEL

Counting on nothing,the numbers get higher
Blinded by reason, you're asleep at the wheel
Confused understanding, with a slip for the hold
Squeeze past the pressure, you're asleep at the wheel

A magical moment
Is it too much of a good thing
Recycled in memory was
It too much of a good thing
Why can't you remember
Is it too much of a good thing
Preserved in it's danger
You're asleep at the wheel
Blank stare and a whisper, but who are you judging
I thought you were different
You're asleep at the wheel

A special assignment
Is it too much of a good thing
Unlocked underpressure
Was it too much of a good thing
Confined unforgiveness
Is it too much of a good thing
A new kind of danger, you're asleep at the wheel

Hope in revision, slight miscalculation
It all goes in stages, you're asleep at the wheel

A blank stare and a whisper
I thought you were different
But who are you judging
I thought you were different
You're asleep at the wheel


8. GOTTA KILL CAPTAIN STUPID

Ah damn, we got a lot of stupid people
Doing a lot of stupid things
Thinking alot of stupid thoughts
And if you want to see one
Just look in the mirror

Gotta kill Capt. Stupid, can't you see him?
Today we start the new way, we're Suicidal
Gotta kill the old way, we'll make it better
Won't you join our mission, don't be stupid
Got to kill Capt. Stupid
Got to kill Capt. Stupid

Brother killing brothers, what up with that?
Can't you see there laughing, that aint funny
Babies making babies, that aint love
You just got screwed over, get some respect

Got to kill Capt. Stupid
Got to kill Capt. Stupid

And I don't understand why
People be bringin' Capt. Stupid in there lives
Treating him like a super-hero
Glorifying him when he aint nothing but a super-punk
And you see, you're the one who's gonna have to stop him
'Cause you're the one that started him

Oh, what's that?
So, now you say life sucks
Well, ninety-nine percent of it's
What you make of it. . .
So if your life sucks, you suck

What's that crap you're smoking, playing the fool
Waste your life for nothing, when your something
What the hell you thinking, mind pollution
Got to get back control, it's your life fool

Got to kill Capt. Stupid
Got to kill Capt. Stupid

What's that now?
Ah, so you're scared to do something about it
Well, you better be scared not to do something about it
'Cause if you don't kill Capt. Stupis
Capt. Stupid gonna kill you!
Got to kill Capt. Stupid - fool


9. I'LL HATE YOU BETTER

In this world without harmony
Where there's no peace and there's no sanity
I can still survive and survive peacefully
Until that moment when you crash down on me

Cause I'll
I'll hate you better
Cause I'll
I'll hate you better

You better watch how you direct your hate
Or you'll receive part of my natural trait
Before you send off, you just better wait
Cause I aint got time not to retaliate

I'll, I'll hate you better
I'll hate you better

I'm not trying to threaten or to decieve
I'm just enlightening you so you wont be niave
I'll tell you one thing that you better believe
My hate is better to give than to receive

I'll, I'll hate you better
I'll


10. WHICH WAY TO FREE?

Free--can anyone show me the way to free?
Free--does anyone know which way is to free?

I aint here to dought you, just heard so much about you
Wont you save a place for me
I hope you'll let me choose you
I never would abuse you
Please accept my sincerity

Free--I want you
Free--I need you
Free--which way's it to free?
Free--I want to hold you
Free--I want to know you
Free--Can you send me to free

Although some may deny you
I'd really love to try you
I need this opportunity
My past has been divided
My future, I'll rewrite it
Change my life if it need to be

Which way's it to free?
Which way's it to free?

Free--Can anyone show me the way to free?
Free--Does anyone know which way is to free?

Gimme some free. . . Which way's it to
Gimme some free. . . Which way's it to


11. IT'S GOING DOWN

It's going down in my dark side
My mind starts sweating, my heart
It starts a chain reaction
That's how the pain it all starts

It's going down where no one can see
It's a sad sad sight
The feeling just gets stronger
I see you, I just put on a smile
I try to cover it up
But I can't take it too much longer

Time stands still, as I lie in place
I try to block out the pitch
In my head that keeps ringing
So I pound and pound on myself
I try to wake myself up
But I can't cause I'm not dreaming

It's going down in my dark side
With no release or escape
Doesn't believe in forgiveness
It's an emotional rape

It's going down where no one can see
It's a sad sad sight
No suspense as what will follow
Fractured terror fills my peace
Shocks my senses
Leave me empty sad and hollow

Time stands still, as I lie in place
I try to block out the pitch
In my head that keeps ringing
So I pound and pound on myself
I try to wake myself up
But I can't cause I'm not dreaming

It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin'
It's goin' down

It's going down in my dark side
Shivers and shakes through my soul
Ration surveys the damage
There's nothing left to control

It's going down now, I'm face to face
With the hollowness
That echoes in this darkness
How can I fight when I cannot see what to fight
Reluctantly how can I even stop this
All hell is breaking loose
Now panic rules as emotions blaze on fire

I'm goin' down down down down down
I'm goin' down
I'm so damn tired

It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin'
It's goin' down

It's goin' down in my darkside


12. WHERE'S THE TRUTH

Late at night, that's the time I can't forget it
Sail the darkness but this ain't sleep
Heard the sound, could it be I got the message
But the message wasn't intended for me
Can't you see there's a madman working
He's putting in overtime
Too content with the sweet scent of denial
You're oblivious to the signs

It's a struggle for the reason
But it's the only thing I know

No surprise, here's more lies and you still are wailing
What the hell are you saying
And you're fly fly flying with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, why you lying
Truth abuse, what's the use, it's not a game you're playing
Do you know what I'm saying
And you're high high hiding with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, where's the truth

I'm not you, you're not me, that's the difference
So you can't deny we're the same
What's the point, that's what sticks huh exactly
Take a second helping of the blame
Not a scare not a bomb not a warning
A condition that no one should doubt
There's a tick tock tick tock
Ticking in my head you gotta get out

Yet I cannot deny the reason
'Cause it's the only thing I know

No remorse, danger course, and you still are wailing
You don't know what you're saying
And you're fly fly flying with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, why you lying
Sick in thought, disease you've caught
Is it a game you're playing, do you know what I'm saying
And you're high high hiding with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, where's the truth

It's a struggle for the reason
But it's the only thing I know

Too much tweak, dosage leak
And you still are wailing, what the hell are you saying
And you're fly fly flying with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, why are you lying

Set to lose, why you choose
It's not a game you're playing, do you know what I'm saying
And you're high high hiding with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth

Where's the truth, where's the truth, where's the truth
Where's the truth, where's the truth, where's the truth
You're lying!


DISC 5 - STILL CYCO AFTER ALL THESE YEARS

1. SUICIDE'S AN ALTERNATIVE / YOU'LL BE SORRY

Sick of people-no one's real
Sick of chicks-they're all bitches
Sick of you-you're too hip
Sick of life-it sucks

Suicide's an alternative

Sick of trying-what's the point
Sick of talking-no one listens
Sick of listening-it's all lies
Sick of thinking-just end up confused
sick of myself-don't wanna live
Sick and tired-and no one cares
Sick of life-it sucks

Sick of politics-for the rich
Sick of power-only oppresses
Sick of government-full of tyrants
Sick of school-total brainwash
Sick of music-top-40 sucks
Sick of myself-don't wanna live
Sick and tired-and no one cares
Sick of life-it sucks

Suicide's an alternative

Sick of life-it sucks
Sick and tired-and no one cares
Sick of myself-don't wanna live
Sick of living-I'm gonna die

Suicide's an alternative

Well I've got a little story to tell
About a little red-assed punk that came from Hell
He said Satan's been looking especially for me
He said Satan's got a paper gonna set your body free
He said power and glory, bitches for screwin'
All in your name and all for you today

Oh yeah
Power and fame, all in your name
All the gold and bitches you ever could have

Oh yeah
You'll have power, fame, all in your name
All that you want, all that you need
Everything that you ever could read
Anything anything that you ever would need
Well sign the paper that's all you do
Sign the paper it's ready too
Anything there it's all for you
Well this is all you got to do

So I looked him in the eye and I said
"Fuck you you little red-assed goblined-breathed horned-hed motherfucker!"
Cause I don't care too much about gold
And I don't really give a fuck about what you've been told
And I don't really care for anyone looking after me
Cause I'm a meaner son of a bitch than that fuck ever could be


2. TWO-SIDED POLITICS

I'm not anti-society, society is anti-me
I'm not anti-religion, religion is anti-me
I'm not anti-anything, I just wanna be free

Fascist state, no freedom
Unless you control yourself
Use self-expression, lose your freedom
You're undesirable, go straight to jail

Kill someone in a war
Get a medal, you're a hero
Protect yourself in everyday war
You're a minority, you go straight to jail

I'm not anti, anti's anti-me
I'm not anti-government, government's anti-me
I'm not anti-politics, politics is anti-me
I'm not anti-anything, I just wanna be free

Innocent, never guilty
High-class lawyer, you are rich
If you're poor, must be guilty
Even if innocent, you go straight to jail


3. SUBLIMINAL

Flashing pictures on my screen
Shown too quickly to be seen
Does not register in my conscious mind
Propaganda of another kind
They're fucking with me subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally

[Chorus]
Danger-nightmare
Doomsday-nightmare
Murder-nightmare
Nightmare-nightmare

Watching TV, I start to cry
For no reason, I don't know why
Could it be from messages on my TV
Which I'm getting subliminally?
They're fucking with me subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally

[Chorus]

Mind control the easiest way
Sponsored by the CIA
It's a weapon you cannot see
It's propaganda subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally

[Chorus]


4. I SHOT THE DEVIL

I shot Reagan, I shot Sadat
I'm gonna shot you dead in heaven you'll rot
You're gonna rot in heave, hear an angel's voice
You're too bad for hell, although it's you first choice

Rot in heave, you're too bad for hell
Rot in heaven, cause you're forgiven in hell

I shot Lennon, I shot the Pope
I shot the devil, now you ain't got no hope
You're gonna rot in heaven, hear an angel's voice
You're too bad for hell although it's your first choice


5. WON'T FALL IN LOVE TODAY

Baby, don't you be blue
You know that I'll always be true
You know know that I'll always love you
And we'll always be together, too

[Chorus]
Over a thousand things I can say to you
Half of which would be un-true
But the one thing for sure I can say
Is that I won't fall in love today

Baby when you hold me tight
You know everything will be alright
So let's not take any time to fight
Because you know I love you with all my might

[Chorus]

Baby, you make me feel like a man
When we're rolling in the sand
So come and take me by the hand
And do the things you know we can

[Chorus]


6. INSTITUTIONALIZED

Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
It's like I concentrate real hard and it doesn't work out.
Everything I do and everything I try never turns out.
It's like I need time to figure these things out.
But there's always someone there going.

Hey Mike:
You know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately.
You know, maybe you should get away and maybe you should talk about it, maybe you'll feel a lot better

And I go:
No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out, just leave me alone I'll figure it out.
You know I'll just work by myself.

And they go:
Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here you know and you'll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it.

And I go:
No I don't want to I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself and they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside and it builds up inside.

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

[Chorus:]
I'm not crazy - in an institution
You're the one who's crazy - in an institution
You're driving me crazy - in an institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy -- myself.

I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything
But then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there she called my name
And I didn't even hear it, and then she started screaming: MIKE! MIKE!
And I go:
What, what's the matter?
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I go:
There's nothing wrong mom.
And she goes:
Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
And I go:
No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't you get me a Pepsi.
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
She goes:
No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go:
Mom just give me a Pepsi, please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just a Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

[Chorus]

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go:
Mike, we need to talk to you
And I go:
Okay what's the matter
They go:
Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of problems,
You've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody,
We're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself.
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
Where you could get the help that you need.
And I go:
Wait, what are you talking about, we decided!?
My best interest?! How can you know what's my best interest is?
How can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches,
I went to your institutional learning facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy?

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

[Chorus]

It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway


7. WAR INSIDE MY HEAD

War inside my head
War inside my head
War inside my head
War inside my head

War inside my head ain't a pretty sight
But I don't want no sympathy
It's happened a thousand times before
It's just a harsh reality

[Chorus]
War inside my head-can you sense it
War inside my head-can you see it
War inside my head-can you feel it
War inside my head

Can you hear the-pain
Can you see the-pain
Can you sense the-pain
Can you feel the-pain
Can you help the-pain
Can you fix the-pain
Can you taste the-pain
Can you hear the war inside my head

The only thing real is the way I feel
And that's the pain that's deep inside
That battle from within is gonna begin
And there ain't nowhere to hide

[Chorus]

War inside my head every night and day
I never get no piece of mind
It ought to be a sin, I just can't win
And pure hell is all I find

[Chorus]


8. DON'T GIVE ME YOUR NOTHIN' [SUICIDAL TENDENCIES COVER]

Don't you give me give me give me your borrowed time
Don't you give me give me give me your recycled line
Who do you think you are?
You must think you're something

Don't you give me give me give me you're here to help me
Got to get with the program, I don't need no charity
I don't need shit and you ain't nothing

And if I made a perfect world you'd be gone
Don't give me give me give me your misguided help
Don't give me your nothin', I can do it myself
Well I don't want shit and I don't need nothing

Don't you give me give me give me your look of concern
I don't need your meddling when you gonna learn
Well you ain't shit and you ain't nothin'

Well I just made my perfect world-oops you're gone
Well now you know what it feels like not to belong-so long

So don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no

Don't give me your second-hand sympathy
Don't give me your nothin', just let me be
Who do you think you are?
You must think you're something

Don't you give me give me give me your worried tone
You can't fool me with that crap just leave me alone
And I don't need it, I don't need nothing

Now I have a perfect world, now you're gone-oh oh oh
Don't give me your nothin', don't give me your nothin'

Don't give me give me give me that "What did I do?"
You don't have to do nothing, you're just being you
I'll tell you why, you ain't nothing

If you make your perfect world you will find
The only place that's perfect is in your mind
What's perfect for you is like a hell for me
Two perfect worlds, it just cannot possibly be-oh oh oh oh

Don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me your "I'll be there"
I don't believe how you lie, you don't care
Don't give me your shit, don't give me your nothin'

Don't give me give me give me your "I love you"
They just are words and the words ain't true
You're full of shit, your words mean nothing

And I just made my perfect world, now you're gone
And in my perfect world your perfect world don't belong-so long

No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'


9. MEMORIES OF TOMORROW

B-1 bombers in flight
Trident missiles in the air
MX missiles underground
Protect us till we're dead

[Chorus]
Memories of tomorrow-too late for sorrow

Push the button
Kiss goodbye the nuclear arsenal
A-bombs flying off their ramps
Nuclear bombs explode

[Chorus]

Radioactive people
Search for medicine
Pray for shelter
Kill for food

[Chorus]

Mass starvation
Contaminated water
Destroyed cities
Mutilated bodies

[Chorus]

I'll kill myself
I'd rather die
If you could see in the future
You'd know why

Memories of tomorrow


10. POSSESSED

When I go down the street
The people watch me shiver and shake
I'm a prisoner of a demon
I think my head's about to break
it stays with me wherever I go
I can't break away from its hold
This must be punishment
For selling my soul

[Chorus]
Too much pressure my pulse is rising
My heart is pounding my head really hurts
I can't take it all this pressure
From all these things inside of me
Everywhere I look I see them
Everywhere I go they're at
What did I do to deserve this
Why won't they just leave my body

Are they people or are they spirits
Do they belong to the human race
Why do they want me so bad
Why won't they come out of their hiding place
I can't see them but I know they're here
I can feel it in my veins
All this pressure on my body
Is causing all my strength to drain

[Chorus]

Am I crazy or am I insane
Or have I already lost my mind
Is it real or is it fake
Or am I in a permanent bind
Am I in power or am I a slave
Who in the hell is in control
Am I still living or am I dead
Do I still have a soul

I know I can't keep going this way
I have to give my mind some leisure
If I keep on going like this
I never again will taste pleasure
If they will not break the oath
I will have to disband
I have lost all control
This thing has now taken command
Possessed


11. I SAW YOUR MOMMY

Yesterday as I went out of the house
I saw a body lying down quiet as a mouse
She was lying face down in the sewer
What you do-I got up closer and realized that I knew her
What you see-All her organs coming from her inside
That's nasty-Slashed up skin, sliced-up hide
Tell me some more-Turned her over and saw the tire tracks on her head
Then what-That's when I realized she was dead

[Chorus]
Twisted body, chopped-off feet
her body was minced meat
Bust crawling on her arms
She's dead can't do no harm
Gnarled-up legs, broken and bent
Her last breath has been spent

I wonder how much you had to pay
To get your mom killed in such a bloody way

I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I watched her as she bled
Well she had-Chewed-off toes on her chopped-off feet
Say what?-I took a picture 'cause I thought it was neat
That's cold-But the thing I like seeing the best
What's that-Was the rodents using her hair as a nest
Damn-I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead

[Chorus]

I know it is your allowance that you'll really miss
But make it look good at her funeral and give her a kiss

I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I saw her lying in a pool of read-And she doesn't know how to swim
I think it's the greatest thing I'll ever see-What's that?
Your dead mommy lying in front of me
I'll always remember her lying dead on the floor
I hope she dies twenty times more

I saw your mommy and your mommy is dead
I saw your mommy and your mommy is dead
I saw her, I saw her...mommy
I saw your mommy


12. FASCIST PIG

Tense atmosphere in the air
Riot written everywhere
Riot squads coming from over there
Time to go home if you're square

[Chorus]
Riot squad bas their heads
Kick their ass until they're dead
I want to be a fascist pig
Love to fight what a thrill
We don't stop until we kill
I want to be a fascist pig

Throw a bottle in the air
Put them up to their dare
We'll just laugh while they stare
Let them hit me see if I care

[Chorus]

Get attacked by them
You'll never heal
They'll rob your conscience
Your sanity they'll steal
They'll beat your brains until they spill
That's the fascist favorite meal

[Chorus]


13. A LITTLE EACH DAY

Took a walk down under the street
Never thought that I'd see the day I would meet
Came and whispered in my ear
But I tried to pretend that I didn't hear
Turned my head and I walked away
I tried to forget what they had to say
Put on a smile and I tried to hide
But I couldn't keep myself from crying inside

[Chorus]
Oh I...So I turned my head and I walked away
Oh I...And I tried to forget what he had to say
Oh I...And I chalked it up as another day
Oh I say...I died a little today

Took a journey through my brain
And they saw the scars and they felt my pain
Saw the things I didn't want to find
Knew the dreams I had over a bottle of wine
Thought if I lied I was going to win
But they said the battle wouldn't even begin
Thought about the lies that I said to myself
But I knew it's too late to find the help

[Chorus]


14. I WANT MORE

In times of trouble fall to my knees and I look to the sky
Cause me, me I want more
The classification of our heart's a sin
Cause me, me I want more

Don't wanna pump nobody's gas-I want more
Don't wanna kiss my boss's ass-I want more
Don't wanna take the first job I find-I want more
Don't wanna dig coal out of a mine-I want more

[Chorus]
Slaving in a factory, a different kind of insanity
Feels like I'm locked in a cage
Working like a maniac, gave myself a heart attack
For a job that pays minimum wage

Don't wanna work at the golden arches-I want more
Don't wanna was no rich man's cars-I want more
Don't wanna be nobody's gardener-I want more
Don't wanna be no garbage man-I want more

[Chorus]

I sit and reflect about all that I've learned and all that I've seen
Cause me me I want more
The memories come and they go away
Cause me me I want more

Don't wanna pump nobody's gas-I want more
Don't wanna kiss my boss's ass-I want more
Don't wanna take the first job I find-I want more
Don't wanna dig coal out of a mine-I want more
I want more


15. SUICIDAL FAILURE

Father forgive me for I know not what I do
I tried everything but I'll leave it up to you
I don't want to live, I don't know why
I don't have no reasons, I just want to die

[Chorus]
I'm a suicidal failure, I've got to get some help
I have suicidal tendencies but I can't kill myself

I'm tired of this way of life, my patience has expired
I'm barely just 20 but my life I will retire
I went down to a rifle store, I bought myself a gun
I point it at my head but I couldn't get the job done

[Chorus]

I took all my mother's sleeping pills
I jumped off a freeway bridge
I drank three kinds of poison
And drove my car off a ridge
I beat myself with a bat
Put a noose around my head
I overdosed on heroin
But I'm still not dead

[Chorus]

Death may not be the answer
It can't be all that great
But me I'm not into living
With life I can't relate
By some masochistic reasoning I think that it will be fun
I want to start my second life now
So shoot me with your gun

[Chorus]

I'm looking forward-suicidal
I'm really bored-suicidal
You wanna die-suicidal
Then die-suicidal

Honestly-suicidal
At the game-suicidal
At my school-suicidal
At the bar-suicidal

Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal