1. 3 FEET FROM PEACE

I've gone to hell and back searching for answers that do not exist.
I tore everything apart, needing a reason for feeling like this.
It left me with nothing but this hole in my chest,
So I looked inside to see what I'd find… the true journey begins.

Don't hide the truth inside of you from anyone.
I just can't be what they want me to be. Can anyone?

I made a promise to myself that I intend to keep.
I made a promise that I will no longer live 3 feet from peace.


2. THE SUN, THE MOON, THE TRUTH: PENANCE OF SELF

You've heard it all before
"This time won't be the same. You can trust me."
But you know my fucking game
Say what I have to, to get what I need
Now the evil delivered, swings back at me

Weak attempts at change carry me backward
Too little too late, now live with the hurt
For everything I have an excuse
"But some things are not long hidden: the sun the moon the truth"

Now I live with the hurt
Live with the hurt
This is what I deserve

Break me down, the only way I'll learn
The guilt is overwhelming
Take me out, the pain of me returns
My sins fucking destroy me

I am forced to face the fire I create
And watch as it annihilates everything
Hold me back while I watch it burn
The price I pay, the suffering returns

Now the hands of fate are here to collect
Nothing here is safe until I reflect
I run from myself, no end in sight
Numb on the inside from living a lie

Now I watch as it burns
Watch as it burns
This is what I deserve

Break me down, the only way I'll learn
The guilt is overwhelming
Take me out, the pain of me returns
My sins fucking destroy me

You can shelter yourself from the sun
And you can hide from the moon
But there is nothing you can do
When the truth strikes it's light on you

Now I must live with the hurt
Now I must live with the hurt
The pain of me returns
The pain of me returns
The pain of me returns
Now I must live with the hurt


3. MARRIED TO THE NOISE

I found a place to belong so I went all in
I walked right in the mouth of it and never looked back again
The only thing that remains through the loss and the pain
As for me there was no other choice
I'm married to the noise

We've been pushed to the side while the fake walk the line
I've seen it all my life
You praise what is weak and keep carrying on
You cannot kill my will to belong

What's inside me still pushes on

I don't care if you can't see what I see. I'm still here
No, I don't care. I never needed a reason. Yeah, I'm still here

Through and through
This has always been my truth
And it can't be killed
So I won't let you crush what we built
Lost on you
Somewhere along the line you forgot
What this meant to all of us
And I've had enough

I don't care if you can't see what I see. I'm still here
No, I don't care. I never needed a reason. Yeah, I'm still here
So keep rolling your eyes. I'd rather be dead than settle with your way of life
So I don't care what you think about me. Yeah, I'm still here

Through the loss and the pain
The only thing that remains
And I was finally heard through the pain of my voice
As for me there was no other choice

I don't care if you can't see what I see. I'm still here
No, I don't care. I never needed a reason. Yeah, I'm still here
So keep rolling your eyes. I'd rather be dead than settle with your way of life
So I don't care what you think about me. Yeah, I'm still here

The only thing that remains
Through the loss and the pain
As for me there was no other choice
I'm married to the noise


4. DELINELLE

I left scars on your heart like the cracks in the concrete
You know I feel them too
Since the day that I left I punish myself
Hoping to find some truth
But you have to believe I just didn't know what else to do
And now the life that I left is leaving me too

Set free
You stood by me when no when else would
Set free
Trusted my vision when I didn't think that I could
Set free

You tried desperately to keep my head above water for the sake of us
But somewhere along the line I lost track of who I was
I just got so tired of pulling you under, under with me
And now that I lost you, I lost everything

Set free
You stood by me when no when else would
Set free
Trusted my vision when I didn't think that I could
Set free
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
Set free
How can I live with myself and what I put you through?

This is not an apology or an admission of guilt
This is a realization of how I destroyed all the things we've built

Set free
You stood by me when no when else would
Set free
Trusted my vision when I didn't think that I could
Set free
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
Set free
How can I live with myself and what I put you through?

Set free


5. CAVE CANEM

When opening the gates of hell still isn't enough, what else will it take?
Will we not stop until all is destroyed? Is losing everything the only way this will change?
And I ask myself is this the final warning?

And when it all opens up and starts devouring us
I hope we see the truth, that it was me and you
And when it all falls apart I hope we see who we are
We can't hide in the wake of this so you better beware

You may have your reasons but that doesn't make them right
The state of humanity faces a truth with no cure in sight
One hand out stretched desperately reaching to pull us from death
And the other gripping the trigger, a bullet aimed right at it's head
And still I ask myself is this the final warning?

And when it all opens up and starts devouring us
I hope we see the truth, that it was me and you
And when it all falls apart I hope we see who we are
We can't hide in wake this so you better beware

This is the last and final warning. It's fucking tearing us down
This is the last and final warning. I hope you hear us now: Cave Canem


6. 56

Stay and keep me up
And I'll try not to drift away
But it's on the days I don't pick up
That I can't find the words or answers that you need to hear from me

I knew we'd sink but I still jumped in

So if you're going under don't let me go
Let's just drown inside the things we love the most
And you can say what you want and that's okay
But we found the reasons that we needed to walk away

And we knew that even if it killed us we'd still let it pull us in
Yeah, we carried more, more than we could take
Hoping that somewhere along the line it would all fall into place

Cause in the end you can't stop the wind

So if you're going under don't let me go
Let's just drown inside the things we love the most
And you can say what you want and that's okay
But we found the reasons that we needed to walk away

I knew we'd sink but for some reason I still jumped in
Because in the end after everything we did you can't stop the wind

So if you're going under don't let me go
Let's just drown inside the things we love the most
And you can say what you want and that's okay
But we found the reasons that we needed to walk away
Even if we found a way it would never be the same


7. THE INNER AUTHORITY: REALIZATION OF SELF

I pass the time with tediousness watching my life pass hour by hour
These destructive patterns of life set my mind spiraling downward
Will I allow what is expected of me to dull the sharp edge of my life?
Or will I take into my hands the use of my time?

This is not what was meant for me
A weak existence of shallow priority
This is not what was meant for me
So I quiet my mind to hear the inner authority

No more resistance
Destroy the dominant power of fear
Control my existence
When I'm listening the answers are clear

I am what I seek
I now understand
So from here on out
I will not seek what I am

I will not seek what I am


8. YOU ARE FREE

Destroy the voices that cripple me
I realize I'm in everything
Can't change the past but what I hold in my hands is the light of myself. I finally understand
Death to oppression on every level
For my life I will never settle
Far too long I sabotaged myself
To believe that what sets me free is up to someone else

You yourself have to decide
Will you consume or block out the light?
Your mind, the anchor or the way which you see... you just have to believe

You are free
No matter what they do or what they say
Believe.... you are free
The true power of you can't be taken away
Believe... you are free
Inward and out
You are free
Destroy the doubt
You are free
No matter what they say the true power of you can't be taken away

Never forget: what is doesn't have to be

No matter what they do or what they say
Believe.... you are free
The true power of you can't be taken away
Believe... you are free
Inward and out
You are free
Destroy the doubt
You are free
No matter what they say the true power of you can't be taken away

You have to decide


9. DOOMED BY YOU

I've lost so much sleep
Mistaking your voice in my ear for the voice in my head
Your guilt stacked against me
Convinced that I'd bend
I just rolled over and prayed for the end

What chance do I have when you expect me to fail before I even begin?
Your expectations can't take me out
I'm done betting against myself

I won't be doomed by you
I won't be doomed

You had caught in a tide of self doubt
Swimming against your current but I won't fucking drown
I can see you for what you've become
So don't wonder why you're left with no one

What chance do I have when you expect me to fail before I even begin?
Your narrow predictions won't take me down
I'm done betting against myself

I won't be doomed by you
I won't be doomed

You made me believe that this was about me
When the truth is, you fucking coward, you don't have what it takes


10. THE BETTER DAYS BEFORE ME

I'm a firm believer in letting the past be the past
But sometimes you have to go back
You have to go back
To remind ourselves of the things we lost
The weight we shed, the lessons learned and how much they cost

As for me I realize this life is not guaranteed
And that we are not promised the things that we need
But this life always has a way to force you to face yourself and I've avoided it for way too long

As for me I realize this life is not guaranteed
And that we are not promised the things that we need
Wasted days are suicide
If you're not satisfied
You have no one to blame but yourself

There was a time when I did things just to do them
When I let my heart lead me to the lions
There was a time when I saw the value in uncertainty
And there was no difference between you and me
There was a time when everything didn't seem so out of place
There was a time when we said fuck them all and just walked their fucking race
There was a time when we just laughed at everything and everyone
There was a time
Where is the time?

I'm going back to find the better days before me

There was a time
Now is the time and I'm fucking going back

I'm going back to find the better days before me


11. OWED NOTHING

I am an accident in a game of chance
So I'll use my numbered days any way I can
I realize I was never meant to be
I am owed nothing

I have spent too much time feeling sorry for myself, playing victim, thinking of nobody else
Giving nothing but expecting something in return, always running from the lessons I'm supposed to learn

I learned the hard way
It's just here for a second then it all goes back
I'm missing something
The hope that we carry is all we have
I won't live in fear that at any moment it can all just disappear
I learned the hard way
We're just here for a second then we all go back

I am owed nothing

Every second of our lives is on borrowed time
So use it now cause you won't get a second try
Everything you've ever loved won't last
And anything that we use is paid back

I learned the hard way
It's just here for a second then it all goes back
I'm missing something
The hope that we carry is all we have
I won't live in fear that at any moment it can all just disappear
I learned the hard way
We're just here for a second then we all go back

In the end what we refuse to let go all becomes nothing

What we refuse to let go all becomes nothing

It's time we realized we were never meant to be

We are owed nothing

I learned the hard way
It's just here for a second then it all goes back
I'm missing something
The hope that we carry is all we have
I won't live in fear that at any moment it can all just disappear
I learned the hard way
We're just here for a second then we all go back


12. THROUGH THE CHAIN LINK

I didn't ask for any of this but that doesn't mean
That the sins of my father and what he passed down do not belong to me
A foundation of shit upon which we salute, blinded by greed
But the higher it builds, worse gets the view. Have we learned nothing? Nothing at all

Can not the prisoner dream to one day be free?
Can not the child plagued with disease hope to end their suffering?
Can not the mother who buries her son wish to see him again?

It echoed in me when you said
"There is no point, this is the world we live in."


13. THE REACH FOR ME: FORGIVENESS OF SELF

I know the things I've done, and most I'm proud but some I'm not
And it's those that speak the loudest, that replay and keep me up

Broken and alone to face this on my own

And if I can't learn from what I've done, the pain I've felt has been for nothing. All for nothing
And if I can't forgive myself for the pain I've caused it will always haunt me. Oh I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry

I don't want a second chance. I just want to understand
What led me down this path and how I can lead myself back

I'll face this on my own

And if I can't learn from what I've done, the pain I've felt has been for nothing. All for nothing
And if I can't forgive myself for the pain I've caused it will always haunt me. Oh I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry

And if I can't learn from what I've done, the pain I've felt has been for nothing. All for nothing
And if I can't forgive myself for the pain I've caused it will always haunt me

I'm so sorry