1. SILHOUETTE

Take my hand
Guide me through this
I can’t see past the dark
When I am left alone
How could I
Have allowed any hope
To grow within
When I knew how this would end

Looking back
It’s all haze
The lines of your face
Have started to fade
I’m reaching for
A way to not let go
Of your memory
Of the life that used to be

Hold on
Hold on
I’ll hold on
Even if you’re gone

So futile
It all seems
I’ve tried to hard
To let these things be
I’m too consumed
In misery
To see anything else
Beyond the pain in me

Hold on
Hold on
I’ll hold on
Even if you’re gone

And if I try hard enough
I can still see your face
The pain in your eyes that slowly faded
As you left this world behind
Flashes of grief fill my memory
Of your final touch
The warmth of your skin still lingers
Even though you’ve gone away


2. ACQUIESCENCE

So many times
These ghosts have fed me lies
That I chose to believe
So many times
I’ve tried to appease
The demons inside
Tantalizing in their cries

The pain inside
So hard I’ve tried
To keep it away
But it still stays
The harder I try
The more it wins
Should I give up
And just give in

The forest’s whispers
Echo in my head
It beckons me to hear its song
Leading the path
Back to myself
Long left behind
In the shadows of this troubled mind

Come sit beside me
In the groaning wind
As the autumn leaves
All turn to grey
We’ll leave behind
This earthly toil
So we can find
Serenity


3. DESPITE THE SCOURGE

Can you see through
Your own fog and veils
That shroud the truth
You’ve hid so well
Among the graves
Of the things you killed
What’s left
Is this broken stone
That you left behind
Along the ground
Destroyed by your corrosive words

And I’m still standing
On my own
Despite this malady
And I’m still breathing
On my own
Despite the air taken from me

False mosaic of glass and stone
That you formed all on your own
Is broken now and covered in earth
As you lay in your bed of mirth
So surprised that you’re alone
As you sit on your broken throne

And I still carry this ball and chain
Given to me by your hand
It gives me strength
To change this part that I hate within me


4. FRAGMENTS

Struggling to breathe again
Another useless sigh
Spiraling for the hundredth time
For ghosts no one cries

Made myself bleed again
Don’t even have to try
Wondering where this will end
Another Sleepless night

Was it all as it seemed
Or have I killed all our dreams

Struggling to breathe again
A burning in our chest
We cannot pretend
We’re at each other’s best

Afraid to feel the pain
The price is much too high
Bandage up the hurt inside
From wounds we try to hide

Is it all as it seems
Or have we killed all our dreams

I can’t see past tomorrow
I can’t sleep with this sorrow
I saw you there in the hollow
Now there is nothing left


5. GARDENS FROM GRAVES

I’ve watched you struggle for so long
Relentlessly holding on to life
Even though the road ahead
Might be traveled in vein
The hope I’d see in you
Almost made me believe

All that remains is this empty space
That once was filled by your presence

So many times the fear of losing you
Would paralyze me
But when the nightmare
Became reality
What more was there
Left to do

Paralyze me like venom in my veins
As this nightmare becomes reality

I can’t believe
There’s no hope
No relief
Now I’m left to make
Gardens from graves

Can’t begin to explain
The weight that this brings
It’s left me choking
And gasping for air


6. BLACKENED HEART

I know it seems this pain
Has no end in sight
I know that something is missing
And the joy of life is gone

But these things
They won’t last forever
Even if the scars remain
This burden is not your own
I’ll help you carry on

Sometimes the strongest one
Are the ones who cry the most
Sometimes the bravest ones
Carry the greatest fear

But those who learn to heal
Are the ones who have hurt the worst
These pains won’t last forever
Even if the scars remain

Nothing will be the same
But you are not the one to blame
I will be there until the end
When the last tears fall in your hand


7. WITHERED TO A SHADOW

This life has taken
All of what I had to give
There is nothing left in me
Vitality is all but drained

I have failed to recognize
The source of my grief inside
I have failed to recognize
The reason for my failure in this life

Now what’s left is a shadow
Of this broken figure
And it feels like I’ve failed
To recognize the source of my despair

I have tried to look inside
And ask myself just why I’ve died
I have tried to look inside
And ask myself who is truly to blame

If I could see
More clearly
Then I could remove
This thorn from my side

All this time I’ve lived
With this weight upon my breast
All these years I’ve lived
With this pain in my chest


8. RESOLVE

Standing out in the cold
With no other place to go
The snow begins to fall

After the sunlight dies
And there’s no more tears to cry
Will you go on your own

These eyes are tired
There’s nothing that they can hide
Just an open book

Rotten feelings inside
Hoping that they will die
But no not on their own