1. I'D RATHER SEE YOUR STAR EXPLODE

Kick me when I'm down
Keep me on the ground
From the ones who I thought they would never leave
Who gave you so much faith?
Who gave you so much power?
You turned it all against me

I'm feeling alive like it's the first time
But you're goin' and you're goin' and you're gone tonight
I'm feeling alive like it's the first time
Never gonna be a part of me this time

I know you'll write me off
I know you're always gonna count me out
You think I'm gonna let you down?
I know you'll write me off
I know you're always gonna count me out
You think I'm gonna let you down?
Just wait, just wait, just wait

Kick me when I'm down
Keep me on the ground
There's no black and white when it comes to pain
All I give up, it's still not enough
You're twisting my demons like there is no love.
When push comes to shove, that fine line gives up
I'm left with the feeling of chasing a rush.

I'm feeling alive like it's the first time
But you're goin' and you're goin' and you're gone tonight
I'm feeling alive like it's the first time
Never gonna be a part of me this time

I know you'll write me off
I know you're always gonna count me out
You think I'm gonna let you down?
I know you'll write me off
I know you're always gonna count me out
You think I'm gonna let you down?
Just wait

Gonna show what I've got left
You haven't even seen my best
Just wait

All I gave up
Still not enough
Kick me when I'm down

I know you'll write me off
I know you're always gonna count me out
You think I'm gonna let you down?
I know you'll write me off
I know you're always gonna count me out
You think I'm gonna let you down?
Just wait

Don't count me out
Won't let you down
I'm never gonna let you down
(Don't count me out, don't count me out)
(Don't write, I won't let you down)


2. PATIENCE IS THE VIRTUE

Never done it the way I should
So impatient, misunderstood
I've always let a girl dictate my feelings, yeah
Too distracted, too direct, too numb
So I neglect the things I should protect
I'm ready for what is next
I've made mistakes, you've made a judgement
Focused on a life of substance
I'm tired of waiting I know I need to face it
I'm building, I'm zoned in, I'll never be complacent

I'm on the way up, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
Nothing can hold me, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been

They say hurry up and wait, hurry up and wait
Eyes on the gold and everytime I see the gold I froze
Best cards in the fucking deck but I fold
It's like I'm stuck in a place that I can't call home
And I ain't circling the block no more
Why do I do this to myself over and over again?

I'm on the way up, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
Nothing can hold me I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
I'm on the way up, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
Nothing can hold me, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been

And I could almost touch the sky
Keep my head down it's my time
No feeling done asking why
Keep my head down it's my time
I'm ready for what is next

I'm on the way up, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
Nothing can hold me, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
I'm on the way up, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been
Nothing can hold me, I need to be patient, patient like I've never been


3. TRUE COLORS

I always felt uneasy when we were in the same place
Taken back by the feeling that this could all go away
She said "Baby I would never do what those girls do"
Funny how I'd only hear that when it benefitted you

Did I get too close?
Didn't mean to have your true colors exposed

Wait, did you ever take a moment just to think
About anyone, anyone other than yourself?
Give me back the love I wasted now
Cold, one day it's gonna hit you you're alone
I won't be there, won't be there
It's cruel to turn around
Give me back the love I wasted now

It's your eyes that told me you were in it
All the flags that were red I told myself they were tinted
Then I noticed that you couldn't stand the sight of your own shadow
Like the devil on your shoulder couldn't stand to wait much longer

Did I get too close?
Didn't mean to have your true colors exposed
Imperfections start to show
That's when I wanted you more

Wait, did you ever take a moment just to think
About anyone, anyone other than yourself?
Give me back the love I wasted now
Cold, one day it's gonna hit you you're alone
I won't be there, won't be there
It's cruel to turn around
Give me back the love I wasted now

Give me back the love I wasted now
Now, now

Wait, did you ever take a moment just to think
About anyone, anyone other than yourself?
Give me back the love I wasted now
Cold, one day it's gonna hit you you're alone
I won't be there, won't be there
It's cruel to turn around
Give me back the love I wasted now


4. LET THIS HAUNT YOU

We've been through hell and back so who are you
To make me feel attack
I've found myself beginning to change
I'm turning into someone I can't take

I thought we could put it all to rest
Let the past go but I can't forget

Tell me all the reasons you treat me this way
When you're feeling low to make yourself okay
Tell me all the reasons you treat me this way
When you're feeling low to make yourself okay

I've been focused on a life including you to be right by my side
Pull the plug and watch me drown
All I see is your lies now

I thought we could put it all to rest
Let the past go but I can't forget

Can't get this out of my head
And all I see is this sweat on your soul
Now you're hollowed out

Tell me all the reasons you treat me this way
When you're feeling low to make yourself okay
Tell me all the reasons you treat me this way
When you're feeling low to make yourself okay

I don't see how you look at me now
Knowing I could never look at you the same
I'd rather lie to myself at night
And keep all of this hope alive

I may be nigh, you're shooting low
You took it too far, now there's nowhere left go
I may be nigh, you're shooting low
You took it too far, nowhere left go

Tell me all the reasons you treat me this way
When you're feeling low to make yourself okay
Tell me all the reasons you treat me this way
When you're feeling low to make yourself okay

You'll never be okay


5. PETTY TRAPPIN

I've heard everything you're saying
Makes no difference to me
I am only getting better
Save your pity

You left the topic
You wish that I quit
Deep down you know you'll never be me
You're wasting your time
You're wasting your energy

You say I'm everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine
Everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine

I'll stare right here in my only
Doing what I need to do
Giving concern to who will come and go and need me most

Ain't nobody doing me like that
Don't go saying shit you can't take back
I don't know. It's perfect, I agree
I'm working on it, trust me

You left the topic
You wish that I quit
Deep down you know you'll never be me
You're wasting your time
You're wasting your energy

You say I'm everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine
Everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine

You think you're clever
Saying words under your breath, yeah
It gives me pleasure
Knowing you never could do just what I do
Only getting stronger now
Holding me, gone
No time for you to put me down
Your move, I'm done

You say everything you despise
I'm everything you don't like
I'm everything you don't like

You say I'm everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine
Everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine

You say I'm everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine
Everything you despise
Everything you don't like
Open my eyes to see yours fixated on mine


6. I KNOW A LOT OF ARTISTS

I know I see this all the time
I see the trouble in your eyes
Trouble that money can't fix
And you still dig your ditch

I usually fall for that same old cycle
You see it in white and black
And I'm in the middle

Well I don't want the same
Maybe I should explain
I've been through this before
Get it all off your chest
No need to pretend that you won't come undone
Come undone

You used to tell me everyday
You know exactly how I get
That's right, I know how you get
That's why I'm walking away
I've learned from this
Broken down, rebuilt from it
You can say you're different
But it's clear you're still the same

I usually fall for that same old cycle
You see it in white and black
And I'm in the middle

Well I don't want the same
Maybe I should explain
I've been through this before
Get it all off your chest
No need to pretend that you won't come undone
Come undone

I've learned from this
Broken down, rebuilt from it
You can say you're different
But it's clear you're still the same

Sleep in the bed that you made
I know that someone will save ya
They're gonna see all your lies
Ain't no cryin tonight
It's gonna catch ya right where I know it's gonna hurt you most

Well I don't want the same
Maybe I should explain
I've been through this before
Get it all off your chest
No need to pretend that you won't come undone
Come undone

Watch you coming undone
Watch you coming undone
Coming undone
Coming undone


7. DEADLY CONVERSATIONS

I check my messages way too much
Knowing you won't reply
As soon as I give up
Is when you try to stir shit up

I don't want to see you with someone else
I'm not waiting on the shelf
It's now or never and nothing else
What's the point of reaching out?

I don't need, I don't need another fail
If you're not mine
I don't need you, don't need you
If you're you're not here by my side

Do you think I want to hear about
Your newest little thing
Well fuck that, and fuck the fact that it's not me
So I guess that means you win

I don't want to see you with someone else
I'm not waiting on the shelf
It's now or never and nothing else
What's the point of reaching out?

I don't need, I don't need another fail
If you're not mine
I don't need you, don't need you
If you're you're not here by my side

I don't need, I don't need another fail
If you're not mine
I don't need you, don't need you
If you're you're not here by my side

Endless conversations
With you in my head
Going through the scenarios
Where we try this once again
There's no middle ground, we're on separate sides
Until then, don't bother
Don't call, alright?
You put these speed bumps in my life
It only takes a night

I don't need, I don't need another fail
If you're not mine
I don't need you, don't need you
If you're you're not here by my side

I don't need, I don't need another fail
If you're not mine
I don't need you, don't need you
If you're you're not here by my side


8. BACK TO THE ROOTS

Oh, the damage has been done
No sense wondering who went wrong
No point trading battle scars
Either way, I suffered way too long

I believe in second chances
Where do we even start?
Even start?
Nothing good is ever easy
But it shouldn't be this hard
Be this hard

I can't be afraid of being lonely
I'm going to do this my own way
Tonight I'm going to do my own thing
I'm getting closer to having closure
I'm going to do this my own way
Tonight I'm going to do my own thing
And I suggest you do the same

Feeling numb or feeling true
Got my feelings catching you
You can blame me all you want to
But I hate that I can't stop hating you

Let's put an end to all this madness
It starts with you

I believe in second chances
Where do we even start?
Even start?
Nothing good is ever easy
But it shouldn't be this hard
Be this hard

I can't be afraid of being lonely
I'm going to do this my own way
Tonight I'm going to do my own thing
I'm getting closer to having closure
I'm going to do this my own way
Tonight I'm going to do my own thing
And I suggest you do the same

Oh oh, getting closer to closure
Oh oh, getting closer to closure
Getting closer to closure

No such thing as second chances
It's clear we fell apart, fell apart

I can't be afraid of being lonely
I'm going to do this my own way
Tonight I'm going to do my own thing
I'm getting closer to having closure
I'm going to do this my own way
Tonight I'm going to do my own thing
And I suggest you do the same

Oh oh, oh oh
Getting closer to closure
Oh oh, oh oh
Getting closer to closure


9. WARNING FROM MY DEMONS

I was just an hourglass
With fading memories
I've been going through the motions now
Hoping to escape

I've come to terms and I know
I'm hard to love
I know I'm hard to love
Working on it everyday
Working on it everyday
It's hard to let me get away, babe

You wish it was so simple
I see it on your face
I wish the same
But baby, I'm worth it
So hang on with me

I want to warn you while I'm here at the start
I'm hard to love
I know I'm hard to love
Working on it everyday
Working on it everyday
It's hard to let me get away

I'm hard to love
I know I'm hard to love
Working on it everyday
Working on it everyday
It's hard to let me get away, babe

I'm here to tell you that you're in for a ride
Let our demons play, they've no where to hide
Don't wait
Open your eyes, eyes, eyes

I'm hard to love
I know I'm hard to love
Working on it everyday
Working on it everyday
It's hard to let me get away

I'm hard to love
I know I'm hard to love
Working on it everyday
Working on it everyday
It's hard to let me get away, babe


10. THE PACT

I'm gonna let you in on a secret, I'm so afraid
Of letting my skeletons out, so I bottle them in
But I know it's gonna get out in the worst way, so I gave in
Now I'm gonna be an open book for you to read

The longer I stay numb, the longer I don't have to think much
I never have to think about my father and how he walked out on us
How I barely know my mother, for that I'm ashamed
Afraid of what they think of me, so I stay away

Let's make a pact right here, right now

You keep your hopes up that I can change
Well I stay honest, you do the same
I'll keep my purpose, you keep your faith
That we can get through this
These tougher days
These tougher days

I always felt that you won't understand
So I bled out quietly
The medicine held my hand
And made me feel like I can stand up

The toll it's taking on my chest now
Bridges burning and chances left out
List of things that I regret now
Build up this resentment

The longer I stay numb, the longer I don't have to think much
Never have to think about my father and how he walked out on us
How I barely know my mother, for that I'm ashamed
Afraid of what they think of me, so I stay away

You keep your hopes up that I can change
Well I stay honest, you do the same
I'll keep my purpose, you keep your faith
That we can get through this
These tougher days

Listen, let's make a pact right here, right now
Let's make a pact right here, right now

You keep your hopes up that I can change
Well I stay honest, you do the same
I'll keep my purpose, you keep your faith
That we can get through this
These tougher days