1. STAND AMID THE ROAR

A side of temperance
An appetite for excess
I'm burning out like your cigarette

You! (You had me cornered)
You had me at goodbye
(I lived to watch you)
I loved to see you slip away
(I enjoyed captivity)
Staring at a car crash

We kill at weddings and live for funerals
We're taking steps on the water just to show
We do whatever we want to

Did I forget who I was
Did I forget just where I came from
Did I just lose who I am
This is the line I stand
(A feast of apathy, a shot of angst)

I! (I brought you to safety)
I carried you away
(Taking all your blame)
I dropped you in the gutter
(Hid you and protected)
Just to watch you scream

We save with violence and lie with eloquence
We're turning wine into water with abhorrence
We'll save whoever we want to

(Oh!) Did I forget who I was
Did I forget just where I came from
Did I just lose who I am
This is the fine line I stand

I'm not so confident
I'm going to be the one who takes the next step
I'm a cyclone, passion overblown
Tied to the tides that pull me in the undertow
Where the wind blows is where my body's thrown
And I can't fight it

Maybe we should walk away from this
Take our proverbial walk into the sunset
Maybe we are destined to be different
We were designed for more resilience than this
But we don't know how and we live in the now
If we were smarter maybe we would try to fake it
Maybe we should walk away from this
And stop being ourselves, just stop being yourself
If you want to be happy

(Oh!) Did I forget who I was
Did I forget just where I came from
Did I just lose who I am
This is the fine line I stand (Amid the roar)
This is the fine line I stand (Amid the roar)
This is the fine line I...


2. ON BRAVE MOUNTAINS WE CONQUER

My name is anything that I want it to be
I'm striking chords in a way you've never seen
But I'm a longshot, we fought the fight at last
I can take it, I will make it now

I've given everything, I've let you take over me
I'm climbing mountains but drowning in the sea
And I admit it, I don't regret it
You've taken everything and left these broken wings
So here I lay

I never thought you would leave me here
A jaded mess full of hate and fear
I'd play the victim but I only have myself to blame
I'll rename, restart this game

My name is anything that you want it to be
Your games are endless but I can guarantee
You'll be the last one to ever give this up
I'll take it all away until I get my day
But here I lay

I never thought you would leave me here
A jaded mess full of hate and fear
I'd play the victim but I only have myself to blame
I'll rename, restart this game

I'm giving up this time
I can't take anymore of these confines
I've become something I'm not
A person who plays it safe, everything I hate

So here I'll lay, you finally got your way

I never thought you would leave me here
A jaded mess full of hate and fear
I'd play the victim I still only have myself to blame
And my rain, I'll fade away

My name I will not say, you have never heard of me
It keeps reminding me what I'll never be


3. MASSACHUSETTS

She's cutting out the bruises
Forgetting her excuses
For being here again
With a suitcase packed and waiting by the door
In her head
Convinced herself she hasn't lost enough to quit
But tonight she lays here thinking,

What if I just left
In the middle of the night
Back to California
And never look back

She'll fantasize about it
Every single day
But she can't find it
In her heart to run away
And no one's listening
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay
He's begging,
"Please, oh, baby, please, I can explain.
It won't happen again."

He's putting out the fires
And he's making her believe
He's really changed this time
But it's obvious it's just another line
Lapse and relapse
And again she lays beside him thinking:

I'll pretend
In the middle of the night
My eyes are closed I'm sleeping
But I won't come back

She'll fantasize about it
Every single day
But she can't find it
In her heart to run away
And no one's listening
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay
He's begging,
"Please, oh, baby, please, I can explain.
It won't happen again.
It won't happen again."

How long can this last?
The final straw was the hospital
At least she told herself that
But she just can't find the strength to end it!

I just left
In the middle of the night
Back to California
I'll never look back

She'll fantasize about it every single day
But she can't find it in her heart to run away, to run away
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay
He's begging, "Please, oh, baby, please, I can explain.
It won't happen again!
It won't happen again!"

She'll fantasize about it every single day
But she can't find it in her heart to run away (to run away), and no one listening
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay (on his knees to stay)
He's begging, "Please, oh, baby, please, I can explain.
It won't happen again!"


4. THIS IS HOW

And this is how...
We're fighting feelings again
We're trying hard to let go
We're dodging punches for friends

And this is when...
We forget we belong
We quietly tell ourselves
We do nothing but wrong

I just want to feel safe, again
And I just want to stay calm, forever

This wind changed me
(I used to believe)
This wind changed me


5. A BETTER PLACE

She said she'd never believed in the idea of fate
No love at first sight stories
I wasn't her soul mate
When she collapsed I thought she was joking
But she didn't get up again, she didn't get up again

A thousand flowers, a hundred cards to say
She's in a better place, she's in a better place

Just face it, just face it, you can't let go
(I can't be spoken for anymore)
Just face it, just face it, you're on your own
(I gave up everything I know)
It carries on, it never stops
(How could I go on without, how could I go on without)
Just face it, just face it, you can't let go
You can't let go

She always said I was way too safe and I never could have fun
I had to make few mistakes and get into trouble while I'm young
So we broke in to the old train station
And danced away the night until the cops chased us away
It breaks my heart to think she's in a better place

Just face it, just face it, you can't let go
(I can't be spoken for anymore)
Just face it, just face it, you're on your own
(I gave up everything I know)
It carries on, it never stops
(How could I go on without, how could I go on without)
Just face it, just face it, you can't let go
You can't let go

You can't let go
Just face it, just face it

One day I took off my ring to see if the memory would start to fade
The time I spent away I wasted all those days
She's in a better place, she's in a better place

Just face it, just face it, you can't let go
(I can't be spoken for anymore)
Just face it, just face it, you're on your own
(I gave up everything I know)
It carries on, it never stops
(How could I go on without, how could I go on without)
Just face it, just face it, you can't let go
You can't let go

You can't let... go
Just face it, just face it
If I could, I'd trade with you
If I could, I would


6. HIDE YOUR SECRETS

The saddest tone
Was a voice I heard from a silent film you wrote
Loud and clear
Was a muted song only two people could hear
So I'll go
Living through these days acting like I've seen a ghost, a ghost

This place is mocking my passive demise
These walls were safely hiding your lies
Their secret languages everyone speaks
So free except for me

Can I save you?
Will it make me feel like I'm in heaven?
And stay true to me
Will it make you feel the same way I do?
And still feel sorrow
But hate you just the same, hate you just the same

Tough ruthless days of just playing along
I guess you don't feel guilty at all
You've lost your touch with what's right
And you're wrong with me but I can't see

Can I save you?
Will it make me feel like I'm in heaven?
And stay true to me
Will it make you feel the same way I do?
And still feel sorrow
But hate you just the same, hate you just the same way

You must hate me (You must hate me)
Sick insecurities take over hope
In the name of deceit
So just put me (just put me) out of my misery
With those hands that I won't trust again

I will confess
That in time I gave up planning my revenge
Fate worse than death
When it makes you forgive and just pretend

Can I save you?
Will it make me feel like I'm in heaven?
And stay true to me
Will it make you feel the same way I do?
And still feel sorrow
But hate you just the same, hate you just the same

Hate you just the same


7. ARRIVALS

You're killing me kid,
But I know you're not trying to
It's just that I've crossed out
More than I wrote down for you

And now I'm trying to play it off
Like, "Oh, I wasn't trying that hard."
But what I'm trying to say
Is I was trying to say that you should come home

I know it seems crazy,
But the weather changed as soon as you left
I'm even wearing a coat now,
I think it's too cold to sit in front of Holy Oak

But I guess you'll be here soon so you can see for yourself
I just thought that you should know,
If this is what happens when you go,
Maybe next time don't...


8. IN A PLACE OF SOLACE

A casket opened up
A family gathers here.

I may not have been
What you wanted me to have been, for your first born.
Do they mourn my life, or celebrate my death?
Do they celebrate my death?
This casket, close it up
This casket, close it up

No one speaks, no one says a word.
No one even stands
This is honesty through passivity.
Looking away.
This is ignorance through abstinence.
You stay away.

It ends with ashes.
To destroy the evidence and block the memory.
Close it up, black it out and remain in a place of solace.


9. IN SILENT SEAS WE DROWN

I'm running just like the wind, I'm moving current
Feel it pushing faster, it's pushing faster
I'm haunting you like a sin, only liars see
You're taking after, you're taking after

We are come so far against these minds
Been on my back for way too long
But now I realize it's not my problem
With carelessness I will try to solve them

I'm caving in like a mind, I might be pressured
Feel it taking over, it's taking over
I'm living life like a lie, I'm losing judgement
Shoulders growing colder, I'm growing colder

And I've broken down so many walls
I never thought I'd have to climb them now
It used to be so fun
I used to dream in light but now I work in dark
I feel so warm in trice

I'm telling all my friends I love the highs and lows
But the truth is that I'd rather stay home alone
I'm making sure there's a pact to make it harder for me
And make it harder to quit, making it possible

You won't believe what I'm capable of
Buried bodies, this labor of my love.

I silenced everyone
I silenced everyone
I've silenced all my critics
Silenced them all except myself
I silenced everyone, silenced them all except myself.
I silenced everyone, silenced them all except myself.
I silenced everyone, silenced them all by myself.
Myself...

Because I've come this far, I won't back down
I strike a chord, inside myself and found
And there's no one else who can solve my problems
I can't admit to you that I regret them.

And when I'm heading home, I wonder where to go
'Cause I'm honestly afraid I might die alone
I'm making sure there's a pact to make it harder for me

You won't believe what I'm capable of.


10. CALIFORNIA

Feel it, the calm after the storm.
As still as I can be.
I'm finally all alone
until I fall asleep.

Did I escape or am I captured?
Trapped in a cage of rear view mirror eyes.
Triangles that look like faces.

This is what I get
for my revenge.
A hidden microphone,
an amber alert implanted
under my skin.
It's just in my head but
it takes me over.
It makes me forget why I'm on my way.
These four years feel like a hundred.

West-bound,
driving all alone to make sure that you know.
I've been running scared without you.
I drove all night to tell you.
In dreams I've seen your face with
another in my place.
I know it was another life but I never could forget you.
I never could forget you.

We set it up (we set it up)
like a house of cards in a hurricane.
We didn't think it would ever make sense.

He set us up (he set us up),
he knew just where to plant it.

It knocked me over,
it made me forget how I fell in love.
How much I really cared.

West-bound,
driving all alone to make sure that you know.
I've been running scared without you.
I drove all night to tell you.
In dreams I've seen your face with
another in my place.
I know it was another life but I never could forget you.
I never could forget you.

You'll see me there like a familiar stranger standing on the street.
I'll say a prayer, I'll introduce myself like it's the first time we'd ever meet.
In California, I'd learn that sometimes you have to run away.
In California, I'd find myself again.

West-bound,
driving all alone to make sure that you know.
I've been running scared without you.
I drove all night to tell you.
In dreams I've seen your face with
another in my place.
I know it was another life but I never could forget you.


11. THE WIND SHIFTS

The wind shifts by itself
Reminding us where we've been
We kick and scream and raise hell
Til we're too tired to stand
We tear down all our sense
And we'll force our opinion
We'll make sure we're ahead
We'll hate ourselves in the end

I wanted to be loved by someone
I didn't want to be so scared

This wind changed me
(I used to care)
This wind changed me


12. TO LIVE AND TO LOSE

Follow painted lines along the way back to see you
Fighting sleep and drifting in the rain, I couldn't get through
I was thrown from my mind with no one there to catch me
To lead me back to life
Had to leave it behind and send my other on her way

Will you break when you realize I'm gone
Counting days until the season you move on
I'm having doubts if you can still feel me at all
Out here looking on while you're falling in love

I was thrown from my mind and you're not here to catch me
To make it all feel right
I've been trying to find a way to get back to you
And say I'm sorry

When I found a way to calm down, a disguise of yourself without me
Your heart was so strong, I thought you'd moved on
But you can't carry on without me

I was thrown from my mind and now I'm here to beg you
To move on with your life
You can leave me behind
I am the voice in your head that tells you it's alright

I was thrown from my mind with no one there to catch me
To lead me back to life
Had to leave it behind and I have to accept it
The way it all has to be, has to be, has to be now
The way it all has to be, has to be, has to be
The way it all has to be


13. WITH SECOND CHANCES

I tried to throw it away,
I tried to burn it like a photograph
But when I close my eyes, I see it in my mind
Like it's happening

I got so good at the game,
No one could tell that I was faking sane (faking sane)
I guess I still survived, but this grudge was mine
I couldn't bear to watch it shine

Did it clear your conscience?
Did it clear your mind?
If you don't feel what you cheated, lied and steal
Is that still dishonesty?

(For every positive, there is a negative)

I used up my honesty
I'll tell you honestly
I could only give you so much
And from what you said to me
Now you're dead to me,
You're dead to me

I'm sleeping miles away,
I'm hiding out in this shrine I made
And if it keeps me safe
Well I'd fall from grace
Then I'll take this space

My skinny fingers are bare
I'm taking everything off my back (off my back)
If our skins the sin I'm desiring
This is where we'll both begin

Did it clear your conscience?
Did it clear your mind?
If you still feel what you cheated, lied and steal
Is that still integrity?

I used up my honesty
I'll tell you honestly
I could only give you so much
And from what you said to me
Now you're dead to me
'Cause you've used me as your crutch

Is everywhere that I've seen
Everywhere that I've been?
I can't help it, it's become a part of me
I used up my honesty
Now you're dead to me
You're dead to me

You lost your dignity
And my conformity
Made me throw this fight
One moment of losing yourself
Put me through hell
And cost me my whole life

Second chances are weapons
A loaded gun underneath the bed
Second chances are weapons
It's turned on you in the end

I used up my honesty
I'll tell you honestly
I could only give you so much
And from what you said to me
Now you're dead to me
'Cause you've used me as your crutch

It's spinning me like the wind
Every decision I'm in
Choose my direction like I'm drowning in your sin
I used up my honesty
Now you're dead to me
You're dead to me

(This was my second chance,
This was my second chance)

This was my second chance
To make it right again
This was my second chance
To take a stand
This was my second chance
To never look back
This was my second chance
To live again


14. DEPARTURES

I'm dying here before your eyes inside of darken circles,
I'm afraid of savage things I fought to keep away
Before I found out just what I found that I knew you'd become
Now you know the things I'm running from...

You could help me hide in the places I once lived and lost the one
Now you know the things I'm running from...
Now you know the things I'm running from...

You're killing me kid, but I know your intentions are good
I read what you wrote out; ask me to slow down, I should
I think you're trying to make it seem like it never could've meant enough
But what I'm hearing you say is that you're running away 'cause it meant too much

So this isn't easy, I know the weather in Melbourne is best
San Francisco got cold as I read your note walking Van Ness to Oak
You said I guess I'll be home soon but things will be different, I'm sure
So I thought that you should know if things are gonna change when you come home,
Maybe this time don't...


15. I WILL ILLUMINATE (BONUS TRACK)

Another place repeating the mantra
I’m here to stay ashamed of where I’ve been
And what I’ve seen
These eagle eyes that judge me
Another face conceiving the moment
It never leaves it’s stakes, it’s claim on me
It’s stakes, it’s claim on me
A visionary in hiding
I’ll never make it
I’ll never make it
A crying wolf, this boy’s become a man

I always thought I would be different
With steady hands and heart
And always in control
Be holding fast, but slowly letting go
I always thought I would make a difference
But now I’m spending lives instead of saving souls
The more I learn, the less I seem to know

Heavy hands holding his hatred
Static sun supressing secret screams
Dishonouring distant dreams
Can he ever stop it?
We’ll never make it
We’ll never make it
The lion preys the man can’t break his chains

I always thought I would be different
With steady hands and heart
And always in control
Be holding fast, but slowly letting go
I always thought I would make a difference
But now I’m spending lives instead of saving souls
The more I learn, the less I seem to know
I will illuminate
To try to help myself
To feel something for nothing
I hung the images up to see
If I could still fake all the feelings
And try to be what you want
Be everything that you need
Be everything that you need

I’m here again, consumed in the moment
My mind reflects, repeating it back to me
Repeating it back to me
Why would you even begin to try?
You’ll never make it
You’ll never make it
You’ll never make it
You’ll never make it

I always thought I would be different
With steady hands and heart
And always in control
Be holding fast, but slowly letting go
I always thought I would make a difference
But now I’m spending lives instead of saving souls
The more I learn, the less I seem to know


16. KILL THE LIGHTS (BONUS TRACK)

A perfect silence begging you to speak.
An anchor driving down inside you holding down your feet.

Kill the lights and just start it over, start it over,
Again we'll fake it, we'll beg to make it.
Forget everything we said and just start it over, start it over.
A new spark lights inside me.

Feel it, looming, ready to be heard.
See it, blooming, pulling you aside with anguish.
I fight for inches longing for a better way to end this war.
With subtlety we both implore, a silent wish to be ignored.

Kill the lights and just start it over, start it over,
Again we'll fake it, we'll beg to make it.
Forget everything we said and just start it over, start it over.
A new spark lights inside me.

When the world grows cold and feelings die, you forget how it feels to be alive.
Then the seasons change to perfect skin and shining eyes.
Reminding you of warmth you felt inside.

So passionate.
You fashion what you want.
So deceptive.
It's almost like you're out to fool yourself.
You believe you'll wreck yourself and not have to concede.
A million lies, they'll counter back with fear and painful eyes.

Will this anchor drown a man who won't cut it loose,
No matter how fast he keeps sinking.

Kill the lights and just start it over, start it over,
Again we'll fake it, we'll beg to make it.
Forget everything we said and just start it over, start it over.
A new spark lights inside me.


17. THIS IS HOW THE WIND SHIFTS (BONUS TRACK)

And this is how...
The wind shifts by itself
We're fighting feelings again
Reminding us where we've been
We're trying hard to let go
We kick and scream and raise hell
We're dodging punches from friends
'Til we're too tired to stand

And this is where...
We tear down all our sense
We forget we belong
And we'll force our opinion
We quietly tell ourselves
We'll make sure we're ahead
We do nothing but wrong
We'll hate ourselves in the end

I just want to feel safe
I want to be loved by someone
Again
And I just want to stay calm
I didn't want to be so scared
Forever

This wind changed me
I used to care
I used to believe
This wind changed me