1. PATHEA

the mothers were crying alone with silver spoons
pulled out their hair
and the fathers were dirt and the children were dying out
and nothing was heard in spite of them crying out

and the rivers were burning as waters came flooding in
drowning the frail
and a heat that no one had known dried up our mouths
we begged, we fought, but the war had starved us out


2. HUM

i hope you don't resent
i hope you will not mind
that i'm leaving tomorrow
oh, i trust you not to tell

my heart is a river
a dead and aimless hum
it calls me to follow
oh, it wants to take me home

when i go
there will be nothing left of me
i will leave nothing behind

when i go
someone else can take my seat
i want no one to cry

as if i was never even there
as if i was never in your heart
lay my memory down
i promise
i promise it will be okay.


3. SOL

i'll help you bear this child
a floodling, a fucker
become the worthless one
fragile and naked

sol, i exist in your love
sol, i exist in your love

in this death
i see you
in my blood
i see you
in others
i see you
earth mother
i feel you

(she'll devour us all)

i push through your veil of fire
rest in your flesh
eclipse my heart's desire
destroy the radiance


4. HYALINE

hang your head low, my darling
hang your head low, my darling
hang your head low, my darling
or it takes you

your time is coming, my darling
the blade is falling, my darling
you'd better start burying yourself alive

and they kneel
one after the other
silent as they fall

hyaline
we were never meant to last

in the silent night
heaven comes down to me


5. CURL

this earth is stark
crooked and toothed
i'm filled with bile
see it swelling over

i hate that i adore
the way you curl in me
i want to burn your house down

five fingers fold
reach around your vein
you won't want to know
but i'll stay till morning

see my shadow
in the mire
losing faces and traces of meaning
deep in the waste of the earth
we come undone


6. CHERUBIAN HAND

cherubian hand
lay down in the center of me
unveil my love
fill me up with stones

i'm carving a bridge to the real world
carving a bridge to the real world
from my flesh, over the water
from my flesh, over and over

cherubian hand
swallow down the longing
your shape haunts my bed
comes in dreamless nights

cherubian hand
wasted affection
let my arms enshroud you
faceless and fair

i'm carving a bridge to the real world
carving a bridge to the real world
from my flesh, over the water
from my flesh, over and over


7. AXHIDE

i've got you under my fingernails
and stains on my arms
i've got a thousand heads
and the taste of blood on my tongue

i am a flightless child
and a fucker with no name
i am a bastard born of a wolf
misshapen by pray

we're moving
but i don't know where we're going
but i don't know where we're going
we're losing ourselves

i've bled on the dullest edge of your dream
fallen off the earth
i've sat here and waited for life to begin
eroding my worth

we're moving
but i don't know where we're going
but i don't know where we're going
we're losing ourselves


8. PASO FINO

shiver
hollow
breathe another time
the white horse rides again

ender
giver
regurgitate destruction

deathless other
i want to know
deathless saint
i want to be endless

there is no house that can save you from this death

step
gentle gait
she births the winter
she makes the fire

deathless other
i want to know
deathless saint
i want to be endless


9. VEINS

veins become roads
stretching wide below
never grow old
we stay deadlocked

take my hand
true red bone
take my hand
'til we forget where we've been

grayest wastelands
endless roads

time won't take us home
away from these dying halls

take my hand
true red bone
take my hand
'til we forget where we've been

and in the end
there is only you and me


10. A BETTER PLACE

i have seen a better place
it came with its hands open
eyes wide in desire
reaching out to me with phantom limbs
pale like gossamer
saying
hold me now like you never could
step into my arms
hold me now like you never could
forget the pain
forget the pain


11. A DISINTEGRATION

sit down
turn to dust
sit down.