1. HYSTERIA

Blue skies looking like oil
Coloring my misery
Touching butterflies
They’re not there
Something white comes closer
The darkness returns

I have to run, I have to hide
I can’t stay anymore
I have to go I have to fight
I won’t let go

I cannot run, I cannot hide
I can’t keep up anymore
I have to go, I cannot fight
Have to let go

Feels like I’m left alone
Talking to fool-proof walls
Reaching out to grab
Where are my arms?
Flowers bright red fading
Timeless happiness

Just let me out, just let me go
Someone release this soul
I will be gone, pains boiling out
A lonely death


2. ALONE AGAIN

Blue flashes revealing her devastated face
Near to white, her face crumbled
Her sky has just fallen down

Zipped up, not even cold he left without her goodbye-kiss
Only his shape remains clearly marked on the floor
When the white suits clean up the place

She knew it all, had it all figured out
Faking a trip out of town
Just once, timing let her down
Forever ruined, alone again

Crying she waits in the car realizing what she has done
Unprepared, unaware
Losing her lover for life

Realizing he could die tried hard to get out alive
Grazed by the first, killed by the next
The pain remains when his life ebbs away

Cuffed up, her husband passes by
Makes her realize, her new found loneliness
Stunned by reality, now without them both

Just wait till I return you’ll wish you died with him
You betrayed who held you dear
Forever ruined and alone again

We knew it all, had it all figured out
Faking a trip out of town
Just once, timing let us down
Forever ruined, alone again


3. WINGS OF DESPAIR

Under the blood red sky
Shadows of life fall down
Seeing how they fly
I join them and sigh

Just for a moment
I'm flying just like a bird
Small black eyes focused
No pain in a word

Soaring through the air
A feather so light
Racing with the wind
The sunlight so bright
Leaving the past
Along with the night
Carried on the wings of despair

Flying in freedom
There’s no one who really cares
Unaware of the world
Let them stare

The wind caresses
It's warming one side of me
touching my cheek
As the darkness leaves

Taking a dive weightless and free
Racing down
Towards the end of me


4. THE WELL

As the flowers wither, and the leaves turn red
Each man should look inside himself
I hoped that with every look inside
My feelings were controlled by valves

Probably I’ll live my life not knowing
Weather I should be happy or sad
For you my heart will, remain glowing
Please tell me if that’s good or bad

Blood goes where it cannot go
Coming from an endless well
All I want to show
Loving men is a hell

A life of pain, pain and grief
Should never be with someone
Please don’t let me, let me believe
That for me there is no one

I don’t think I want you to be queer
I also like this hell
I still love them all, even you my dear
Never will this well end


5. THE BITTER TASTE OF VICTORY

Splashing sand, a rattling sound
Your heart beats in your throat
Praying to every known God
Fast as a snake, answering the call
Snapping souls and ending lives
No one ever wins

Fighting for the cause
Justice will prevail
Sounding battle cries
Heroes never die

Enemies seem to increase
Wondering where they’re coming from
Suddenly the firing ceases
Life resumes, but not all of them
The bitter taste of victory
No one ever wins

Fighting for the cause
Justice will prevail
Sounding battle cries
Heroes never die

Building for a cause
Didn’t last for long
Hear the children cry
Heroes please don’t die


6. THE CHOICE

If I had a choice, would you raise your voice?
Do I have a meaning in your life
We reach in the darkness, we crawl in despair
We feed on each other, but nobody cares!

Is it me or is my world exploding ?
Why does it feels like my heart is fading
When will there be rest in our souls

Your words tear me asunder
It’s pulling me to the depths
I need to get away from you

I’m tied to the strings
of you deepest voice
there’s no-one to help me
Now I’m all alone!

I’ve lied
And I’ve tried
To hide what I am
I thought you were blind for all my deceit
My choice has been made
I’m ending it here
Your life is for me
And I don’t want to hear your plea


7. SILENT TEARS

Look what You've done My empire's destroyed
Everyone lies, I see their eyes glow
My private paradise keeps tumb'ling down
Can't tell who is friend or foe


They're playing games, breaking into my mind
Even the ones, I always kept close
Someone please tell us how, I can't win this alone
We must keep them out of us


Silent tears passing by
Silent tears never ask why
Silent tears drown in the rain
Never return, never again
But they will dry.....


I'm not taking this, even if it's from You
Letting I do, those horrible crimes
Our private paradise keeps falling apart
Are you me, or is You I ?


8. LIKE A BLAZING FLAME

Landing too rough, shaken up and feeling trapped
Never had he crashed before
His car is a mess, sirens scream
Help is on its way

Roaring like a blazing flame, to the top he came
A rush of blood, speed of a god
The bravest in the curves, the need for speed
His greatest need

Ashamed they leave, shaken up, will he survive?
Never had they left him before
The warm winds of death, cops arrive
Help will be too late

Roaring like a blazing flame, to the top he came
A rush of blood, speed of a god
The bravest in the curves, the need for speed
His greatest need

Ending like a blazing flame, to the top he came
Racing goes on, although he is gone
The fastest of all times, with a need for speed
His memory lives on


9. MY HONOR

Let’s try again
I was wrong
Please be calm
And let me go

The law provides
I'm in my right
For such a crime, she has to die !
It hurts me inside, it'll hurt her some more
My honor will survive this sin
I'm not able to forgive her
She'll die !

How can I survive?
He won’t let me be
I hurt him inside
No peace here for me

I’m living out a lie
Pain is to survive
They gave me away
Now I have to pay


10. JUST AN ORDINARY DAY

Just another summer day
Mommy’s taking her kids to school
Babbling with her youngest child
The oldest wonders what the day will bring

“this afternoon there are pan-cakes for you”
Promising, with a kiss goodbye
Lovingly hugging her little girl
Back home she’ll get her favorite toy

It’s just an ordinary day
But everything changes
It’s just an ordinary day
From now on nothing will be the same

Out of the blue, the crowd goes wild
Wondering what is going on
Caring for her little child
Mommy thinks it is best to leave

Unable to start her car
Never knew where it has gone wrong
The crowd has grown
She might take a look

Seeing a glowing light
Revealing her sister’s face
9 years past since her grave
How can she be here now?

Walking to where the crowd went
Revealing her own bleeding face
A man walks by, ignoring her
Or is she not there?


11. THE SCREAMS

Every night I awake
Scared by horrifying screams
Someone, make them stop
Leave me in peace

In an empty house, who can it be?
Why can't she pass on ? It can't be that hard
In an empty house, where can it be?
In an empty house
I have to know, it’s killing me
Why can't she pass on ? It can't be that hard
Please stop those screams
In an empty house
Leave me in peace
Leave me in peace

Not knowing what they are
Not knowing who they are
Someone make this end

Every night the screams increase
No one understood, no matter how I tried
Once, I see this entity
It's not good enough
Alone, but screaming for two
No one understood, no matter how I tried
Driven insane, but am I awake?
It's not good enough, this life I provided

As I enter the attic, daddy hangs from the ceiling
And as it’s supposed, mommy next to him
In a pool of blood, their kids kept so close

Life has been so short
Why did we have to die?
No one made him stop
Something snapped inside

Now I know what they are
The circle has been closed
Now I know who they are
All is a memory
I go back to bed
It all ends tonight
Still unknowing if I dreamt