1. THOUGHTS THAT BREATHE

(Instrumental)


2. NIGHTMARE

They're coming creeping from the corner
And all I know is that I don't feel safe
I feel the tapping on my shoulder
I turn around in an alarming state
But am I losing my mind?
I really think so
Not a creature in sight
But, what you don't know

Is that my breathing gets faster and so does my heartbeat
I wish this was over, I wish that this was a dream but

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
I've nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
My mind impaired
Awake me from my nightmare

Wait, something doesn't feel right (feel right)
No, something seems wrong (wrong)
And I've been feeling this way (oh that's too bad), for
Far too long
As my vision gets blurred, my skin's getting colder
Appearing young, while I'm growing older
I collapse to the floor and scream,
"Can anybody save me from myself?"

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared (Oh I'm so scared)
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
I've nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
My mind impaired
Awake me from my nightmare

Walking to the ledge
I find myself looking down
Frozen still with fear
Now I'm plunging to the ground
If only I knew how to fly
Then I could convince myself this isn't my time to die
Instead, I'm rocketing faster and faster
I dive-bomb to the floor
And when my body crashes to the pavement
I'm right back where I was before

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared
I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared

No!
(This is my nightmare)
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
(I'm on my own!)
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
My mind impaired
Awake me from my nightmare (I'm so scared)
Awake me from my nightmare (I'm so scared)
Awake me from my nightmare (I'm so scared)
Awake me from my nightmare (I'm so scared)
Awake me from my nightmare


3. SWAN SONG

You don't even bother anymore
You cut to the bone
Pick up the phone
To hear my swan song

I'll admit I'm impressed
By your vanishing act
Place your bets on your best guess
Of when you're coming back

Draw the curtains
Take the stage
Smoke in mirrors underway
Hold your breath here comes the turn
This is where we all got burned

Promises are broken
Tell me are you happy now?
Drowning in the hourglass
I guess our time ran out

You don't even bother anymore
You cut to the bone
Pick up the phone
To hear my swan song
You don't even bother anymore
You left me alone
I'm on my own
Tell me where we went wrong

Should I turn on the floodlights
To shine in your eyes
Just to get you to speak
And explain why you let it die
This new chapter in your life
Read it over once or twice
Burn the pages not the bridge
Sew your wounds without a stitch

Promises are broken
Tell me are you happy now
Drowning in the hourglass
I guess our time ran out

I hope you're listening

You don't even bother anymore
You cut to the bone
Pick up the phone
To hear my swan song
You don't even bother anymore
You left me alone
I'm on my own
Tell me where we went wrong

Tell me where we all went wrong
Tell me where, tell me where

Abandon the people who shaped who you are
Selfish and thoughtless, you drown in the dark
I hope that you realize the damage you've done
You could not see light even staring at the sun

Promises are broken
Tell me are you happy now
Drowning in the hourglass
I guess our time ran out

You don't even bother anymore
You cut to the bone
Pick up the phone
To hear my swan song
You don't even bother anymore
You left me alone
I'm on my own
Tell me where we went wrong
Tell me where we went wrong
Tell me where we went wrong

You don't even bother anymore.


4. PLASTIC PROMISES

"Just give me a chance,"
She said as I packed my things,
But I already did 4 times, don't you remember?
"I won't blow it again,"
She said with her fingers crossed,
But she forgot about the mirror behind her.
I'm done with plastic promises.

Please don't tell me that we're fine,
I got too much on my mind,
Isn't this too plain to see? Maybe.
'Cause we've lost too much to gain,
We were dancing in the rain,
Tell me what am I to do,
With a double dose of you?
A dose of you.

Her lips are the gun,
And her tongue are the bullets,
She could save a life,
But she took mine away instead.
Oh she did,
And we gave it our all,
So don't call me a quitter.
No.
And I swear I've tried too many times before but,
I'm done with plastic promises.

Please don't tell me that we're fine,
I got too much on my mind,
Isn't this too plain to see? Maybe.
'Cause we've lost too much to gain,
We were dancing in the rain,
Tell me what am I to do
With a double dose of,
With a double dose of you?

Don't try to defy or even make an attempt,
My blinders are off and I am runnin' again from you,
Am I OK? Am I OK? I know I'll be OK again.
Are you ready?
So here we go, I know,
You'd kill for everything to stay the same,
In vain, we had to go our separate ways,
When you proved to me that you would never change,
I finally woke up and exclaimed,
That I'm done with these plastic promises.

Please don't tell me that we're fine,
'Cause we're not
I got too much on my mind,
Isn't this too plain to see? Maybe.
'Cause we've lost too much to gain,
We were dancing in the rain,
Tell me what am I to do,
With a double dose of
With a double dose of you?


5. I'LL SLEEP WHEN I'M DEAD

It's the same each and every night.
Glare at my screen with two big bloodshot eyes.
I'm stuck self-torturing; my meds are failing me.
Internal clock in smithereens.
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless.

My eyes are stapled open wide,
As I lay down on my side.
I am bouncing off these walls.

Notice my hands begin to twitch.
Unprovoked assaulting of my conscious wit.
Me and the TV are enemies.
Sickening static surrounds my mind.
I'm losing time, and realizing that
After days of thought that I'm
Stuck self-torturing; my meds are failing me.
Internal clock in smithereens.
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless.

My eyes are stapled open wide,
As I lay down on my side.
I am bouncing off these walls.
As I focus on the clock,
Time stands still, but I cannot.
I should strap myself in bed.
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead.

Talk to myself, lie in the darkness so content.
As the sun begins to rise, I can barely shut my eyes.
This crazed, delirious mess; laughing at everything I see.
My sanity is spent. Just tell me where my time went.
I'm losing it.

Attention: All insomniacs, please raise your right hand.
And kindly, repeat after me.
"I guess I'll sleep when I am dead!"

'Cause I'm stuck self-torturing; my meds are failing me.
Internal clock in smithereens.
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless.
My eyes are stapled open wide,
As I lay down on my side.
I am bouncing off these walls.
As I focus on the clock,
Time stands still, but I cannot.
I should strap myself in bed.
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead.

I guess I'll sleep when I am.


6. NO CONTROL

It's like watching a rose just wither away
When beauty crumbles and decays
It's like having a voice, with no chance to speak
It's something that you hold, and hold to keep

Fall to my knees, God I beg you please
Show me just a little mercy
Help me, help me! I'm doing all I can
Pretend I'm unaffected, but their pain became my burden

Swear this isn't what I wanted
God, this house is haunted
The way that this could be, if things would remedy
And after all of this we've been through
I wish that we could switch shoes
This life ain't fair for us all

My ears resound, with the sound of broken dreams
I had where you would breathe, exist eternally
Tell them to leave
You're coming home with me
Remove that damn IV
I wish my words could cure illness

It's like running a race with no legs or
Swimming a lap with no arms
The door may have slammed in my face but
The windows will heal my scars

Swear this isn't what I wanted
God, this house is haunted
The way that this could be, if things would remedy
And after all of this we've been through
I wish that we could switch shoes
This life ain't fair for us all

My walls are built, and on display
I drown in guilt, due to dismay
Maybe someday I can see how this has shaped me
Bite my tongue, with swelling lungs
I gasp for air and let this go

Swear this isn't what I wanted
God, this house is haunted
The way that this could be, if things would remedy
And after all this shit we've been through
I wish that we could switch shoes
Well this life ain't fair for us all


7. DREAM CATCHER

Oh, I've been sitting here for hours
As I wish for this to start
I set my standards high
In hopes they will not fall apart

It's almost like I fell asleep
My doubts have seemed to fade
Because I've opened up my eyes to see
I'm right where I planned to be
Today!
Today!

Cast your nets, cast it out
And I hope to god you'll scream and shout
It's everything you wanted, maybe more

Anyone can dream through the night
But only some can dream with eyes wide
There lies the fight inside
It resides in everyone
They will proclaim you a fool
And it reminds you to do
Anything and everything to prove them a liar

It's almost like I fell asleep
My doubts have seemed to fade
Because I've opened up my eyes to see
I'm right where I planned to be
Today!
Today!

Cast your nets, cast it out
And I hope to god you'll scream and shout
It's everything you wanted, maybe more

Does it seem out of reach?
Hit the ground, and run with both your feet
Here's a lesson that I hope to teach
Believe you'll be a dream catcher

Cry out loud and take the stage
And don't let skeptics slow your pace
With every forward step you'll take
Their breath away
Their breath away

Believe, believe they'll spit their words
And some will say it seems absurd
But devour the cynics,
Dismiss the critics,
And mark my words
They'll regret it when you...

...cast your nets, cast it out
And I hope to god you'll scream and shout
It's everything you wanted, maybe more
Today!
Today!

Cast your nets, cast it out
And I hope to god you'll scream and shout
It's everything you wanted, maybe more

Does it seem out of reach?
Hit the ground, and run with both your feet
Here's a lesson that I hope to teach
Believe you'll be a dream catcher
Please believe you'll be a dream catcher
Please believe you'll be a dream catcher


8. FREAK SHOW

I am a circus freak
Caught in a cage, caught in a cage
Staring without a blink
Swallow me whole, swallow me whole

I am a circus freak
Cut out my heart, cut out my heart
Loveless and watch me bleed
Tear me apart, tear my apart
Yeah!

I've lost myself in make-believe
I don't wanna go, I don't want to go, make me
Over and over I've deceived
I don't wanna go, I don't want to go
You want reform? I can't conform
Cause I can't take anymore of your tainted bliss cause
I've lost myself in make-believe
You can't break me

I am a circus freak
So many scars, so many scars
I'm just the common creep
Something to watch, something to watch
Oh, you know you can't break me

I've lost myself in make-believe
I don't wanna go, I don't want to go, make me
Over and over I've deceived
I don't wanna go, I don't want to go
You want reform? I can't conform
Cause I can't take anymore of your tainted bliss cause
I've lost myself in make-believe
You can't break me

"Come one, come all
Step right up for the one, the lonely
Circus freak!"

[x2]
You'll never break me
You'll never change me, no
La, da, da, da, da
La, da, da, da

I've waited ten long years just to look in the mirror
And to find just what I'm staring at
I've waited ten long years just to tell you I'm fearless
You don't understand, I've become who I am!
Oh!
You know you can't break me

I've lost myself in make-believe
I don't wanna go, I don't want to go, make me
Over and over I've deceived
I don't wanna go, I don't want to go
You want reform? I can't conform
Cause I can't take anymore of your tainted bliss cause
I've lost myself in make-believe
You can't break me


9. DISTANCE DISTURBS ME

I wish I never saw your face
Then I wouldn't need a place to frame you in my mind
Hanging on the wall
My memories and all
But you're not tangible

Stuck on sentimental
The history we never had
Almost accidental
The way you live inside my head
And I would kill to be a mile away
Or feel the breath you'll take
But fate won't let me

Distance disturbs me
Now I wish we never met
I wish I could forget who you are
Distance disturbs me
'Cause we just can't connect
I found my one regret and it was you
Distance disturbs me

Separated by a screen
It's just a bittersweet success with a dash of failure
I'm hanging by a thread
Intentions cut to shreds
I'm starting to lose my grip
So someone please distract me
I need a new obsession
Am I just going crazy?
I'll never learn my lesson because
I would kill to be a mile away
To feel the breath you'll take
But fate won't let me

Distance disturbs me
Now I wish we never met
I wish I could forget who you are
Distance disturbs me
'Cause we just can't connect
I found my one regret and it was you
Distance disturbs me

Throw it all away
For just one rainy day
Throw it all away
For just one rainy day with you
With you

I would kill to be a mile away
Or feel the breath you'll take but fate won't let me

Distance disturbs me
Now I wish we never met
I wish I could forget who you are (who you are)
Distance disturbs me
'Cause we just can't connect
I found my one regret and it was you
I found my one regret and it was you
I found my one regret and it was you


10. DAD'S SONG

Do you believe in happy endings?
Or the mendings of human hearts?
Oh I believe in both I'm certain
Because these curtains are state of the art

If you'd occasionally happen to spy on me
You'd think I'm having one sided conversations
But I hear him talking back
You'd think I may even lack some sanity
But maybe I can't let go

And so I'll say I finally wrote your song at last,
Sorry that this one came out so sad
Every tear I had was shed for the man
That gave me a better sense of life and meaning
To motivate there's no short cuts to success
I'll wait for his guiding hands.
My guardian angel until the very end

I see a cold seat on the couch where I remember
That just four years ago around December,
You sat me down and held me next to you, so close
How I long for things to be restored
To back when times weren't quite this hard
In the car that song you sang to me
Never rang so loud before
Oh what I'd give, for just another hug from you
You may be gone, but love will never die

So I'll say I finally wrote your song at last,
Sorry that this one came out so sad
Every tear I had was shed for the man
That gave me a better sense of life and meaning
To motivate and no short cuts to success
I'll wait for his guiding hands.
My guardian angel until the very end

Tears can't run dry, when I start to cry
When I hear people speak of how you'd be so proud of me
And how I hope this song will reach your ears
I battled all my darkest fears
I once was blind but now it's clear,
Wherever I go I know that you'll be near

I finally wrote your song at last,
Sorry that this one came out so sad
Any tear I had was shed for the man
That gave me a better sense of life and meaning
To motivate there's no short cuts to success
I'll wait for his guiding hands.
My guardian angel until the very end
Oh, until the very end
My guardian angel until the very end


11. I'D RATHER DROWN

Thanks for treating me like every boy you meet
So please come in and take a seat
Here's the part when I learn, and you will teach
On how to treat people like a piece of meat
I want a genuine, not a replica
Lethal medicine, a pin to the cornea
A sight for sore eyes
While other guys consume the lie, I'll run and hide

No doors exist on my fortress
The only entrance is the one I bear
You're nothing more than a temptress
I fell victim to a heartless snare

Burn the bitch down
I never will cross that bridge again
I cannot trust you easily
Or think that I'm the only one
I never let people in, and I have you to remind me why
So baby burn the bitch down
I never will cross that bridge again
I'd rather drown

I'm the master of construction
Because I'm building walls like it's my occupation
If you portray a liar, I'll shut you out without hesitation
It's an art form of consummate skill
Of how she plays them like the pawn
Making boys drool at her will
Like Pavlov to the dogs

No doors exist on my fortress
The only entrance is the one I bear
You're nothing more than a temptress
I fell victim to a heartless snare

Burn the bitch down
I never will cross that bridge again
I cannot trust you easily
Or think that I'm the only one
I never let people in, and I have you to remind me why
So baby burn the bitch down
I never will cross that bridge again
I'd rather, I'd rather, I'd rather

Drown me, slit my throat so lightly
Pick me up and drop me right into my grave
And now I wonder, sit alone and ponder
Should I even bother, when I see your face?
The itch I couldn't scratch
Thought I'd come crawling back, but no
I'd much rather, rather, rather, rather, rather
Sing it, boys

I'd rather burn the bitch down
I never will cross that bridge again
I cannot trust you easily
Or think that I'm the only one
I never let people in, and I have you to remind me why
So baby burn the bitch down, I never will cross that bridge again

Go ahead and burn the bridge right down, it's what you wanted
Burn the bridge right down
I'm not the only one, the only one
So baby burn the bitch down, I never will cross that bridge again
I'd rather drown


12. THE GRAND FINALE

He plants his feet remaining still
A front row seat to incomparable thrill
Reflecting on anything he had ever craved
The sun rise never seemed so sweet
Entranced by the final ocean breeze
As the world beneath him starts to shake
Run run run for the hills
Leave behind your dollar bills
The value of paper means nothing now
When everything around you is crumbling down

While finding shelter for the end
They begin reflecting on everything
I mean everything
Of the life they spent till then

She turns the page in frantic despair
While hoping that auspicious answers are there
She calls off the search accepts her fate
Sits by the window no will to escape
Stay right where you are
While death waits outside your door
The sirens are screaming they're letting you know
To sit back relax and enjoy the show

While finding shelter for the end
They begin reflecting on everything
I mean everything
Of the life they spent till then
As smoke and ash fall from the sky
So surreal they hold on to anything
I mean anything
Hoping life won't pass them by
Non-existing answers we are now condemned
My friend THIS IS THE END

Stay stay right where you are
As death waits outside your door
While finding shelter for the end
They begin reflecting on everything
I mean everything
Of the life they spent till then
As smoke and ash fall from the sky
So surreal they hold onto anything
I mean anything
Hoping life won't pass them by


13. PARTNERS IN CRIME (BONUS TRACK)

You'll never take us alive
We swore that death will do us part
They'll call our crimes a work of art
You'll never take us alive
We'll live like spoiled royalty, lovers and partners
Partners in crime
Partners in crime

This, the tale of reckless love, living a life of crime on the run,
I brush to a gun to paint these states green and red,
Everybody freeze, nobody move, put the money in the bag or we will shoot,
Empty out the vault and me and my doll will be on our way,

Our paper faces flood the streets,
And if the heat comes close enough to burn then we'll play with fire 'cause...

You'll never take us alive
We swore that death will do us part
They'll call our crimes a work of art
You'll never take us alive
We'll live like spoiled royalty, lovers and partners
Partners in crime
Partners in crime

Oh, just try and catch us!

Here we find our omnipotent outlaws fall behind the grind tonight,
Left unaware that the lone store owner won't go down without a fight.
Where we gonna go? He's got us pinned!
Baby, I'm a little scared
Now, don't you quit
He's sounded the alarm, I hear the sirens closing in.

Our paper faces flood the streets,
And if the heat comes close enough to burn then we're burning this place to the ground 'cause...

You'll never take us alive
We swore that death will do us part
They'll call our crimes a work of art
You'll never take us alive
We'll live like spoiled royalty, lovers and partners,
Partners in crime

This is ... police department. Come out with your hands up, we have the place surrounded. Put your weapons down, put your weapons down! Ready, men? Aim... Fire!

The skies are black with lead-filled rain,
A morbid painting on display,
This is the night the young love died,
Buried at each other's side,
You never took us alive
We swore that death would do us part
So now we haunt you in the dark,
You never took us alive,
We live as ghosts among these streets,
Lovers and partners
Partners in crime
Partners in crime
Partners in crime


14. KILL THE LIGHTS (BONUS TRACK)

You reside in grand disguises
Just to get, get away from it all
Falsify the life you're hiding
Just to get, get away from it all
But the truth we pursue as we all beg you to

Kill the lights, kill the actor, kill the actress
I'm afraid that the spotlight dried you up, whoa, whoa oh

Shut your mouth, you make me sick with
All the lies, all the lies that you spill
Slip and fall, I'll watch you drown in
All the lies, all the lies that you spill

As you're tongue-tied, did you believe it?
False pride never existed
Now I am cutting ties clean off
And I can breathe at last

So we all stand enthralled by this bland curtain call
And the truth we pursue as we all, we all beg you to

Kill the lights, kill the actor, kill the actress
I'm afraid that the spotlight dried you up, whoa, whoa oh

Don't even think about it
Don't even think about it, no
We're begging you
To kill the lights, kill the actor, kill the actress
Or kill us all

Stop there and peer inside of me
You'll find a man once lost at sea
But all the while I would think to myself
It's not the end, it's not the end at all

So sick of nothing going right
Sail on along into the night
Not even death could stand in the way
You never even tried in the first place

Kill the lights, kill the actor, kill the actress
I'm afraid that the spotlight dried you up, whoa, whoa oh

Don't even think about it
Don't even think about it, no
We're begging you
To kill the lights, kill the actor, kill the actress
Or kill us all
Or kill us all
Or kill us all


15. YOU ARE LOVED (DEMO) (BONUS TRACK)

I never felt so broken down
Never felt so alone until I hit the ground
We all have our ups, our downs, our stories that we hold
That go untold
And so we just lay down knocked out
Waiting for the cure
You're not alone

When you look down, does it seem so far away?
Are the names so hard to take, great escape
We are not so different, I can tell
Cause I've stood right where you're standing
Bruised, battered, beaten, broken down
Wore the frown
But I'm here to tell you, that you are loved
You are loved
That you are loved
You are loved

Happiness can seem to be so distant
While tissues fill the trash
People push you down but they're not worth it
Don't be deceived again
They play with feelings like they're meaningless to you
Oh oh, oh oh oh oh
Check my pulse
Now let us review

When you look down, does it seem so far away?
Are the names so hard to take, great escape
We are not so different, I can tell
Cause I've stood right where you're standing
Bruised, battered, beaten, broken down
Wore the frown
But I'm here to tell you, that you are loved
You are loved
That you are loved
You are loved

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem
We all have issues not knowing how to solve them
And when you feel you're at your worst,
Remember all these words

When you look down, does it seem so far away?
Are the names so hard to take, great escape
We are not so different, I can tell
Cause I've stood right where you're standing
Bruised, battered, beaten, broken down
Wore the frown
But I'm here to tell you, that you are loved
You are loved
That you are loved
You are loved
You are loved