1. WOLVES AT THE DOOR

Last night I found heaven
It was on the tip of my tongue
And it reminded me of
All the times I was young

Of catching rain in my open mouth
I used to smile 'til the day I found out
I have no idea who the hell I've become
It's not who I was, it's not who I loved

I wanna drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Has thousands of needles poking at my skin

I lie in bed to the sound
Of the wolves at my door
They are speaking in tongues
Holding court on my floor

I never thought it would come to this
I'm more yellow than my own piss
They're making rounds just to even the score
"Just open the door." "Just open the door."

I wanna drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razor blades
Littered with razor blades
Blades, littered with razor blades

I can't hold on, the path is clear
I can't ignore what's been building for years
There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear
Wolves at the door

I look at myself and the things that I've done
Step away from the mirror and into the sun
I forgive myself for all of my mistakes
When will I learn? When will I, when will I burn?

I wanna drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razor blades

I gave up on myself a long time ago
The black clouds they swallowed and spit me out whole
"Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my soul,
At least that means I still have a soul left to lose."


2. CAN'T BE SAVED

Follow your bliss, it reads on my chest.
I know I got it tattooed for a reason.
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew.
Yeah!

I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything.

I shut the door and turn all the lights out.
And listen to all the songs that the night shouts.
They go something just like this...
So go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
and drink yourself to happiness.

I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything.

We can all hang ourselves from gold chandeliers.
And drink goodbye to all, all the pain and fears.
Loose lips have sunk this ship, to a shallow grave.
Washed up upon the rocks. I won't be saved. I won't be saved.

I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I gave up everything.

(I won't...) So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest. (...be saved.)
(I won't...) I know I got it tattooed for a reason. (...be saved.)
(I won't...) I shut the door and, turn all the lights out. (...be saved.)
(I won't...) And listen to all the songs that the night shouts. (...be saved.)


3. LUNGS LIKE GALLOWS

I give blood to prove to myself that I can matter to somebody else.
Is what makes a man the dirt on his hands?
If so, don't put your faith in the desert sand,
Because the wind is always blowing.
There are gallows deep inside my lungs, that's where I hung ambition.

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984.
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors,
So give me seven more.

I give blood not for the cause but to slowly give up the person I was.
Holding my breath won't help, everything went to hell,
So now I steal back pennies from the well because my wishes failed.
I am screaming at my own shadow to stop living like a ghost.

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984.
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors,
So give me seven more.

I don't need her; I'm not that desperate.
Come visit me in twenty years and maybe then
Cause I'm not done screaming yet
You can call off the intervention, cause I don't need your attention.

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984.
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors,
So give me seven more.

I don't need her; I'm not that desperate.
I don't need her; I'm not that desperate.


4. BURIED A LIE

Rest in peace girl, your death is such a shame
The paper said a bullet got in your way
But I smell foul play, possible poisoning
I had to bring you in for questioning
I went to your grave, dug up your body
Brought it to my house, where you lay

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
For me...

I headed downtown, to share what I had found
It's not a suicide, it's a crime
I have a witness, it's clearly evident
There had to be someone else present
At the time of death, poisons in stomach
How could she pull it, if she's dead?

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays
Away...away

I'll catch the murderer
And send him away
I'll get the evidence
From your last day

Your last day...[x3]

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays

Away...away


5. SHARK ATTACK

I've spent the last year paying a stranger to listen
To childhood thoughts about the love I am missing
I'd fallen for one of the oldest tricks in the book

The hooks were baited out with fear (The hooks were baited out with fear)
Because I wasn't thinking clear

Just save yourself
Cause it's too late for me.
Just save yourself
Cause I've lost everything.

Lying on the couch and spilling all of my guts out
Walking out with nothing but a head full of self doubt
I take back every good thing that I ever said

Cause it was all so meaningless (Cause it was all so meaningless)
It didn't help clean up my mess

Just save yourself
Cause it's too late for me
Just save yourself
Cause I lost everything

Now I see
You rip me open, ripped me up
Now I see
You rip me open, ripped me up

I spent the last full year of my life,
Asking the questions just to find out it was all a lie

Just save yourself
Cause it's too late for me.
Just save yourself
Cause I've lost everything.

Now I see (Now I see)
Now I see (Now I See)


6. LADY IN A BLUE DRESS

Just like the lady in a blue dress,
You've got cigarettes on your breath.
Hair spray and some cheap perfume.
I'll put a little sour in your sweet,
You've got so much fucking tongue in cheek.
You want what you could never have.

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
'Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone who's lost and insecure.

So you say that I am rated X,
You suffer from the lack of sex.
Black heart and your lipstick smeared.
Your points are trite and I'm too sober
To deal with you running over
Your same pathetic cliche lines.

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
'Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone who's lost and insecure.

Don't try to be cute with me,
'Cause I know you hate yourself
And you'd end your stupid life now
But you're too spineless

Just like the lady in a blue dress
You've got cigarettes on your breath,
Hair spray and some cheap perfume.

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
'Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone who's lost and insecure.


7. THE FIRE

I'll light the fuse and I'll set the dam to blow,
flooding the entire town below and all that I've known.
What wasn't nailed down will be washed away.
My hands are shaking but I will not hesitate.
I found the strength to face.
Because the place I fear the most,
is the place I have to go to see the truth.

"It's okay to feel lost, it just means you're alive",
I've told myself a thousand times.
From the ashes we will rise.
It's okay to feel lost, walk through the flames and see,
you're only left with what you need.
We're only here for the journey.

Am I bold enough to be underlined?
Like sand sifting through time, it all falls in line.
Life is a minefield and on one side I'm stuck.
I broke the key on the door I tried to unlock.
I'm never giving up.
Because the things that haunt you are the things you didn't do.
Not what you did.

"It's okay to feel lost, it just means you're alive",
I've told myself a thousand times.
From the ashes we will rise.
It's okay to feel lost, walk through the flames and see,
you're only left with what you need.
We're only here for the journey.

We find the truth through tragedy!

I'm finding new ways to make the same mistakes.
Putting my dreams onto paper and then folding them into planes.
Then I let them go because when in Rome.
I set fire to what I love the most!

I just want to feel alive!
I just want to feel alive!

It's okay to feel lost...
It's okay to feel lost...

"It's okay to feel lost, it just means you're alive",
I've told myself a thousand times.
From the ashes we will rise.
It's okay to feel lost, walk through the flames and see,
you're only left with what you need.
We're only here for the journey.

We'll find the truth through tragedy!


8. RUM IS FOR DRINKING, NOT FOR BURNING

This captain goes down with the ship
All hands on deck, stand hip-to-hip
I shout the orders, "Shoot to kill!"
I'm dressed to thrill,
I'm dressed to thrill.

And all my enemies,
I want their eyes to see,
Their captain walk the plank
Destroy them, rank by rank.

Sail with me into the setting sun
The battle has been won, but war has just begun
And as we grow, emotion starts to die,
We need to find a way, just to keep our desire alive.

Now set the sail to quarter mast,
We'll jump the ship, we'll sink 'em fast.
Men follow me to victory,
Red as the sea,
Red as the sea.

And to the cannons roar,
Their bodies dance ashore,
A pirate's life for me,
I won't go quietly.

Sail with me into the setting sun
The battle has been won, but war has just begun
And as we grow, emotion starts to die,
We need to find a way, just to keep our desire alive.

And to my damsel in distress,
You've made a mess of your new dress (x2)
You've made a mess!

Sail with me into the setting sun
The battle has been won, but war has just begun
And as we grow, emotion starts to die,
We need to find a way, just to keep our desire alive (I'm dressed to thrill)
(I'm dressed to thrill)
Just to keep our desire alive (I'm dressed to thrill)
(I'm dressed to thrill)


9. CALLING ALL CARS

Calling all cars we've got another victim
'Cause my love has become an affliction
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

I'm sorry but I think I failed to mention
That I lied at my very first confession
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing
And I know how it's going to end

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

Oh my dear, what have I gone and done now?
It's curtain call, I'm about to take my last bow
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

Without giving away the entire ending
I ruined the evening again

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

I don't have love left inside, inside
And I don't have love left inside, inside
Are you desperate for an answer?
I don't have an ounce of good left in me now
That's why I walked out

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You hate me for it now
Try to forget me and just move on

I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
And do your best to forget my name


10. BITE TO BREAK SKIN

So let me take this medicine
To quench my love for violent things
My swan song will
Be like a bullet laced in anger
As the razor cuts a soft spot
On your heel.

(Each breath) is getting slower
(This war) is getting harder
To fight by myself
(Sick waves) of bitter fashion,
(Ripped down) the shield that I have
Tears rain from above.

Do you see?
The life I lead?

So follow me into the sun,
And I will bleed, the poisons dry.

These bayonet scars never cease
To blind the light shed from the beast
And all we do is hate.

(Eyes shot) from constant visions.
(Angels) are rendered useless
Good has lost it's heart.

Do you see?
The life I lead?

So follow me into the sun,
And I will bleed, the poisons dry.

For you (x2)
(For you!) (x3)

Bite to break skin,
Don't give the secret,
My stoic face,
Beaten with passion
The phoenix will die
Inside the fire storm
I am the son
So follow my footsteps.
(x2)


11. THE PRIEST AND THE MATADOR

Here I lie
I'm staring at
Clouds in shapes of
Dogs and cats
I hear a woman
Start to yell
Oh dear God I
Think he fell

I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down

A priest is rushing
To my side
Begins to read me
My last rites
Father you're too late
My faith is weak
So won't you save your
half-hearted speech

I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down

A man bends down and says, "Son
we're gonna get through this one
take my hand and let us pray."
I scream, "Please get the fuck away."

I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down

The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath
As blood pours out my mouth
The medics walk in my way
I think this could be it
I hear 'em start to state,
"The time of death is half past six."

I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell
I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell


12. BLOODY ROMANCE

Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.

You and me are like one heart-beat.
You and me are like one heart-beat.

So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.

You and me are like one heart-beat.
You and me are like one heart-beat.

Back into what I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
(Forget my name) Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
(Forget my name) You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
(Forget my name) This time in silence, this time I win. (x3)
(Forget my name) Now you will feel my pain
Forget my name (x5)


13. FAMILY TRADITION

I try to be the one that everybody loves
Where has that gotten me?
I tear myself to shreds to prove that I'm someone
That I could never be
Now these unsightly marks define me

So help me
Please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss
I'm sick

My father taught me firsthand how to be set free
Give up and run away
I wish I could drain out his half of blood in me
But I'd still have his face
I curse reflections everyday

So help me
Please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss

Here is my own family tradition
Following footsteps into addiction
So is there a way
That I can find peace while still numbing my pain?
Is this my fate?
Cause your only son still can't seem to find his way

So help me
Please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss

So father where the hell are you now?
I think that you would be proud
Your son, who so unluckily
Fell right next to the tree

I hope you're proud of me
I hope you're proud...


14. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU SCREAM

(Fuck with my heart)
I'll teach you what it's like.
(To be so used)
That you'll have to clean.
That dirt stuck in
Your plastic finger nails.
And just the scent of you is enough
(To make me sick)

And all I know is revenge is sweet when...

You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.

(I'll take my time)
To slowly plot your end.
(But now I will)
Spit bullets with my pen.

And all I know is you're cute when you scream.

You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.

I'll take you to the top,
Of this building and just push you off.
Run down the stairs so I can see your face
As you hit the street,
the street, the street, the street.

You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.

(This time I win. So here's your kiss goodbye.)


15. NEW YEAR'S EVE

Clip my angels wings
I'm a coward, I'm a liar and a cheat
My vows all means nothing, I'm weaker than a priest
Board up the windows and lock all the doors
Like a hurricane I'm always given a new name
Board up the windows and lock all the doors
Head for the hills get somewhere safe
The further you go the better off you'll be

I'm clear as glass but I can seem to ever clean
The fingerprints you left on me
I wish every night was new year's eve
So this Irish disease could have company

Who the fuck would want to live forever
When everyday feels like it's been a week
Call on the archers and let down the gate
Hell must be a view watching everyone you knew
Move on without you like you never lived
I'm just like my father as lonely as sin
Drinking away what I've been given

I'm clear as glass but I can seem to ever clean
The fingerprints you left on me
I wish every night was new year's eve
So this Irish disease could have company

I hate myself for
Never saying
That I
Want you in my life

But it's not my place to keep on trying to chase
A relationship that's not there
But if I don't then I know that you won't even dare

I'm clear as glass but I can seem to ever clean
The fingerprints you left on me
I wish every night was new year's eve
So this Irish disease could have company


16. 187

It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
lets me know that I'm still alive
But why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take the seat right next to me
But I should have known that you were a killer. But now I'm dead.

A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tongue to end my life.
But if you're blowing at the fire to light your strife.

You'll never know, oh yeah. You'll never know, oh no.
The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.

A gaping hole... (shot through my heart)
A lost connection from your poison dart.
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold.
I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.

The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day. (x2)

You ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna pay
I'll stab you one time.
I'll eat your heart out, so you feel my pain.
Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?

I wanna kill you. I wanna kill you. Now I'm insane. (x3)


17. WAR PAINT

I've still got passion, and I've still got guts.
But I no longer give a fuck about what you want.
You say I'm a savior and a saint?
Then let's stop pretending and pull out the war paint.
Or do you refuse to open old wounds,
In fear that you'll actually have to feel?

We try so hard. We try to just pretend
That things didn't change as the honeymoon set.
This house, this ring, the secrets shared in bed
Were built on the faith in the foundation.
And I feel the bend...

The fucking more I see who you've become
The more I lose sight of the love
That I once had in your brown eyes.
I used to be afraid that this would end,
Now I embrace it.
We are ships passing through the night.

We try so hard. We try to just pretend.
That things didn't change as the honeymoon set.
This house, this ring, the secrets shared in bed
Were built on the faith in the foundation.
And I feel the bend...

I see bright lights flicker ahead.
I see stars shining to their death.
I see you.

And I don't know what to do.

Beautiful sunset. Passionate kiss.
These things mean nothing when you cannot come to terms with
The person who you are, and who you're meant to be
Are separated by a sea of insecurities.

I've been digging out from underneath
An avalanche that has taken twenty years to see.
Our reality is our own to create,
And the sooner that you realize that
The sooner that you can change.

Or history will just hit repeat
And you will pass your poison down onto your child's feet.
And they will struggle, struggle to breathe,
Cowering in shadows that you cast they cannot see.

Beautiful sunset. Passionate kiss.
These things mean nothing when you cannot come to terms with
The person who you are, and who you're meant to be
Are separated by a sea of insecurities.

I've been digging out from underneath
An avalanche that has taken twenty years to see.
Our reality is our own to create,
And the sooner that you realize that
The sooner that you can change.

I won't repeat. I won't repeat.
I won't repeat the things that I can change.
I won't repeat. I won't repeat.
I won't repeat the things that I can change.


18. VINES

Every day is another chance to fill
all the graves that I've been digging.
The hardest part about life is that you're living
the past and the present,
the act of forgiving yourself for everything you did
but oh back then, you were just a kid.
Stop blaming yourself for everything.

When your life is a building that you made with mistakes,
you have to start from the top or be crushed by the weight,
of the brick and the mortar that you founded on faith,
If your foundation is cracked, then your facade is a waste.

And in the deepest part of your dark mind,
I know there's things that you wish you could hide.
But will come out in other ways.
Insecurity's addiction's pain.
An ode to our happiness, you lie to yourself every day.
That's how you cover up your pain.
I know all of this because I used to live that way.

When your life is a building that you made with mistakes,
you have to start from the top or be crushed by the weight
of the brick and the mortar that you founded on faith.
If your foundation is cracked, then your facade is a waste.

So don't spend so much of your life
wasting water on withering vines,
when you are rotting on the inside.
There's a dozen in your mind.

When your life is a building that you made with mistakes,
you have to start from the top or be crushed by the weight
of the brick and the mortar that you founded on faith.
If your foundation is cracked, then your facade is a waste.

All the fears you're hiding in that place,
is a waste now.
It's a waste now.
Is a waste now.


19. EARLY GRAVES

I call to question, the things in question.
I think I think too much; I think I'm sure.
That that's a problem and that's a reason
Why I always fucking shut the door
On everyone I have ever loved before.
I'm willing to just shut myself down,
And let the good things go right under my door.

I finally found a reason I can open up to something more.

'Cause I was always taking the salt from the sea,
To water down the soil that's soaking deep.
I was suffocating something inside of me
When it just needed to breathe.
I would never dare call myself brave.
I have made a choice to walk my own way.
I would die than choose to stumble the roads unpaved,
Heading to an early grave.

But if I question, all this in questions [?]
Will that just take me back to where I came from?
'Cause I don't want to ever feel that way again, that way again.
'Cause all that I got was a dead end heart
Desperately conserving, searching roads in the dark
For a spark to help me hit restart.
'Cause everything I do will come back to me times two.
This is the first time that I've got something I don't wanna lose.

'Cause I was always taking the salt from the sea,
To water down the soil that's soaking deep.
I was suffocating something inside of me
When it just needed to breathe.
I would never dare call myself brave.
I have made a choice to walk my own way.
I would die than choose to stumble the roads unpaved,
Heading to an early grave.
Into an early grave.

I feel like I have finally found the balance
To rebound, and the waves in the sound they surround me,
Like a net to catch me in the act.
In the case and event that the present presents challenges over my head.

'Cause I was always taking the salt from the sea,
To water down the soil that's soaking deep.
I was suffocating something inside of me
When it just needed to breathe.
I would never dare call myself brave.
I have made a choice to walk my own way.
I would die than choose to stumble the roads unpaved,
Heading to an early grave.
Into an early grave.


20. WAVES

I'm set for the war, I've got my bags packed.
Caution, close the door on reverie.
I would rather sink than sail in fear that I'll fail.
Anchored by a ghost, waiting in the water of the shallows.
You can't catch wind when sails are closed.

So here I go.
I'm on my own, finding myself in the unknown.
I'll never know. (I'll never know)
I'll never truly learn to love till I let go.
Into the waves of disbelief, the waves to set me free.

All roads lead to Rome if you walk blindly.
Circles become sewn and habits grown.
Causing more fucked up fantasies and families
Subconsciously programmed to repeat additions in insecurities.

So here I go.
I'm on my own, finding myself in the unknown.
I'll never know. (I'll never know)
I'll never truly learn to love till I let go.
Into the waves of disbelief, the waves to set me free.

Such a waste of bones, they were built to break.
Follow convictions, to hell with fate.
The fact is that we are all so afraid
Of placing our trust instead of placing blame.

'Cause I fell first in the dark side of love,
They wind up, they wind up hurting for eternity
The lessons are enough.

So here I go.
I'm on my own, finding myself in the unknown.
I'll never know. (I'll never know)
I'll never truly learn to love till I let go.
Into the waves of disbelief, the waves to set me free.