1. AT LEAST PAIN LASTS

This is my farewell to a world
That disappointed me
And when you read these lines
I've left this world dead

It's the final step to a place
Where freedom knows no bounds
Time and space mean nothing to me
I can set my soul free

Just a few last words
For the one I've left behind
Finally I just decide
And at least pain

Can't you see that I am in mental disorder
Please forgive me this deed my game is lost
I am in a traumatic dejection
I pray for the relief of pain remission redemption

Things engraved on my memory
They are the epithaph on my soul
A sad chapter without faith
Where are my friends where is my belief

Searching the nearness of God
Someone to hang on to
I am too weak for this world
Unable to survive

Just a few last words
For the one I've left behind
Finally I just decide
And at least pain last

Things engraved on my memory
Epitaph written in agony
Never lasting support and comfort
Things altered to bring me down
I am scared of the things to come
Cut the strings I'll cut them off
Strings that held my life so long
And at least pain lasts

And at least pain lasts


2. GODFORSAKEN

Giving birth to me into a despaired world
Meant just another life to join the maze
Seeking the ultimate quest for the sense to be
And I go astray in darkness I dwell

Still I walk the seemingly endless path of depression - Godforsaken
A search for answers to questions unknown - Godforsaken
A tragic destiny to come fate seems to be sealed - Godforsaken
A living hell the end of time symphony

Searching - searching for the truth I saw the emptiness
The weak ones that can't believe themselves
Religion used as an excuse used as an excuse for those
For those who don't know what's their aim in life

Watching our world with all its grief and pain
The wailing ones not saved by their gods
Moaning confessions of sadness and disbelief
Too late to pray lonesome and dismayed

Still I walk the seemingly endless path of depression - Godforsaken
A search for answers to questions unknown - Godforsaken
A tragic destiny to come fate seems to be sealed - Godforsaken
A living hell the end of time symphony

Still I walk the seemingly endless path of depression - Godforsaken
A search for answers to questions unknown - Godforsaken
A tragic destiny to come fate seems to be sealed - Godforsaken
A living hell the end of time symphony


3. FAINTED

Like a prophets dream where the future lies and past times haunt again
Bizarre images awake my destiny to retain
Falling deep in a hole of black bemoan my own gift to see
Through the window to a world where shades from deep below appear

The future I see mind in decay
Bereft of hope fainted I am

The presence of thoughts reflection images seek their way to me
Stare into a whole of visions present past future
I've gone beyond history and time but black is unending
The black starts to sting my eyes filled with shattered nothing

The parts don't complete the puzzle make it known to me
I am falling deeper deeper the edge of existence

I can see though I am blind
I can hear though I am deaf - fainted
I can speak though I am mute
I can feel though I can't no more - fainted
This is truth in a lie
This is pain while I am painless - fainted
Now I know no I don't
This is black this is white - fainted

Emptiness is draining my body solving the fainting riddle
Stare into a hole of nothing filled with shattered visions
The glass of window has broken no more talking shadows
I am falling deeper deeper the end of existence

I can see though I am blind
I can hear though I am deaf - fainted
I can speak though I am mute
I can feel though I can't no more - fainted
This is truth in a lie
This is pain while I am painless - fainted
Now I know no I don't
This is death this is life - fainted


4. THE BREED WITHIN

For we are the last in line
In evolution of the animal kind
Us humans we're adorned with forces
Assets of the godlike
We think to differ from the beasts
Less instinct more spoken words
But underneath our developed skin
Still breathes the origin

Of fear-born-swords and truth collide
Mendacity walks the blood drained sand
Expressions of the breed inside
Instinct-like and therefore banned

We have the blood in our earth bound heart
Versus the soul in our mind
They are at war and not in balance
Battles for a bad or better kind

We are so proud for ourselves
Applaud to the concert of life - yet clap with one hand
We seem to exist in a world
With perfect constructed lives - speak of stability

The breed within

You think you can walk away
Ignore the beast in you and me
The origin core cannot but find it's way
Cos your instinct urges were meant to be
We chose what's right and what's wrong
Blind for the root in our wrong
We chose just half the truth
To kill mankind in its very youth

We've torn the world into black and white
The dark side to overthrow
Life to live in the sign of the light
But light does not go without shadow

We are so proud for ourselves
Applaud to the concert of life - yet clap with one hand
We seem to exist in a world
With perfect constructed lives - speak of stability

We are so wrong about ourselves
We ruined the concept of life - disability
We cope to live in a world
With perfect unstable lives - guest for reality

The breed within


5. THE GATHERING OF THE TRIBES

Sunrise the morning breaks no more
Chilling winds surrounds my head
A red sky the sky reflects the land
Blood of children woman men
Treason I do not understand
Kill to gain what's in their hands

Commandments the God of life decided
Nature's one and without borders
Men belong to where they are and walk and breathe

Warscars but they don't cause the pain
We fought the forbidden war
Trespass against the laws of life
A spit into our nature's face

Ancestors you taught me to tell the tale
Of life and death of peace and war
Dividing our strength among the needy ones in life

I need our children and our tribes
Peaceful in harmony now how do I tell
The rest of the tale to these shattered tribes

Shattered by man from across the sea
Telling us lies of a life beyond you Manitou
A river of blood from east to west
Takes its rise in lies greed and misery

A river of blood from east to west
All is lost yearn to be with thee

Spirits of war I ask thee
Ancestors gods I beg thee
We were not taught to feel like this
But I cannot fight this bitterness

Please forgive my will to fight
Please tell me I'm wrong or right
To fight the blackened souls in their white skin
The white wolf dressed in sheep's clothing

To save our honor I see myself
In need of strengh in need of help
Spirits of war now I summon thee
To kill again fight with me

Stand by me


6. FROM DEEP BELOW

Once again the die is cast aggression rise within
Again a threat a lie a pain in me it lies all in
From deep below my hatred grows the promise to be done
Cos I am weak the poor the slave the one you tread on

From deep below - from deep below

All the world's a stage a leading part for the depraved
I am the echo of your arrogance to hate enslaved
U piss and shit in a gutter found to be my soul a sickening stench
But the more bitter the taste of you the sweeter my revenge

I am the cancer of your corroded system - from deep below
I know it grows my hatred flows I will arise - from deep below
I am the cancer of your corroded system - from deep below
An invincible force of abysmal hatred - from deep below

You feed the flame of hate until I burn in your face
The fire roars from deep below my soul enlightened place
Aversion builds my strength my attitude my self esteem
Spread my disease my poisoning thoughts I shall redeem

To the failures that fortify my everlasting hate
Drink drink I drink the blood from wounds you create
Hatred now my motivation in fury I mount on
From deep below the hatred cries my promise to be done


7. SHINING THROUGH

As I count the raindrops say prayers over a thousand times
Impossible to sleep and the night-time crawls by
I Lamb of God reach for he who's searching for me
Both they've abandonned the one who's her flesh and blood

She knows no sorrow no pain

Dance the dance of day density
Unreal performance of the melody
Sanity is easily twisted
Schizophrenic out of the blue - dawned in you
Day dance wrapped in fantasy
Blurred performance of the symphony
Not knowing you lost the trail of life
Your true you fails to break through - shining through

A life is to suffocate in your smoke of deceit
Dance to a pace to which you blindly heed

Pace of death dance compelling you
True life-light kept from shining through
Enchanting death dance trans-like grasp
To erase the life from your womb cast dance

There's dry blood on my hands remembrance of my child's torn flesh
I taste the bitter truth I beg not to know
Soon to count your teardrops say your prayers over a thousand times
Impossible to sleep a nightmare crawls by

More sorrow forever more pain

Dance of death for me entity
Unclear performance of the melody
Sanity is easily adapted
Your true sight failed to shine through - dawn on you
Day dance wrapped in tragedy
Fake performance of the symphony
Now seeing you've lost the trail of life
Your true you failed to break through - shining through

Tears that fall upon the floor
Drip the pace of the melody of true life sanity
Again I pray to my god
And I stare into the eye of a sad sad reality


8. CYBERSPACE

Trip - trip - trip
With - with - with
Me - me - me
Trip with me

Tomorrow's replacement for needles and crack
Is to walk in a storm of electric confusion
Adrenalin shock to get the kick
Somewhere in nowhere but always here

Go beyond what true eyes see
Feels good to be lead astray

Go beyond the scenes of our bored grey world
And follow me to a colorful world of action
A visionary trip to get the kick
Somewhere in nowhere but always there

Welcome to the Cyberspace

As I lay myself to rest
And go beyond what eyes could see
The entry to my mind-rape world
Means light into the tunnel of reality
All of a sweat I shiver and scream
My panic is enjoyment sweet smell of fear
Take me control me twisted technology
Raging electric codes floating through - my brain

All of a sweat I shiver and scream
My panic is enjoyment sweet smell of fear
Longing for danger in high-level lands
Touching the sky so real I feel
Game passion drives to ecstasy
Melt by coldness freeze by heat
Take me control me twisted technology
Raging electric codes floating through - my brain

My soul as a playground for insanity
Mindfucking lies - trip with me
My soul as a playground for insanity
Mindfucking lies - trip with me

Pictures and scenes never seen before
Machine or human don't know anymore
All of a sweat I shiver and scream
My panic is enjoyment sweet smell of fear
Machine or human don't know anymore
Take me control me twisted technology
Take me control me twisted technology
Raging electric codes floating through - my brain

My soul as a playground for insanity
Mindfucking lies - trip with me
My soul as a playground for insanity
Mindfucking lies - trip with me

Computer God came to take my hand
My mind my soul my wonderland
Electric touches are so sweet
Forbidden fruits satisfy my needs

My soul as a playground for insanity
Mindfucking lies
My soul as a playground for insanity
Mindfucking lies

Trip with me
Trip with me

Game Over