1. FATAL FAIRYTALE

As the moon is standing high
And preparing its eclipse,
Darkness germinates
And causes total blackness
Mystic vapours lure you into the night
Heavenly chants magically brighten your sight
Suddenly, in the distance, a silhouette
Its beauty makes you decide to approach it
There she shines in all her glory
Dressed in a deep purple bridal gown
She is the void, the essence of your lifestory
Severally to be altered, to be written down
Veils slightly cover her eyes, her face
So innocent, yet so incredibly seductive
You're charmed, caught by her internal gaze
Her sadness, her enchantment, so compulsive

She vanishes into the water serene
Into the arms of the infinite dream
Still fascinated by her hypnotic dance
You follow her in an agonized trance

A well dark-nighted promenade
A valley, rocks, woods, a lake
The woman drowning in the utter shade
You feel your body shake
An inner abyss, blackenend, petrified
Chaotically echoing voices cried
What is left to choose
When there is so much to loose?

She vanishes into the water serene
Into the arms of the infinite dream
Still fascinated by her hypnotic dance
You follow her in an agonized trance

The look in her eyes, your fears
Her floating appearance enthralls
Melancholy forces you into (the lake of) tears
As this Siren-Ophelia calls


2. PLEASE

For years I did not care
About things I wasn't aware
But now, I want to know
I need to know
The origin of my inner self
Looking back on my life
Is like ploughing a land
Stricken by a brainstorm
Revelation of the dark side
A reflection bright

Obsessed with the unknown
I dragged down
What's most precious in life
Into my fears, into my ignorance
To my regret…please…please!

Denial is lifeless
In my school of existence
I shall recover, revive
And think over my actions
To learn…to act…to live

Please!

Teaching myself and asking for forgiveness
Hoping for a positive reply
Another desperate cry


3. STRAYING, TREMBLING, RUSHING

Straying away from the core of banishment
Trembling, closing the door of dictatorship called “innocent”
Still hearing mutually the words and cries from all around
Emotional exile from once that save haven
My heart is scattered, rushing adrenaline through all veins
Overwhelmed by chaos, confusing that once so clear mind
Amazed by parental rejection which was never foreseen

My thoughts spoiled by abjectness, darkened by shrouds
Wondering if it is rain or tears flowing on my cheeks
The light at the end of the world is in sight
Yet only nothingness appears to be in reach
To be unaccepted is to be non-existent in one's eyes
Though I will never, ever expostulate a disguise

My dignity expelled by the ones commanding to adapt
But I resist for I will never, ever change on one's behalf
Remembering that I am most important in my life

Reason raped by distorted enigma's, concealed by fears
Wondering if it is wind or voices blowing in my ears
The light at the end of the world is in sight
Yet only nothingness appears to be in reach
To be unaccepted is to be non-existent in one's eyes
Though it's out of the question to expostulate a disguise


4. A SLEEP INTO ETERNITY

Reckless, desperate and depressed
I dwell within the dimensions of time
My soul is empty, my body is frail
Misfortune left a dreadful trail
For how long must I suffer
This unbearable disorder
Which makes me sow the seeds
Of death and decay?

Am I dreaming I'm awake
Or am I awake and just dreaming?
For I have lost myself
Insomnia has taken me

I summon the spirits of darkness
To follow me on my path
For I depart in solitude
In solitude I depart

My quest,
The cause
The search,
For grace
My goal,
Redemption
An answer to my question

I hear their calls
It is a riddle
Solution?
No, insanity
It is my sleep into eternity
It is your sleep into eternity


5.PREY

As I wander in search for the heavenly symphonies
I find nothing but this trail
This trail of slaughter, suffering, agony and rape
Created by us, who call ourselves mankind
Yet we are victimized, by our own cursed hands
We all are prey, we are all prey