1. MY MUSIC IS GONE

The candle's flickering.
My eyes are burning.
My fingers bleeding.
The needle, faster and faster
As if it knows that not much time is left.

The candle's flickering.
There's silence in my room.
I hear the needle
Perforating the velvet.
The moment soon will come.
I hope it will always stay.
It will be a beautiful dress
For my greatest day.

My love and me joined forever.

Eyes still burning, I could have known.
I'm too excited, fingers sewed to the bone.
I'm bleeding but still no disaster.
The needle, faster and faster
As if it knows that not much time is left.

My bridegroom is longing for his wife.

The candle's flickering.
I wear the beautiful dress.
Ready to enter into my very last journey.
My love and me joined forever.
Nothing can ever come between us.

This is my greatest day.


2. FACING THE RUINS

I can`t remember how I became
The one I am or who to blame
Can`t recall the visions of my past
It all stays the same, I have no rest

Living a life that`s so intense
Does not give my memories a chance
Only when we`re together it feels so safe
Peaceful and silent, quiet as a grave

Only on these tombstones of my past
Is where my inner voices find their rest
Can`t silence them on moments that I want
For final rest I think we have to bond

My thoughts are ascending from the land
They find their rest, no reason to descend
Looking down on ruins I once left behind
Still left untouched for me yet to find

Going on, approaching open sea
Shimmering of sundown is coming towards me
When my body hits the ground
Feel the pain, I`ve returned and look around

The silence I find myself now in
Leads me to the ruins, my own place of sin
Only on these ruins of my past
Is where the voices found their rest

I can remember how I became
The one I am, but it stays the same
I can recall the visions of my past -
In that place... we all find our rest


3. LOST

I know someday my time will come
Just hope it will soon come along
All has already been done
All which was pure is gone

There`s nothing left to do
I`d only stay because of you
Don`t ask me to die within these walls
As I`m dreaming of the sky

Somewhere I guess, we`ll meet again
If there is a place and only then
I`ll be waiting for you to come

4. My Sweetest Pain

Is this how true love should end?
Broken hearts won`t mend
Two hearts, which beated as one
Tell me, what have I done

Am I to blame?
Eternal grief will remain

Another scar across my heart
Which reminds me of your name
And whispers softly
„You are my sweetest pain“

I won`t regret one second with you
No doubt, my feelings were true
All games are played, no sense to stay
I run away, for redemption I pray

I see your face and hear your voice
It`s in my head, my only choice
Stars from above, guide my way
No time to rest, nor time to stay

Who`s to blame?
Trees are whispering your name

Another scar across my heart
Which reminds me of your name
And whispers softly
You are my sweetest pain

One single touch, the smell of your hair
One kiss, only memories there
My sheltered treasure they are
My only pleasure, like a single star


5. SECRET GARDEN

Once there was a garden, in a land so far away
Many ages passed, its beauty faded with the days
A garden long forgotten, all birds flew with the wind
Only silence left

Once there was a secret, where wild flowers grew
They knew many strangers, heard stories of transient fates
A secret revealed, they sheltered over years
A mystery unsolved

Once there was a person, guided by a strange, odd sway
Her clothes were torn, her skin was scratched by thorns
This person had a wistful heart, fighting through the thicket
Desires got stronger

Once there was beauty, a flower never seen before
In among the weeds, blossoms shimmered like a rainbow
Her beauty oh so stunning, the sun was shining just for her
A human being blinded

Once there was hope, in a land so far away
The person only had one wish, wanted to absorb her light
Once there was hope, but the human touched her without thought
She died in my arms


6. ETERNAL GRIEF

Hands across my face
`Cause I won`t let you see
The sadness that I chased
Is now chasing me

Hands across my heart
`Cause I won`t let you feel
Why we`re now apart
This time it`s for real

Heads in the sand
I am scared to death
For again a broken love
Or just the pain instead

Memories did not leave
So I still bear the pain
And thoughts of my belief
Remind me of your name


7. BLACK WIDOW

I`m a black widow
It was you who poisoned my mind
I`m sick of being kind
Playing the sacrificed
Today you are my prey!

I`m a black widow
It`s time for the deadly game
It makes no sense to put up a fight
You can`t flee
`Cause I`m starving and I`m ready to eat

I`m a black widow
Come into my arms, don`t be shy
You`re my imprisoned
Now you`ll get what you deserve
Are you ready to die?

How does it feel? - the deadly kiss
Can you feel it? - the poison...
The blood rushes through your veins
You shiver... and look full of pain...
Your lips are pale
You slowly getting high
Follow me into your worst nightmares

No-one can escape his fate
No-one can withstand her kiss

Black widow
Waiting for her sacrifice
Black widow
She loves to kill


8. OUR DREAM

The gracious shine of the moon
It gently caresses my hand
It`s cold and strange, yet peaceful
Its shimmer fills the land
The only lights now shining
Are our hearts from within

This kingdom welcomes me
For it is our place to be
Hear the silence, calm and rest
It`s our realm of love and death

Our dreams, they colour my night
Feeling your purity inside
You truly hold my heart
I hope we`ll never be apart
Your love, the best I`d ever known
I`ll keep it inside, for my own

Did it always had to be?
What we`ll never comprehend
How life treated you and me
We will never understand


9. SHADOW DANCE

There is a castel on the clouds
Where only peace and happiness reigns
Sheltered by shadows
Made of dreams

The prince invited me to come
I`m enchanted by his beautiful face
He holds the wisdom of ages
Though pure like a child

My dreams become reality
We dance all night
I enjoy his embrace
I am his princess, come what might

Shadows swaying in the wind
Guarding the prince and his realm
Fending bad dreams
And keep them away

Suddenly the shadows fade
Clouds darkened the sky
Our dance ended
I had to go, another goodbye


10. THE END OF THE WORLD

All hope is gone
To rise again from dark
A black sun above the sky
Is this the end of the world?

Love turns (in)to hate
Never-ending silence
When cries are unheard
Is this the end of the world?

There`s nothing left
While nature decays
The last dawn has broken
Is this the end of the world?

I stare at you
Your hollow eyes
The shine of pride lights up the night
When I dare to hope that you`re still mine
Tomorrow's just a lie


11. LULLABY

Close your eyes
Don`t be afraid
I`ll hold you tight
I won`t go away
Until you fall asleep

Sleep well, sleep tight
Nothing can harm you
A lullaby of tears uncried, I`ll sing for you
Sleep well, sleep tight

You cradle in my arms
Your heart full of pain
None can hurt you anymore
Your soul will cease

I stroke your hair
You won`t be alone
You`re going to a better place
Where joy and happiness reigns
When you fall asleep

Sleep well, sleep tight
Nothing can harm you
A lullaby of dreams undreamed, I`ll sing for you
Sleep well, sleep tight

Close your eyes
I'll cover you with flowers
Lilies, jasmin, roses
Will be the guardians of your dreams
Until you lie below the ground

I wish I could go with you
I don`t know you but still we`re so close
There are feelings, I thought long-forgotten
I found you but now you`re gone
But soon I`ll follow you

When I`ll fall asleep....


12. ATMA GYAN

Eternal light for a broken love
My man forever, even if it`s only in my heart
The eternal flame will cease my pain and
Give me the warmth I miss so much

Eternal light for a broken love
My man forever, even if it`s only in my dreams
The eternal flame will cease my pain and
Give me the peace I miss so much

A sea of flames for each tear I cried
Flames do burn the emptiness inside
Flames which show me the way I never wanted to go
And give me the strength to carry on
To follow the road to Nowhereland
Where nothing awaits me

Eternal light for a broken soul
My fate forever, memories are haunting my dreams
Eternal flames, they cease my pain
Quiet they whisper your name