1. INCESSANTLY

Despite everything
I remain alive
Trudging through the ruin
That's become my life

Pausing, for a moment to reflect
I cannot seem to
catch my breath
It never ends

Every path I've ever taken has slowly eaten me alive
Vision only serves to distort and deceive the fucking eyes

Unaware of what holds meaning
I have lost my sense of truth

Emptiness I cling to thee
Exhausted of my fucking use

Clawing at myself incessantly
Gnawing at myself incessantly

"Just do it already
Give it up and lay it down
You've been staring at these walls for days
And you've barely made a single sound
You've lost it all
As you see no one's around."

"Overdose. Lay it down."

Fed the hatred for the self from birth into the grave
Unfulfilled in every way despite all that I fucking gave

Clawing and gnawing at myself

Driven insane by this madness
Sulk in defeat from this sadness
Life is a purgatory to endure
Filled with pain you beg for more
Incessantly I wait for more
Incessantly I'm craving more
Incessantly, incessantly
Incessantly I pray for more
Incessantly, incessantly
Incessantly I wait for more

I cannot coexist with peace inside this vessel
My habits have been molded; my will has settled

Clawing, drawing blood again
Gnawing, drawing blood again I fold


2. HOLLOW VESSELS

Staring at their shells
All life has gone
This is now
This is everyone
Nauseating noise filled silence

Permeates the desires
Of those with unfulfilled potential

The words you speak
Mean nothing

This is silence
The mask you wear means nothing
Though colorful
This is emptiness
Most will live to die twice


3. CHEMANIA

Give me, need me, feed me,
Cleanse me just like my trusted
Stimulant fix

Fixation on the mechanics
Of a process we have never understood

Give me the words
Comply with my brain and aid
In the molding of the world I see

I'll turn the pages of a chapter book written in shit
To hopefully find some ink

A nervous system gone haywire
Struggling to react

A brain killing itself with a Dopamine, Serotonin, Norepinepherine cocktail

Head tilt back
Head lunge forward
Head meet concrete
Spit out teeth

Vision fades
Embracing nothing


4. PHANTOMS KEPT AGGRESSIVE

Hanged heads never smile
Don't ask how I know

Triumph is an amphetamine
Don't ask how I know

I beg for the pain
I pray for the burn
I will kill anything in my way

The trail of dead ends
That lift me
My empire is solitude
And I am the God damned King

Influenced
By the influence

Product
Of my surroundings

You'll never know my secrets kept
You'll never see the things I have

My prison gave me life
I live kept away

Spit, open-mouthed
This is nothing new
Pry, out
Teeth and tongue
What do you hide?
Tell me your lies
What do you hide?
Tell me your lies

Visual deception rampant
Walking, fucking, filth
Truth be the secret buried
Deep in mind

Control
Deceive
Manipulate

"This world is mine
Your life is mine
I want what I want
This world is mine
Your life is mine
I want what I want
Your life is mine."

Desire to
Cut the throat
That holds their prominent heads so high
Degradation a form of rebirth
Rid the Earth of scum
Rid the Earth of filth

Preaching psalms of degradation
Burn the corpses of the weak
Degradation
A form of rebirth


5. WOUND OF THE MIND

Stop smiling at me
Through pain I can't see
Clearly

I'd beg to be numb if I didn't already know
Voices were made to be ignored

This is my fate and I'll swallow it
Just like the blood clots

Your savior is a sadist
In attempts to turn me into a masochist
I've held my tongue and forgotten prayer

Concern is always a choice
And I've always made the wrong one


6. TURN BACK

In conserving the elite
The self must be subject to
Absolute termination

The sound of the mystic's lie and greed stricken tongue

Drive fear
Allow yourself to die
In living the dream
Nothing is ever real

Retreat; find solstice in self-degradation
Deny the beast you were born

Live in his image
Die on your knees

If words hold substance
You'd stand in line

Awaiting your own
Crucifixion

Live in fear
Die afraid
Turn back to delusion
Turn back to delusion
Live in fear
Die afraid
Turn back to delusion
Turn back to delusion


7. NEGATIVE INFLUENCE

Over
A lifespan I've built an evil within my mind
I'll tear myself apart to prove my fucking point

It digs into my neck, and consumes my skull
I have no more control, I'm bound to lose it all

Struggle ensues

In the end we all disappear
Fading into emptiness

All ideas redundant
All belief a fucking lie

What makes you think
Your life will be any different?
They all try
Walking in circles, nowhere

There is
Nothing
One can
Do to
End this
Cycle
Of self
Torment

Just breathe
Just breathe
Just fucking breathe
Just breathe

I refuse
I refuse
I won't
Listen to you
I refuse
I refuse
Fuck you
Fuck you
This is something you can't tame
Embedded deep within
I am all the shattered fragments
Long live

Despite every effort and attempt
You can't escape this self loathing
Nature and discontentment
You must suffer all your life

Depression and suicide
Saturate your fucking mind
Years of hateful criticism
Smother all your dreams envisioned

Quick solution: wield the knife
Correct your fucking brain
I don't care if it's the last thing I do
I won't let this dig my grave

Cut it out
Cut it out
Cut it out
Cut it out


8. DEATHSPIRAL

Change often leaves an empire bleeding
No gauze for the wound

Clotting web of history clings to the fingers
Hoping to maintain

In last days
In last days

Just let the head fall
Just Let the neck fail
There's no honor in
Dramatizing
The inevitable


9. PENETRATION - A WAY OF LIFE

User is as user does
Never grounded in life

Fucked full of narcissism
Hard-drive littered with self image

Searching blindly
For undefined fulfillment

I won't be there

To lift you up after you've lowered your standards back to realism
Used from the moment that they caught your eye
Nothing more

You'll die alone as you've left me
Despite how you address this
Tarnished truth

Love is the fuel of repopulation and nothing more
Your heart holds no feeling, save pressure
In a bed of broken spirits
Made to continue
The passing of passionless fluids
This indulgence never ends


10. ISOLATION

Stranger in the mirror
Unrecognizable
Defined creases
Bags below the eyes

How you've changed
How you've aged

Everyone and everything
You held dear is gone
All motivation
To achieve is lost
Slave to a routine
That rapes the joy
Of everything

I often feel like a motherless newborn
Not quite wanted, yet I'm here
No voices heard in days
Walls a cage
No escape
No escape

Color drained from me
Darkness blinding me
Anguish in my voice
Dwelling in the void

Exiled as a punishment
For existing without a choice
Useless organ sack of flesh
Disregarded from the pack

I am a shell of my former self
Despite all of my cries for help
They fall unheard, I am alone
I walk this Earth, I am a ghost

I need something

Life is nothing if not loneliness
We are the only things that can die twice

Rip out the poisoned veins at all costs
Or succumb to the pain in emptiness


11. THE GREAT CIRCLE JERK

Life
Is going to shit
Because
You're a piece of shit
Let's smear shit on our faces
And jerk each other off

Because trying
Is asking
Too much

Stop playing the part
Theatrical waste of time
Don't waste your breath
Spare my mind
I've heard this all before
From a guy that looks just like you

Deep throating this bullshit
Everyday and choking back the
Truth to repeat history and pretend
Everything's okay

Thoughtlessly, they fuck off
Mindlessly, they climax
Cumming on each other's faces
Cumming on each other's faces

Dead
We are better off
Soon enough
Dead
We are better off
Soon enough

There will be no remorse
When hell reigns
Outcome of our ignorance


12. FATED DONOR PARADOX

In falling apart I've become bitter
Just kill me already

Someone wants my heart more than I do
Someone needs my eyes more than I do

My lungs are misused
Each nerve a tomb
I can't feel anyway
Numbed for so long

The further I climb
The less I have to accomplish
Time decreases
As I question the point of it all


13. PERSONIFYING THE MACHINE

Feeling pathetic
Knowing my feelings are irrational
As I can't help but succumb to
The stupidity of all of this
So tired of earning a living
Breaking my spirit night by night
Picking up the slack

Of lazy depressive wastes
Of consciousness
My mind cannot take it
I am broken, I submit
My mind cannot take it
I am tortured, I submit

You are what you make yourself
I've made myself hopeless
You are what you make yourself
I've made myself useless
You are what you make yourself
I am self abusive
You are what you make yourself
I've made myself pathetic

It's not a fucking wonder
Why I feel alone

Trying to apply a meaning to this life
Just to be as confused as the day I was born
None of you make this any easier
Acting as gears inside a fucking machine


14. HIGH ON COMMERADERY

In groups you'd kill
No need for reason
In groups you'd rape
No need for reason

These hands are tools
And you're dying
To use them

Masking fear in
Triumphant stride
Can't erase the
Stain of cowardice on your hide
I see through you
Worth less than the cum you were born from
Just like all pests
Giving reason to exterminate

An orgy of stupidity
With all arms flailing
Pathetic maggots
Lead by insecurities untold


15. THE GAP

Soulless populations mingle
Desperate attempts at belonging
Plagued in mind with spirits broken
Wanting to be acknowledged

Caught up within
The act of a great division
Ever growing gap
Refusal to understand

Polarized, you all become one
Losing all your unique beauty
Nothing matters You have your mission
Dividing in the name of hatred

Feuding over ideas with our
Words as bullets, aiming for the
Head to never cease until our
Cause obtains a body count

Let them wage a war
Let the blood spill
Let the fires rise
Let the blood spill
Doesn't matter the cost
As long as I'm right
The only focus I have
Is serving my life

There is no reflection
Or responsibility
Taken for your actions
You just thrive on power
You want to control
You want to lead
You love your control
Birthing deities

Taking a bow at the feet of martyrs
Making a game of the trauma suffered

Head
First, we fall
Abusing the pawns
Head
First, we fall
Abusing the pawns
Suffer my abuse

A verbal duel
A sense of purpose
Emptiness subsides
Choosing sides

Give them another reason
To continue blindly
Become the fucking problem
By simply casting blame you're

Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the Gap
Feeding, the God damned Gap


16. I WILL KILL ME

One way or another
This life must end
A head isn't made for two
There can only be one

Living like this for so long
I know no other life
Crushing my own hands
With every foot I climb

To reach as high as possible
My own hands around my neck
Torture and self torment
Until death

Do it, do it
Tighten the noose
Do it, do it
Saturate the veins
Do it, do it
No one would miss you
Do it, do it
You've ruined everything

I'll kill this voice
Silence every noise

The agony
Of believing
Every lie
I have told myself

Return to a life of hope
Dream as though I matter
This life I'll lead on my terms

End the pain
Cease the blame
Reclaim
Your life

I will kill me
It's your time
To go

I will kill me
It's your time
To go


17. SCARRED

Tear down
The walls
That confine your heart

Believe
You were meant
For more than suffering

There has got to be more
Out there
Somewhere

There must be
More than this
Somewhere

Just stop
Limiting
Yourself, be freed

I've seen hell within their eyes
I know the evil that You fear
Nobody is innocent
And not a thing is sacred

We've made a
Mess of this
Fucking life
But if we
Refuse to
Try and change
We will face
The end of
Everything
That we know
One by one
We will go
To a shamed
Burial plot
Big enough
For all of
Us

This life is series of cycles and patterns
We're all cells of the organism
Only as strong as our diseases
And disagreements

We could just as easily fall
We could just give up
When all light is smothered
Never surrender

Scarred, broken, defeated
We must carry on
Crushed, bleeding, depleted
We will go on

Though the light fades
Within vision changes
Time never stops

We're all the same
Though scarred
We must carry on