1. A GIFT FOR CHRISTMAS

The conspicuous contrast
Became too much for you
The house where mother sleeps
The house where father beats

It's easier being subdued
Than rise without relief

Once on drugs to sometime be free
His injection was your fear
"Put up with pain
Don't die in vain"

These chains were made to keep you down
They couldn’t see the yearn within

Daddy I want a suicide-kit for Christmas
I know it's not expensive and it gives a lot of fun
Every time you throw your filthy hands upon me
I know it's in your nature and gives me a cause to run

The bleeding razors left behind
No more a piece of what you used to be
Floating away upon forbidden skies
Running and leaving the territory

The chains were made to keep you broken
They couldn't face the yearn within


2. PAINULASJÄRVI

(Instrumental)


3. FOR YOU

Throw me up to make me fly with the wind
I'm the burning breeze in your eye
Lift me back and dry the rain from my chin
While I'm burning there's no use to cry

But if you'll burn no more when autumn comes
If you'll burn no more when you open your eyes

Visions of a nightfall
I don't believe we'll make it at all
Sirens still are singing
And I know it's for you they call
Never seen this distance
Fading slowly 'til dead
I know we won't ever last

Dry me up when I'm crying for you
Say there's no reason to fear
Tell me you'll always bleed for me
That the end's never near

But if you'll burn no more when winter comes
If you'll burn no more when you open your eyes

Visions of a nightfall
I don't believe we'll make it at all
Sirens still are singing
And I know it's for you they call
Never seen this distance
Fading slowly ‘til dead
I know we won’t ever last


4. SIG SILVER PLATEAU

I won't give in not as long as you pray
When wisdom is gone it's your pain that will stay
I'm not searching my soul to give you what you call
An inner tension or a brighter hall

When my eyes try to fool me I'm missing my light
When darkness surround me then I realise
Once again you've been trying with your secret games
To get me into something made to cause me pain

As if I could love you
King of never known solidarity
I am leaving your faces behind
In this mask of lies I thought was mine

I'm despising your weakness the moments you cry
For you I'm more than heaven and tears in your eyes
When the moments of confusion are floating away
Inside of you it is your dreams you'll let stay

But I'm still moving further away from your life
I'm not causing you troubles it's your mind that lies
When I'm collecting my belongs and leave you alone
If the pain grows then put the blame on your own

Your face is darker
Than the grave
You say suits me

As if I could love you
King of never known solidarity
I am leaving your faces behind
In this mask of lies I thought was mine


5. WHILE AWAKE

See me down
Fading, truth
Will be
Blessed you
Foreign sun
With despise

Feel this lie

Born to die
I have no grace
To fall from
Fear enchants me
Belong to me
A while

Feel this lie
Silently being
Washed by truth


6. ALWAYS BELIEVED IN

Fragile walls
Filled with a room
Raised by
Beating hands

Sometimes the rain
Fell down too hard
They moved you
Partly away

Always believed in
Importance of staying
Let you out, just a minute
To be

One red candle
For dreams we never shared
A black one
For dreams I still have
No time for you to need
No time to breathe
Sailing away to your
Blue velvet sea

Fly, golden bird
To you home with no house
Fly to your nest
With no time passing by

For short I've known you
But long I will weep
Gone, silver fairytale
The more I wish to sleep

Always believed in
Importance of staying
Son of slaves
You were

Don't leave me now
When I'm finally waiting
Don't leave me now
When I'm finally here
One red candle
For dreams we never shared
Sailing away to your
Blue velvet sea


7. MORE THAN I MIGHT KNOW

The water is too deep for you to
Swim in but it's cheap
If you realize it is dead
You will start pushing me away
But you can't push me further now

The world is just too round for you to
Live in but it's your ground
From which you often
Try to see how many
Lives there are getting burnt

You're nothing I need
Nothing I would like to be
Your ego swallowed more
Than I might know

My wounds are just enough for you to
Scratch in and it's cheap
For you to leave without regret
You've started pushing me away
And you can push me further still

My world was just as good as yours to
Live in but it's a ground
Where I would like to place my feet
But it's too slippery by your spit
I hope you'll drown in your own words

You're nothing I need
Nothing I would like to be
Your ego swallowed more
Than I might know

When nothing is what's left you'll realize
The price is yours to pay
But you won't make it through as
Many words have gone unheard but
Nothing I regret I've learnt

You're nothing I need
Nothing I would like to be
I hope your praying is in vain
I hope you'll never reach the day
When your ego swallows more
Than you might know


8. MOURNING ANGEL

Every day when you woke up
It's a new bright morning
But when I woke up today
My whole world was black
And with it my heart blackened too
All this because of you

Roses on my bed
Giving roses to the dead

The darkness lies in me
Deep within
In my blood
Beneath my skin

Bite my neck and suck it in Enlight my path
With thy holy light
So I can walk
In endless night
Guide me through
This misery
Come flee with me, come flee with me

Now I am here
I wish you should be me near
The only thing I wanted
Was to feel your love
When I as your angel am
Watching you from above

And together we can fly into the night
To a place where we can die
Never again to fear the light

The darkness lies in me
Deep within
In my blood
Beneath my skin
Bite my neck and suck it in

Enlight my path
With thy holy light
So I can walk
In endless night
Guide me through
This misery
Come flee with me, come flee with me


9. A WINTER SEASON

Hear the mourning
Song of morning
Climbing fast
To ring your ears

Fear emotions, beat your heartbeats
Listen to drums upon fears
Fragile existence
Beneath mighty feet

Travelling down
Their self-sacrifice
How beautiful as heaven awakes
To hide a deadly sun

Redemption by our hands
Blaming the ones who live
Fast across the sky, razors in our minds
While nothing we feel is for real

Blame tremendous winter season
All your treasures freezing life
Feel the frost cover your mind
Try to hide the sun

Travelling water
Hiding or haunting
Makes us pray
To smaller Gods

Earth itself
Confesses our nightmares
Not too proud
To lick its wounds

Redemption by our hands
Blaming the ones who live
Fast across the sky, razors in our minds
While nothing we feel is for real

Blame tremendous winter season
All your treasures freezing life
Feel the frost cover your mind
Try to hide the sun


10. FOREVER FOR YOU (ENCLOSE ME NOW)

My ache is nothing I pray for
But all I live for sometimes
Your pain is what I want to swallow
It makes me grow dead each day
Come bleed in my arms cause
I'm bleeding alone through my life
I miss you like hell and the
Sign of the cross can't help me now

Oh, my heart still burns
Please, seems like forever - forever for you
Enclose me now

Your love is all that I need
All that I still need by now
But my truth is nothing you wish to hear
Nothing you need to keep you alive
I'm bored and cold and totally alone
Without you I'll always be on my own
I'm opening my wounds for you to stay
Don't let me die, never alone

Oh, my heart still burns
Please, seems like forever - forever for you
Enclose me now


11. TIME TO SLEEP

Words, constructed to open silence
Built to heal but used to eradicate
Beautiful poetry, inverted to provoke
Asking why we can't love without lies

Keep out of the secret garden
And you'll be rewarded as sane
Cause you don't wanna know it's not ardent
When she dies every night in vain

Escape the pain
For just one more day
Make a wish
See your castle of sand
Spread out with the wind
Far away

The last scapegoat falls
When the crying innocence
Doesn't know what to be in our eyes

I've dreamt of a reality
Where sunset was mine
I've dreamt of a morality
Where truth wasn't missing its spine

In one dream we lie
In the same dream we die

It's time to sleep, now

Life, forcing us closer to death
Meaning there's no sense at all
Some people say it's a river
Some people say it's a fall

Eyes seeing shadows
While searching for sun
Want to give up as we fear
See your castle of sand
Spread out with the wind
Far away

The last scapegoat falls
When the crying innocence
Doesn't know what to be in our eyes