1. PROLOGUE

The musicians began to tune up, though it seemed a pointless exercise considering the type of music they were going to play


2. TERROR

This is what you call me
I strike terror among men
I can't be bothered with what i think i bare my cross, my soul, myself i forgive ...
But i never forget
I've been put upon this earth in female form
But i can't handle myself with the best of you
As well as the worst and i often have i have the right to remain silent but i choose to speak, sing scream i am
Lips, hips, tits
I am the power of a woman
Strong like music
True like friendship
But without my friends there would be no music
Only spoken word
Fucker!
I am able to change so i live without regret, without remorse only a remix i am
Drunk, i am sober. Heaven doesn't want me and hells affraid i'll take over.
Don't bother trying to censor me, or shut me up because it won't work. I am cold and distant yet worm and
Close to those who deserve to see that side of me part of me...
The heart of me. You find me so hard to understand in your world, the world you percieve to be so normal i am
Deformed
Scorned, reborn i am me and i know exactly who i am, what i am and the wrath i bring the ugly beauty, the
Lying truth, the virgin whore...
The quiet storma lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner, a sister, a daughter old school......
A beginer. I have decorated my self with love, hate, truth...
You all of you, both of you, none of you...
More than one of you with lips like sugar, eyes like meat. I've watched men come, go and cheat i sleep to
Dream and dream of sleep. I had a dream joe that you were standing in the middle of an open road. I had a dream
Joe that your hands were raised up to the sky and your mouth was covered in foam. I've been crucified,
Justified and mortified by my behaviour, both feminine and masculine. I am contradiction and a juxtapostion. My
Relief is my release and only time will tell all is well that ends well. I am unsweetened, unclean...
Being called drama queen, ex-girlfriend, ex-member...
The tantrum, the temper i paint my finger...
Take the blame and this time i will own the name because nobody is going to ruin me, if i have to i will ruin
My self and it will be my ruin fucker!


3. PREACHER

It was a long time ago longer now than it seems.
A place that perhaps that you have seen in your dreams...
Welcome to my world, is it what you thought it would be?
I am trapped inside this hell between blood queen and purgatory a coop filled covered hall, a tatooed baby
Doll,
I've got the devil in my corner and jesus on my wall

[chorus]

Today is an oatmeal day i fell like a monster babe preacher, save me with your call and i will be your little miss scareall.
One eye's green and one eye's blue.
Demons, angels, a love that's true catch me as i start to fall, let me be your little miss scareall.
Halloween is over but i will keep you scared,
Take you to the fright side i know you'll come prepared, be your deadly nightshade, turn your christmas black
And you can be my johnny homicidal maniac

[chorus]

Forgive me preacher for i have sinned.
It's been three weeks since my first confession.
I am the one...
Hiding under your bed.
My teeth are sharp, my lips are red,
I am the one...
Hiding under your stairs with snakes and spiders in her hair
I feel like a monster babe little miss scareall,
I feel like a monster babe


4. TAINTED LOVE

Sometimes i feel i've got to run away,
I've got to get away from the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share seems to go nowhere
And i've lost my light for i toss and turn i can't sleep at night....

Once i ran to you,
Now i'll run from you,
This tainted love you've given,
I give you all a girl could give you,
Take my tears and that's not nearly all...
Tainted love, tainted love.

Now i know i've got to run away
I've got to get away,
Y ou don't really want it anymore from me to make things right you need someone to hold you tight,
And you'll think love is to pray but i'm sorry i don't pray that way.

Once i ran to you,
N ow i run from you,
T his tainted love you've given,
I give you all a girl could give you
T ake my tears and that's not nearly all.
Tainted love tainted love,
D on't touch me please i cannot stand the way you tease.

I love you though you hurt me so now it's time you pack your things and go.
Tainted love, tainted love
Touch me baby tainted love,
Don't touch me baby tainted love,
Touch me baby tainted love,
D on't touch me baby tainted love...
Tainted love.


5. BLASPHEMOUS GIRL

Drunk with sin she sits in her skin
Filled with anger fueled by liquer drowns in dreams
With no saviour from the truth none can save her
He is her own personal jesus and he will not be her last
God wants a piece of her ass
God wants a piece of my ass...

I am...
A blasphemous girl
I am...
A blasphemous girl
I am...
A blasphemous girl
I am...
A blasphemous girl

Magnum mouthed i shoot to kill
You murder me with lies and guilt strangle me...
With tragic hands
God wants a piece of her ass
God wants a piece of my ass...

I am...
A blasphemous girl
I am...
A blasphemous girl
I am...
Stab me...
Like a stalker rape me...
Like a hero stab me...
Like a stalker rape me...
And be my hero bless me darling and i will forgive you
Eloquent and full of grace you speak in tongues
Behind my back a dry lung vocal martyr
I will suffer for my lover
I will suffer for his sins
I will suffer for my lover
I am suffering for him
Torture me with timelessness
Worship my first with every kiss
Resurection of my pain drag me down our memory lane
Introduce me to devotion
Leave me numb with no emotion
Stars surround you when i feel you
You look better when i cannot see...
You honesty...
Looks good on you but liar should be your tattoo. .


6. CLOSE YOUR EYES

This place is hell to me and i can never get no sleep
There is a devil in my bed with me whose talk is cheap.
You feel like heaven to me all i want to do is sleep
You're like an angel lyin' next to me
You look so sweet close your eyes and lets pretend
Remember why we're just friends

My tangle hair will weave a web of lies within my sheets
And in the morning i'll be nailed where you crucified me
Your blackened hair will leave a stain inside my mind so deep
And when tomorrow comes i'll wish that you would worship me
Close your eyes and lets pretend.
Remember why we're just friends

There may be a storm in london tonight because it's cold and raining hard
My body aches, my lover waits,
I pick the scabs from my arms there must be a storm in la tonight
Because it's cold and raining hard i miss your kiss.
I miss your face, i miss the stars of your arms the man that i lust in
He i do trust for he is my god my anti jesus he is my saviour my salvation
He leeds me into temptation in my highest hour
My lowest moment he is my torture
He is my torment and i will pray for him to remain my friend and save me from my enemies...
Forever amen
This place is hell to me and i can never get no sleep
There is a devil in the bed with me whose talk is...
Cheap.


7. ABSOLUTION

I wanna live in the pretty sun
But daylight just makes me numb
So i cover up my stars with velvet drapes that kill rockstars,
Change my mood lick my wounds.
Trust will lead us to the truth
Drown my self in misery
Sleep with my enemy
Destroyed my destiny
Erase the memory...
Of you,
Open my self to reveal my wounds and i find the memory of you.
I wanna die on darkest night when there is none left to fight
Fill my bed with leopard fur
Think of you inside of her
For my latest sin until i'm happy in my skin.
Open my self to reveal my wounds and i find the memory of you
I ache for you...
I ache for us, i pray for you...
I pray for us, i wait for you...
I wait deny thy lover and refure thy name first,
Last and always, when will you tell me the truth?
When will you tell you the truth?
When will you tell me the truth?
When you will you tell you...
My revenge on you will not kill you it will make you want to kill your self.


8. HORRIBLE PAIN (WITHIN MY HEART)

I invoke him...
And he comes to me in my dreams dressed in black
He speak in a language only i can understand
His hands are warm, his breath is hot
He is the horrible pain within my heart
My religion, my sanctuary, my church, my sacrifice,
My profession my exorcism...
My worship in progress
I have no other lover...
Now until forever
He is magic and when he kisses me i can taste him on my lips like an elixir
Far from innocent he is pure evil, a sinners prayer...
A saints desire.
F or him i would walk through fire for him...
I have walked through fire.
To draw him i want so bad...
One gift i'll never have.
He drives a stake into my soul makes me bleed,
Makes me whole, drinks me, devours me, intoxicates me...
With his love
Hate devotion faith as beautiful as jesus christ
He is as brutal as the depths of hell.
In my dreams i press my mouth agains his and i fell
Heaven... Horror... Terror.
He looks at me with that look i call his serial killer
Look like he wants to fuck me and kill me all at the same time.
It scares me..
It turns me on, his eyes are brown his dare is intense...
Meaningful, powerful, maybe that's why he is so fuckin scary...
Because he means it.
Sometimes he tells me he loves me as he looks at me with that look.
Sometimes he doesn't have to.
I've never felt a man look at me with that look,
It's almost freaky... Uncomfortable.... Sexy.
I guess i know he could never really chop off my hands, or could he? .


9. FEVER

I think i'll cut myself
Cut myself free
Now i'm somewhere else
Need to be
Wasted with no sleep
Forgot to pray
Jesus can you hear me?
Nails keep pounding
You push your fingers into holes
Of what my questions left
And as i drown your mouth in red
You fear what i will ask next
I violate your faith
I wonder what you really taste like
Feel the sensation of depth
I lied...
Can't help me now
It's under my skin
Nowhere to go
I'll never let you in (in fear of dying)
I could worship you
Make you behave
I'd tell you anything
Just to be saved
Baby... How's your faith these days?
Do you feel safe?
Kiss me
Sunlight makes us sick
As nails keep pounding
You warp your legs around my mind
Ten times and hide in me
The darker it gets outside
Your hearts a 1000 degrees
I make you swallow spit
You're sick with it
You're sick from me
Don't say i didn't warn you, i tried...
Can't help me now
It's under my skin
Nowhere to run
But i won't give in
Can't help me now
I'm bleeding within
Nowhere to go
I'll never give in
What god created me?... (your god)
What god created us?... (your god)
What god created this... Thing called lust?
Your god created me?... (what god)
Your god created
Fuck... Your god can't help me now
It's under my skin
Nowhere to go
But i won't give in
Can't help me now
I'm bleeding within
Nowhere to go
I'll never give in
I won't let you in
Won't let you in (let me in)
Won't let you (let me in)
God won't let you...


10. SICK WITH IT

Sick sick with disease
Deny addiction down on my knees
Feed my affliction scared to believe my own decisions
Eager to please
Distorted visions breathe life need life breath life keep life
Lie and decieve with no emotion
False promises loss of devotion
Scarred by deceit my self destruction
Love obsolete live in disfunction breathe life need life breath life keep life
Bleed life heal life feel life the sweet life is all i want...
Can i bleed for the ritual?
Bleed for it got a need for the ritual can i breathe for the ritual?
Breathe for it.
Got a need for the ritual?
Sick with it.
Sick with it.
Sick with it, sick with it...

It's inside me i feel it growing nowhere to hide my anger's showing
[repeat chorus]
And on this dark night of my soul
I will continue to pray for us and try to remember only the good things...
The sweet life.


11. MY BEAUTIFUL FLOWER

Your mouth blooms like a cut sweet and full of sin
I prick myself on your thorns and i bleed within
Your leaves fade to brown and i watch you die in my torture garden under blacksunshine.
My beautiful flower
He loves me not he loves me he loves me not he loves me...
Our love starts to spil your lips bleed like a rose
Underneath the soil is where the evil grows your petals start to fall and the weeds attack
In my torture garden the blue sky is black
My beautiful flower
He loves me not he loves me he loves me not he loves me
Your mouth blooms like a cut sweet and full of sin
I prick my self on your thorns and i bleed within
My love starts to spoil your lips bleed like a rose
Underneath the soil is where the evil grows i am earth...

You can feel me touch you hear me breath...
Cos it's my air that loves you and i am fire...
You will feel me burn you come inside...
And i'll be water with you
He loves me not he loves me he loves me not he loves me. .


12. DIAVOLINA

This is a mantra for myself
This is a mantra for someone else
This is a mantra so be warned...
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
Sweetly he smiles at me so bright he burns me
Tongue twisted sick with words she'll get what she deserves
She got what she deserved.
See me i look at you so deep that she feels me
Girl tricks made you believe but she steels me i will be her disease
Diavolina screams...

Keep me so safe inside your sins
Our secret i watch you live your life in regret
You'll get what you deserve
Sleepy you close your eyes but you can't dream
You dirty girl so mean can't clean me i'll be your disease
Diavolina screams..

And i swear sacred as this heart of mine strong
As the ties which bind us heavy as this cross which i forever bear
Eternity will be the hell we share and what you want
I don't care coz it doesn't concern me.
This is about what i need s
O believe as the needla goes in,
I'm creeping under your skin soak you in sickness and scent you in sin
So say you'll love her and i'll believe you
But if you can't then you only decieve you
I said i love you and i don't lie...
Remember that next time you kiss me goodbye


13. JUNE 10TH

Do you remember those words you whispered to me
On that faithful day in italy mr b?
I can hear you singing face on fire blue skies
Your eyes my beautiful liar
I'm still breathing you can't kiss me kill me darling
I know you miss me can't resist me call me miss b...
I love it when you call me miss b.
Can you hear me talking?
Can you see me red light my lips she can never be me...
She can never be me now i'm screaming what can i break?
My hearts broken...
Silver lake, san francisco, switzerland, lacumza, england, budapest, mulhouse,
June 10th, june 10th do you remember june 10th?
I can't forget june 10th...
I remember when we first met
Do you remember or do you forget?
You were so perfect, so pure like an angel
You were like an angel... Amen
And i remember thinking,
I remember thinking....
My god my god he is just so beautiful,
So fuckin amazing and every night i would watch you,
I would watch you watching me and we swore that nothing would come between us
That none will come between us do you remember?
Ecstasy in paris...
Laying down in the middle of the street in the middle of the night
In the centre of you i was humbled by your power,
On the ninth plane...
666 acacia avenue,
Somewhere in hell digging the hell out of you, digging the hell in you...
My co conspirator, my executioner, my sacrificial lamb,
My friend, my lover, my martyr are you my enemy now?
You once asked me 'is existence all we share?'...
You tell me when you remember june 10th, do you remember june 10th


14. BRIGHT RED SCREAM

Come to me
As christ redeemed
Make-up hides your identity
But i can see
You're still diseased
Get off your cross
Get off your knees
Dare i see
The same in me
Never thought that i could be
So just lick your wounds
But it's too late
Trust will lead you to your own fate
Masochrist...
What you sew is what you reap
You're only as sick as secrets that you keep
What you use is what you'll need
But i can't stand to watch you as you bleed
Dare i see
The same in me
Never thought
That i would be...
So watch me bruise my knees
Rape my faith
With love and with hate
Masochrist...
What you sew is what you reap
You're only as sick as secrets that you keep
What you use is what you'll need
But i can't stand to watch you as you bleed
For me
For me
For me
Fore me...
Oh lord hear my prayer
You look like you are scared
I do what you taught me
It's your turn to watch me
Oh lord hear my prayer
Pull me by my black hair
Stab me with your greed
It's your turn to... Bleed
What you sew is what you reap
You're only as sick as secrets that you keep
What you use is what you'll need
But i can't stand to watch me as i bleed
I bleed
I bleed
I bleed
For you


15. COSMETIC

Elegantly wasted and i can taste it
Here i sit, trying not to fake this gift of beauty myth
I can't help but feel like this
Bored... Of the beauty whore
Coz my body just wants more scars...
And i can feel them wounds...
I can't heal them
Red bring my mouth to life
Black revive my hair thats dyed
Make-up always helps me hide
What i don't like on the outside

Starlight, starbright first star i see tonight
I wish i may, i wish i might have the wish
I wish tonight the birthday girl
A broken heart you name the drama
She played the part long lost demons leave her godless
Like her powder leaves her flawless
Sugar coated heart shaped pout lipstick
Just distorts her mouth
Mascara puts her eyes asleep
Cause beauty is only skin deep

Starlight, starbright first star i see tonight
I wish i may, i wish i might have the wish
I wish tonight

Bitch du jour served on a platter
She's so pretty but does it matter
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
But nobody told her
Mirror mirror on the wall
Watch her break and watch her fall
Stitch her smile bruise her knees
Walk among the enemies

Starlight, starbright first star i see tonight
I wish i may, i wish i might have the wish
I wish tonight

Blest am i among women
To live and love in such a beautiful temple
Blest am i among women.


16. SYCOPHANT

One two freddy's commin' for you
Three four better lock your door
Five six grab your crucifix...
Something wicked this way comes
Premeditated evil numbs
Cartoon kids crayola smiles
Children of the korn fed styles
But i don't buy your lies
I see through your disguise
Don't feel your screams or cries why? .....

I'm sick of looking so sick i can't,
I'm sick of the sycophant,
Sick of listening so sick i can't,
I'm sick of the sycophant.

I see you brethless and deranged
A little girl who's acting strange
Tryna scare us with your scream
But it's all routine
And all you do is take steal
And imitate you are what you create
You're fake!...

I barely recognise...
You in your new disguise
Cosmetic covered eyes
Just tell me why? Why? Why? Why?
You put the make-up on,
You take the make-up off
Searching to be found
But you're so fuckin' lost....

Now the road to hell is paved with stones
And some of those are fakes and clones
Counterfeits which suck and bleed us
Wearin' fuckin' adidas but something aint just right,
No substance only hype
With faith you got the life that made you
Rich and a punk ass bitch!....

Sick of you and anyone like you,
Sometimes i think i've lost my mind...
Or else this whole world's blind!


17. EPILOGUE

The band hit the chords harder than any musicians he'd ever heard. Rammed pure rage into each tune twisting the melody into a squealing mutant voice, banging the numbingly repetitious rhythms home with savage fury, playing each number so loud that with the help of huge amplifiers they rattled the filthy windows and almost made his eyes bleed


18. BEWARE OF GOD

God wants to heal cancer
Christians are commanded alcohol is good
Evasion of crutches you partake of the dust of the ground
I know some of you are frightened about it
We can go to church and you are naked
And over the foul of the air and fire
Of course people said they're drunk
And this my friend is my prayer for