1. LIMITS OF MYSELF

At the median of pride and charity
In my mind a storm of despondence and anguish
At the breaking point of hope and clarity
Nothing left to lose, now the lie is extinguished

Warm breath on my ear, I hear you whisper the answers
To the questions never asked as blue turns to amber
Darkening the sky I feel you call me to slumber
Calling as the sweetest ocean draws me under

My shattered hope serves now to show the way
Beholding power I had forsaken
Where every drop of blood lost is reclaimed
Burning through the limits of myself

Their cunning whispers fueled my self-deception
Tempting me to don the mask of weakness
My cage destroyed, they’ll pay me back for every word
Preached in their crusade to conquer all I am

My shattered hope serves now to show the way
Beholding power I had forsaken
Where every drop of blood lost is reclaimed
Burning through the limits of myself


2. AS YOU FALL

In this cold duality, a helix of pain
Mired in condemning comfort
Scorned, yet exalted

Bury me, hate me, spurn me, break me
Carry me, sate me, burn me, take me
Follow me, sink into my darkness
Hollowing, leaving just your carcass

Cutting your ties to morality
Beg to rise above your crimes
Sever your feet so that you won’t stand
On the ground your sins have rotted
Cursing my name, you go to your graves
Trapped inside the demon’s web
Gouge out your eyes so that you won’t see
All my ghosts that bring you to your end

Fear the shadows of my pain
The beast with you in your bed
Hear the lying voice that whispers truth
You’re already dead
Drown in frigid waters
No more shelter to run and hide
Suffer in the deepest way
Submit as you rot inside

Cutting your ties to morality
Beg to rise above your crimes
Sever your feet so that you won’t stand
On the ground your sins have rotted
Cursing my name, you go to your graves
Trapped inside the demon’s web
Gouge out your eyes so that you won’t see
All my ghosts that bring you to your end

Yadid Lilith, Shamem Almah
Lela Qedeshah, Ani Shebach
Qadash Beram, Iqqesh Nephesh
Tamim Toebah, Chabal Oyeb

Eternal Truth, victim turned immortal
Gave up your life when you crossed my path
Infernal fangs tear apart your spirit
Now we consign, as I rise, you fall

Cutting your ties to morality
Beg to rise above your crimes
Sever your feet so that you won’t stand
On the ground your sins have rotted
Cursing my name, you go to your graves
Trapped inside the demon’s web
Gouge out your eyes so that you won’t see
All my ghosts that bring you to your end


3. FOR THE BLIND

Every day, contempt is growing
Putrefaction of the honest mind
What’s written supersedes what’s right
Congregation of enablers
Justify your flaws and numb your shame
Wondering why all you have is pain

I call to you, Poison Blade That Wields Itself
Twelve-Winged Angel
Venom of Hell
Shells that smother holiness, impugning the lies
Slaughter their blindness
Open their eyes

It’s a choice you make to fill your life with travesty
It’s a choice you make to waste away in slavery
It’s a choice you make to wait for something that won’t come
Please just learn how to see

It’s a choice you make to fill your life with travesty
It’s a choice you make to waste away in slavery
It’s a choice you make to wait for something that won’t come
Please just learn how to see

Words and will, thought becomes creation
Set your wisdom free from its bondage
Unchain passion, release desire
Let your sorrows go
Wake from numbness

It’s a choice you make to fill your life with travesty
It’s a choice you make to waste away in slavery
It’s a choice you make to wait for something that won’t come
Please just learn how to see


4. THE BRIDGES YOU BURN

Trespass the fortress inside of my mind
All that you care for will be left behind
This is my vengeance, my bliss and my thrall
You sought to gain, now you’re losing it all

Feed me your feeble disdain, your fear and hatred
Give me the rush of the bridges you burn
Kindle the flames with your dreams and your potential
Immolate all that you could have achieved

Erudite knowledge, the absinthe and line
Kiss of the sylph, whispered words anodyne
Blood-darkened roses flushed mauve, opiate
Tanin Steed rising and conquering fate

Feed me your feeble disdain, your fear and hatred
Give me the rush of the bridges you burn
Kindle the flames with your dreams and your potential
Immolate all that you could have achieved


5. CHOKE ON THE SMOG

Look at the shattered glass
Gaze into the mirror
See your twisted face
Your sunken hollow eyes
The grinding of the gears
Is the only music
Your dead ears can hear
On and on you drudge

Serve your masters
Here forever
Drain your color
Feed their hunger

Choke on the smog
It sustains you
Eighth world wonder mass produced
Stand on the line
Deep in their hive
Work ’til your hands bleed black with oil
You’re a machine
Input output
Lament regrets until you rust
Slave for their dream
Claim your reward
Willingly wasting all you have

I call forth the strength of all I am
Words forgotten echo through the ether
Who are you to tell me I am damned?
My body only burns because my mind is free

Choke on the smog
It sustains you
Eighth world wonder mass produced
Stand on the line
Deep in their hive
Work ’til your hands bleed black with oil
You’re a machine
Input output
Lament regrets until you rust
Slave for their dream
Claim your reward
Willingly wasting all you have

Toil at the forge, earn a cage
Plate it with gold, hide your pain
Stare through the bars at your life
Living and dying inside
Nothing conceals your decay
Your mask has rotted away

Choke on the smog
It sustains you
Eighth world wonder mass produced
Stand on the line
Deep in their hive
Work ’til your hands bleed black with oil
You’re a machine
Input output
Lament regrets until you rust
Slave for their dream
Claim your reward
Willingly wasting all you have


6. THEURGY

I wake to another day
The cycle begins again
Can’t leave, but don’t want to stay
Trapped in my discontent

The cold gray winter sky mocks my waning smile

Is it illusion, this thing I reach to find?
The empty shells of grand design
‘Till void is substance, and what I lack is mine
What can I do but fight to remain?

I wade through another night
The fears that deny me sleep
I’ve lost every hope to fight
To someday reclaim my peace

The cold gray winter sky mocks my waning smile

Is it illusion, this thing I reach to find?
The empty shells of grand design
‘Till void is substance, and what I lack is mine
What can I do but fight to remain?

Torn between motion and stagnant surrender
Languishing under the chains of this conflict
Sheltering the dying flame of my resolve
Any cost to keep alive these dim embers
All I have, all that I am, I would forfeit
All I want, all that I seek is to burn these chains away

Is it illusion, this thing I reach to find?
The empty shells of grand design
‘Till void is substance, and what I lack is mine
What can I do but fight to remain?


7. TO BE GONE

Here I stand holding in a bleeding heart
Here I stand watching vision turn to dark
How my eyes long to close, and yet
Here I stand waging war inside myself
Here I stand fighting to resign myself
All it takes is one single step

What force keeps me fighting what I’ve always wanted?
Why can’t I just let it go?
Why can’t I just let it end?
What do I keep holding onto?

Here I stand wanting only to be gone
Here I stand caring not for anyone
How I long to depart, and yet
Here I stand clinging tighter to it all
Here I stand, though I only wish to fall
All it takes is one final breath

What force keeps me fighting what I’ve always wanted?
Why can’t I just let it go?
Why can’t I just let it end?
What do I keep holding onto?


8. ARDOR OF THE FLOOD

​Once upon a risen moon
I watched the shadows dance enthralled by its light
I let sorrow turn to rage
Familiar anger moist and sweet on my lips

Oh words, grant me release
Tears stain a map on blank pages

Diving into the core
Through the door to deepest comfort
The deluge washing away all but this
The bliss of the rain
The ardor of the flood
The passion that pours from the depths

Pure heart hardened and refined
Rising Leviathan, chaotic swell

Crawl for my lash and my hate
The opium of my favor

Diving into the core
Through the door to deepest comfort
The deluge washing away all but this
The bliss of the rain
The ardor of the flood
The passion that pours from the depths


9. THE UNHEARD WARNING

Look again
And question what you’ve been told
Don’t sink in blind acceptance
Leave the cage
And cure yourself of disease
The cancer of consensus

Zarach Sitra Ahra
Mashal Samael
Ani Shebach Lilith
Yadid Qedeshah

Listen, hear the unheard warning
Learn to shed your weakness
Rescind failure
Take control and build a new creation

Test their words
Read between the broken lines
Find reflected wisdom
In the glass
Inverting what they call the truth
The serpent offers freedom

Anachnu Yaal Qliphoth
Qanah Geburah
Zarach Tanin’iver
Akal Tenuah

Listen, hear the unheard warning
Learn to shed your weakness
Rescind failure
Take control and build a new creation

Thought and will, words to creation
Bringing substance to the void

I turn sorrow to rage
Anger sweet on my lips

Once a victim, now immortal
As I rise, you sink and fall

Let me bask in the rush
Of the bridges you burn

The questions are answered as the day turns to night
The blue turns to amber as the blind reclaim sight
The mass-produced wonder burning down to the ground
The chains fall away, the fire no longer bound

Plucking the Edenfruit growing in the shadow of paradise
Where no light shines to blind my eyes
Found in night’s embrace
The key to all

Ascend
Nehemoth to Thamiel
Through every trial empowered
With every foe devoured
Claiming the throne of my own life

Here I stand alone
Bruised yet breathing
Bleeding yet alive
In pain yet whole
Sorrow turns to rage
Regret to vengeance
Learning how to love by learning to hate

Here I stand awake
Eyes unblinded
Seeing through the smog and past the shame
Letting go of all but my potential
The ardor of the flood cleansing the scars and leaving only what I am


10. COMPREHENSION

I send out my cries
To the other side where sinful passion reigns
How I long to fly
Past the gates revealing holy as profane

Bring me to life
Open my eyes to the truth and the hidden wisdom
Please teach me how to hear you

Immaculate Whore
Ravaged Priestess
See how desperately I call
Lead me to the shore
Baptized in the ocean of your loving thrall

Bring me to life
Open my eyes to the truth and the hidden wisdom
Please teach me how to hear you
Consume my heart
Burn all I am, everything that I call my own
What more is left to offer?

Louder than His screams, Her laughter
At the laws that they built from His corpse
In the end they all will suffer
Never tasting the fruit of Her words:

“What benevolent creator sculpts a thing as flawed as this world?
Rules by abuse and fear?
Damnation truly is the ignorance of all the fire held deep within
The blissful flame that brands you as God

A world sculpted to hide the light within
Hopeless deception
Inverted Truth
Every commandment, enslavement of your core
The lie of scripture
The loss of self

What perfected loving father tortures all his children with death?
Exalts their martyrdom and sorrow?
Every generation prays that theirs will see the world as it burns
Such as the evil they see as good.”

Now I’ve found every answer
I’ve read this language of truth breeding lies
There’s but one true transgression
Inversion of the profane and divine
With my heart now enlightened
The sinful sacrament brings me to life
Sacrificing repression
And casting off my acceptance of hopelessness

Bring me to life
Open my eyes to the truth and the hidden wisdom
Please teach me how to hear you
Consume my heart
Burn all I am, everything that I call my own
What more is left to offer?

My shattered hope serves now to show the way
Where every drop of blood lost is reclaimed