1. INTERNAL PRIMATES FOREVER

Cop provisions feed my addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes and they crawled in,
Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget,
They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need,
My invisible enemies all my monkeys

Their coming they're coming their coming
They're coming to take me away.

Disgusted with my position so submissive
I am the only way we get
Away is give in sharpen up the razors stab
The needles into pipes to
Kill cravings so sick of this in me
Can't stand the want to need
Can't get free always got a grip on me

There's no use to fight this wrenching
Tourniquet of deprivation
Obedience subservience leads to substance

Do you want more give it to me

Leave my motivation to chemical
Dependency no room for patience
Don't want it need it come on right now

Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be

Every time I try to run away
I fall on my face they drag me back
Every time I try to run away I fall on my face

Help! They won't leave me alone

If I would have known back then what
I know now I 'd take it back
If I would have known back then what
I know now I 'd take it back,
I'd take it back I'd take it all fuckin' back

Stay away stay away
Hold me I'm shaking violently
Pull me out of my covering
Mold me into a new man
Lull me into a deep sleep

There's no use to fight this wrenching
Tourniquet of deprivation
obedience subservience leads to substance

Even if you want you can't stop

Internal primates forever


2. -1

Losses, losers and more,
Gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen
Behind the doors to a life meaningless less than
0 in me all my walls
Falling down pains aloft misery
I'm sure that the lessons were learned
I'm sure that the punishments
Went well deserved by the pawn in the plan
Taste of shit bitterness
Walk from me everything systematically

Come on you were the one you were the one,
To dredge up shit inside of me in
My pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live

Patience, pleasures and rewards,
Come in due time stare at the sun
I'm bored in a life meaningless soaking up
All of me like the cross
You worship life is loss look at me
I'm sure that some day we'll wake
Up I'm sure that some day we'll wake from the dream
Of success and focus...
Tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of
Me your taunting I wake up

Come on you were the one you were the one,
To dredge up shit inside of me in
My pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Tell me nOW!
Tell me nOW!

Pain misery distress dismal know
Where depressed idiot failure
In me...calling...loser...man I'm the
Loser...loser.....loser...in me...who I am...in me...

Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Don't need your sympathy or empathy,
Don't need your sympathy inside of me,
Don't need your sympathy or empathy,
Don't need your sympathy inside of me,
Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me

Come on
I know you were the one you were the one
Numb to feelings inside of me why I've seized my vision
Don't need you to tell me who to be
Don't need you to tell me what to be
Don't need you to tell me how to ascend
Don't need you to tell me how to live


3. SILENCED

Sticker this, censor this, ban this
We've got something to say
Police this, condemn this, damn this
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm
Silenced

Listen here

Is it a possibility?
That we are all just equal
Slam the power down
Abusing
Does it piss you off to be beat at your own game?
You lead us with false morals and shelter reality

No more...We're not buying your product when
Your selling
The words preaching silence

Insult me in my home
When you were never invited
To live life on your curve
Frustrating
Throw sticks into the spokes
To relieve insecurities
Stifle all ascension and sticker our freedom of speech

Sticker this, censor this, ban this
We've got something to say
Police this, condemn this, damn this
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm
Silenced
Silenced

Don't tell me what I want
Don't tell me what I need
Don't tell me how I need to feel
I feel, Goddamn nothing
Dig the eyes out of my face and I can still see right
Fucking through you
Fuck you and everything you are
I'm me, we're us and thats all
Closed mind with a forum to criticize
Keep your policy and I've got mine
Exploit me, fabricate your lies
We empower these cowards just to be left in
Silence

Listen here

Stand on my soapbox
And speak my own peace
Whatever you may think
It's real
Prevail through what is me
And step on your beliefs
Thieving spineless sellouts
Robbing our integrity

Bring it on!

Sticker this, censor this, ban this
We've got something to say
Police this, condemn this, damn this
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm


4. A WORLD SO COLD

When passion's lost
And all the trust is gone
For way too far
For way too long
Children crying
Cast out and neglected
Only in a world so cold
Only in a world this cold
Hold the hand of your best friend
Look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say
We've done the wrong things
For way too long
For way too long

Fever inside the storm
So we're turning away
Away from the game
Away from the storm
It's like through mending the worlds of us
Keep your thorn
Cuz I'm running away
Away from the games
Away from the space
The circumstances of a world so cold

Burning whispers
Remind me of the days
I was left alone
In a world this cold
Guilty of the same things
Reveled by the cause
I've left alone in a world so cold

Fever inside the storm
So we're turning away
Away from the game
Away from the storm
Its like through mending the worlds of us
Keep your thorns
Cuz I'm running away
Away from the games
Away from space
The circumstances of a world so cold
I'm flying
I'm flying away
Away from the games
Away from the flames
The circumstances of a world so COLD

Why does everyone feel like my enemy
Don't want any part of depressional darkness
I've had enough, sick and tired
Bring the sun or I'm gone
Or I'm gone, I'm packing out,
I'm no more no motherfuckin' shit
Never lied, never loved, never lived, never lost
Never hurt never worried about being afraid
Of anyone else, not a care, no concern,
Don't give a shit about anything
Packing out, giving up, no motherfuckin' shit never lived
Never lied, never lived, never lived, never loved
Never loved, never hate never worried about being afraid
Of anyone else, not a care,
No concern, don't give a shit about anything
I need to find a darkened corner
A darkened corner, A blackless corner
Where its safer and calmer
I'm drowning away, away from the game away from flame
Cause I feel mending the worlds of us
I'm running away, away from the game away from this space
Of circumstances of a world so cold
I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the game away from the game
Of circumstances of a world so cold.


5. CRADLE

Breathe...
Push...
...I lost you, you were my god thought what do I do now
You were never there for me never there to carry me,
26 years looking back that time is gone it was you
I believed in look
What you've done to me realize what you've done to

Me

I can't see going on in this darkness
I'm blind beneath my cradle the
Bough has broke, I exorcise my loss your lie the punishment

It takes time to try to mend the wounds
Of all the suffering,
What do I do now all I'm asking from
You please send me a sign to
Guide me through the times that lie
In front of me I'll get by myself

Look at me now, a piece of shit like you.
Look at me now, you left me so fuck you.

Everybody leaves me, everybody's gone.
Watch my father leave me, there's nobody left.
Feels like I've never been loved.
Everybody leaves me, never gave a shit about me.
Everybody's gone, I'll rot in my head alone.
I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away .

Fake being, inside of my heart you are the liar.
Innocence displaced.
Been left.

Here I stand now and I'm alone,
With no one to comfort me.
One set of footprints in the sand.
No one to take my hand, I'll .
I'll walk through as long as I need.
I'll drift through my life though I'm alone.
Outgrown the cradle that once housed me
And I've found that all I need is
Me.

Found I've never needed you to push through
All the shit that stacks up inside of my life.
Endless plight that circulates through my body.
I'll keep stumbling, beating, pummeling
Teething on the rind and renounce my being.

I can't see going on.

I can't see
I'm so tired, of trying to mend
The wounds of all my suffering
What do I do now?
All I'm asking from you please,
Send me a sign
To guide me through the times that lie in front of me.
I'll get by myself

I can't see going on fuck it.


6. DIG

I would love to beat the face,
Of any mother fucker that's thinkin' they can change me,
White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold,
If you're wantin' a piece of me
I broke the mother fuckin' mold,
I'm drowning in your wake
Shit rubbed in my face
Teething on concrete
Gums bleeding

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing

I struggle in violated space,
Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me,
Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight,
I ain't sellin' my soul when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
Fuck you while you try
To fuck me

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was you ain't fuckin' changing me

Let me help you tie the rope around your neck,
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck,
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold the glock up to your head,
Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank fuck

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
Wish you were committing
Suicide suckin' on a mother fuckin' tailpipe
Dead man dangling from a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of a channel bob away