_1. Apnea
take a long deep breath and keep it 'till your soul springs out
let's see if your body misses it or not
lurching and leaking and pulling my teeth out fixing my new mask on
shall not I walk without
cry if you want more if you want more
of this rotten blood
abusing rituals and deeper words again and again
abstraction can heal obsession or even a cancer more than action
shall not you walk without

lie while you grow old while you grow old
to preserve your soul from spilling blood
just let it roam

not to breathe to retrieve a life
what else left here to try?
you raze the stray pervert the stream
as your voice is getting lame
you know the pain you know its grin you know the pain
wash away all the stains


wasting all my time gasping for a new life
i'm lost

verification of the psychological isolation demystified
extending the domain of fight

realize the perfect deformity
time devourers drying out the dust



2. Learn To Die Slowly
slow motion in choices in legs in voices
who speak as distant lighthouses
rust crawls on nails through your throat
'till breathing in becomes vomit the self
venom itself
this is atonement for a guilt i've
never been given a way out
and even drunk not do i find a way to mitigate
my blood ablaze all over the body
obdurate it roars through my brains
so love has been created to burn
and hate is a tool
this is atonement for a guilt i've
never been given a way out
blames i can't evade

something i gained or something i lost
why do razors have to be pressed in that close?
someone i lost or someone i left
fixing my body while my soul in two i cleft
keeping me from killing you
keeping me from killing me
corrupted we've been corrupted
buried under astounding detachment
i was never given a way out

when did we become so degraded?
when did we begin to ignore each other?
when did we become so polluted?
this is atonement for a guilt i've
never been given a way out
i was never given a way out
of this life
corrupted



3. SenseSeedSex
now try to forget my face my pale and bleeding eyes
now it's time to find a face a trace a pace to get away from here
am i so unfitting to live a life?
who's behind the curtains laughing at my cries?
waited this single second for so many eons
time of death and rebirth
how did i get stuck inside this airtight can again?
low i have to step outside to force an end get lost in the sand
no evidence nowhere of the fact i'm still living
still breathing
just try to feel what i bled and all hope is gone
spring of hate and despair

what i miss is not mine
touch it feel it lick it hate it
is it my face or not is it my pace or not?
sometimes i feel so inhuman
a grovel of flesh


depression collapsed on my ego
harvesting a cruel cynic mindscape
i was just seeking a light
i was just seeking a light inside


i lick acid dripping from time's iris
inoculating my dark places
is it my pace or not?

keep you fucking hands off
keep you fucking hands off
me



4. TraumaturGod
kanzenna kikei no shimo wo nozoku no tame
imagoro wa mô jikan ga tarinaku natta
shippai shita ore yukkuri kie kakatte iru moesashi
yami ni umare yami ni kaeru

forewarned is forearmed with frustration
nurses us back to our healthy despair
desperate distortion of the paradox
paradoxical lingering of self-lessness
why should i?
i just survived
nursing me back to my reality
desperate distortion of the paradox
constantly over the rim
of vanishing i dwell
is it a sort of device to heal or to hurt?
to heal or to hurt? to live or to die?


we linger on


my first love gesture was to burn every dream
stamp them out from my perverse stream
but when i sleep i see an awful eye
forever watching me making a fool of me


forewarned is forearmed with frustration
nurses us back to our healthy despair
desperate distortion of the paradox
paradoxical lingering of self-lessness
my first love gesture was to burn
to burn



5. Days Of The Mangler
watashi no yume minna wo koroshita
watashi no inochi no haruka wo koroshita
watashi no kokoro wo koroshita
watashi no irare wo koroshita
zenbu koroshita
nande
nande



6. Kurokiroku
now try to forget my face my pale and bleeding eyes
now it's time to find a face a trace a pace to get away from here
am i so unfitting to live a life?
who's behind the curtains laughing at my cries?
waited this single second for so many eons
time of death and rebirth
how did i get stuck inside this airtight can again?
low i have to step outside to force an end get lost in the sand
no evidence nowhere of the fact i'm still living
still breathing
just try to feel what i bled and all hope is gone
spring of hate and despair

what i miss is not minetouch it feel it lick it hate it
is it my face or not is it my pace or not?
sometimes i feel so inhuman
a grovel of flesh


depression collapsed on my ego
harvesting a cruel cynic mindscape
i was just seeking a light
i was just seeking a light inside


i lick acid dripping from time's iris
inoculating my dark places
is it my pace or not?


keep you fucking hands off
keep you fucking hands off
me



7. Slow Shadows
as i stay still my body ill
wishes for healing

yesterday choked
and time will drown another night
inside the pool of sleepless nights
falling into shapeless daylight
i redefine the enemy
subtle cruel inside of me
of what we cannot speak
of this reality ready for a mutiny
of our disconsolate paralyzed insanity
somewhere you'll hide
from the meaningless outside
and the void that's yet to come
disintegration of the flesh
obliteration of the ash
within your burning interface
blood
and time will drown another night
inside the pool of sleepless nights
falling into shapeless daylight


the wall is clean no doors are drawn
the cycle spins on and on
someday you'll lie
to the enemy inside
and all the feelings gone blind
disintegration of the flesh
obliteration of the ash
within your burning interface
burst


i redefine the enemy



8. Reverse Vortex
light betrayed me and i drowned in the heart of time
recollecting eyes collapsed and days elapsing
mind-diluting hunger for pale skin
microscopical crossfading of breaths

gathering of illusion decomposing
bunkai shite iru genkaku
dripping fingers in the cold infinity
bunkai shite iru genkaku
shikiken no mannaka ni nai shukketsu
where so many plagues grin


slow words fake pulse locked within the swallowed key
i do remember well last time i wept alone
cold worms creeping in and out my grinding bonesreverse vortex in the flesh light burns


gathering of illusion decomposing
bunkai shite iru genkaku
dripping fingers in the cold infinity
bunkai shite iru genkaku
shikiken no mannaka ni nai shukketsu
where so many plagues grin


somewhere between balance
and the rim of our bewildered feelings
unreliable although they nail us to the ground
as caught in a web
cold and intricate


cold and intricate
cold and intricate




9. Breed To Breathe
Napalm Death



10. NQNL
nosebleed quicksand neural lure

what if placed in empty time
without a sound i started to cry
would you recognize my eyes?
bent on themselves, sores
nosedive quiver quagmire
cast within
fallen river free ride
stop the stream

again i feel i have no feelings
no feelings left
and time keeps digging holes in me
deep inside, coarse
neutral liver laughter
slow eclipse
painless fever practice
cut the cranks


soothing nail-biting creaks
unfinished septic diaries
here's lust relapse


humiliation is real because i choose to suffer
not fully aware because i'm disfigured
to complain not to create
to rebel not to rebuild


ten years you fell down
how i wish you were still burning
but you fell down without a sound
you just sank down to soak us out
how i wish you were still burning