1. BLOOD AND WATER

I used to think that I deserved this
Tried my best but never perfect
I was helpless and you knew it
You like to think you’re a martyr but you’re just abusive
So now I’m not afraid to admit that there’s nothing left
I know you’ll try to manipulate me again
But I’ve come to grips with the fact that what’s dead is dead
What’s dead is dead. What’s dead is dead

I bet that this is what you wanted
I can’t believe you got the best of me again
I thought that you were being honest
And now I wish I would have never let you in
Ya I know it’s my fault
I love deep, then lose it all
I guess I wanted to believe it
But blood’s not thicker than water after all

All the years spent with a vermin
Left me soul sick, always searching
I learned that trust is rarely worth it
You can’t believe what you hear from the mouth of a serpent
What’s dead is dead. What’s dead is dead. What’s dead is dead

I bet that this is what you wanted
I can’t believe you got the best of me again
I thought that you were being honest
And now I wish I would have never let you in
Ya I know it’s my fault
I love deep, then lose it all
I guess I wanted to believe it
But blood’s not thicker than water after all

You fooled me once, twice, never again
This is cut ties, no goodbye, nail in the coffin
This is the nail in the coffin
Never Again

I bet that this is what you wanted
I can’t believe you got the best of me again
I thought that you were being honest
You were never being honest

I bet that this is what you wanted
I can’t believe you got the best of me again
I thought that you were being honest
And now I wish I would have never let you in
Ya I know it’s my fault
I love deep, then lose it all
I guess I wanted to believe it
But blood’s not thicker than water after all


2. BLEED MY DRY

If I’ve learned anything
It’s that everybody’s fake
No one means what they say
Just pick a side for heaven's sake
Ya ya you hate me
Go on & blame me
I know in your eyes I could never get it right

You want me dead but I’m alive
Cause I will never lose
What you could never find
I won’t forget but I’ll survive
Cause this is the last time
I let you bleed me dry

Criticize my every move
But I’m here to set the record straight
You wouldn’t last a day in my shoes
And taking cheap shots doesn’t make you brave
So, say you hate me
Go on & blame me
When push comes to shove and bend comes to break
Nothin you say matters anyway

You want me dead but I’m alive
Cause I will never lose
I won’t forget but I’ll survive
Cause this is the last time
I let you bleed me dry

I’ve seen life that turned into dust
Cause Parasites are not meant to trust
So, when the leech comes back for blood
I’ve got no choice but to cut cut cut
Cut, cut you out

You want me dead but I’m alive
I won’t forget but I’ll survive

You want me dead but I’m alive
Cause I will never lose
What you could never find
I won’t forget but I’ll survive
Cause this is the last time
I let you bleed me dry


3. SOMEBODY

I’ve been headed to the bottom of the barrel for a while now
I think I need a slowdown
I’ve been blaming everybody but myself & yet somehow
I feel the weight deep down
Ya you know me
Making friends with all my demons, never lonely
Self-destructive and I know it
But it's only a matter of time before I’m out my mind
I think I need a lifeline

I don’t know when I became somebody
Somebody I don’t recognize
I swear to God I never saw this coming
I never thought I’d leave it all behind
I want it, don’t need it
I had to realize
I hate it, I feed it
Believed my own lies
I really think that I could use somebody
Somebody to bring me back to life

Sometimes it comes in waves
And hits me out of nowhere like a hurricane
Feels like I’m going insane
I don’t wanna be a problem
But my self-control’s a losing game
When the venom’s in my veins
Ya you know me
Makin friends with all my demons, never lonely
Self-destructive and I know it but its only
a matter of time before I’m out my mind
I wish that I could rewind

I don’t know when I became somebody
Somebody I don’t recognize
I swear to God I never saw this coming
I never thought I’d leave it all behind
I want it, don’t need it
I had to realize
I hate it, I feed it
Believed my own lies
I really think that I could use somebody
Somebody to bring me back to life

Ya you know me
Makin friends with all my demons, never lonely
Self-destructive and I know it but its only
a matter of time
before it’s flatlined vital signs
Can I be revived?
Can I be revived?


4. DEATH INSIDE

My mind is racing
Everything’s changing
All these voices telling me that I should embrace it
Never seen its eyes, I don’t think I can face it
Oh it’s getting’ closer now
I can’t fake it
I fear what I’ve wasted
Days gone by like erasing the pages
Pain so real that I think I can taste it
It’s getting, it’s getting closer now

I see the hourglass flipped upside down
Tell me what is the meaning if I’m barely breathing when the clock runs out

I fight the feeling that’s been growing underneath
I can’t deny that this is death inside of me
Will I give up & never reach the end?
Get Lost inside of my own head
My demons feed on what is yet to be
Death inside of me

My heart is pounding
fear is surrounding
Don't wanna take for granted everyone that’s around me
But if I let them in, is it my fault when they drown me?
Oh I see the end in sight
I need grounding
A break from the doubting
Cuz I can’t help but think they might better without me
I wonder when I’m gone what
they’ll be saying about me
I see it, I see the end in sight

And there’s the hourglass
Flipped upside down.
Tell me what is the meaning
If I’m barely breathing when the clock runs out

I fight the feeling that’s been growing underneath
I can’t deny that this is death inside of me
Will I give up & never reach the end?
Get Lost inside of my own head
My demons feed on what is yet to be
Death inside of me

Six feet deep in a pinewood box
Cause we got no say when the reaper talks
GO
When the reaper talks

I can’t deny that this is
Death inside of Me


5. THE AMERICAN DREAM

I wouldn’t call this a victory
We pick sides & fight because we can’t agree to disagree
You never wanna listen you just speak
Light a match to the bridge but there’s no difference between you & me
Show Your Teeth
Try to cover up your insecurity underneath
But throwing salt in the wound won’t stop the bleed

I don’t know who I can trust anymore
I need a “he said” “she said” reset
Give me truth, give me something to believe in
Sometimes I feel like we’re asking for more
We live for the war, but we don’t know what we’re dying for

We live & die in desire of our pride
Look away from corruption cause what’s out of spite & out of mind
Show Your Teeth
Try to cover up your insecurity underneath
But this is not what it means to be free

I don’t know who I can trust anymore
I need a “he said” “she said” reset
Give me truth, give me something to believe in
Sometimes I feel like we’re asking for more
We live for the war, but we don’t know what we’re dying for

Vulture’s circle in the land of the free
The American dream is tearing at the seams
The American dream is never what it seems

I don’t know who I can trust anymore
I need a “he said” “she said” reset
Give me truth, give me something to believe in
Sometimes I feel like we’re asking for more
We live for the war, but we don’t know what we’re dying for


6. YOUR TURN

What goes around comes around
that’s how the world turns
You’ll get what’s coming to you
Then maybe you’ll learn
The price that you pay
For being two faced
Is sleeping in the bed that you made

Did you think that it would never catch
up to you?
Speaking out like we would never come to see the truth
The things that you do
The lies you can’t prove
The problem is you
The problem is you
You point the finger, but the problem is you

What goes around comes around
that’s how the world turns
You’ll get what’s coming to you
Then maybe you’ll learn
The price that you pay
For being two faced
Is sleeping in the bed that you made
What goes around comes around and now it’s your turn

Walk around like you’re the only one you answer to
It’s all a game until your throne is in an empty room
There’s no one around
The show’s over now
So go take your bow
Take your bow

What goes around comes around
that’s how the world turns
You’ll get what’s coming to you
Then maybe you’ll learn
The price that you pay
For being two faced
Is sleeping in the bed that you made
What goes around comes around and now it’s your turn

Feel the judgement you passed
The loved ones put last
You can’t hide 2 faces behind a mask

Now they can see behind your mask
Two Faced


7. MAKE BELIEVE

It’s not same as it used to be
And I’m afraid it’s pointing back at me
I have to question what I still believe
I just hope I find the missing piece
Feels like every day’s the same
Chemicals inside my brain
Make me think I’m in a simulation
Nothing ever seems to change
And it’s written on my face
Am I living in my own creation?

Am I alive or am I just breathing?
I’m so numb that sometimes I fear it’s all make-believe
Is it make-believe?
I’ve been lost looking for a reason to
To carry on but I’m losing hope
Is this all a dream
Tell me is it make-believe

I’m not the same as I used to be
I think I’m haunted by the things I’ve seen
Is anybody else the same as me
Is anybody else the same as me
Feels like every day’s the same

Chemicals inside my brain
Make me think I’m in a simulation
Nothing ever seems to change
And it’s written on my face
Am I headed for my own damnation?

Am I alive or am I just breathing?
I’m so numb that sometimes I fear it’s all make-believe
Is it make-believe?
I’ve been lost looking for a reason to
To carry on but I’m losing hope
Is this all a dream
Tell me is it make-believe

Am I glitching in & out again?
When the game is over will I see the end
Maybe they just forgot to plug in me
The screen is black & now
I’m seeing red
Now I’m seeing red
When the game is over will I see the end

Am I alive or am I just breathing?
I’m so numb that sometimes I fear it’s all make-believe
Is it make-believe?
I’ve been lost looking for a reason to
To carry on but I’m losing hope
Is this all a dream
Tell me is it make-believe


8. MISERY

I feel it coming like it’s looking for some violence
Try to speak but it’s saying to be silent
I grab the bottle hoping I can make it quiet
But they get louder every time I try to hide it
Nothing left to lose at rock bottom
wounds turned to scars yeah, I got em
And I’ve come to learn you gotta let it burn
If you’re gonna be forged in the fire

I try to take the pain away
And nothing seems to change
But when I go through hell
That’s when I know myself
And all the lies that I believe
Are diggin me a grave
But when I go through hell
That’s where I find myself
Remade in misery

Found myself in the dark with blurry vision
The walls turned to bars it was a prison
Could have found my way out if I’d have listened
I had to die to find what I’d been missing
Nothing left to lose at rock bottom
Wounds turned to scars yeah, I got em
And I’ve come to learn you gotta let it burn
If you’re gonna be forged in the fire

I tried to take the pain away
But it kept chasing me
It’s never gonna leave

I try to take the pain away
And nothing seems to change
But when I go through hell
That’s when I know myself
And all the lies that I believe
Are diggin me a grave
But when I go through hell
That’s where I find myself
Remade in misery

It’s easier to say I hate it
Than to admit that I create it
I’m done running, I’m done running, I’m done running I can’t escape it


9. LEFT FOR DEAD

Always knew that love was blind
But much to my surprise
The veil over my eyes was all a Lie
I can see now looking back
The water in the cracks
I’m sinking into black
It was all a lie
I Caught every stone you’d throw
You kept me feelin' low
There’s nowhere left to go
Now I see the lies

All the signs I missed
Led me straight to this
Everything I ever wanted but you don’t exist
Now I can’t forget all that I regret
You pulled in, pushed me out
Now I’m left for dead

When all is said & done
I know you’re not the one
And everything inside of me was sayin I should run
You could take my breath away
With your pleasure & your pain
But you can never take back
The fact you can’t back the things you say

All the signs I missed
Led me straight to this
Everything I ever wanted but you don’t exist
Now I can’t forget all that I regret
You pulled in, pushed me out
Now I’m left for dead

I feel so sorry for the next one in line
They’ll never know that you’re a skeleton without a spine
No Spine

All the signs I missed
Led me straight to this

All the signs I missed
Led me straight to this
Everything I ever wanted but you don’t exist
Now I can’t forget all that I regret
You pulled in, pushed me out
Now I’m left for dead


10. ONLY WOMAN (ft AJ Channer of Fire From The Gods)

Here you go lying again
Thinking you’re perfect
That you’re holier than thou again
Like you don't make mistakes
But aren't we just human?
You see my halo nah
Cause use I'm just like you man
I'm just you man
I talk my talk I walk my walk
And I could fall but I stand tall
I could be knocked down come back and burn them all
What you think, I'm supposed to fit this perfect reality
Of this picture that you made up in your mind about me
I’m not perfect like you
So if you think that you could do better why don’t you
Look in the mirror if you’ve got something to prove

I know you wish that I was different
I’ll never fit inside the mold you created
You’ll never know what I’ve been up against
I’m not another one of your fabrications
Your innocence is ignorance
We’re all the same but you blame like you’re sacred
I know you wish that I was different
But I’m only human

Try to murder man
Cancel your feelings and just think with your mind again
I'm back alive again
Broke the code with a couple foul word I know
But we ain't owed
Just want to let you know
There's no exemptions on the road to redemption.
So just in case you didn’t hear me the first time
I’m not perfect like you
So, if you think that you could do better why don’t you

I know you wish that I was different
I’ll never fit inside the mold you created
You’ll never know what I’ve been up against
I’m not another one of your fabrications

To whom it may concern I’ll leave the names out
Heavy is the head that wears the false crown
Heavy is the head
Heavy is the head that wears the false crown

11. As I walk on down this road
I know I’m not alone
But sometimes I feel no hope
When it’s gets too dark to see
The light in front of me
I remember what I’ve seen
What I believe

I might be lost until I reach the end
But I’ll keep movin
With Every step I know I’ll fall again
But I’ll get through it
Cause when I think
I’m about to break
I can see my growth in pain so
I might be lost but I’ll find the fight within

Like a stranger in my skin
I’m afraid who I’ve been
But it started where it ends
Know I’ve seen this all before
Is there peace beyond this war?
When I can’t take anymore
I can’t take anymore

I might be lost until I reach the end
But I’ll keep movin
With Every step I know I’ll fall again
But I’ll get up
Cause when I think
I’m about to break
I can see my growth in pain so
I might be lost but I’ll find the fight within

As I walk on down this road
I know I’m not alone
But sometimes I feel no hope
There is hope

I might be lost until I reach the end
But I’ll keep movin
With Every step I know I’ll fall again
But I’ll get through it
Cause when I think
I’m about to break
I can see my growth in pain so
I might be lost but I’ll find the fight within