1. CURING LIFE

Treading onward as if life will get better.
No illness can be redeemed.
No memory will feel sustained.
Why must the weak be broken
To have a voice unspoken?
Gathering my thoughts to release life's token.
I cant fathom a day without pain,
So why trust those outspoken?
Short lived emotions are all
I have left to embrace within this corroding life.
Please end this pain.
The claws of this darkness tear my heart.
I'm longing for a resolve.
No prescription will cure who you are.
Accept what follows and play your part.
The emptiness will only grow from here.
End this suffering and they'll carry on.
Your life's departing will never carry light.
The world will move forward with little plight.


2. OBTAINING DOMICILE

Casted beneath the whispers of rotting truths.
The irony of living between
Life's honesty and your distrust.
I still remember the good days.
Treasuries hidden without guidance.
I swallow my pride for a chance
At finding true bliss.
Take my hand and wallow within my cadence.
Swaying in my winds,
I want you to feel mu lust for a new life.
One without a burden unsure of itself.


3. EXUVIATING

Shed the old skin and look anew.
The insight of you peers
Will fade into the sunset.
Let the rains wash it all away.
You need nothing more than you have.
Retreat into yourself.
Release the burdens.
No substance will
Overthrow the beauties.
Knees buckling under the weighted breaths.
Forever wishing for a place I can call home.


4. MORDANT GUILDS

A word will never amount to the heartache
I still feel.
I walk as a silhouette
With completion drawing near.
Living as a ghost among the falsified.
Gathering my last moments
To a relentless stare.
I beckon to the shadows of my faults.
When will i breathe freely again?
We gather once more as
Brother in true refuge.
Forever in debt to the age
Old tales of fulfillment.
As brother of sorrows,
We stand for the dreams of an afterlife.
My love for you will grow old
And your pains will wither beneath their voices.

Tony Hicks:
I feel nothing but emptiness.
But this place eases
My restless spirit like an asylum,
But it glistens with candle light.
I see a glowing red sanctuary
With stained glass windows
And portraits of saints, but unholy.
I now rest my sorrow.
But even when I rest, I truly never rest.
One day I will not be here on earth.
Perhaps that is when I will truly find rest.
Eternal rest.


5. HABITS (TOVE LO COVER)

I eat in my dinner in my bathtub
Then I go to sex clubs.
Watching freaky people getting it on.
It doesn't make me nervous,
If anything I'm restless.
Yeah I've been around and I've seen it all.
I get home, got the munchies,
Binge on all my twinkies,
Throw up in the tub, then I go to sleep,
And I drank up all my money.
Days been kinda lonely.
You're gone and I've gotta say
High all the time to keep you off my mind.
Spend my days locked in a haze
Trying to forget you babe, I fall back down.
High all my life to forget I'm missing you.


6. SOWING NOURISHMENT

I've watched you struggle since
The beginning of my recollections.
I've seen you between your last hope
And your brightest of days.
Please don't refrain from your aspirations.
It's been twenty four years of selflessness.
I live without your permanence and
I fear to lose you completely.
Throughout all of what you've done for us,
Please do not weep any more.
Your strength will prevail.
We love you, I love you, and
A family will never retreat.
The power of three from
The beginning till the end.
I am thankful for you and all that you bring to this life for me.


7. FOREBODING DARKNESS

Why the fuck do I even drag
Myself to this place?
I cant remember when
I had complete and total control.
I just want a day to rest
And not feel so fucking bare to my core.
This misery bleeds into ever waking hour.
Impacting myself and everyone around me.
Throw my useless words beyond
What I've already said and failed.
I cant imagine truly feeling fulfilled.
Parading my bones along endless tasks.
A sham of endearing the steps to your sight.
Burrowing under my own voice,
I wish to never hear again.
Slaving to an endless coil,
My chest quakes in your presence.
Go beyond.
Drift beneath.
Cower in what is to come.
This pain is drawing near,
I don't want to collapse again.
This pain is solely mine,
Coming now and it's so clear.
Coming now and it's so clear.
This will never truly kill me.
Foreboding darkness.
Prolonging progress.
I can't drag myself through this anymore,
I don't fucking care who knows.
I've been sick for far too long,
And I crave the completion.
Go beyond.
Drift beneath.
Cower in what is to come.
This pain is drawing near,
I don't want to collapse again.
This pain is solely mine,
Coming now, and it's so clear.


8. SPARING THE INEVITABLE

I'm sitting here in an empty space
Wishing I had my best friends with me.
I've written everything
With you by my side and it hurts
So much to change.
I catch myself hearing your nails
Prancing across the wood floors,
But I know I'll never enjoy that again.
I see you through a glass shape
With frequencies that hurt.
I miss your howls and playful days.
You were there for me when
I felt so fucking alone.
When everyone casted me away,
I knew my best friend was waiting for me.
I miss you so much and I hate being so far.
I'll never afford the means
To see you again and it hurts like
I've never felt before.
I never knew
I could feel so close yet be so distant.
I doubt
I'll be able to exert a creative force like
I had when I was with you.
I want to see you again and
I'll never be the same if
I couldn't before you left.


9. CESSATION

The final day has come.
Leaving behind all the pains and sorrows.
A lonely man drifting out and beyond.
What he once knew as life
Shall coincide with death.
Dragging endlessly to the shores.
Dreaming for the finality within himself.
Perpetuating the inevitable,
Why can't you trust the world?
Blissful moments meet the horrendous.
While the name is tarnished
In infertility.
A chance to fully release.
A chance to breathe in peace.
When will they understand that
A man can only die one day at a time?
Gleaming throughout the darkest times,
Illustrating what you're capable of.

(To all that have cared..
I live behind a cloak, embracing what
I know, and denouncing what
I don't. I'm sorry for who I am and who
I won't become. My love is for those who know.
Embracing the art in which we've grown,
Cessation for the first of many that drone)

When will we learn that no life is safe?
There's beauty within this death.
I finally love myself enough to retreat.
Cessation to the foreign.
As without.
Living continuously.