1. FRIGHTENING

A person like me finds it hard
To show emotion
Especially when it has to be positive
I love you but you will never figure it out
Cause my personality is freaking you out

Me I got used to it,I learned to live with it
And maybe one day I'll get rid of me
This is the price I have to pay
For using too much my brain

I really want to get better
But it's not that easy
I'll probably send you a letter
To express my apology
I hope you don't misunderstand me
But I have no idea
Of what's going on inside me
Nothing's interesting and everything's frightening

I'm really grateful for all you've done
Don't you ever think I don't appreciate you enough
No it's really not that
It's me,with myself I have problems
Which I'm trying to solve
I've tried everything but nothing works
Someday nothing will matter anyway
Will anyone miss me when I'll go away

I really want to get better
But it's not that easy
I'll probably send you a letter
To express my apology
I hope you don't misunderstand me
But I have no idea
Of what's going on inside me
Nothing's interesting and everything's frightening


2. THANKS FOR MAKING ME CRY

I'm an enemy for you
I'll forever be like that
I'm your blackest black cat
I'm your victim the beloved
Come on treat me like a trash
But still you can't make me stop
No you can't hit me that hard

You've destroyed everything
I wonder is there anything you haven't destroyed yet
Sometimes I wish I could forget
You like messing with my head
Thanks for making me cry
You'll be responsible for my suicide
I hope to see you there when I'll die
We'll go together in hell
We'll both pay for your sins in the end

There are no kind words for me
Only lies,hate and misanthropy
I'll let you get me out of my misery
Come on blame all your failures on me
I'm about to go in an eternal trip
And I'll take you with me
You'll be drowning forever in guilt
I'd write your name on my grave
But no you don't deserve my pain

You've destroyed everything
I wonder is there anything you haven't destroyed yet
Sometimes I wish I could forget
You like messing with my head
Thanks for making me cry
You'll be responsible for my suicide
I hope to see you there when I'll die
We'll go together in hell
We'll both pay for your sins in the end
One month I kept quiet
Cause I can't get out of my deathbed
Now it's time to play pretend
I have to clear the useless information in my head

I want you to know something before I'll leave
You'll never be important to anyone and especially to me
No one's going to know you exist
I'll make you wonder if you really live
You are a ghost that's chasing me
No one notices you cause you're a mean invisible trick
You're nothing and you're hurting,in the end there's only me
I'm the artist,you're just the mean
And no I won't die cause that would make you smile


3. DREAMS I CAN’T DEFINE

Please tell me should I have to pay
Hear mean people every single day
Watching threats,lies,feeling afraid
Will you let me out of this game
Cause I don't have any strength
Will you finally free me from the pain

That sad person in the mirror
I can see the fear in her eyes
Can't escape her mind
I can't even sleep at night
Having bad dreams I can't define

Please help me is this the life I have to live
It's going to be this way eternally
Just make everything peacefully
I used to pray every day
But monsters won't go away
They've been running after me all the way
But I won't let them win anyway

That sad person in the mirror
I can see the fear in her eyes
Can't escape her mind
I can't even sleep at night
Having bad dreams I can't define

Look what I've become
And what I've ever done
I've never done anything bad to anyone
But everyone's mean to me
Just because I insist to be who I want to be

That sad person in the mirror
I can see the fear in her eyes
Can't escape her mind
I can't even sleep at night
Having bad dreams I can't define


4. WISH YOU WERE LIKE ME

Me I'm just a nothing
I don't deserve anything
I work really hard
No one has ever worked that hard
But I'm gaining nothing

And if it's not enough
I have to tolerate you
Telling me that I'm the unluckiest
And the biggest fool

Who are you to judge me
You really wish you were like me
You can hate me so much
And even convince me that I'm nothing
But I'll always be better than you
Cause I don't need to offend you
Cause I don't feel threatened by you

Here's what it's like
To be called every single day
Useless,ugly and without brain
I never believed I was pretty anyway
But you can't take my intelligence away
And my voice is my biggest advantage
Along with my lyrics
You can't destroy the truth
So stop don't you ever get enough

Who are you to judge me
You really wish you were like me
You can hate me so much
And even convince me that I'm nothing
But I'll always be better than you
Cause I don't need to offend you
Cause I don't feel threatened by you

I wish I could say it doesn't hurt me
Cause it actually does
Why are you treating me like that
Let's admit it there's nothing left but hate
Time to move away
I'm so unpleasant if you could rid of me
It would be great


5. SOLITUDE IS THE COST

I don't know what I'm doing
Wandering in a life with no meaning
Can't describe what I'm feeling
Waiting for a healing
Needing something to believe in

Staying all day at home
Want to get out
But have nowhere to go
So I'm lying here alone
Like I'm already gone

This will give me inspiration
It will be the only salvation
Cause I'm feeling so lost
And solitude is the cost

Having the same old thought
Which won't help me to go on
Keep staring at the wall
Don't really want to be alone

Looking forward for your call
To help me get out of my world
I know you tell me to hold on
But it's difficult not to mourn

This will give me inspiration
It will be the only salvation
Cause I'm feeling so lost
And solitude is the cost


6. SO UNFAIR

I'm not a pleasant person
You don’t really want to be my friend
You don't want to be anywhere near me
Because I look and sound dead

I don't want to talk
Let’s stay silent
I need something to forget
But nothing really helps

I'll just sit here for a while
With this blank stare I'll observe
Talking nonsense to myself
Don't have anything to share

I don't want anyone fake near me
I prefer to be alone
Everyone so upset cause I ignore them
And they pretend to despise me first

I'll just sit here for a while
With this blank stare I'll observe
Talking nonsense to myself
Don't have anything to share

I wish I could see the good around me
Cause I only see the bad
I spend most of my life
Paying attention to what’s wrong
Everything is so unfair
Nothing is the way it supposed to be
And since I can’t change it
I guess I have to get used to it

I'll just sit here for a while
With this blank stare I’ll observe
Talking nonsense to myself
Don't have anything to share


7. REFUSE TO GET UP

I'm lying here in this room
Doing nothing
Trying to remember
The last day I was happy

Lately I'm not myself
I've become someone else
Refuse to get up
And do something useful instead

I'm not the person I used to be
Every day I feel more weak
I have no reason to weep
The optimistic side I can't see

Lately I'm not myself
I've become someone else
Refuse to get up
And do something useful instead

And no one wants to be friends with me
I'm the most depressed than anyone can be
And everyone leaves indeed
But inspiration stays for me...

Lately I'm not myself
I've become someone else
Refuse to get up
And do something useful instead