1. MYSTERY

Look into my eyes
My heart is beating
My soul is seeking truth

All the tears I've cried
The revelation
Through generations move

How could you love me for who I am?
It seems to me a mystery
That you love me despite myself
It seems to me a mystery

Look into my soul
The passion bleeding and I'm still needing you
Time will take its toll to rip apart and break this heart in two


2. HIDING PLACE

I know who you are
You bring on all my pain
You're just a deceiver
Like poison in my veins
Exist to kill
You try to make me fall
But I know your army
I shred through them like paper dolls

And I run to my own secret hiding place
I find shelter there
And I run to my own secret hiding place
I know who really cares

Above emotions
You bring catastrophe
But I see right through you and how you're tempting me
Don't waste your time
I will not play your game
I know where I stand
I live despite your pain


3. LAST MILE

Here we stand again
Reaching out my friend
It's time we lay it out
What love is all about

As we walk along the last mile
Won't you come and stay a little while?
Is it more than what you came for?
You can't deny it anymore

It's time to realize
To be satisfied
To give your heart away to the love that will never decay


4. MY STORY

I could feel a change was coming
I was torn between a future life and the past's scorn
But I had to keep my focus not to sway
To learn from my successes and mistakes

Moving on
Letting go from all that complicates the soul
Holding fast to what I know
And that's how my story goes

So here I am again
For all to see
The words are on the paper incomplete


5. TURBULENCE

Take this broken life
Make it what you want it to be
The truth blocks out the lie
I feel your hand that's guiding me

I can't live without your love that's over me
Far from the pain that lies below
I call your name
You set me free

You cast away my sin as far as the east is from the west
I'm feeling weary again
But in you my soul finds rest


6. LIFE ASIDE

Sitting in this darkness
I think about my wasted life
Every time I've failed you
I sit around and cry
How could I let you down?
How could I do those things?
Would it matter what I said?
Would you even forgive me?

As I lay in my cold, damp tears
And now I try to fight away all the years
And now I know just what to do inside
Please give me strength to lay my life aside

Shamed by what I've done
I wonder what they'll think of me?
I'm scared and alone
My very pride is weakening
How could I let you down?
How could I do those things?
Would it matter what I said?
Would you even forgive me?

And now I see your love surrounding me
And now I feel your peace so serene
Now I know just what to do inside
Please give me strength to keep this flame alive


7. LOST IN THE NOISE

So confused by what goes on in a world that seems so cold
I try to hide in bitterness
But then I'm all alone
Now I see the hypocrisy of all I've become
I could believe
But I couldn't scream
In billions I'm just one

I cry out
With my voice
When I pray
Do I get lost in the noise?

So stressed out within life's games
Staring at the floor
Not content inside my shell
I know there must be more
Now I see the ministry
I know it starts with me
Another face in the human race or am I too small to see


8. SLIPPING AWAY

Lonely nights are haunting more often than before
I feel I've strayed away from you
You said that you'd love me
You'd be coming for me now
I stare into empty space
I need to feel your touch again

Is it me, or everyday it feels like something is slipping away
Could it be, or everyday it feels like something is slipping away

There's so much that I need
I live for what I want
Forsake the thoughts I have of you
My reason for being
Continually sinking down
You reach out for my hand
I'm content in my despair again


9. MILLSTONE

It was set in motion so long ago
I tried to warn you
But you bought the lie that was sold

History, now repeats

Here I am
There you are
So far from home
The soon coming stumbling
Now here's your millstone

A jealous mind
Reaching for something you could never attain
Deceived by the lair
Try if your must
But you try in vain


10. RISE UP AGAIN

This world is tearing up my heart
This place, I don't know where to start
Everyday I seem them standing there
Lost and afraid
I think it's time that we...

Just rise up and stand
We'll just rise up again

When I am weak, I don't know what to say
Give me strength to make it through today
Give me words to speak to them somehow
Facedown and broken
It's time to share again...


11. NEVER END

Our sins are like an anchor
They always pull us under
We're reminded of the storm by all its thunder
It always comes to me like a shadow I can't see
Can't run and hide
I cannot find my shelter

A never-ending cycle
Escape for me is vital
There's blood on my hands
The wages of sin
Will this never end?

I cover up my face to live in my disgrace
Can't open up
Can't let my heart break in two
It always comes to me like a spirit I just can't see
It reminds me of the life I lived and once knew

Our sins are like an anchor
They always pull us under
We're reminded of the storm by all its thunder
Trust in what is true
Get your mind renewed
Loose the chains and finally break the cycle


12. VICTIM

The mirror is cracked
I'm looking back at a face I don't want to see
The stone was cast in the house of glass and it came crashing down on me
I found my place in the human race and took it all in stride
In my pain I tried to blame for all that I felt inside

No one wants to be a victim

To taste the tears for all the years and drown in my regret
A life that's torn
The hurt reborn and I could not forget
Release this pain or go insane
It's written on my face
In my mind I could not find a reason to erase


13. ALL I HAVE

I struggle in myself to find my way
I close my eyes and make the choice
But a stubborn heart must learn to hear what you say and listen to your voice

Here's my life
I lay it down
It's all I have
A broken will
I give you now
It's all I have

Here I am again
Available
A vessel to be used by you
Now I realize where I stand
And it's your heart I'll hold onto


14. BREATHE IN YOU

When I was sixteen I thought that I could change the world all alone without your help
I was thriving in my selfishness
Reaching for the pearl
But I first had to change myself

And now it's so clear

How could I move without you?
I must breathe you in
When the world falls underneath it all
My blood is running thin
When I'm crying and I'm dying
Here's where I begin
I reach out and I touch you
I must breathe you in

Now I'm older
I can look back and see where I've been and learn from past mistakes
And I'm so glad God forgives
He takes me back again
There's healing in His grace