1.3. BREAKING THE HABIT

Memories consume
Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again
You all assume

I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright

So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more

Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright

So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

2. CRAWLING

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal

Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing

This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem

To find myself again
My walls are closing in

(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...