1. GETTING INTO THE BLACK HOLE

(Instrumental)


2. PHOENIX

Long ago yet not so long ago
I carried so heavy a burden
Letting love not touch me
Drifted away from my true self

Cling to memories while I upraise
just above a world set in fire
Love is by my side and inside
There's so much that won't let me fall

I’ve been broken so many times
my pieces have turned to ashes
from ashes a new vase’s springing now
Ten thousand times stronger

Cling to memories while I upraise
just above a world set in fire
Love is by my side and inside
There's so much that won't let me perish

Live!

I’m a walking reconstruction
I’m a gorgeous piece of art
made of powder left from wreckage
That is what I am

I’m a walking reconstruction
I’m a gorgeous piece of art
made of powder left from wreckage
That is what I am
In peace with my own demons
no guilt, no regrets
just my reborn self

All the painful memories
come hunting me sometimes
and tears come flowing
washing them all at once

Cling to memories while I upraise
Just above a world set in fire
Love is by my side and inside
There's so much that won't let me perish

Lift up!
Over it all
Open up
to all you’ve got inside!


3. SURVIVOR

So here I stand
I had not thought that I would survive
through hell in blood pits
I’ve sunk and drowned

Then, you thought I would stay quiet
that by force I would subdue
Despite the pain
I won’t fall

Grudge was one good poison
that helped me to stay alive
through that hell’s fire

To all the things that you have done
I say stop and nevermore
I can face my fears
as I never did before

All the memories are coming
to relive forgotten mares
condemned to shed my tears
forever

Anger was a poison
that helped me endure the pain
of whips and slaps

You can take away my goods
You can take away my floor
But you cannot take away my wisdom
You can burn away my house
You can burn away my hands
But my soul will live on and on, will live on!

Hope is the best fuel that one can use
to stay alive more than survive

You can take away my goods
You can take away my floor
But you cannot take away my wisdom
You can burn away my house
You can burn away my hands
But my soul will live on and on

You will never take my soul
My voice will live on and on
For as long as I breathe and my heart beats!


4. REMEMBER ME

Once I used to walk alone
under pouring rain
unseen and forgotten
aimless and distressed
Once I used to dream of stars
in the darkest nights
dancing and inspired
by the music of my heart

Once our paths were crossed
but where’d it left, my voice?
So soon you were gone
I was left behind
with no more than a burning heart
and unsaid words.

Remember me, remember me
Don’t let my face
blur in your eyes
Don’t let my voice
fade off your heart

Remember me, remember me
Let my voice not
to the void of forget
Let my recall
light up your darkness

I don’t want to fade
I don’t want to die
I don’t want to fade
Nor ever die!


5. DUSK

Dusk it was when in your mystery I dove
All bewitched, lost control head to toe
Rushing at you, fearful yet determined
Towards those eyes sparkling and challenging

At the caress of my lips with you not understanding why
My arms surrounded your waist and both our bodies spoke
We lost ourselves in an endless kiss with our so long held fire
Shades embraced us both and in them we were one

When our souls joined, doubts were there no more
And further deeply we crossed sights, we were complete
Our caresses could not stop but turn more ardent and strong
In that mysterious evening which witnessed last sunlight leave

We were caught loners and merged by dusk
For years we travelled so as to encounter at that night’s threshold
Is it possible that precious moment had happened before?
The answer lives inside where we sense that scene did occur

Seeking shelter in my chest with tears overflowing
Time seemed to have slowed down in our fusion
Both covered by an immense blackness
No running away, love was to be unleashed

We were caught loners and merged by dusk
For years we travelled so as to encounter at that night’s threshold
Is it possible that precious moment had happened before?
The answer lives inside where we sense that scene did occur


6. INNER CHILD

Dear child don’t cry anymore
your tears drags my spirit down
Dear child
Why do you tremble?
Come rest in my warm arms.

Let your heart into these tender hands
Let your sorrow fall in depths of nevermore
I stare at your face, you look just like me
Who has taken away your dreams?

I’m sorry for taking so long to come
I’m here for you like no one’s ever been
I’ll hold you ‘til tears stop flowing and you smile
not with your lips but with your heart

Beloved child you look so tired
So long have you mourned in silence
In your eyes I realise you’re me
Whining old memories

I’m sorry for taking so long to come
I’m here for you like no one’s ever been
I’ll hold you ‘til tears stop flowing and you smile
not with your lips but with your heart

See no more tears, no more anguish
nor painful memories hunting you down
Forever I will be here to hold you tight
to teach you how to smile and fly!


7. SWAY

Feeling so small
when destiny we face
The harder we push
the tougher it gets

When it’s not meant to be, there is nothing we can do but find great sorrow in trying
it is not failure, it is knowing which battles are ours and which are not at all

Those who cannot bend
shall not last and will break
Whirlwinds and storms
are swallowing us all

Fear is the chain ever tying our feet and hands in the battlefield life is
Humans we are, frightened creatures whose fret has devoured our sanity

With haste we run and run
but our deeds can we really escape?
Embrace my sway, that I must
believe and become my best of all selves

Bravery is not an easy thing to portray
Yet, what better answer can we get?
If fear were to pull our strings,
We’d be but mere living dead

With haste we run and run
but our deeds can we really escape?
Embrace my sway, that I must
believe and become my best of all selves


8. LIVING MEMORIES

Everytime I walk
Everytime I sing
Everytime I'm free
You come to life as if you weren’t gone

You found all the walls I had built
showed me the way to tear them down
you found the light into the dark
opened the door to let it shine

Everytime I stray
Everytime I'm torn
I recall what we lived
I can feel as if you were still here

You found all the walls I had built
unveiled the love to tear them down
you showed a world without walls
full of hope and open hearts

Memories living inside my heart
Hold me whenever I fall
They're all I have left of you
And you live everytime I think of you

I won't see your eyes again
Nor will I hear your voice
But every time I can let go
Your smile appears to me like you were here with me

You found all the walls I had built
unveiled the love to hold me safe
because of you I can live
full of hope with an open heart

Memories living inside my heart
Hold me whenever I fall
They're all I have left of you
And you live everytime I think of you

Memories living inside
make you live every time I think of you!
You live here!


9. COMPLIANT MASKS

In a world where all are perfect
Must be charming, ever faultless

With sweet words
we’re all deceivers
slayers in disguise

Souls and voices up for sale
an old game
where we lose ourselves
every time

Empty eyes with glowing smiles
are all you’ve got to give

In our lies
we’ve been swimming
dragged and cheated
In our charming lies
we dance and prance around
with compliant masks
What are you trying to hide?
Poverty? Grand Misery?
Come! Take off your mask
Let your woe be seen

“Those victories are borrowed,
they don’t belong to you
someday you will have the need
to know who you really are
but all you will find
is a good-looking hoax”

In our lies
we’ve been swimming
dragged and cheated
In our charming lies
we dance and prance around
with compliant masks
What are you trying to hide?
Poverty? Grand Misery?
Come! Take off your mask
Or I’ll rip it off your face


10. A MORN OVERHAULED

Seeking freedom I found just slavery
Taking off demanded sinking deeper
How far did I let you smash my pride
How far did I let you hurt my dreams

Wounds wide open
Regard my frailty
my humanity
with no shields

No more silent cries
No more muted words
No more silent tears
No more blaming myself
Hands, feet full of mud
I stand proudly on my own
Without yokes
Without bitterness
Only my clamorous voice!

Somewhere I knew I would stand on my own
Some new place I’ve never flown before
Wobbling fiercely with my own wilder wings
Dark light shinning over for the grieving beings

No more silent cries
No more muted words
No more silent tears
No more blaming myself
Hands, feet full of mud
I stand proudly on my own
Without yokes
Without bitterness
Only my clamorous voice!

Sometimes the past catches you and the wounds reopen...
You see they've never actually healed
Love is the answer... grab it, hold it... only then can healing begin

I’m a beacon for the lost, a dark light
the oddly winged whose flight is anew
blind and free I hover over thorns of my past
I can feel them but they’ll hurt me no more

A phoenix in my chest, afraid to fly
there’s only darkness ahead
but there’s no harm for me there
only hope, only me.