1. PRELUDE

630 Eddie
Hey
We got a 54 heavy bleeder at address 3029 Quentin Road, floor two
Caller reporting a female with slashed wrists, possible
EMS has been ordered
On the back
On the back
Is en route


2. SCARS

On your throne
All alone
All have flown
Broken bones
As you sit and you wait
I'm not waiting

Tear me down
From your mound
Look around
All I see is a soul
Is a soul not worth saving

Scars
Are what we are

There you go
Hitting low
Just to show
That you know
You're the one
You're the one that's winning

Before long
We grow strong
What went wrong
What is gone
What is gone is now worth saving

Scars
Are what we are
Scars
Are what we are

Scars
Are what we are
Scars
Are what we are
Scars
Are what we are

Scars
Are what we are
Scars
Are what we are


3. BLACK HEART

Can't separate the lies from reality
Can't hold back these knives from penetrating me
Can't wash away this crime, rolling down my face
And everything is gone, gone and stripped away

Say it's over 'cause I need some closure
Say it's over, can't look me in the eyes
Say it's over 'cause I need some closure
I gave you everything, you gave me this black heart of mine

I can't take it, I can't fake it no more
This black heart of mine
I can't take it, I can't fake it no more
This black heart of mine

I can confess this time it wasn't my doing
Can't erase it from my mind, desperation rings
Can't wash away this crime from rolling down my face
Everything is gone, gone and stripped away

Say it's over 'cause I need some closure
Say it's over, can't look me in the eyes
Say it's over 'cause I need some closure
I gave you everything, you gave me this black heart of mine

I can't take it, I can't fake it no more
This black heart of mine
I can't take it, I can't fake it no more
This black heart of mine

I can't take it, I can't fake it no more
This black heart of mine

Mine
Mine


4. LAY DOWN

Take what you want
Let me go in peace
The last thing I want
Is to live on my knees

The rest is up to you
There's nothing left to prove
The scars that bind us
Are all we ever knew

Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die

Strip me of whatever
You might need
These possessions
Never defined me

The rest is up to you
There's nothing left to prove
The scars that bind us
Are all we ever knew

Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die

The rest is up to you
There's nothing left to prove
The scars that bind us
Are all we ever knew

Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Won't lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die
Lay down (lay down)
Lay down and die


5. THEN

Hey guys, we have the mother outside on oxygen and the subject's upstairs in the bathroom to the left
Make way
Make way, guys
Coming through
Okay, we still have a pulse
Can you hear me buddy? Stay with us
I got his feet, ready? On three
Ready?
One, two, three

Watch out guys, coming through
Watch his arm

Stay with us buddy
Can you hear my voice?
Hey, keep your eyes on me buddy
Yeah, we got a code red 767, Caucasian teen male
Self-inflicted laceration of the radial artery at the wrist
Serious hemorrhaging
We need immediate inbound assistance
King's Highway, five minutes out


6. EMPTY HOLE

So many times the worries circle 'round my neck
Until I pray for death, pray for death, you know I prayed for death
And the thoughts consume and bury me alive
Until I fought with my, fought with my, fought with all my might

The days are long, the night is still
This empty hole, cannot be filled
The days are long, the night is still
This empty hole, cannot be filled

So many times I'm twisting turning in my bed
So many sleepless nights, sleepless nights, sleepless nights ahead
And I walk this road, this lonely path I roam
Until I see your eyes, see your eyes, then I know I'm home

The days are long, the night is still
This empty hole, cannot be filled
The days are long, the night is still
This empty hole, cannot be filled

This ain't the life I chose
I ain't givin' up no
No matter what life throws
I ain't givin' up

So many times the worries circle 'round my neck
Until I see the light, see the light, you know I'll make it right
And the thoughts consume I thought that I was fine
But I can't sleep at night, sleep at night, waiting for a sign

The days are long, the night is still
This empty hole, cannot be filled
The days are long, the night is still
This empty hole, cannot be filled


7. MY WAY OUT

Animals tear us apart
They can sense innocence from the start
Crowded room closing in
Feel their breath on my neck under my skin

Smiles and lies
I'm wearing my best disguise

I'm crawling inside my brain
Can't see my way out
I'm falling to my knees
And bleeding my self-doubt
Can't see my way out

Violent world pretend to be
Exactly what you want me to be
Play your part and I'll play mine
What ya get nothing less pretend it's fine

Smiles and lies
I'm wearing my best disguise

Smiles and lies
I'm wearing my best disguise

I'm crawling inside my brain
Can't see my way out
I'm falling to my knees
And bleeding my self-doubt
Can't see my way out

Smiles and lies
I'm wearing, I'm wearing
Smiles and lies
I'm wearing I'm wearing
Smiles and lies
I'm wearing my best disguise

I'm crawling inside my brain
Can't see my way out
I'm falling to my knees
And bleeding my self-doubt
Can't see my way out
I'm crawling inside my brain
Can't see my way out
I'm falling to my knees
And bleeding my self-doubt
Can't see my way out


8. ELIMINATE

Eliminate
All my hate
Before I go
Explode on you
Eliminate
All my hate
Before I go
Explode on you

Backed up into a wall
Drowning in alcohol
Waiting on this lie for truth
Got no one else to blame
The razor knows my name
Waiting on this lie for truth

Eliminate
All my hate
Before I go
Explode on you
Eliminate
All my hate
Before I go
Explode on you

Broke down onto the ground
Our scars are all around
Waiting on this lie for truth
God knows I'm begging please
There just been no relief
Waiting on this lie for truth

Eliminate
All my hate
Before I go
Explode on you
Eliminate
All my hate
Before I go
Explode on you

Eliminate
Eliminate
Eliminate


9. NOW

And are being charged with the murder of a 51 year old woman as a result of a home invasion last Wednesday night. The victim was found beaten, raped, and stabbed multiple times. A neighbor heard a noise around 2 AM and witnessed the suspects fleeing the scene and immediately called 911. We'll have more details on this story as it develops

In Queensdale, an elderly man was struck by a drunk driver on Cross Bay Boulevard. Dammit. The man is in critical condition. The driver suffered no injuries

And in Canarsie Brooklyn, investigators are working to figure out exactly what caused...

Hello? Oh hey, thanks for calling me back. Look, he's gonna be home any minute, so let me try and make this quick. Yeah, exactly. It's the time of year, it's always rough on him. Yeah, literally it's decades now. And you know how he gets. Yeah, and with the anniversary of it coming up, it's, it's tough, I know, it's tough. I just figured I'd see if you have any openings. Can you squeeze him in? Alright, there he is, let me go. Please email me the times you have available when you can, okay, thanks doc, bye

Hey, how was your day hon? How was your day?


10. ONCE BELOW

I feel disgraced
I wasted time
Deeper down into this hole I hide
Running in place
I'm losing sight
So done, I'm numb, can't recognize

I was once below, but now I'm up above

How low, can ya go, before you fall
What ya give, what ya get, karma circle
Find my way, start today, up off my knees
Desperation waits and it knows my name...

Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above

Sweat it seeps
Into my eyes
The clock keeps on whispering its lies
I'm losing sleep
Been up all night
Insomnia's my way of life

How low, can ya go, before you fall
What ya give, what ya get, karma circle
Find my way, start today, up off my knees
Desperation waits and it knows my name...

Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above

How low, can ya go, before you fall
What ya give, what ya get, karma circle
Find my way, start today, up off my knees
Desperation waits and it knows my name...

Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above
Oh a lifetime wasted...
Once below - and now I'm up above


11. STONE

Slipping and sliding
On the run
Coming and going
On the run
Build me a cabin
Have some fun
My head, my hands
My heart, my love

I need to find a place to be alone yeah
Sinking to the bottom like a stone yeah

Go where it's quiet
Must be gone
Weather against me
The wind blows hard
Slipping and sliding
On the run
Oh lord I need to find
A place to be alone

I need to find a place to be alone yeah
Sinking to the bottom like a stone yeah

I need to find a place to be alone
Sinking to the bottom like a stone
I need to find a place to be alone yeah
Sinking to the bottom like a stone
Like a stone
Like a stone
Like a stone


12. WEIGHT OF THE WORLD

My head is low
The antidote
Is arm's length out of reach
But all an all
Those chemicals
Can't kill hypocrisy

The weight of the world is coming down on me
The weight of the world is coming down

The flame inside
That burned so bright
Too faint now hard to see
The storm it came
And washed away
What's left is meant to be

The weight of the world is coming down on me
The weight of the world is coming down
The weight of the world is coming down on me
The weight of the world is coming down

The weight of the world

The weight of the world is coming down on me
The weight of the world is coming down
The weight of the world is coming down on me
The weight of the world is coming down


13. WHEN

Yo, come on, you know there's no smoking in here anymore, right? Listen, your wife is just, very concerned, and understandably so. I mean, I heard about the mood swings, so, you wanna tell me what's going on? We've been through this before, right? Look, I know you're struggling. We've made a lot of progress over the years here, and it really seemed like the medication was helping. Why, why'd you go off? Why'd you stop taking the medication?

The trauma you experienced as a young man is long behind you now. Let that scar on your wrist remind you of where you've been, not where you're going. You're a survivor. You've been through it. You're on the other side now. Okay, all the feelings you're experiencing - the anger, the sadness, the, the pain - all those things - absolutely valid, but, it's up to you to take a stand. To say, on this day, today, I will hurt no more. Can you do that?


14. I SURRENDER

In this room broke and bruised
Hide away tears of shame
I refuse to believe
You can be my enemy

Every lie, every night, every time
We're together - I surrender
Every lie, every night, every time
We're together - I surrender

Black and blue - stolen youth
Locked away inside my cage
There's no truth - only excuses
There's no faith - I'm here to stay

Every lie, every night, every time
We're together - I surrender
Every lie, every night, every time
We're together - I surrender

Hideaway in this room
Black and blue, locked away
And there's no faith and there's no truth
And there's no faith and there's no truth

Hideaway in this room (Inside my cage, stolen youth)
Black and blue, locked away (Tears of shame, broke and bruised)
And there's no faith and there's no truth
And there's no faith and there's no truth
...