1. BLIND

Are you ready?

This place inside my mind a place I like to hide
You don't know the chances.
What if I should die?!?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't now the chances. I'm so blind!

Another place I find to escape the pain inside
You don't now the chances.
What if I should die?!?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!

Deeper, deeper, deeper inside me
I live a life that seems to be a lost reality
That I can never find a way to reach my inner self.
I stay alone.
How deep can I go in the ground that I lay?
If I don't find a way to see through the grey that clouds my mind.
This time I look to see what's between the lines.

I can see, I can see, I'm going blind... (12x)
I'm blind! (4x)


2. DADDY

Mother please forgive me
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering
Now that I am done, remember I will always love you
I'm your son

Little child, looking so pretty
Come out and play, I'll be your daddy
Innocent child, looking so sweet
A rape in my eyes and on your flesh I'll eat

You've raped!
I feel dirty
It hurt!
As a child
Tied down!
That's a good boy
And fucked!
Your own child
I scream!
No one hears me
It hurt!
I'm not a liar
My God!
Saw you watching
Mommy why?!
Your own child

It's alright

I didn't touch you there
Mama said she didn't care
I didn't touch you there
That's why mama stopped and stared

I fucking hate you! Mother fucker!
Mother Fucker! I fucking hate you! Fuck You!
You son of a bitch, you fucking ruined my life!
I wanted to die!
I'm sick of it, mother fucker . . . oh oh
Why'd you fuck'n do it to me?
I Hate You!
I Fuck'n Hate You!
I Hate You!
Why?!
I Hate You!


3. FALLING AWAY FROM ME

Hey, I'm feeling tired.
My time, is gone today.
You flew with suicide.
Sometimes, that's ok.
Hear what others say.
I'm here, standing hollow.
Falling away from me.
Falling away from me.
Day, is here fading.
That's when, I would say.
I flew with suicide.
Sometimes kill the pain.
I can always say.
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'.
Falling away from me.
Falling away from me.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming so sad.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

(falling away from me).
It's spinning round and round.
(falling away from me).
It's lost and can't be found.
(falling away from me).
It's spinning round and round.
(falling away from me).
So down.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming so sad.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

Pressing me, they won't go away.
So I pray, go away.

It's falling away from me.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming so sad.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground


4. FREAK ON A LEASH

Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's gotta always be messing with me. You want to see the light?
Can't they chill and let me be free? So do I...
Can't I take away all this pain. You want to see the light?
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace.

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Feeling like a freak on a leash. You want to see the light?
Feeling like I have no release. So do I...
How many times have I felt diseased? You want to see the light?
Nothing in my life is free... is free.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace.

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Gibberish

GO!

Gibberish

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Part of me... (x3)


5. GOT THE LIFE

Hate something sometime some way
Something kick on the football my
Something inside i will never ever follow
So give me something that is for real
I'll never ever follow
Get your boogie on
Get your boogie on
Hate something somewhere each day
Dealing with god forgive now why this shit inside
And anyone would follow so give me nothing just fear
And other shit will follow god breaks me (why)
And then i see the lie
He wants to see god don't mind (why)
I've already got the life
Oh i say god breaks me (why)
And then i see the lie he wants to see god don't mind (why)
I've already got the life
Oh i say each day i can
Feel it swallow inside something
Took from me i don't feel your
Deathly ways each day
I feel so hollow inside always beating me shall
We never see so come dance with me
(rumbutty boo rum butty boo)
So come dance with me (rumbutty boo rum butty boo)
So come dance with me
Dance with me
My god breaks me (why)
And now i see the lie he wants to
See god don't mind(why)
I've already got the life
Oh i say god breaks me (why)
And now i see the lie he wants to see god don't mind(why)
I've already got the life
Oh i say got the life
Got the life
Got the life
Got the life


6. RIGHT NOW

I'm feeling mean today
Not lost, not blown away
Just irritated and quite hated
Till control breaks down
Why's everything so tame
I like my life insane
I'm fabericating and defeating you
I'm gunna kick around

Right now
Can't find a way
To get across the hate
When I see you

Right Now
I'm feeling strange inside
I want to search and feel you

Right Now
I rip apart the things inside
that live beside you

Right Now
I can't control myself
But I fucking hate you!

I'm feeling cold today
Not hurt just fucked away
I'm devasted and frustrated
God I feel so bound
So why I'd feel the need
I think it's time to bleed
I'm gunna cut myself and
Watch the blood hit the ground

Right now
Can't find a way
To get across the hate
When I see you

Right Now
I'm feeling strange inside
I want to search and feel you

Right Now
I rip apart the things inside
that live beside you

Right Now
I can't control myself
But I fucking hate you!

You open your mouth again
I swear I'm gunna break it
You Open your mouth again,
By god I cannot take it

Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up

Right now
Can't find a way
To get across the hate
When I see you

Right Now
I'm feeling strange inside
I want to search and feel you

Right Now
I rip apart the things inside
that live beside you

Right Now
I can't control myself
But I fucking hate you!

I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you


7. COUNTNG ON ME

Why can't you ever back down?
Why can't you just shut your face?
Oh god the feelings I feel
When can they be thrown in a cage?
You're the one always screaming at me
I'm the one that keeps your so life care free
What the fuck more do you want me to be?
Why must you do this to me?

Run away, I can see
Lead the away, make the Pain

Counting, on me.
Always hoping I'll be
Never write off your problems
and in turn you're never there for me
You sucked the life out of me
You hate everything you see
I can't take this anymore
I always stay when I should leave

You see the pain in my face
While you keep putting me down
Inside the rage starts to build
You push me and I won't go down
You're the one always screaming at me
I'm the one that keeps your so life care free
What the fuck more do you want me to be?
Why must you do this to me?

Run away, I can see
Lead the away, make the Pain

Counting, on me.
Always hoping I'll be
Never write off your problems
and in turn you're never there for me
You sucked the life out of me
You hate everything you see
I can't take this anymore
I always stay when I should leave

Can it really be the day, today
Does this make the problems go away
I'm going to hurt just in time

Right now!
- I take in all I can now
Right Now!
- Feel (dunno)
Right Now!
- there is nothing you can do that can stop me
Right now x 9

Counting, on me.
Always hoping I'll be
Never write off your problems
and in turn you're never there for me
You sucked the life out of me
You hate everything you see
I can't take this anymore
I always stay when I should leave x2


8. HERE TO STAY

This time I'm taking it away, I've got a problem
With me getting in the way, not by my side
So I take my face and bash it into a mirror
I won't have to see the pain

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

My hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh I cannot breath anymore
For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore

My mind's done with this
So hey, I've got a question
Can I throw it all away?
Take back what's mine
So I take my time
Driving humbly down the line
Each cut, closer to the vein

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh, I cannot grieve anymore

For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore

I'm here to stay (bring it down)
Bring it down!
Gonna bring it down
Gonna break it down
Gonna break it

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

My hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh, I cannot grieve anymore

For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore

Give anymore


9. TROUGHTLESS

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)

I'm never (?) back against the wall
Gonna take you down

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming


10. MAKE ME BAD

I am watching the rise and fall of my salvation.
There's so much shit around me.
Such a lack of compassion.
I thought it would be fun and games (would be
fun and games).
Instead it's all the same (it's all the same).
I want something to do.
Need to feel the sickness in you.

I feel the reason as it's leaving me, no, not
again.
Its quite decieving as I'm feeling the flesh made
me bad.

All I wanna do it look for you.
And when I fix, you needed to.
Just to get some sort of attention, attention.

What does it mean to you?
For me its something I just do.
I want something.
I need to feel the sickness in you
.
I feel the reason as it's leaving me, no, not
again.
Its quite decieving as I'm feeling the flesh made
me bad.

I feel the reason as it's leaving me, no, not
again.
Its quite decieving as I'm feeling the flesh made
me bad.

Just made me bad


11. NO PLACE TO HIDE

Ha, Ha, Ha

I see your faces and I do not understand why
Each time I dream you're standing there right by my side
Why do you make me
You take my pride
And in my eyes, you kinda rape me...Inside

I have no place to run and hide
I have no place to hide, which I like

Some look back at the time I looked back into my life
You want to touch me to see what's in my eyes
Why do you make me remember my hate, all this shame
Don't you hate me sometimes

I have no place to run and hide
I have no place to hide, which I like

I have no place to run, so do not follow me (x 7)
I have no place to run
Which I like......I like (x 8)
I have no place to run and hide
I have no place to hide, which I like
I have no place to run and hide
I have no place to hide, which I like