1. SAD GHOST

Standing in front of this bed with some matches watch it burn
I pray my body burns too

Why do I do the things I do
And they blind you
Yet you are the only one who can see what I've done

Laying here doesn't feel the same
I need to get up and make a change
Get up and get over this
My voice it echoes my thoughts collide
You said I'm dead to you I bled for you
Now your dreams can come true
There's a place in my bed where you rested your head
Now I'm resting alone in this bed and it's cold
I feel like a ghost, these memories go up in smoke
You didn't want serious and It made me delirious
2: 40 AM all I wrote was

Why do I do the things I do
And they blind you
Yet you are the only one who can see what I've done

Guess I'll never know what I meant to you
This year's been lonely but at least it's through
I'll write a letter to my former self
Dear sad ghost, why'd you put your heart on the shelf

You took the fun out of living
When you took the life out of me

Take a look into the mirror
But you don't see yourself inside
Watch it crack
Your bad luck started with me
And my good luck ended with you

I know you're drunk again, and not thinking clear
But when you write this down, at least try and sound
A bit more sincere

Guess I'll never know what I meant to you
This year's been lonely but at least it's through
I'll write a letter to my former self
Dear sad ghost, why'd you put your heart on the shelf


2. MAD AT MYSELF

I'm so mad at myself
For giving in to what I want, never again
That feeling we felt
We called it love, you called it off
And I never been so mad at myself

I got this old girl I know she's trying to play me
She's like a Honda, these days I drive Mercedes
She's a killer, try to get inside my head
Try to give her wine and bread
But she prefers the blood I bled
Playing chess ain't no way I'm gonna fight fair
She's playing tricks like the vixen in my nightmares
So damn greedy, that girl is so needy
I'm the king of this game, but I think she just beat me

I never should have let you in
I needed a hit of something
High for this feeling they call love

I'm so mad at myself
For giving in to what I want, never again
That feeling we felt
We called it love, you called it off
And I never been so mad at myself

I've got your melody in my head
Feels like I'm singing it wrong
Then again there's nothing worse
Than being addicted to a bad song
She's a fiend for attention
And I'm a guilty dealer
High for this feeling they call love

I'm so mad at myself
For giving in to what I want, never again
That feeling we felt
We called it love, you called it off
And I never been so mad at myself
So mad, so mad, oh.
So mad at myself.
So mad, so mad, oh.

Test me while you can, while you can test me
She said she likes the edge, but then she pushed me
You know how to make it hard, to walk away

I'm so mad at myself
For giving in to what I want, never again
That feeling we felt
We called it love, you called it off
And I never been so mad at myself
For giving in to what I want, never again
That feeling we felt
We called it love, you called it off
And I never been so mad at myself
So mad at myself


3. LIFE OF A NINE

Heart broken, throat is swollen
Street walking, loss of hope
Fresh wounds, old scars you've chosen
Thirsty for a taste of youth

She's a motherfuckin' five living the life of a nine
And thinking that she's a bad bitch, chick is a savage
Eatin' the bullshit of every player that's grabbing
I guess if you're in love with the streets
Then you'll die in the sheets
With the coke on your chest and his lips on your cheek

Play it up for me, cause no one here can see
All of your schemes so it's more like a dream
Whoa, ooh la la la
You can be all that you see when you lie to your mirror

(It's not the way to do it)

Can you hear the sound of your heartbeat bumpin' so loud
In his car when you're hitting the town, getting around
Sounds so empty, but you pop another pill so you won't feel guilty
You know the routine, cause when you get lit
Every guy is the man of your dreams
It's so surreal when VIP's on her knees

She's a motherfuckin' five, living the life of a nine
And caught up in the traffic of midnight madness
If only there was a way to let go of the passion
For her stiletto complex, in her trap-house fashion
Wanna get in the game, what is your name, wanna have fame
But in retrospect you're just like your mother
You'll never win, you'll never change

Play it up for me, cause no one here can see
All of your schemes so it's more like a dream
Whoa, ooh la la la
You can be all that you see when you lie to your mirror

Pretend that you live for this moment
Be sure how you live it is worth every breath
Pretend that you live for this moment
Be sure how you live it is worth every breath


4. THE LANGDON HOUSE

Coming out of my shell again
No one's there let's pretend to
See a girl and a boy standing next to me
And at this party I'll pretend
For a moment I just might have friends
The chimes of them dancing to break free
I've got them chained up loose so I can fit in
I said be silent no one can hear you
You feel like I did when no one comes near you
Cause they think that you're weird and you're stained
Like a carpet, the carpet your mom ruined making you pay

What did I do to deserve this?
I forget that it's all part of my imagination
I could actually pick and choose my loose ends
And tie a knot, but all I do is
Run and hide, it'll get ya boy
Run and hide, I was born unaware that
My whole life would be a war, so I battle myself until I
Run and hide, it'll get ya boy

Stupid is as stupid does
More like an offspring of stupid is and always will be mad at luck
But I just don't have it in my blood, blood runs deep
When you're growing up with blood dripping from your ugly mug
Cause Papa don't like you like Mama does, so give it up
For the guardian angel dust, sniff it up
Rub a little dirt in it boy and bare with me, just take a lead pipe into my kidney

It's such a problem when people come near you
It seems ironic that most people fear you
What a shame that you feel so insane, but the truth of the matter's
Your shadow is cold and afraid

Did I fail to mention, it's all part of my imagination
I could actually pick and choose my loose ends
And tie a knot, but all I do is
Run and hide, it'll get ya boy
Run and hide, all I need is a friend
My whole life has been a war, so I battle myself until I
Run and hide

One after one they'll all spin around
And one after one they'll all fall down from love
Nobody ever gave 'em enough

One after one they'll all come around
And one after one they'll all fall down from love
Somebody's gonna give you enough
Somebody better give you enough


5. LATE

Yeah I would wake up next to you if I could
And I would stare straight past them all to you
I could never say it like I sang it
Drunk talent cause we're fading
But I'll be, I'll be, I'll be the first to say

You could be my mistake-ake-ake
I know I want it but I can't stay-ay-ay
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
You could be my mistake-ake-ake
I know I want it but I can't stay-ay-ay
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
That it's a little too late, a little too late, a little too late, a little too late

And when the sun comes up again and we're gone
We'll remember every beautiful thing that, went wrong
I could never say it like I scream it
Drunk talent cause we're fading
But I'll be, I'll be, I'll be the first to say

That you could be my mistake-ake-ake
I know I want it but I can't stay-ay-ay
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
You could be my mistake-ake-ake
I know I want it but I can't stay-ay-ay
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
That it's a little too late, a little too late, a little too late

You could be my mistake-ake-ake
I know I want it but I can't stay-ay-ay
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
You could be my mistake-ake-ake
I know I want it but I can't stay-ay-ay
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
I can't stop thinking it, thinking it
You could be my mistake


6. OLD DENA (BY SCOUT)

Ooh kill 'em

Put the needle on the record.

Got a bunch of homies in Pasadena that we call the PHC. That sounds good. Everyday.

It's bad on the dark side.

Here we go again.

Pass it back and forth.

Peace.


7. STINGRAY AFFLICTION

Show me what you're worth
Get up
Facedown, thinking about
He's so hardcore when he's running his mouth
He's always gonna be that fucking guy
You got a few things bottled up
Jump on a couple bottles like double dutch
Jager got you faded when society's got you jaded
How do you expect to grow
When all you wanna do is break
It's time to let shit go
And let the chorus play

No I don't wanna be tough
I wanna make sure they can see me cry sure enough
Don't wanna bottle this up
The way you make me feel when you're around
Tough guy dies a little inside
This town might show no love
But kid you gotta wake up

This is the real world
And you're only hurting yourself
When you spend every waking moment
With your fingers crossed
I don't think you can afford
To set karma further in motion
Go ahead
No one cares
Talk shit you mean nothing
Talk shit you mean nothing

No I don't wanna be tough
I wanna make sure they can see me cry sure enough
Don't wanna bottle this up
The way you make me feel when you're around
Tough guy dies a little inside
This town might show no love
But no, I don't wanna be tough

Ask me what I see in you
I don't see nothing, I see right through
You're transparent I know you don't wanna hear it
And I don't wanna be the person to slip up and hurt your feelings
I guess they don't wanna say it to your face but I will cause somebody's gotta put you in your place
I'm not afraid to scream and shout
And f-f-f-freak out and throw my hands up
And let it out
Punk bitch walking tall like you got something to prove
Nah man, cause deep down you know it sucks to be you
Stingray Affliction
Making small stabs in passing
But the pain is bigger than it seems
Stop holding me under and let me breathe...
Just let me breathe
The pain is bigger than it seems
A tough guy dies a little inside
Just let me breathe
The pain is bigger than it seems
Stop holding me under and let me breathe


8. NEVER LOSE YOUR FLAMES

Riddle me this, I gotta figure it out
Are they laughing at me
Because I'm prone to fear and doubt
Am I messed up, am I loud
Well eat my dust that's all I am a speck out in the crowd
I'm trying to clean up the mess I made
But the towel I used to soak up my worry it just went up in flames
You see I got a conscience like gasoline
I could siphon shit out, fuck it and leave
But, I fuel the fire with everything they said it's stuck in my mind
You're better off dead

If you got the keys then start the car and
Drive as far as you can
If you got the blood then you got the heart to
Give yourself a chance
Seems like we've been so scarred
Some people call it art
I hope you make peace with your pain
And never lose your flames

You call yourself a doctor, you swear you got the cure
Prescribe yourself with medication when you're feeling insecure
I know the world is dark, but you've got the light
Even sitting in the closet chilling with the skeletons you fight
I guess you found the meaning of giving up on me
I'm not the person that you thought I was
I broke the ice I revealed the scandal
But the water's deeper than you're able to handle
Oh that's probably why you hit me twice
Said no son of mine, get out of my life
It's my fault it's what I deserve
I needed a blessing but I got a curse

If you got the keys then start the car and
Drive as far as you can
If you got the blood then you got the heart to
Give yourself a chance
Seems like we've been so scarred
Some people call it art
I hope you make peace with your pain
And never lose your flames

Misunderstood, I'm misunderstood
I will live to my fullest because I owned my name the best I could
Misunderstood, we are all misunderstood
Everybody own your name I wish you would, I wish you would

If you got the keys then start the car and
Drive as far as you can
If you got the blood then you got the heart to
Give yourself a chance
Seems like we've been so scarred
Some people call it art
I hope you make peace with your pain
And never lose your flames
Seems like we've been so scarred
Some people call it art
I hope you make peace with your pain
And never lose your flames


9. PERSONALITY CULT

Fuck the voice of a generation
I just wanna be who I am
No one can change or guide me
I'm content with where I stand
So fuck the voice of a generation
You can stand on your own two feet
Hooligans from across the nation
Sing my songs when you mob the street

This is who we are, we are
A product of…
This is who we are, we are
A product of war

In the grain of our skin, we think this is it
Portrayed by a stigma that won't let us out
By choice it's a sin, if not I'm just dead
Alive isn't free when your lies cost me this

Smooth talker and a heart breaker
But you are nothing but a cheap thinker
Buying them off for lower than you're worth

This is who we are (x3)
A product of war

I just wish that this itching I have
To be different somehow, would escape me
Cause all these obstacles make it difficult
When you're just trying to change me

At least when we stand together
I'm not the only soul trapped in limbo
By this breed of prima donnas

Smooth talker and a heart breaker
But you are nothing but a cheap thinker
Buying them off for lower than you're worth

This is who we are (x3)
A product of war

Why do they wanna make us conform
Worship their words, I'll admit that I'm sold but
The fact that you consider yourself a god
Is the very reason you should fall the fuck off

Smooth talker and a heart breaker
But you are nothing but a cheap thinker
Buying them off for lower than you're worth

This is who we are (x3)
A product of war


10. TEARS ON THE RUNWAY PT. 2

What if I was wrong, and jumped to conclusions
Cause the chance of losing you was all too dangerous
So I just assume that you're doing things before you get the chance
So I can leave and feel like I've got the upper hand
Guilty yeah, maybe I'm just scared to go all in
Never was much for the life of gambling
But you can't win if you don't play
If you don't play there's no shame in us
Let's call a spade a spade

I said I wouldn't let you down
But it's like we both have changed somehow
You've made a disease of this town
And you act like you don't care but you left

Your tears on the runway
You think you're running away
And you're leaving all your troubles behind
But I'm not going with you this time
I don't wanna try to pretend I'm somebody else
Take me as I am or be left alone
Tears on the runway, runaway
You know that you love the chase
Oh yeah, baby love
With your tears on the runway

This thing with us is flying south if you know what I mean
But I'm trying my best to keep you right here in my city
A wise woman said, I wish people weren't afraid of love
Then she packed her shit and she ran
Like a coward when the thunder struck

Things aren't always picture perfect
But picture us on top cause we're worth it
Or go and get your ticket, and grab your sweater
I used to live for the chase but now I know better

Tears on the runway
You think you're running away
And you're leaving all your troubles behind
But I'm not going with you this time
I don't wanna try and pretend I'm somebody else
Take me as I am or be left alone
Tears on the runway, runaway
You know that you love the chase

I love the chase, you know that I love the chase


11. THE SETTLEMENT

Until death, used to mean something more
Than a proverb framed on the walls of a broken home

Closed doors can only hide so much
Pacing through this hallway, I listen in disgust
As you divide my mind and force my years into minutes
Destroy the hands of time, the hands that made me whole

What if I become a silhouette of this very same thing
Then everything you taught me seems to start fading
Oh how am I now to survive as a heart divided
Between the very hands that made me whole

Did you even notice, all I wanted was more of your time
Wasted on hating, when love's what should've made you blind
Did you even notice, all I wanted was more of your time
Wasted on hating, when love's what should've made you blind

You can only forgive so much
Before you give up because there's no trust
At least you tried and that's just fine
But how the hell do I know I'm not next in line
It's not my fault, then why am I in the middle of this burning bridge

Tell me oh how am I now to survive as a heart divided
Between the very hands that made me whole
Did you even notice, all I wanted was more of your time
Wasted on hating, when love's what should've made you blind
Did you even notice, all I wanted was more of your time
Wasted on hating, when love's what should've made you blind

I am the one who suffers from your bullshit, I'm the one who suffers
My world divided, by the hands that made me whole


12. DISAPPEAR (REMEMBER WHEN)

Remember when I didn't need you
Well I need you now
To hold my head up high say it's all better child
Remember when

Some days I feel like a saint, I'm so alive
Some days I can't make any moves
It's like I have no spine
Can't do anything right
And when midnight comes I've run out of time to
Make some kind of difference
But I realize I constantly overlook the impact I've made
Maybe I'm longing to change my own face
To make you proud, I wanna make you proud
When you're looking down on me

My mind's wide open like starry skies
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here
I wanna disappear with you now

But I'm a selfish broken heart and how I got this far
Coping with the thought of holding you a minute longer in my arms is beyond me
I set you free, but I feel so guilty cause
I take every sunrise for granted
Sometimes I forget your voice I can't stand it
Am I wrong for moving on

A product of a free world
Take wing over the coast of a better day
I'm stuck in my dark days
But I can be stronger than you remember
We're coming up on December, but I'm not cold

My mind's wide open like starry skies
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here
I wanna disappear with you now

But I'm a selfish broken heart
I wanna see what you see
I wanna be where you are

My mind's wide open like starry skies
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here
I wanna disappear with you now

Remember when I didn't need you
Well I need you now
To hold my head up high say it's all better child
Remember when I was alone and crying out
You will be missed
But I know that you're all better now
(x4)