1. LIGHT YEARS AWAY: PART I (TIDES OF FATE)

(Instrumental)


2. LIGHT YEARS AWAY: PART II (SHADES OF HEAVEN)

The silent curtains of black are being
Drawn upon the shades of heaven
Your celestial body projected on the welkin
Of my dreams, are dreams meant to be broken?
Afraid to close my eyes, should I glimpse your skin
I may not be able to open them anew
To prevent this one dream from dying
So you may haunt my existence, so I may live in you

In my visions, the sun awakens
Heating your presence
After a warm night of shared romance
Laid aside, we start to glide
On the streams of bliss
Within the warm embrace of a kiss
Burning inside we collide
Our ashes drifting
In the fields, free as the wind
The night sky has this knack
Of letting you fly so high
Until the silent curtains are drawn back
Revealing the scars in a crimson sky


3. LIGHT YEARS AWAY: PART III (DISTANT ILLUSION)

Unfathomable strange paradox
Wanting to live in the lies of darkness
The cruel and double-edged sun unlocks
To a naked eye, all that's flawed, all that's flawless
Truth is a thing we are bound to search for
While reality is sometimes too much to afford
I should have foreseen the outcome
That loving but a myth that spawned from
A mirage in my desperate and sore heart
As distant as an illusion
From the start, it has torn me apart
Pushed my soul further into seclusion

Sick of loving you, craving for you, I'm
Sick of waiting and wishing for something
That seems destined to never happen
Sick of dying every morning
Sick of these chains, this heart prison

Sick of living in hopes of tomorrows
For you and me, hiding in the shadows
Sick of self-destructing forever
Sick of being light years away from her

Every dreadful morning, everyday
I collapse under an unbearable pain
That draws in when the stars all fade away
The sun reminds me of how far you are, and in the rain
I can finally hide the tears on my face
Seems like I've retained them for too long
Feels like I was born in the wrong place
Feels like here isn't where I belong

They try to take you away from me
And I am so confused
About reality, they say that I refuse
To admit that you're a lie, am I crazy?
Are you real
Or my imagination?
I reach to hold you into empty space
Only to wake up in this lonely place
Somehow, I don't wanna heal
Don't want no medication
Are you real
Or my imagination?
Tell me why I feel
So much pain and desolation
You soothe and crush my every bone
I hate to say it but leave me alone
You soothe and crush my every bone
I hate to say it but leave me alone

Sick of falling in ruin for something
That is destined to never happen
Sick of dying every morning
Sick of these chains, this heart prison

Sick of losing all hopes of tomorrows
For you and me, fading in the shadows
Sick of self-destructing forever
Sick of being light years away from her

Every dreadful morning, everyday
I collapsed under this unbearable pain
That draws in when the stars all fade away
The sun reminds me of how far you are, and in the rain
I can finally hide the tears on my face
Seems like I've retained them for too long
Feels like I was born in the wrong place
I know that here isn't where I belong


4. BLANK SHEET SYNDROME

Everything feels deaf now
I’m trying to touch the sound of expression
Everything so empty now
Searching the words for meanings that are gone

I can't even express myself
I wanna shout, though nothing's coming out
Emptiness surrounding me, entwined
To the limbs of my mind

Everything so pointless now
I'm pouring ink of nonsense, insanity
Everything looks blind now
Just trying to grasp a sight of my reality

Time sits idle in withering space
So tired of feeling so out of place
Another day, merging with a blank sheet
Obsessed with unrevealed feelings
That too many times I tried mending
Another night, rambling over a blank sheet

In the desert of a purposeless existence
Can't you hear the echo in the distance?
The whispering waves of an ocean of dust
Is what remains of the ones that were lost
Vanishing in sub-consciousness
It's not long before madness consumes us

Walking down a never-ending hall
A thousand empty frames
Hanging on the walls
Finding the door in the end
Won't fix what has once been broken
Won't fill the abyss in your soul
Won't fill this enigmatic hole

Time sits idle in withering space
So tired of feeling so out of place
Another day, merging with a blank sheet
Obsessed with unrevealed feelings
That too many times I tried mending
Another night, rambling over a blank sheet

I don't know where I'm going anymore
I don't know what I'm doing anymore
Don't know who I am anymore
Don't know why I'm here anymore
Don't know when I'll rise from the floor
Don't know how to open the door, home
Don't know if I exist anymore
This must be what they call the blank sheet syndrome

Don't know what I'm doing anymore
Don't know who I am anymore
Don't know if I exist anymore
This must be what they call the blank sheet syndrome

Cannot cut the string of time
When the hourglass flips, you can't hide
A thousand days, waiting for a single line
You keep falling while never landing
Higher and lower with the tide
A thousand nights, drifting out of your mind
Of your mind


5. SINKING (THE JOURNEY OF SIN PART I)

Out on the weeping oceans
Of this cold-hearted life
With blood-soaked emotions
Under the pouring clouds’ strife
Drifting far ashore I lie
In this mortuary barge
Fleeing my mind’s inner war
On the sea, so lonesome and large

There is no running away
When you play with death
It decays your soul
And poisons your very breath
And when the black tides split broad
When the sky seems to frown
Before such forces I’m awed
‘Til I begin to drown

Tracked down by the demons of my own
Losing grasp of reality
Slipping off the zone
In the whirlpool of my sins
Darkness has grown
And invaded me, infected me
While I was alone

Come with me, further in the depths
Of my hell, and have a seat please
Enjoy your stay, don’t be afraid
Of death, tonight she’s my guest
So be at ease

With all my broken promises, I’m a wreck
Sinking down, deeper in the abysses
Where I endlessly drown

In the coldest waters
My blazing spirit shatters
Like glass, falling apart
The ramparts of my heart
In the vacuum of time
There ain’t no turning back
I’ve crossed the impassable
Line, and my heart has turned
Black

I had promised myself
That I wouldn’t be like him
No matter what I’ve been through
But I couldn’t forgive him
Couldn’t help myself not to hate
The thought of his blood flooding into my veins
I could not handle the pain
Could not retain the anger that led me
To take the life of the one who gave it to me

And now I am sinking
In a journey through the waves
From the cradle to the grave
The waves of destiny
The black tide calling me
A journey through the waves
From the cradle to the grave


6. PART OF HER

She's a beautiful young girl
She dreams of traveling the world
She lives in a quiet town
She likes to spend her time
Lying on the lawn
Today she's been
Waiting for the sunrise
But the sky is grey
Just like the sadness in her eyes
For she's lost part of herself yesterday
Since then nothing seems to be okay
She didn't deserve to be the one
To be given such a burden
On her shoulders

And except for her prayers
No one will ever know
The secret she conceals
About a child that'll never grow
And she cannot erase this guilt she feels


7. GRAZED, HAUTED & BESMIRCHED

Something's silently sparkling
In that smoky water glass
A man's heart silently boiling
As he hands it to the young lass
A rather bitter taste
His arms around her waist
Confusion, daze and blurry eyes
Her aching brain, pain and raging skies

Unable to cry
Unable to shout

Shrivelling, clutching, choking feeling
Worse than fire, somehow colder

He left the room and left the poor girl
Crooked and shaking
In the corner of this befouled chamber
She could not move
Trembling like the teardrop in the
Corner of her eye
All senses lost, in this slow
Melting frost, and pitch-black shadow
Persecution of body and mind
Lethal poison, that fatally binds
Her heart with disturbed passion

Everlasting fears
Nightmares of unclear memories
Heart-deep scar that still bleeds
Tarnished and futile reveries
Behind her tainted eyes
Her sullied soul won't ever be the same
And she still watches the sunrise
But the colours now seem so tame

Uncurable misery
Stolen virginity
Unspoken tragedy
When the miracle of life is a fatality
When life and death take place inside a body

Numbness and dampened cries
Coming back on the sunrise
In the corner of a crime scene
In daybreak light, in betweens
Randomly searching the floor
For pieces of her now impure
Stripped and weakened body
Of her lost integrity

Grazed, scorched deep into her womb
Haunted by a death she cannot assume
Besmirched, for the rest of her life, feeling deprived
For a heinous act, to be forever connived


8. THE MEANING OF DYING (THE JOURNEY OF SIN PART II)

I can see, I can recall us when
Everything used to shine, the world had no end
The smell of the trees floating in the air
As we escaped in the sun, going nowhere
To the horizon and farter
Father…

Another lose-it-all
Another broken man
Who couldn't take the fall
Ends up in a bar
Screwing up his life
For whiskey in the jar

Mommy tell me why
Daddy's not the same
Mommy stop crying
You are not to blame

Always learning too soon
The meaning of dying
I lay awake each night wondering
Staring at the moon
Dreaming

Wide awake, I cannot close my eyes
There's nothing under the bed, I know
No monster in my closet, either
The monster is downstairs, yelling at her

Mother please tell me everything will be fine
Mother please wake up, open up your eyes
Give me just one last smile

Always learning too soon
The meaning of dying
I lay awake each night wondering
Staring at the moon
Dreaming

Daddy, what have you done?
I hate you, look what you've become

Give me back my father
The one who would never hurt me
Give me back my mother
'Cause I need her now, more than ever


9. DEHUMANIZE ME

It's killing me
From inside
Never felt so alone before
A cold that stole the light
I cannot hide
I don't feel so alive anymore
In this social sphere
Dilapidated
Despite this high pressure atmosphere

As I walked down
The shore of life
I realized
There's nowhere to hide
From this uncertain future
There's no escaping
Our twisted future

'Cause in the end
A needle
In my brain
And suddenly
Everything is vain

Dehumanize me
Annihilate me
Until I have lost
All of my sanity
“Desensationalize” me
Materialize me
Until there's nothing
Nothing left of me

As I walk in the Valley
Of the Shadow and Death
I fear no Evil
For You are with me
Your rod and Your staff
Will guide me, lead me
To another life

'Cause down here
A needle
In my brain
And suddenly
Everything is vain

Nothing is real
Anymore
I cannot feel
Down to the core
All is fake
But for God's sake
Where has gone
Our humanity
Our inner symphony
When none are one
And one is all

Engineered
All is material
Rebranded
In this laboratorial
Society
Where are we
When none are one
And one is all
We're no more
Individuals

Thoughts unspoken
Hopes stolen
Dreams broken
Love forsaken

In the fleaker that is life
When did we decide
To sacrifice
Our inner symphony