1. PERIODIC ANGUISH

Let the torture begin
As my existential form
Leaves its vessel
My body and soul, by my own hand
In my own mind, plagued by recurring thoughts
Aimed at my fragile psyche
Its purpose is to kill my will to live
A being who's identity is no mystery.
Now your in my head , Controlling my movements
And my thoughts, and I am completely unaware.
A dark road, a new beginning, a past I could not bare
A present unappealing, my future starts to fade
My stasis compromised.
This Growing depression is one ive never felt before.
My stasis compromised

Inches from the brink
Constantly barganing
With the voices
Inside.

The ones ive mistaken for my own conscience
In the past

I am now in control of this pathetic excuse of a man
To weak to ward off even the most effortless of commands
I choose to use his body as an instrument of torture and pain
On the loved ones he once took for granted
Slowly You'll start to wonder where you went wrong
Maybe you didn't praise him enough
Or you simply didn't care

Now your presence
Isn't the same
You've brought someone that
You belive
Can banish me
Undo the evil
That I have done
Unearth these vile seeds

Maybe now you'll understand when you look into my eyes and see pure evil

The little boy you loved and raised no longer resides here
Instead you see
A beast pulling on the reins

Now its time for you
To see the immense power that i have
Watch me turn this into a broken home

this is just the beginning
I hold the power of malevolence
The agenda of the damned
Serving the selfish demands
Of the all powerful serpent
I am his instrument
And now
Your son is mine !

#shred
In the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit
I banish you

My only purpose is
To infect destroy and kill

A malicious agent
Meant fester inside your body
Sneaking inside your sub conscience
Making you my slave
God forbid !
Should your vessel
No longer serve my purpose !


2. PERPETUAL HATE

Don't take me lightly

Because I am a force to be reckoned with

I ll do what ever it takes

Trade my blood for your penance.

I stand before you an empty shell of a man

Once the most compassionate of fiends

Now the most vile offender

Been taken advantage of

Excessively raped by the ones that I love

I lay alone contemplating

The trustees of my wealth

Once friends now forgotten

The best years of my life are gone

And nothing to show for it .

Absolutely nothing to show for it

In this moment of melancholy

I choose to indulge I choose to rise above

And seek the opiate

That will erase my pain and make my suffering go away

A vicious cycle gradually catching up to me

Destroying any chance i have at a normal existence

You took me lightly

Now I am the force that you reckoned with

I did whatever it took

Traded my blood for your penance.

Although that part I can bare

Spend the rest of my life in the gutter I don't care

Watching my peers pass me by

Ever progressing without me by there side

It eats me up inside

Then there's me too worn out from

The instant gratification

That has been the bane of my existence

Left in ruins by the shadows I called brothers

That's when you know

That that's when life becomes

Something you don't wanna be a part of

Because you will never escape human nature

For all the years I sacrificed and made myself your bitch

Gave you all my heart and soul pledged until my fucking grave

Now I plea to a false idol to grant to me the strength and malice

Of a viper stalking enemies