1. KINAESTHESIA

Madness come unto me
In my darkened xanadu
The stagnancy of shangri la
Had drifted into view

Frame by frame reality
Was skewing my perception
Til nothing of my past
Remained
The ultimate deception

Colliding with the present
With the future thrown away
Behind I saw the fading light
The final shards of yesterday

Damn this
Kinaesthesia
Constant stutter
In my muscles
Static in this time and space
Static for all time
Nowhere in the past or future
Can I now survive

Horizon to the left of me
A treadmill from the past
Slowly fade beyond me
To tomorrow they are cast

The shuddering accelerates
Ionic bonds shake loose
The coldest place is nowhere
Where I stay I can't break loose

Damn this
Kinaesthesia
A liquid flutter
In my muscles
Dissolving in this time and space
Fading for all time
Nowhere is my gaoler
It never sleeps
I will never die


2. LITTORIA

Where the ocean meets the shore
Two worlds mingle
The spray of the surf spitting
The coarseness of sand scratching
The plurality of your mind
Tearing your soul
In two

Clouds parting in the sky
Reveal a lustful moon
But in my mind the clouds are
Taking hold

Creatures of the shore
Take shelter in the sand
But the monsters of my mind
Anaesthetize
And steal command

Evolution robbed me
Exiled me to land
My mother ocean spurned me
And no longer knows my name

I choke upon the atmosphere
And struggle in the sea
I'm torn between two worlds
Neither of which nurtures me

Littoria
I ride the shores but nowhere I belong
Littoria
I gaze at the horizon
Turn and look upon the hill
Neither will embrace me
Since my birth I have been searching
And it seems I'm searching still

Littoria
I'm fading in the moonlight's pallid stare
Littoria
The stars and planets do not seem to care
I wade into the roaring sea
Await some god to carry me
Away from strangeness, apathy
My world awaits
My world
Littoria


3. GREY STAINS THE RAINBOW

Your scarlet tears congeal in pools
Around your road worn feet
Your golden aura dimmed and left you
On your own and incomplete
The rose now grows with spider veins
Blemishing your cheeks
The bile that chokes and gags you
Is the only green you've seen for weeks

Colours are mutated where the palette cannot reach
The grimy underbelly where the light cannot be leached
Hues are corpses in a world
Where shades of blackness swallow day
And grey has stained the rainbow
In a world where hope was ripped and torn away

The sky a constant charcoal
Blue is felt but never seen
And azure as sure as sickness
Feels as though it's never been
Violent is as close a colour as you'll ever know
And your spirit oozes like black ink upon the virgin snow

Colours are mutated where the palette cannot reach
The grimy underbelly where the light cannot be leached
Hues are corpses in a world
Where shades of blackness swallow day
And grey has stained the rainbow
In a world where hope was ripped and torn away


4. THE IMMORTALITY GENE

I remember that day
When I was seventeen
I'd lost my will to live
Life was just a rancid dream

As I swung from the noose
I could hear them scream
My neck was broken
Not for long it seemed

Set me free
These damned wounds always heal in me
Let me see
What's on the other side of life
I can't stand the misery

I remember that day
When I was twenty four
My father died
And I didn't want to live anymore

As I choked on the poison
I could hear them scream
My system shut down
Not for long it seemed

Set me free
These damned wounds always heal in me
Let me see
What's on the other side of life
I can't stand the misery

No one left but me
These damned wounds always heal in me
This desert was a sea
And these bones are all that's left
To witness my immortality


5. EPHEMERAL

Long after day retired
We saw st. elmo's fire
It soothed our sleeping souls
And took the cold away

A window to a world
Within the waters swirled
It called for us to come
And led us from the troubles of this place

We found a new enlightened race
An ethos we could all embrace

A perfect beauty in a fragile well
A fleeting universe, ephemeral
Our stay too short but now we have to tell
Returning here like being damned to hell

A perfect beauty in a fragile well
A fleeting universe, ephemeral
Our stay too short but now we have to tell
Returning here like being damned to hell

A perfect beauty in a fragile well
A fleeting universe, ephemeral
Could no longer stay here now the pond we see
Below its surface set us free


6. GENETIC MEMORY

The cells within our bodies
Are replaced each seven years
But a memory can last a thousand lifetimes
The itch below the surface
And the welling of our fears
Are the preface to an ancestral crime

There was a time
When I would sleep as soon as I hit the pillow
There was a time
When I knew not depression
A hateful wind has breeched my skin
And underneath it billows
It burns my soul
And leaves its sick impression

I never knew my father
But I'm sure he must be dead
I feel that empty feeling in my bones
A lot has changed these last few months
A war within my head
And raining from above like falling stones

The dreams come to me every night now
The masquerade conceals my wicked plans
Some spirit in the wind or a man within my mind
Whispers for me to descend the stairs

I dare to lift my mask and take a glance into the mirror
I see myself but see it isn’t me
Familiar yet unknown to me the man tips me a wink
Through centuries he sets me
Invites me to enjoy the show
I'm terrified yet mesmerised
I don't know what to think

The music gathers pace and the dancers gather 'round
Identities not known, nor inhibition
A frenzy in a heightened daze
An elevated toxic phase
A girl is separated and invited out for air

The scene is ended by a knife
A piercing, chilling scream
The curtain falls it is blood-red
And every morning say
I say it's just a dream

It changed one day, my mother died
To quell the grief I cleaned the memories from her attic
In my father's hand I found the note of suicide
Felt that distant evil voice call through like static

I read his note and wiped away my tears
Those very dreams were also his
They plagued his father and grandfather too
So many generations driven by one twisted act
A murder echoes generations through

And I glance into the mirror
And I see it isn’t me
An evil apparition from genetic memory
I take a knife to take a life
I struggle with the wrong and right
Within I am still there
And driven by despair
If I'm to take a life it must be me


7. HOSTILE SKY

Sheltering my family
Beneath a hostile sky
The stars looked ever colder
And I knew that we would die

When they landed I could see
They moved like you or I
They hunted all our neighbours
All I could do was cry

Invasion unforeseen
The ending of our dream
My grief and fear unite
These demons end my race tonight

Hiding I could see it all
Herded in, their bodies fall
One by one our species dies
Why can't these creatures sympathise?

My heart is crying out in pain
How many more here still remain?
I see no point in moving on
So many of my friends are gone

Soldiers in a deadly fan
Spread across the blood soaked ground
Ignoring pleas for mercy
A sacrificial lamb

Invasion unforeseen
The ending of our dream
My grief and fear unite
These demons end my race tonight

My heart is crying out in pain
I am the last one to remain
I see no point in moving on
My will to live is gone

They celebrate their vicious deeds
Our planet's grim rebirth
Before I die I hear them say
They claim this land for earth


8. FEVERED TONGUE

You scorch the earth with your caustic stare
Your baited children dying in your lair
They're mesmerized, a glazed look in their eyes
They sit in peace and wait for their demise

Beware the man with the fevered tongue
His words form evil melodies, but must remain
Unsung
He'll give you fouled breath from his toxic lung
He'll poison you
And then watch you die
You've come to die

Behold, I am the light
I am your rock, your shepherd
I'll protect you in the night

Beware the sins of people
They are the lost ones, hell's children
The souls of evil deeds

We are all embryos, our lives not yet begun
When you escape this womb then you and god
Will join as one
And with my glory bind
So the damned are left behind
Yes the death of human kind will see our birth

We have the power
We shall destroy the world
Of life we'll cleanse the planet
Of pain we'll free our souls

He lost a mind with an acrid word
One lost soul found and found his voice
Absurd
Those mesmerized were soon to find their way
And murder the man who had let them all
Astray

He was the man with the fevered tongue
And by this wretched organ from an oak tree
He was hung
His plots unfinished his twisted will undone
They foiled him
He was forced to die
No god was seen to cry


9. NEANDERTHAL WITHIN

Look upon his furrowed brow
Cast a shadow in his eyes
A long gone age creeping back
The time recedes but still survives

Head spins like a carousel
No memory of the recent past
Metamorphosis begins
This blurry sight is now his last

Now it belongs to neanderthal within

A Pleistocene figure in the future's recent past
Neanderthal man in a modern man's cast
Survives
True identity revealed, mind thrown back
Falling through the epochs
See them dying

Neanderthal within
Prehistory survives
None so cursed to sin
Falling through time
Calling from the past
The embryo begins
Though the man could never find
The placenta in his mind

Captured in the name of science
Neanderthal can't understand
Standing strongly in defiance
Locked up strongly in demand

Experimental blueprint
Laboratory his home
Depression grips his soul
He must escape the into the cold

Running through the forest
His spirit calls him home
A cave is in the distance
No longer he will roam

His long lost clan of countless years
Within the fire now appears
A restless spirit from the past
Into the fire free at last

Look upon his furrowed brow
Cast a shadow in his eyes
A long gone age creeping back
The time recedes but still survives

Head spins like a carousel
No memory of the recent past
Metamorphosis begins
This blurry sight is now his last

A Pleistocene figure trapped within the past
A modern man's soul in neanderthal cast
Must die
True identity revealed, soul was never born
Waken the memories
The future dies


10. GHOSTS IN FLESH

A house alone
Stark in abandonment
Decaying memories
No more a home

A fleet of ships
Sent to survey new worlds
Sunken in brine
No more to roam

And they say all our lives to impress
Live to win, live to conquer, to transgress
But as we pace back and forth
Undermining our thoughts
Is the fear that all we are, all we will be
Are ghosts in flesh

Fight each day
Feed the banking machine
To keep the kids fed
To keep the house clean
Cannot open your eyes
To the planet's demise
Have a mortgage to pay
While our morals decay

But the hollowness inside
Plastered over with a thin veil of pride
Something in there has died
Just a beating heart and a toxic mind
But with nothing else are we really alive?

When we crowned ourselves the masters of the earth
Was it really just a slow death and not a rebirth?
With economies our gods
Has the bottom line twisted every mind
And the ghosts in flesh left a dead world behind?


11. IRRINJA

An elder's nostrils flare
As quiet calm gives way to chill laden breeze
Sand dances in harsh trances
Round the bases of acacia trees
A steely glare burns beacon like
From deep within the butcherbird's eyes
Whilst a tribesman glides unnoticed
To the place where the horizon meets the skies

The sparks within the campfire rise and die
As willy willies swirl and howl

And woman folk cling grimly to their babies
They fear something's on the prowl
A bitter evil lurks in the parched bed
Of this so vast and ancient sea
A dark-skinned evil devil dog
A vessel for lycanthropy

Devil dance invokes the sand
The elders tense with fear
The memories of their childhoods tell them
The dog irrinja soon be here

The winds howl fierce toward them
As dust devils rob the night time sky of stars
The fire is extinguished and the tribe escapes
The cave seems much too far
The dingoes cower in their lairs
This cry they hear is not from one of them
They smell a distant evil well of darkness
From which terror soon will stem

The morning comes, the wind has gone
And the young ones' spirits lift them into song
The sun burns hot and bakes the land
Oblivious to what lay beneath the sand

And that day brings much rejoicing
They feel the worst is done
But the elders tremble grimly
As a silhouette flies from the sun

Hours pass and soon the sky goes dark
The bird unmoving in the tree
The deathly silence taunts them
'til the firelight is all they hear and see
Their breath hangs still in misty clouds
A chill grips them so they cannot speak
And terror rips right through them
As the butcherbird unleashes with its shriek

Devil dance invokes the sands
The elders tense with fear
The memories of their childhoods warn them
The dog Irrinja son be here

Morning breaks the old man rubs his eyes
He peers around and sees the bleeding sands
The bone and sinew scattered
Remnants of his dear departed clan

The butcherbird flies trailing some intestine
From its sharp ungodly bill
And a baby's head stares blankly
The last witness to a cruel and bloody kill